[QUOTE=Xieneus;50819641]stay inside and watch the insane romantic comedy known as "the room" instead[/QUOTE]
We've both already seen it.
Also we both live at home, his stepmom doesn't like having people over and my parents aren't exactly open-minded or know that we're dating.
Had another panic attack at work today. I didn't pass out, but it took me about an hour to talk myself out of it. I'm afraid I'm starting to seem suspicious and lazy to my superiors.
Why the fuck am I such a headcase
so like, i broke up with my boyfriend (AGAIN) last week, and he's been insulting some friends of mine (jealousy, probably), and now i've recently discovered that my latest youtube videos have been getting dislike bombed
i'm 90% sure it's him who did it, and i don't really know why (though i think it's the only way for him to relay how upset he is, because i blocked him on literally everything i ever had him added on)
it's only making me feel more confident about my decision and makes me realize how pathetic he really is
since then i've immediately started regretting every single thing i ever started with him
and honestly, i feel great being single again, feels like i've freed myself from the grasp of a rather forced relationship
[QUOTE=Mysterious;50819831]Had another panic attack at work today. I didn't pass out, but it took me about an hour to talk myself out of it. I'm afraid I'm starting to seem suspicious and lazy to my superiors.
Why the fuck am I such a headcase[/QUOTE]
If you are worried about your performance in the eyes of your superiors just initiate a conversation. My (mental) health hasn't been too great lately, so I was up front with my boss and told them "Hey, I apologize if my performance has been off lately. I'm going through some health challenges and am currently going through regular doctor's visits until I resolve them. If you feel that my work performance is suffering, feel free to approach me so that we can work something out. I don't want you to feel that I am lazy or incompetent so I'm trying to open up this dialogue now in case I run into greater issues down the road."
It was really hard to take that first step but now I have an understanding with my boss and I don't have nearly as much stress going to work. I recommend having such a conversation if you can.
[QUOTE=DanTehMan;50819981]If you are worried about your performance in the eyes of your superiors just initiate a conversation. My (mental) health hasn't been too great lately, so I was up front with my boss and told them "Hey, I apologize if my performance has been off lately. I'm going through some health challenges and am currently going through regular doctor's visits until I resolve them. If you feel that my work performance is suffering, feel free to approach me so that we can work something out. I don't want you to feel that I am lazy or incompetent so I'm trying to open up this dialogue now in case I run into greater issues down the road."
It was really hard to take that first step but now I have an understanding with my boss and I don't have nearly as much stress going to work. I recommend having such a conversation if you can.[/QUOTE]
This is a really mature thing to do and honestly just makes you look better to your manager/boss (if they aren't a complete tosser), because you're taking responsibility for what's going on and asking for help.
I almost feel like blogposting (to some degree) because there has been some bemusing and exciting stuff going on. or stuff that happened, I guess. Getting hit on by random bears at Seattle Pride was... D: (the struggle of being a twink lol)
I've already talked to them about the stress of all the shit that's going on right now, and they seem to be understanding, but I can't help but feel that this is all still my fault for handling certain situations like a pansy instead of a normal fucking person.
Also welcome back, Paindoc. You're one of my favorite posters so it's good to see you back around.
[QUOTE=Mysterious;50820241]I've already talked to them about the stress of all the shit that's going on right now, and they seem to be understanding, but I can't help but feel that this is all still my fault for handling certain situations like a pansy instead of a normal fucking person.
Also welcome back, Paindoc. You're one of my favorite posters so it's good to see you back around.[/QUOTE]
<3 thanks
Its not all your fault for being a "fucking pansy", lol. I doubt you are even that. That's what anxiety and mental health stuff does, it fucks you up and makes your sense of normal feel off. doubly so because anxiety then lets you focus on said little mistakes or issues to the point of just making your anxiety worse.
you are reacting like a person with anxiety (for the moment), you've notified them what's up, and you're trying to handle it. you're doing fine, and as redundant as "don't stress" might be, do try to find ways to reduce the stress of this somehow
i mean jeese, on my worst day with anxiety i cried over a picture of the dog I'm adopting next weekend lmao. then i watched videos of animal rescues and stuff and cried more. I felt a bit like a pansy :v:
[QUOTE=paindoc;50820197]Getting hit on by random bears at Seattle Pride was... D: (the struggle of being a twink lol)[/QUOTE]
I would have gone to pride in vancouver this weekend if I weren't driving around Alberta...
And if I was actually out yet :x
[QUOTE=Mallow234;50820497]I would have gone to pride in vancouver this weekend if I weren't driving around Alberta...
And if I was actually out yet :x[/QUOTE]
well, they were 40-50 years old and touched me (lightly, but still NO. NO. NOOOO). they also hit on my best friend, WHILE he was holding the hand of his boyfriend. it was one group and one bad encounter though, otherwise it was fun. my friend and his bf mostly come over just for the sake of being able to do normal couple things without fear, so i went home early to give them some time alone and missed a lot of the parade proper.
Hi! this is a test
test successful c:
You passed the gay test
I can feel it. Picking up all this lumber is making me swole. Soon I can punch holes through the wall.
Pride parades look fun as well, if somewhat scandalous. I need to plan on visiting one at some point.
[QUOTE=Sleeves;50821563]I can feel it. Picking up all this lumber is making me swole. Soon I can punch holes through the wall.
Pride parades look fun as well, if somewhat scandalous. I need to plan on visiting one at some point.[/QUOTE]
You can turn those punched holes into glory ones.
I've been doing biking a whole lot and my legs have started to look fiiiiine.
Probably should start doing squats and bridges so my butt can catch up.
So I got a graduate job and it's great because I get lots of money but the problem is there appears to be no career progression and the result of this year is I will have no job at the end of it (it isn't guaranteed in the program) and no actual technical expertise.
At this stage I really wish I learned a martial art, started having sex at age 16 and got good by 18 and could be like one of my friends who gets free holidays to Fiji and stuff as long as he has sex with the guy paying for it.
Escorts are great and make tonnes of money! Sigh.
Hello yet again Gaypunch, it is me. I climbed a waterfall:
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[editline]3rd August 2016[/editline]
[QUOTE=Fancy Godgineer;50821640]I've been doing biking a whole lot and my legs have started to look fiiiiine.
Probably should start doing squats and bridges so my butt can catch up.[/QUOTE]
I have two friends who ride bikes all the time and they're probably the hottest. With their abs and things. One broke his femur though in an accident when his brakes gave out but I am sure that was a rare incident :ohno: I got to play boardgames with him at his parents place and he introduced his dad to me as "dad" and I said "hi dad!" and felt embarrassed for about er... six months now.
Had to RMA some computer parts because I bought the wrong stuff and just had my benefits suspended rip me.
In fact just kill me.
[QUOTE=Sleeves;50821563]I can feel it. Picking up all this lumber is making me swole. Soon I can punch holes through the wall.
Pride parades look fun as well, if somewhat scandalous. I need to plan on visiting one at some point.[/QUOTE]
I have put on a decent amount of muscle ever since I transferred from the front end to working the truck. I'm not buff as fuck or anything but it feels good.
[QUOTE=Rika-chan;50822163]I have put on a decent amount of muscle ever since I transferred from the front end to working the truck. I'm not buff as fuck or anything but it feels good.[/QUOTE]
My name at work is "thintern", I blame being cheap about food and working at a computer all day (although my boss did call me out for being a twink on like day 4 haha)
I don't think I could muster up the courage to go to a pride parade. I'd be awkward as fuck and I'd probably freeze up or something if anyone had low enough standards to hit on me :v:
[QUOTE=Rika-chan;50822163]I have put on a decent amount of muscle ever since I transferred from the front end to working the truck. I'm not buff as fuck or anything but it feels good.[/QUOTE]
SOON!
Also freezing up can be cute. I fucked up responding to a greeting by a guy and then tripped over some clothes. Made him laugh though so it was worth it.
[QUOTE=Mysterious;50822376]I don't think I could muster up the courage to go to a pride parade. I'd be awkward as fuck and I'd probably freeze up or something if anyone had low enough standards to hit on me :v:[/QUOTE]
I guess I'm the polar opposite because I've been wanting to go to a pride in some stupid fucking getup.
I already have an outfit planned for just that occasion. Just gotta trim some chub off and get the clothes and I'm good to go to be very gay.
[QUOTE=gerbe1;50821641]So I got a graduate job and it's great because I get lots of money but the problem is there appears to be no career progression and the result of this year is I will have no job at the end of it (it isn't guaranteed in the program) and no actual technical expertise.
At this stage I really wish I learned a martial art, started having sex at age 16 and got good by 18 and could be like one of my friends who gets free holidays to Fiji and stuff as long as he has sex with the guy paying for it.
Escorts are great and make tonnes of money! Sigh.
Hello yet again Gaypunch, it is me. I climbed a waterfall:
[IMG_thumb]https://fbcdn-sphotos-g-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-xaf1/t31.0-8/s960x960/13680427_10208244694409308_7536021922257020388_o.jpg[/IMG_thumb]
[editline]3rd August 2016[/editline]
I have two friends who ride bikes all the time and they're probably the hottest. With their abs and things. One broke his femur though in an accident when his brakes gave out but I am sure that was a rare incident :ohno: I got to play boardgames with him at his parents place and he introduced his dad to me as "dad" and I said "hi dad!" and felt embarrassed for about er... six months now.[/QUOTE]
Hey daddy
[editline]3rd August 2016[/editline]
If starving in the Arctic, would your dick be the first part of yourself you'd eat?
I managed to take a picture of myself that I don't despise.
[T]http://i.imgur.com/ylTwKtW.jpg[/t]
Hate how my eyes look though.
I'm curious if it's too soon to start using online dating. I don't have a 'rebound' mindset, but then again, would a dumper feel like that?
i like your eyes
[QUOTE=ScoobyV2;50824860]i like your eyes[/QUOTE]
They always seem so squinty in pictures, which is what I dislike. I love the color though.
yeah the color is beautiful. i'm jealous
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