Remi's Christmas detox thread - Help me through detox! - General

[i]Shit Fuck[/i] that sucks man. Hope you make it through the holidays

Hvor i himmelens navn er det du bor? Ute på landet!?

Jeg bor midt i Toten. Altså fasitten på landet. Let's see what happens now. I'm probably gonna try to get a hold of another doctor. Right now I just wanna celebrate Christmas with my family.

Keep up the positive bides man, you sound a lot more positive already. and Christmas with people close to you will do no end of good.

Just read the entire thread. Remi, don't give up. You may feel like shit now, but the pain and anguish won't last forever. To me it sounds like you have a bit of a low self esteem, and drugs are an escape for you. You have to pinpoint what it is that gives you this low self esteem and work your hardest to change it, because YOU decide who you are, and will become. Life is a rollercoaster Remi. Sorry to abuse the cliche qoute, but they're often used alot because they're true. It'll have it's ups and downs, and right now it seems like life is a down for you. But it'll get better. The difference between a smart person and an dumb person in this situation,a winner and loser, is the loser gives up when times get rough, and the winner keeps on trucking. The smart person is intelligent enough to realize that life WILL get better. The down period could and can last for years at a time, but it'll always get better at some point. Sorry for the big'ol wall of text, and it's general theme of not making sense. I'm only 17 like said above, so this is all coming from a short life of experince. But it shouldn't degrade the words and the message.

For satan, Remi. Jeg håber du kommer igennem det her. - Held og lykke!

Fuuuuck it's impossible to get a hold of a doctor around here during the Christmas times uuuuuhhhhhh. Anyway, thanks to a great Christmas I haven't crashed yet.... And now I'm really [i]out[/i] of opiates. Like, I don't have any backup stash left, and I won't be able to get a hold of more either.

[QUOTE=Remi;26955556]Fuuuuck it's impossible to get a hold of a doctor around here during the Christmas times uuuuuhhhhhh. Anyway, thanks to a great Christmas I haven't crashed yet.... And now I'm really [i]out[/i] of opiates. Like, I don't have any backup stash left, and I won't be able to get a hold of more either.[/QUOTE] Might be for the best. Try and keep your mind off em

Remi, just try to get sober for 1 whole day, then you will feel better. If you really want to stop I suggest to you to reduce gradually not to stop. Good luck, man and enjoy christmas.

I can't reduce gradually. I ran out of morphine, and I've made it so that I can't get any more. I'm honestly not feeling good right now Haven't had anything since last night. I have no idea what's going on. A dude might come to my house with a little piece of bud for me though, dunno yet, but it's already 1am.

Weed should help.. I think

weed will help, but it won't make it go away. now that people mention it, it probably would have been a good idea to taper, not go cold turkey i really feel for you though remi, i got off heroin pretty much cold turkey, all by myself plus i had school that week.

Yeah, my friend did actually drop by at 2am to give me some nug. And it's the fucking most bitching nug ever. I don't even feel like I have to throw up anymore. Of course, I know I'm early into the withdrawals, only around 24 hours, but still.

So here's an update: I just got back from the doctors office. Since I'm already so far into the process of getting clean off the opiates, we both decided I would keep going as I do now without Buprenorphine (since that would really just postpone the whole withdrawal thing anyways, and I'd have to start over again). I'd say the worst part of this is really the mental part. Because you feel so God damned worthless, like there's no point at all. Also I basically haven't eaten much for the past three weeks, and for the past week I've maybe eaten two dinner plates worth of food all in all (it ain't that easy when the food doesn't want to stay in your body...). Right now I'm feeling a lot better, but damn, I've been really down a couple of times, to the point where I'd just go lay down in bed, and hope that I'd feel better the next day, or else I'd have no idea what I'd do.

[QUOTE=Remi;27023804]So here's an update: I just got back from the doctors office. Since I'm already so far into the process of getting clean off the opiates, we both decided I would keep going as I do now without Buprenorphine (since that would really just postpone the whole withdrawal thing anyways, and I'd have to start over again). I'd say the worst part of this is really the mental part. Because you feel so God damned worthless, like there's no point at all. Also I basically haven't eaten much for the past three weeks, and for the past week I've maybe eaten two dinner plates worth of food all in all (it ain't that easy when the food doesn't want to stay in your body...). Right now I'm feeling a lot better, but damn, I've been really down a couple of times, to the point where I'd just go lay down in bed, and hope that I'd feel better the next day, or else I'd have no idea what I'd do.[/QUOTE] Well, if you're this far in, you must be getting close to the end. Just hang in there for another week or two and it'll all be smooth sailing.

It certainly seems like you're past the worst.

how's stuff?

[QUOTE=Remi;27023804]So here's an update: I just got back from the doctors office. Since I'm already so far into the process of getting clean off the opiates, we both decided I would keep going as I do now without Buprenorphine (since that would really just postpone the whole withdrawal thing anyways, and I'd have to start over again). I'd say the worst part of this is really the mental part. Because you feel so God damned worthless, like there's no point at all. Also I basically haven't eaten much for the past three weeks, and for the past week I've maybe eaten two dinner plates worth of food all in all (it ain't that easy when the food doesn't want to stay in your body...). Right now I'm feeling a lot better, but damn, I've been really down a couple of times, to the point where I'd just go lay down in bed, and hope that I'd feel better the next day, or else I'd have no idea what I'd do.[/QUOTE] Just remember remi, all those feelings are normal because of the chemical changes going on in your brain right now. Any time you start feeling worthless and down or wanna die or go back to the dope, just take it to heart that this is just because of the fact that youve been giving your dopamine and serotonin receptors a rollercoaster ride of a party going up every time you dosed and down after it wore off, and now youre completely off the synthetic dopaminergic and serotenergic boosting drugs, your brain is at a lower than normal level even because it doesnt have the help. So basically its all just chemicals, remember itll pass and then youll be sooo much happier once your life isnt just about getting high anymore. Reinvest your time into loving your friends, family, love, and life. I also unfortunately forgot until now about some of these alternate, most importantly OTC, methods of easing your self rehabilitation period. This page shows alot of good things to help you out, what Im specifically talking about above is section 2, about loperamide, which is actually an opiate itself but it isnt psychologically active and itll help with the shits and the shakes pretty much. Then dramamine or diphenhydramine for sleep and nausea, and an OTC nsaid pain reliever, I suggest ibuprofen or naproxen sodium(aleve). Anyways, once again, good luck with this short but very good leg on your journey of life. Keep on the path and dont turn back and the sheer euphoria and confidence youll have from kicking the shit will be your new motivation. Im not a religious person however I am very spiritual and I believe regardless of religion or lack there of, that everyone should realise that there is the power to accomplish anything you truely desire, in every human. They just have to make the series of realisations that it takes to start living proactively and productively, and theyll realise that success, money, friends, influence, enjoyment of their work will simply come to them if they just go about life with the mindset of basically this; Always do your best to do the right thing, through experience Ive learned that its always better to befriend someone than make an enemy out of them. Instead of just grunting at the pakistani guy in the gas station, at least tell him to have a good day or something similar, especially if he says something to you first. But also always try to be generous or at least fair in all your dealings, with friends and everyone else. There is something out there that is sometimes called karma. What goes around comes around either way, so thats one of the keys. Another thing is realise that if youre TRUELY motivated to accomplish something, and you keep on trying and trying no matter how many times you almost get there and fail, you WILL eventually get what you want. Not only will people see this, but god/nature/some other fucked up thing will see that you are truely motivated and devoted to achieving your goals. There is famous/influential/skilled/wise people all around and dont you ever think and realise, theyre no different than me, so what do I have to do different to be like them? Sure some people get lucky and win the lottery or are born into wealth and power or whatever, but the vast majority of the most famous wisest and best people in history were ones that came from nothing and turned it into everything anyone could ever dream of and more. Im going to do it and so can you. What it really comes down to is finding what you love the most, what you always dreamt of doing but always thought youd never actually be able to. Find what you want more than ANYTHING, enough to keep yourself from being defeated from either within or without. And people dont realise how self-defeating we ALL are ALL THE TIME, IF we dont realise it and watch for it and keep ourselves from doing it. It was on CBS news I think recently, maybe some other network, that there had been some sort of a study on famous people including bill gates and such, and what was really prevalent was, they all had the sort of mentality where they thought about things like this: "Is this activity either going to benefit or hinder my goal, or do nothing which is sort of hindering in a way?" Its VERY hard to follow all this stuff Im talking about in day to day life, my problem is, I feel like I know what I need to do to achieve my goals, but I just have a hard time following through because sometimes I just get so depressed and I start doubting this shit, but I just try to stay positive and remember, either way this attitude is going to make me happier in the long run even if Im wrong and it doesnt neccessarily translate to achieving my grand goals, which I strongly believe it will. Anyways, yes this was a novel, but Remi this is mostly for you, alot of the time people are in the right mindset to be receptive to what Im saying, but I think youre in a time right now where you could use some serious, REAL encouragement that I believe is the key to life so to speak, being happy, and successful. So just hang in there man and look forward to the future and realise its a whole huge book of mostly blank pages that you still have yet to write on. And yes there will be many things that will happen out of your control, but thats another important thing to realise, life consists of many many downs and many many ups. Its just the downs tend be more noticed because you dont notice if something is working most of the time right? You dont start your computer up and think, "Well, my cpu, harddrive, motherboard, psu, gpu, ram, etc. are working!" you only notice when they arent working really. Same thing with good and bad. But I believe the more hardship and pain you suffer through, the stronger you are, and the more you will be blessed by god/the forces/whatever, if you make it through not being bitter but hopefully having at least take away some lessons so it wasnt in vain, of course not meaning that it wont be painful of course, but thats all just part of how life is. Im gonna stop typing now and go smoke a bowl of master kush. Good luck Remi my buddy, Ill be prayin for you.

Any updates?

Did he die?

His last Twitter post is 6 hours ago, so no. [url]http://twitter.com/silvestris[/url] Don't read it too long; you might just go crazy.

Indeed I am drug free. Detox was a success. Now I'm only severely depressed and pretty much unable to feel anything more than apathy. Atleast I wasn't a fucking emo bitch when I was on drugs.

do you wanna toke?

Do something that makes you more happy in the world than anything else; no matter the cost

[QUOTE=Remi;27198991]Indeed I am drug free. Detox was a success. Now I'm only severely depressed and pretty much unable to feel anything more than apathy. Atleast I wasn't a fucking emo bitch when I was on drugs.[/QUOTE] i never thought i'd say this but draw some furry shit and post it on da, drawing obviously makes you happy

Yep, I should do that. Also, today, instead of buying the regular 20 pack of cigarettes, I decided to buy a pack of nicotine gum. I'm fucking tired of cigarettes. Maybe I'll be able to quit now. Also, heading over to a dude's place to pick up some green. Smoking is way more enjoyable now when I smoke only every now and then, instead of 2 g's a day. And I'm actually sober enough to somewhat pay attention in school. Now I just need an ounce of self esteem, lol.

[QUOTE=Remi;27237256]Yep, I should do that. Also, today, instead of buying the regular 20 pack of cigarettes, I decided to buy a pack of nicotine gum. I'm fucking tired of cigarettes. Maybe I'll be able to quit now. Also, heading over to a dude's place to pick up some green. Smoking is way more enjoyable now when I smoke only every now and then, instead of 2 g's a day. And I'm actually sober enough to somewhat pay attention in school. Now I just need an ounce of self esteem, lol.[/QUOTE] We've both quit today

Hey guys, this weed is laced. With fucking radioactive awesomeness. I am ridiculously high.

[QUOTE=Smooth-e;27237983]We've both quit today[/QUOTE] i'll smoke more to balance out your quitting the world will stay in harmony

So, guys. What now? Apathy sucks.