The Addicts' Lounge IV - fast times at Ridgemont, high - General

Haven't had the urge to smoke much the past few days. Just want coffee and to relax and shit. I feel good every hour or so, but then an hour later anxiety returns, and then I kick it out and so repeats the process...

[QUOTE=MrJazzy;51765862]my firecracker was nice, got me reasonably high for hours, I smoked some too though because it wasn't as great as I would have wanted, probably because I used weed instead of hashish, hashish seems to be more better for firecrackers [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] good job, just eat something and drink some water[/QUOTE] hash is so much easier to deal with, when ingesting cannabis orally. has someone saved my old hash-coffee recipe in here?

[QUOTE=Simples;51755257]I highly recommend Modafinil - it's very subtle but has made me enjoy my degree again. I've fallen in love with writing essays, I need to consume knowledge. [editline]31st January 2017[/editline] Don't get sidetracked though, or you'll end up with a clean house[/QUOTE] pffft it's all that's really readily available in this country i hate not being american and not growing up on a heavy amphetamine prescription from an early age lol [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] best feeling in the world is a combined stim come-up and stone-on whilst in the shower the numbest and most pleasant tingling in the world

[QUOTE=Hamsteronfire;51766682]pffft it's all that's really readily available in this country i hate not being american and not growing up on a heavy amphetamine prescription from an early age lol [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] best feeling in the world is a combined stim come-up and stone-on whilst in the shower the numbest and most pleasant tingling in the world[/QUOTE] Like waves of an ocean of pleasantness emerging from within you :feelsgoodman:

Has anyone ever smoked changa before? What's it like to smoke, and what is the experience itself like? Just normal DMT?

[QUOTE=Wealth + Taste;51767172]Has anyone ever smoked changa before? What's it like to smoke, and what is the experience itself like? Just normal DMT?[/QUOTE] the changa I smoked was dmt melted into weed as a leftover from a breakthrough attempt, so not true changa by any means, but for me it was a more intense weed high with some of the usual trappings of psychedelia: more intense colors, moving walls, some geometric patterns both eyes open and closed. i had greater feelings of euphoria, as well, and felt much lighter than i normally do after smoking some regular ganja. iirc my face felt tighter to my skull as well. smoking wise, it was harsher than regular bud but it wasn't too bad, though i kind of like that harshness so take that into account.

Anyone ever buy/use caffeine pills? Considering buying [url=https://www.amazon.com/ProLab-Caffeine-Maximum-Potency-100-Count/dp/B0011865IQ?th=1]these[/url] in order to cut out the time/money/stomach problems that go along with coffee, but still unsure. Also got a pill of Ritalin (given to me as Addy, but quick search makes me pretty sure it is actually Ritalin). Anyone have experience with it?

dude bruh this addy is fuckin top shelf shit bruh [t]https://thump-images.vice.com/images/articles/meta/2016/04/21/self-awareness-and-the-edm-bro-a-coachella-study-1461254605.jpg?crop=0.94517029592406xw:1xh;center,top&resize=1000:*&output-quality=75[/t] the dealer that sold it to you [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] probably listens to trap too [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] just order armodafinil, caffeine is the worst stimulant ever

Not using caffeine for recreation though, I take it every day to the point where I feel shitty if I don't. Also as far as the Ritalin, anyone have any advice on removing the coating on one of [url=https://www.drugs.com/imprints/alza-36-8537.html]these[/url] for insufflation?

not worth it, just sell it on as adderall to some dumb kid and buy some actual adderall or dexedrine (better) [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] concerta's one of the worst extended-release formulations of methylphenidate [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] then just stop taking caffeine then, simple [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] i need a cigarette i am both bankrupt and dankrupt

[QUOTE=matt000024;51767386]Not using caffeine for recreation though, I take it every day to the point where I feel shitty if I don't. Also as far as the Ritalin, anyone have any advice on removing the coating on one of [url=https://www.drugs.com/imprints/alza-36-8537.html]these[/url] for insufflation?[/QUOTE] Those have a really complicated extended-release mechanism inside, not worth the effort

oh well, didn't even pay for it so not too worried. also i don't see why i'd stop using caffeine when it really only has positive effects on me.

you know what else has positive effects and isn't physically addictive? [t]https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/4/44/D-amphetamine.svg/2000px-D-amphetamine.svg.png[/t]

ban assault weed and legalize recreational marriage and same sex rifles

I'm working as a proxy right now, but hearing about this really choked me up. I can relate to what this man is saying so badly and I've seen this happen from the youngsters perspective. [quote=Old DD user] So its been a few months since working at the rehab with the teens. We get kids from 13-18 yrs old, using drugs ranging from just weed to heroin IV users. When I first started I was terrified about how I would be able to connect to the youth, or rather how I would deal with kids that had problems and shit like that. In the end I loved it, I love being able to chill and talk real talk to the kids about life and shit to hopefully get their shit together and survive the real world. Sure I get kids that just don't care and openly admit to planning on using as soon as they leave, but that doesn't mean we can't encourage them to avoid dealing, gang banging, or at the very least avoid the harder drugs. Anyway as time went on kids come and go, depending on their planned program depends on how long they stayed at the facility. The better behaved you are the sooner you get out, the more of an asshole you are the longer your stay is, or you get thrown out with a negative report. Obvi some kids are forced into the program to avoid other charges against them, school sent them there, or parents want their kids to get help/clean, so you can imagine how this skews their motivation to actually stay sober. So it's a challenge to probe the kids to show them that getting high now isn't such a good idea, and that they should get sober to get a job, finish school, support their family (in the tough cases), and be good kids or siblings for their fam. Ok so with that groundwork laid out, you should have an idea of the population I worked with, but that's not what this is about. It's really about how I've grown to care about the kids. I've never had a younger sibling so I'm kinda new to the whole guidance thing. As time went on though there have been a few kids that really just tugged on those heart strings where I am filled with the feeling with "god please help these kids do well, they are fucking good people and deserve a good life." Like, I don't know how else to describe it besides that I feel like the guy from Catcher in the Rye. I want to so desperately "save" these kids from themselves or the world, to show them the way to success and to keep them on track. Some kids were dealt some of the shittiest hands imaginable and they still have their moments of kindness, genuine fun and enjoyment, and openness to others. Ok, so I care about the kids, seems rational, I spend many hours with them, shooting the shit, talking real talk, laughing at silly inside jokes (lol and theres a ton of em for each kid) and being like a chill older brother to them. But the part that kills me is how I'm forbidden to contact the kids once they are out of the program. I get it, confidentiality is number 1 with such a vulnerable population like teens, and I get it, being of the opposite sex people assume shit these days that something will go wrong if a worker contacts a kid outside of the program. I totally get it, but its not like that, I want to sponsor these kids. I want to drive them to AA, NA, HA, whateverA, meetings to make sure they stay clean. I want to be there if they have tough times with their parents and don't know how to communicate their feelings to them and others. I want them to do fucking well man, they're fucking human beings and they have that sparkle in their eye just like everyone else. Which brings me to the part that has been mindfucking me. There's this one client who I really used to hate at first. They refused to follow the rules, openly disrespected me and other staff, and just overall did shit that wasn't following the program. As time went on though we warmed up to each other. When I was hanging out with the more cooperative clients, they would come over and listen in the background, slowly chiming in more and more to our conversation. It showed that they wanted to be a part of the relationship, they wanted to be part of the group, if anything just wanted to be a part of A group. I realized that they just wanted to be close to other people but was just triggered by certain things that made them shutdown entirely and isolate themself. As time went on I picked up on it, so I tried a much more sensitive approach to get them to follow the rules, and sometimes it worked sometimes it didn't, but it was progress nonetheless. So when they realized that I was willing to work with them, they started to warm up to me more and amazingly started to open up about their personal life and issues. When I got insight as to why they was acting they way they was it really hit my heart hard. It was just a misunderstood person with a shitty past, a past that forced them to use shitty coping skills just to survive emotionally, which in turn lead to the drug usage. What really pissed me off was how other co workers talked mad shit about the client, when they had no idea why they were acting that way, and showed that my co workers just didn't even try to understand the client. Naturally at this point the client sticks to me and my other good coworkers like glue because they were able to figure out how to open up their feelings and work on them. They really cared about me and my fellow workers and it just fucking melted my heart to see such a transformation. When some of the clients leave they make the staff that they like letters, basically goodbye letters thanking them for the fun times and help they received. Us staff also write some to them if we really like them and encourage them to attend meetings, help, support, whatever it takes to keep them sober and fix whatever problems they have in the real world. With that I move on to my last paragraph about the client. I am truly scared and worried about this client going back into the real world. Words cannot express how much I hope for them to do well out there, because I know the circumstances they are going back into. This client had the biggest smile when they left and the fucking sparkle of that moment really scares me, because I'm terrified it will be extinguished forever. We have had client's die after leaving the facility from overdoses, gang violence, you name it. I haven't been around long enough to really see some one go out there, die, and me be devastated about it, but now that moment has come. I'm terrified of looking up an obituary and seeing their name on the list. They were such a good person with real aspirations to better themself, yet it is so easily possible for the weight of the world to just fucking destroy them, no mercy, no nothing, like their life just didn't matter. The not knowing about them is killing me, because we can't keep any type of contact with them after they complete the program. I want to rip this redtape so fucking bad, but I don't want to risk my future of helping other people. It fucking sucks not knowing if someone you genuinely care about is ok out there. Fuck. I fucking had a dream that they came back to the facility all fucked up, like scared, sitting in a blanket like they were traumatized and me asking "omg 'blank' are you ok? What happened?" only for them to say repeatedly "im so scared, crunch, im so fucking scared." It fucked me up. I just don't know how to really deal with this emotion at the moment. Maybe time will help, and there is a chance that the client comes back to the facility later in the year (its this sort of graduation thing they do, if the client stays sober outside, they get invited to this celebration and the come back to say hi to us again and talk to newer kids for motivation). I hope to god they come back, or hell that I'm still working there to see it (the pay is ass, no room to move up and shit, not a place to run a career tbh). But yeah, I've been struggling with this and really wanted to vent. Thank you for reading. [/quote]

[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nliMBB0s8v4[/media] dats some seriously dank shit mang

[QUOTE=Hamsteronfire;51767464]you know what else has positive effects and isn't physically addictive? [t]https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/4/44/D-amphetamine.svg/2000px-D-amphetamine.svg.png[/t][/QUOTE] Yeah, but it's not nearly as cheap or easy to find. Like if I'm nearly any place I can usually get a cup of coffee to start my day.

[QUOTE=Hamsteronfire;51767395] i need a cigarette i am both bankrupt and dankrupt[/QUOTE] literal hell

eyes are drifting, body is heavy, breath is getting shallow, fuck the amphetamines are wearing off and I want more. I don't usually think about redosing to keep it going but these last two times I've had a strong urge to do more. is it possible to even have a healthy relationship to stimulants? I've had one I'd consider healthy for a month where I've only taken it during the weekends but I notice my use is growing bigger. first no redoses, then I began with redoses and now I've taken it a day I shouldn't have taken it. I crash so much harder now that I've begun redosing but it's soo worth it. feels bloody amazing once the second dose kicks in since I don't space it out that much. too bad it also feels so good that I don't wanna come back down so its very tempting to just speed all day all night. ... which I won't do since I respect my body. not sure if I could manage a binge without feeling uncomfortable, I always get a nasty bodyload while speeding which gets progressively worse as time goes by. could just be me coming down but eh. don't suppose there is a way to make the comedown better? I drink and eat like I should while speeding and never skip out on sleep. [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] I'm dankrupt too :( the one thing I miss the most from living at home is how much money I had. I could buy all the drugs I wanted, whenever I wanted. with how expensive drugs are here in Norway this is no longer true, sad life

[QUOTE=PredGD;51771856]eyes are drifting, body is heavy, breath is getting shallow, fuck the amphetamines are wearing off and I want more. I don't usually think about redosing to keep it going but these last two times I've had a strong urge to do more. is it possible to even have a healthy relationship to stimulants? I've had one I'd consider healthy for a month where I've only taken it during the weekends but I notice my use is growing bigger. first no redoses, then I began with redoses and now I've taken it a day I shouldn't have taken it. I crash so much harder now that I've begun redosing but it's soo worth it. feels bloody amazing once the second dose kicks in since I don't space it out that much. too bad it also feels so good that I don't wanna come back down so its very tempting to just speed all day all night. ... which I won't do since I respect my body. not sure if I could manage a binge without feeling uncomfortable, I always get a nasty bodyload while speeding which gets progressively worse as time goes by. could just be me coming down but eh. don't suppose there is a way to make the comedown better? I drink and eat like I should while speeding and never skip out on sleep. [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] I'm dankrupt too :( the one thing I miss the most from living at home is how much money I had. I could buy all the drugs I wanted, whenever I wanted. with how expensive drugs are here in Norway this is no longer true, sad life[/QUOTE] Why would anybody even want to do stimulants.. they only make you feel like trash after the initial euphoria, then drug seeking behavior kicks in.

[QUOTE=chernisreal?;51772078]Why would anybody even want to do stimulants.. they only make you feel like trash after the initial euphoria, then drug seeking behavior kicks in.[/QUOTE] I don't usually hear your stance on stimulants. having only tried amphetamine, methylphenidate, nicotine and caffeine myself, are you thinking of some other stimulant? to me, amphetamine in particular is one of those drugs that are so good to take I rarely find a reason not to. recreational doses on the low end provide a sweet high with increased focus and enjoyment that lasts around 4-6 hours (orally) with a gradual and comfortable decline back to being sober once it wears off. barely any comedown I find. higher recreational doses are blissful, euphoric and just awesome. music is amazing, everything is fun to do and doing pretty much anything makes me feel so accomplished. it lasts roughly the same time as a lower dose if not longer, and it can last up to twice as long if you add a little redose 3-4 hours into the first dose (8-10 hours). the comedown is awful though. that's why I do amphetamine at least. its the only drug I've tried that provides a high so good that it's hard to resist. its the only drug I have to limit or else it'll get out of hand fast [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] the best part is how it turns stuff you don't wanna do into stuff you wanna do

Been waiting three days for this stupid cunt of a friend of a friend to return with hash for money I gave him to buy it, it's pissing me off. I passed out on the couch today listening to russian folk music while drinking and woke up first now, everything is going wrong and I have no proper dinner. Worst friday ever. [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] My emotional state is a downwards spiral at the moment. I realized how god damn little I can count on my stupid "friends" and got reminded of how shit living generally is. My dad offered me to come to his place and watch TV with him and his girlfriend but I am reaching a point where I just don't want to socialize. I disconnected from both Discord and Teamspeak and I am thinking of just getting banned from there and deleting my friends phone numbers so I can't get in contact with them. This is dumb, this is fucking dumb. Honestly thinking of dialing the danish equivalent of 911 and spending the night on a mental ward, fucked up on benzodiazepines. My new apartment conveniently has no pipes or hooks in the roof so I can't lose control and do something stupid to myself that way. Makes me feel at least the tiniest bit safer. [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] I want to go to that middlemans house and punch the fucking money back out of him

crazy how much weight weed loses after its been vaped. my 13-14g of weed has become only 6g of vaped weed. [editline]fake[/editline] feels like I've ruined a lot of games for myself because of speed. they're so boring now that I've been exclusively playing them while stimmed

Love this stuff, tracking down his address, readying a flower and a box of chocolates and kindly getting my cash returned with completely peaceful and happy nonviolent methods. Edit: Removed possibly incriminating stuff.

A couple friends went to a loud house show while on 450 ug of lsd each, one of whom is tripping for the first time How do I calmly tell them that this is a terrible idea lol

Does the grinder interfere on rolling up weed? I've never learned to roll and I think my grinder might be helping me to not roll properly, it's a plastic one

[QUOTE=jp_rsardeto;51773618]Does the grinder interfere on rolling up weed? I've never learned to roll and I think my grinder might be helping me to not roll properly, it's a plastic one[/QUOTE] Uh, assuming it grinds the weed up enough, it shouldn't.

[QUOTE=ZenX2;51767420]Those have a really complicated extended-release mechanism inside, not worth the effort[/QUOTE] wrong, very much worth the effort. Cut it into four pieces like (-)(-)(-)(-) and eat them all and it will be instant release. Or you can go through the effort of removing the coating and separating the Ritalin from the spongey shit and put that under your tongue. If you have some kind of fine grain grinder you may be able to make it snortable but I find it impossible. [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] [QUOTE=PredGD;51772161]I don't usually hear your stance on stimulants. having only tried amphetamine, methylphenidate, nicotine and caffeine myself, are you thinking of some other stimulant? to me, amphetamine in particular is one of those drugs that are so good to take I rarely find a reason not to. recreational doses on the low end provide a sweet high with increased focus and enjoyment that lasts around 4-6 hours (orally) with a gradual and comfortable decline back to being sober once it wears off. barely any comedown I find. higher recreational doses are blissful, euphoric and just awesome. music is amazing, everything is fun to do and doing pretty much anything makes me feel so accomplished. it lasts roughly the same time as a lower dose if not longer, and it can last up to twice as long if you add a little redose 3-4 hours into the first dose (8-10 hours). the comedown is awful though. that's why I do amphetamine at least. its the only drug I've tried that provides a high so good that it's hard to resist. its the only drug I have to limit or else it'll get out of hand fast [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] the best part is how it turns stuff you don't wanna do into stuff you wanna do[/QUOTE] fuck I wish I could find adderall [editline]3rd February 2017[/editline] so will railing 50mg of MDMA wreck my tolerance for the next time I do it? like tomorrow night. or is it just bad for you

Getting to a certain point where it is perfection but not so much that you spin with alcohol is almost an art. Still experiment with it whenever I drink once or twice a month. Mixing it with weed and having it come out awesome without spins is even more difficult.

a day ago i was walking home from a friends place after smoking 4 blunts, still having not came down yet, and this was during the day. i usually dont get high during the day, only mostly at night. so i was walking down my shitty road to my home, until something struck me hella hard: everything looked so beautiful. everything looked so sharp, clear, defined, and high definition. everything was there and it all had a purpose, a purpose to just be. i then realized that the trees around me do so much for the environment and i should be grateful they are even here. anyway thats how i learned to never litter, even a little bit