Remi's Christmas detox thread - Help me through detox! - General

[QUOTE=Orki;26760456]Hasch even if it's a sativa strain is more of a downer then a sativa dominant weed... Tho it would probably not be a bad thing to get tired :)[/QUOTE] Sounds even better, then

Constipation sucks major sparkly balls. Just thought I'd mention if any of you where curious. Don't know if it was related to pill use, good chance it was.

Eat prunes!

Well I know heroin causes constipation, so I image other opiates would have a somewhat similar effect.

use some laxatives if you have constipation. you might get the shits but at least you're shitting.

Progress so far... Constipations: 1. Times thrown up: 2. Weight lost: 12 pounds. Ran out of pills, but I've had amazing company this weekend, so I've been sucking it up. I will see if I'll go to school tomorrow but right now my stomach is really fucked up.

Hey man, listen. Don't cave in. You can do it. You're awesome. The people around you love you and want to help. WE want to help you. People care about you. You aren't alone in this. Get your life together, go to school, make some new friends. You are an amazing person. You can be whatever you want to be. You can do whatever you want to do. Just quit the habit and focus on your life, focus on your family, focus on your boyfriend. YOU CAN DO IT.

[QUOTE=Remi;26802899]Progress so far... Constipations: 1. Times thrown up: 2. Weight lost: 12 pounds. Ran out of pills, but I've had amazing company this weekend, so I've been sucking it up. I will see if I'll go to school tomorrow but right now my stomach is really fucked up.[/QUOTE] Stay with it. The first few days are always the worst.

Remi have you been smoking relief weed every once in a while or are you going cold turkey? it takes 7 days to detox off opiates if i remember correctly.

No weed. I don't wanna intensify what I'm feeling right now by toking. I feel... incredibly vulnerable. Physically and mentally. I don't even know what I'm doing this for. Even if I quit the drugs, I'm still gonna find some other way to fuck up my life again and again. I don't even know what I'm being so sappy about right now. I got way more than I deserved. I just can't stop hurting those I care about. The physical pain is present, but it doesn't mean anything. It's just a sensation, and it isn't good or bad anymore, it's just there. To be honest I was never afraid of the physical aspect of detoxing. What I'm afraid of is coping with things the real, sober way. Do you know what the real, scary part about all of this is? It's that this probably isn't the drug withdrawals speaking. It's me. I disgust myself. I've got so many wonderful elements in my life, but even so I'm too God damned stupid to just be happy with what I have.

You need some rehab brah. this post is 100% serious. at least try to figure out why you use so much. if you can tell me from the most introspective point of view with certain honesty i may be able to counsel you.

[QUOTE=Remi;26813046]No weed. I don't wanna intensify what I'm feeling right now by toking. I feel... incredibly vulnerable. Physically and mentally. I don't even know what I'm doing this for. Even if I quit the drugs, I'm still gonna find some other way to fuck up my life again and again. I don't even know what I'm being so sappy about right now. I got way more than I deserved. I just can't stop hurting those I care about.[/quote] No, you're not. Think of this as the first step in getting better and stopping hurting everyone around you. Once you're finally off the opiates, you'll be better to everyone around you. [quote]I disgust myself. I've got so many wonderful elements in my life, but even so I'm too God damned stupid to just be happy with what I have.[/QUOTE] It's not stupidity, it's adolescence. Everyone will go through this. If you haven't, talk to a close friend about what you're feeling and what's going on. Consider professional help, for you and for others' sakes.

[QUOTE=Remi;26813046]No weed. I don't wanna intensify what I'm feeling right now by toking. I feel... incredibly vulnerable. Physically and mentally. I don't even know what I'm doing this for. Even if I quit the drugs, I'm still gonna find some other way to fuck up my life again and again. I don't even know what I'm being so sappy about right now. I got way more than I deserved. I just can't stop hurting those I care about. The physical pain is present, but it doesn't mean anything. It's just a sensation, and it isn't good or bad anymore, it's just there. To be honest I was never afraid of the physical aspect of detoxing. What I'm afraid of is coping with things the real, sober way. Do you know what the real, scary part about all of this is? It's that this probably isn't the drug withdrawals speaking. It's me. I disgust myself. I've got so many wonderful elements in my life, but even so I'm too God damned stupid to just be happy with what I have.[/QUOTE] It's definitely the whole detox process making you think like this. Regardless of whether you believe that or not, you're still taking a step towards making life a lot better for yourself and making the future a brighter place. Your self esteem may be low now, but when you finally beat the addiction, you're going to have accomplished something big and have taught yourself some serious self-control.

[QUOTE=Remi;26813046]No weed. I don't wanna intensify what I'm feeling right now by toking. I feel... incredibly vulnerable. Physically and mentally. I don't even know what I'm doing this for. Even if I quit the drugs, I'm still gonna find some other way to fuck up my life again and again. I don't even know what I'm being so sappy about right now. I got way more than I deserved. I just can't stop hurting those I care about. The physical pain is present, but it doesn't mean anything. It's just a sensation, and it isn't good or bad anymore, it's just there. To be honest I was never afraid of the physical aspect of detoxing. What I'm afraid of is coping with things the real, sober way. Do you know what the real, scary part about all of this is? It's that this probably isn't the drug withdrawals speaking. It's me. I disgust myself. I've got so many wonderful elements in my life, but even so I'm too God damned stupid to just be happy with what I have.[/QUOTE] Just try to zone out with something think like there is no physical pain and just hang in there

You're doing great man. Keep it up! To fix your stomach, drink yogurt.

I woke up yesterday with [i]severe[/i] stomach pain. My doctor was called, and after checking me out he immediately admitted me to the hospital for appendicitis. I collapsed puking just outside the ER and I decided to tell the nurses about my opiate and opioid use. The doctors did not think that it was related to my drug use. I stayed in the ER for a while and went through a series of tests, including ultra sound and a CT scan. I first requested not to be put on the very painkillers I'd been using recreationally. The pain grew a lot though, and I started vomiting up foam, so I had to take a small dose of ketobemidone (one of the opioids I've been using recreationally) because I wasn't able to converse with the nurses anymore because of the pain. The doctors said it would be safe (and besides, it could tell if the symptoms were withdrawal related). This did however not relieve any of my symptoms. Then I hit a 8-9 on the pain scale so I had to be put on so much morphine and ketobemidone that I basically lost consciousness. Spent the entire day and night in the hospital doing tests. They found nothing, and told me that the next step would be exploratory surgery. Not something I want 3 days before Christmas, so I went home this morning. The pain isn't that strong anymore. No, I'm NOT happy about the fact that I had to take the painkillers, but I assure you I had no choice. After several hours of those severe pains I couldn't take it anymore. I guess I'll see what happens now... For all I know it was all withdrawal related anyway and I'm just postponing the worst physical symptoms. If the symptoms come back in the next days I guess I'll know I won't be able to go through it at home after all.

see kids that's what drugs do /stupidity Seriously man, that really sucks for you, I was really rooting for you to make it through... best wishes

Yeah I feel like a useless piece of shit.

Stop saying that for fuck's sake. Pieces of shit are people who won't try their best because they are either afraid to fail or just not willing to try. I KNOW you are trying hard and that alone is a reason you're awesome.

I [i]want[/i] to think happy thoughts of pancakes made out of laughter and shitting rainbows, but I just [i]can't[/i]. It's like the happy-vein in my brain is constipated.

[QUOTE=Remi;26852333]I [i]want[/i] to think happy thoughts of pancakes made out of laughter and shitting rainbows, but I just [i]can't[/i]. It's like the happy-vein in my brain is constipated.[/QUOTE] Now all we need to find is what the metaphor for laxatives is.

I think I'm gonna call my doctor tomorrow. I do think I actually will need medical help. Right now I just want to get done with all of this. Hopefully he will put me on something so that I can get through the Christmas time, then I'll see if I can get a place on some kind of treatment plan or whatever, depending on what he says. It would really suck it all of this would've been for nothing.

Hmm.. It seems to me that bullshit like "bawwhaww your lungs will go bad from smoking weed" is actually the least of your concern to most drug use, not just weed. If you were to educate people about drugs, you might wanna go into the mental issues that one might or might not experience through drugs, that is something the media hasn't brought up. It's pretty delicate subject too, you cannot take scary pictures of someone's drug induced mind, unlike tobacco lungs. If you get my point at all

I honestly believe that drugs are never the real problem. Rather, why people take drugs, that's the issue. Honestly, yes, I'm scared of going through the same physical hell that I did yesterday, but I'm more scared of feeling so vulnerable as I do when I'm totally sober, and at school, etc. Like, just a little bit of morphine and it's like it doesn't matter if I'm not perfect or pretty, or if people say bad things about me behind my back. When I'm sober I feel like everybody is watching me behind my back and laughing at me. When I'm on opiates, I can't give less of a shit what other people think of me.

You need to learn to NOT care about what people think. It's not easy, but it's possible.

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[QUOTE=Remi;26855678]I honestly believe that drugs are never the real problem. Rather, why people take drugs, that's the issue. Honestly, yes, I'm scared of going through the same physical hell that I did yesterday, but I'm more scared of feeling so vulnerable as I do when I'm totally sober, and at school, etc.[/QUOTE] I'd agree but it's quanitites too, as in when people feel vulerable they take more drugs which in turn ruins their body. I might join you on this btw, my bladder is beginning to hurt daily due to k use so I'm going to try and abstain from that, maybe by limiting use to weekend instead of daily, and substituing it with alcohol/coke/weed for a while. So annoying when you get a drug cheap enough to do a ton of it.

Aww remi. Do you think you actually had an infection or this was from withdrawal? You should seriously ask them to make sure, cause if your withdrawal is this bad you need detox.

I dunno. To me it seemed like they drew that conclusion at the hospital. They didn't tell me though, but I was in a room with other patients until I actually went home so they wouldn't actually be allowed to say it out loud since I could sue them for breaking doctor-patient-confidentiality. I might just be a little paranoid though, but it seemed awfully weird to me that they suddenly decided that "no, all your test are fine, so you can go home" if they actually had no idea what the extreme and sudden pain was caused by.

Great. I've been completely unable to reach my doctor. Yesterday, he wasn't at work. Didn't matter, I had enough morphine left for today. However, nobody told me the clinic closed early today for the holidays. Which means I'm severly FUCKED.