Now that I think about it I'm kind of the same. Though I'm not really anxious, I just think about nonsense incessantly and it gets in the way of everything else. Like I remember in class once I was thinking about something unrelated until I noticed I had to pay attention. Then I started laying out reasons for listening in my head which caused me to not listen. Then I decided to try and block off all thought so I could actually listen. Which meant I wasn't taking anything in, because I shut myself off. Then I started thinking about how counter productive that was. I gave up on learning anything.
[editline]19th April 2013[/editline]
[QUOTE=Raijin;40337954]seriously? fucking [i]grenades?[/i] are we greece now?[/QUOTE]
I take offence.
A couple huge problems I have are that I suck at deciding on stuff and I'll worry about stupid shit. Not being able to decided can range in importance from what I want for dinner to what career I want when I'm older. Then the whole worrying thing is one of the reasons I'm always posting my drama in here about my ex.
This is reminding me that I finally found a new psychiatrist after my old one dropped my insurance. It took about 4 months of searching and I finally got an appointment with someone who would actually take my insurance.
Then the day before (the appointment was supposed to be yesterday) that one cancelled my appointment and told me I wouldn't be able to schedule another one until May 28th.
Luckily I'm pretty sure I've found another one who I can see on (I think) May 8th, though at this point I'm not holding my breath.
[QUOTE=Teto;40338008]I take offence.[/QUOTE]
sorry :(
[QUOTE=Raijin;40338228]sorry :([/QUOTE]
(jk, not really Greek)
I'm not sure if anyone still has the flag thing but apparently mine still says Greece. How do I get to see flags anyway?
[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;40338137]though at this point I'm not holding my breath.[/QUOTE]
Your avatar fits.
[QUOTE=Teto;40338305]How do I get to see flags anyway?
Your avatar fits.[/QUOTE]
Garry discontinued flagdog because he coded it badly and was tired of complaints.
Had my first "what the hell" moment on my motorcycle today. Coming off of the highway, slowed down to the offramp limit (80kph), car coming up behind me, 60kph zone coming up, kept the speed up for as long as possible, but I hate going over the limit so even though the car was pretty much right behind me I started to slow down. They got even closer like most cars usually do, then they just didn't slow down and overtook me in the same lane. First time I've used the horn as well.
About twenty seconds later I got to a set of lights just as they turned green and overtook the car again because I didn't have to slow down. I hope (s)he felt foolish after that.
On topic: I really should go to see a psychiatrist. At the very least to be told I'm normal. I've been thinking I should do it for a while, actually. Probably will never get around to it.
[QUOTE=Agent766;40338047]A couple huge problems I have are that I suck at deciding on stuff and I'll worry about stupid shit. Not being able to decided can range in importance from what I want for dinner to what career I want when I'm older. Then the whole worrying thing is one of the reasons I'm always posting my drama in here about my ex.[/QUOTE]
I have exactly this among many other things. I know i have anxiety problems but i have this weird negative attachment to therapists. I did get tested a bit ago at my insistence for ADD, but maybe i'm like you and my main problem is centrally just my crippling anxiety.
The people at my uni, now that i think of it, i could talk to them about it and they can't prescribe me drugs so maybe i'll talk to them.
Now that you guys mention it I might have a massive anxiety problem.
Is being scared of strangers in this same vein? Like, not wanting to buy something at a store because an employee might talk to you? Or panicking when they're out of the usual thing at McDonalds and I have to think of something else to order? I can never decide what to have for breakfast either. I usually just don't eat it if there isn't leftovers. And going to parties / movies / things even with people I know really well I always get anxious before hand as well.
I never really thought I would have anxiety problems because I've done acting performances and debating etc. in front of audiences from 10 - several hundred. So I always figured I probably couldn't have it whenever someone described symptoms of anxiety that I also had.
Be my pre-psychiatrist psychiatrist.
Yeah, i have that but to a much worse degree where half of the time i won't even bother doing things to avoid people potentially judging me. I won't go back to a store within the same hour or so after just going because i think the workers will be thinking things like "what is HE doing back?". I'm absolutely terrible at decision making. I always overthink every aspect of quite literally everything and usually talk myself out of going to places/doing things solely because i'm afraid people will look at me weird.
I spent mostly my whole life trying to stay as invisible as i possibly can for the bulk of my time.
And like you, people would think i'm not anxious because i was known in highschool for my very entertaining debates and presentations but that was only because it was the only way i could express myself at the time since they were forced and HAD to be done.
It's all irrational.
[editline]19th April 2013[/editline]
not to mention my social awkwardness. I don't mean just "OH GOSH I'M SO AWKWARD!" social awkward that teenage girls talk about i mean when talking to you for the very first time i'm visibly uncomfortable usually and will freeze up at times unless i know something about you i can go off on. There are times where i've been able to meet someone and immediately shoot it off with them because i'll notice something like an obscure video game logo pin they have because i've taught myself how to people watch quite effectively and look for these such details. But primarily i'm just completely out of my element in many social situations. Once again though if they're forced i can come across as even outgoing.
Hm. Sounds like you have it worse than me but I dunno by how much.
[editline]Completely relate with the idea of avoiding doing things that I think will make people judge me. I wouldn't even go back to the store on the same day. And the aisle with the deodorant at the shopping centre is my worst enemy because it has all the condoms, weird natural Viagra stuff etc in it, I look up exactly what I am going to buy on the internet and if I can't find it when I get there in a few seconds I leave before someone else can walk into the aisle. It's even worse when I actually am buying condoms.
I'm always paranoid about people looking at me weird. If I see someone doing it I pull out my phone to use as a mirror to make sure there isn't anything wrong with my face/clothes (whilst pretending to text). I also won't sit on bus seats that have people in front or behind them unless I absolutely have to.
My school stuff wasn't forced though, I did musicals (I never sung don't worry, people's ears are safe) and inter-school debating, all extra curricular stuff and I chose drama as a subject. Although afterwards I always thought "why the hell did I do that?" I can't improvise though. I will not do a performance if I haven't practiced it within an inch of it's life.
As for social situations it's again similar. I used to lock up when new people started talking to me. I once even refused to shake someone's hand because I thought they were making fun of me (I don't even know how I thought it, they were literally just being nice). Now I have a series of stories that I pretty much repeat to everyone at parties and things. Although that freaks me out as well because I'm kinda scared I will tell the same story to someone who's already heard it. When I'm telling the stories I go and keep going until I run out. When I run out and have nothing else to say I have nothing else to give and usually just sit there hoping they'll leave. Emergencies will result in me forcing DayZ into the conversation, I can keep talking about that for a verrryyyy longgg time.[/editline]
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Oh dear. Reading all this again I don't know why I thought that everyone else probably does the same thing... Some of the stuff I do is just weird.
Problem is now I would worry way too much about acting on changing all this with psychiatric appointments. I wouldn't be able to tell anyone what I was doing either. Plus, I've survived this long like this, I'll be able to keep going fine (I always tell myself that though).
[editline]19th April 2013[/editline]
-snip-
just got back from my grandfathers funeral
was about as sad as i expected it to be
[QUOTE=mysteryman;40338892]Yeah, i have that but to a much worse degree where half of the time i won't even bother doing things to avoid people potentially judging me. I won't go back to a store within the same hour or so after just going because i think the workers will be thinking things like "what is HE doing back?". I'm absolutely terrible at decision making. I always overthink every aspect of quite literally everything and usually talk myself out of going to places/doing things solely because i'm afraid people will look at me weird.
I spent mostly my whole life trying to stay as invisible as i possibly can for the bulk of my time.
And like you, people would think i'm not anxious because i was known in highschool for my very entertaining debates and presentations but that was only because it was the only way i could express myself at the time since they were forced and HAD to be done.
It's all irrational.
[editline]19th April 2013[/editline]
not to mention my social awkwardness. I don't mean just "OH GOSH I'M SO AWKWARD!" social awkward that teenage girls talk about i mean when talking to you for the very first time i'm visibly uncomfortable usually and will freeze up at times unless i know something about you i can go off on. There are times where i've been able to meet someone and immediately shoot it off with them because i'll notice something like an obscure video game logo pin they have because i've taught myself how to people watch quite effectively and look for these such details. But primarily i'm just completely out of my element in many social situations. Once again though if they're forced i can come across as even outgoing.[/QUOTE]
I have that to an extent; I always chalked it up to being British. If I am headed the wrong way down the road I feel like I need to turn off some side roads to double back or check my phone to "discover" something.
The trick that helped me loads was to just to pretend to be high.
[QUOTE=Splurgy_A;40339636]I have that to an extent; I always chalked it up to being British. If I am headed the wrong way down the road I feel like I need to turn off some side roads to double back or check my phone to "discover" something.
The trick that helped me loads was to just to pretend to be high.[/QUOTE]
whenever I realize I'm walking the wrong way somewhere I can't just stop dead and turn around cause that'd be weird, so I make a show of taking my phone out of my pocket like I just got a text, and then acting agitated and going off in a different direction
or looking at my watch and pretending I'm late for something
also hi splurgy
[QUOTE=Splurgy_A;40339636]I have that to an extent; I always chalked it up to being British. If I am headed the wrong way down the road I feel like I need to turn off some side roads to double back or check my phone to "discover" something.
The trick that helped me loads was to just to pretend to be high.[/QUOTE]
Problem is for me, when i'm high i actually become "normal". I don't space out and go like "duuuuuuuude". I literally just either become completely "normal" and a bit talkative. Or i go over the line and immediately succumb to the fear and just literally will freeze up, start shaking, and feel like if so much as move, i'd die.
I'm a very paranoid person about everything and i always have this thought that, for some reason, when im out people take this great notice of me. So even that cell phone trick mentioned above is something ill do but i become very worried that someone caught me and somehow knows i made a mistake or something. Again, it's irrational and i know it but still present.
Under some situations i can be a very social person to even random people, but i need to be with friends so i can share in the inevitable backfire.
I just have a very stupid outlook on seeking therapy and i don't want to be put on all kinds of drugs. I also feel like they wouldn't be able to help me past what i've already learned and tried seeing as i've dealt with this for over 6 years. They probably actually would be able to help me but again, i always talk myself out of even thinking of seeing one.
Feels like the world might just spontaneously combust with all the recent explosions and shit, Not gud.
My biggest issue is how much the news stations are playing off of the fact that they're Chechen. This is only going to end badly if they keep going "Oh shit they're [I]Chechen and [U]EVIL[/U][/I]"
[QUOTE=DigitalySane;40318603]Being gay gives you the right to stick anything up your butt[/QUOTE]
my old school pencil case is feeling pretty light
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;40340860]My biggest issue is how much the news stations are playing off of the fact that they're Chechen. This is only going to end badly if they keep going "Oh shit they're [I]Chechen and [U]EVIL[/U][/I]"[/QUOTE]
Time to beat up Chechens.
-nvm probably considered memeshit-
Curse you harpie, you and your paypal
Everything is beautiful
Let the music carry you
Maybe I will follow you forever?
Nowhere else I'd rather be
When you're lying next to me
Let the music carry us together
(one of those cloudy, cold mopey and music-y mornings)
[QUOTE=Agent766;40337649]Pretty bad. It's almost 4am and I have a doctor's appointment at 10:30 and I can't sleep.[/QUOTE]
aaaaaaand, my alarm doesn't go off. I hope they don't mind me being 15 minutes late :c
[editline]19th April 2013[/editline]
Seriously, if I have to reschedule again... I've had this appointment for about a month.
[editline]19th April 2013[/editline]
Nah, I made it. Yay.
To revive last page's discussion, I'm socially awkward unless I'm drunk or high in which case I generally become "that guy"
I wish I could keep my humour and liveliness all the time
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;40340860]My biggest issue is how much the news stations are playing off of the fact that they're Chechen. This is only going to end badly if they keep going "Oh shit they're [I]Chechen and [U]EVIL[/U][/I]"[/QUOTE]
oh jesus, they're chechen? Oh lord :v
Well, It looks like I might be moving out of home, quite a bit sooner than expected.
Sadly my mum has started getting very controlling, only talks to me when she is angry, claims I'm tearing the family apart by having my computer downstairs and is threatening to sell all my stuff someday.
Luckily a couple of friends are (hopefully) going to be renting a house within the next coming weeks. I can start working a few more hours at target, as well as building computers then selling them off for a bit extra money.
Been feeling ill the past two days.
Now Im stuck doing school work all weekend.
[QUOTE=mysteryman;40340250]Problem is for me, when i'm high i actually become "normal". I don't space out and go like "duuuuuuuude". I literally just either become completely "normal" and a bit talkative. Or i go over the line and immediately succumb to the fear and just literally will freeze up, start shaking, and feel like if so much as move, i'd die.
I'm a very paranoid person about everything and i always have this thought that, for some reason, when im out people take this great notice of me. So even that cell phone trick mentioned above is something ill do but i become very worried that someone caught me and somehow knows i made a mistake or something. Again, it's irrational and i know it but still present.
Under some situations i can be a very social person to even random people, but i need to be with friends so i can share in the inevitable backfire.
I just have a very stupid outlook on seeking therapy and i don't want to be put on all kinds of drugs. I also feel like they wouldn't be able to help me past what i've already learned and tried seeing as i've dealt with this for over 6 years. They probably actually would be able to help me but again, i always talk myself out of even thinking of seeing one.[/QUOTE]
You smoke weed? How often?
Weed could actually be making your social anxiety worse if you light up a lot - although when you are high you may feel normal or even talkative, chronic THC consumption can aggravate mental illness such as schizophrenia and anxiety disorders in people prone to them.
If you seek therapy, they can not put you on drugs. They might discuss the option of medication with you but if you out and out say "I do not want drugs" they can not make you take them. That being said, medication can be incredibly helpful because a lot of what mental illness is has to do with neurones in your brain squirting out the wrong amounts of neurotransmitter and medication can help. Medication and therapy as a combination tends to be far more effective than just medication or just therapy alone, although medication is not a panacea.
[quote]i need to be with friends so i can share in the inevitable backfire.[/quote]
What do you mean by this? What is the "backfire" and why is it inevitable?
Oh shit Splurgy's alive.
[QUOTE=Animosus;40344647]Well, It looks like I might be moving out of home, quite a bit sooner than expected.
Sadly my mum has started getting very controlling, only talks to me when she is angry, claims I'm tearing the family apart by having my computer downstairs and is threatening to sell all my stuff someday.
Luckily a couple of friends are (hopefully) going to be renting a house within the next coming weeks. I can start working a few more hours at target, as well as building computers then selling them off for a bit extra money.[/QUOTE]
Aw
It's scary for sure especially if you are moving out a bit pre mature (i.e. not on your own accord) but you'll love the extra freedom and responsibility. The hard part is when you get days like today (for me), where you got all day with not much going on - it's easy to just turn into a slug and couch/computer it up all day :v:
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