I have a 4 page paper to write that is due Saturday. I have a few tabs, shrooms, and MDMA. Would any of one of these in a small does help me write the paper?
[QUOTE=Doritos_Man;47633200]I have a 4 page paper to write that is due Saturday. I have a few tabs, shrooms, and MDMA. Would any of one of these in a small does help me write the paper?[/QUOTE]
No. Unless with the MDMA but then you'd have a paper all about love and happiness
[QUOTE=Creid;47633211]No. Unless with the MDMA but then you'd have a paper all about love and happiness[/QUOTE]
I can write about anything I want really. It's for my Philosophy class. I was going to possible write about this:
Student loan debt all over the world is ruining the chance at the “Good Life” for current and future students.
But I'm still thinking about it
[QUOTE=Doritos_Man;47633200]I have a 4 page paper to write that is due Saturday. I have a few tabs, shrooms, and MDMA. Would any of one of these in a small does help me write the paper?[/QUOTE]
Take 2 tabs, trip for 10 hours. You'll realize real quick that you need to get that paper done. It wont contribute anything besides the realization but it could be helpful.
Also i just found 10 bucks in my pocket. What should i do with it? I havent smoked in 2 whole days now so i dont wanna buy w3ed
[QUOTE=bs8814;47630778]Hey guys I am in need of some advice. In the past I have struggled with anxiety and depression (in bursts of time) but have been good for a solid year now. Unfortunately I started a new job last month and I think its kinda triggering anxiety really badly; like I freeze up and shit all the time, my brain seems to stop functioning. Not to mention the whole week Im kinda uneasy about my upcoming shifts. I've never had anxiety meds before but I was wondering if benzos would work? And whether a doctor would me a prescription if I brought this same case to them?[/QUOTE]
Benzos and other anti-anxiety medicines don't cure anxiety but rather dull the overt symptoms that trigger your attacks, relaxes your muscles, keep your fight/flight alarm state to a minimum, etc. You will still have to re condition your mind to cope with scenarios that make you anxious. Think about it like extinction type therapy, when you expose someone to the phobia slowly over time making them eventually ok with said phobia/stimulus. Nervous about a new workplace, new social relations, overall new setting? Relax, use a mantra to remind yourself of your capabilities that [B]no matter what you feel, you know that you will be able to deal with the situation.[/B] You seriously need to work on the self doubt as that is the cause of many people's anxieties. They believe that they can't do it from the beginning and then at any sign of trouble (stutter speech, tightness in chest, shaking, sweaty palms) they see that as "oh no I'm screwing up I can't do it" and spiral into negative thinking and lose coping. You need to recognize those painful anxiety symptoms as your body getting ready, your body is entering the alarm state. Don't see this as negative, all it means is your mind [I]thinks[/I] it sees a threat so its getting itself ready for fight or flight. If you interpret this feeling as negative your body will tense up, kinda like trying to kink a hose, it makes things worse when you fight it and overall damages your circulatory system (your heart and vessels). But when you look at the alarm state (the quicker breathing, the faster heartbeat, etc) as good, you can then use that energy to tackle the situation, use it to your advantage and avoid tensing up. Realize that at that very moment where you feel alarmed or nervous about a scenario it's your body getting hype and excited, your body is prepped all you need is the confidence that "yes I CAN do it".
Medications will help you by reducing the brunt of dealing with the early stages of extinction (extinction means to remove a conditioned response). Basically the first obstacle where you will begin your therapy with medication will seem less daunting thus allowing to 'dip your toe into the water' and slowly build confidence that you can deal with those scenarios. Then you ween off the medicine (that is if it isn't an inherent biological deficiency) and end the therapy with new tools and confidence to deal with future stressors. Remember people you don't need to view stress as bad, label it instead as an opportunity, a challenge to overcome that you are capable of doing. Feeling in control is half the battle.
Holy fuck holy fucking fuck fuck. I've been applying for jobs lately cause my job (IT/SharePoint Admin for a Community College) Is kind of up in the air because of state budget cuts. So for shits and giggles I applied for some in CO and WA cause heh weed well this morning I get a call from a company based out of boulder and 2 hours later I'm in a skype interview with the hiring manager must of gone fucking stellar cause they're offering me 67K a year with a 4000 dollar sign on bonus and a matched 401K with full benefits.......IN BOULDER,CO holy fuck if this is a dream and someone wakes me up I'm knocking them the fuck out
[QUOTE=Banandana;47629186]uhh people sell MDMA precapped guys
I don't know what the issue is, it might be sketchy but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. That's how I give people MDMA...[/QUOTE]
This. My MDMA guy (tho I never buy it, just seen him sell it/cap it) always caps it, if he has some that is. In my experience pre capping is more common, and IMO it is kinda better cause you can ask for a specific weight in each, or usually I'd imagine they are consistent weight. Probably a point each depending on dealer.
Drinking coffee, smoking a bowl out of the window, and 3d modeling a new stock for my bolt-action 22LR.
Yeah, life is good.
Focalin :D
Baked + red bull = productivity?? (Or at least I hope so)
[editline]30th April 2015[/editline]
+.5mg Ativan?? It feels like it's working
Gonna go out and watch a Wiccan ritual in the woods. This should be interesting.
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
I'm alive. I may have participated, I mean, it's in my ancestry and all, it was pretty neat. Timing, setting, and surroundings were oddly perfect even though we didn't go where we expected. The lightning storm stopped just long enough for us to find a spot, complete the ritual, light a j, awe at the moon, and walk back out of the forest to my car while smoking.
Next year, maybe we'll offer some hallucinogens.
This is still one of my favorite weed related videos.
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFrGsvURsfc[/media]
Fucking hate it when rides bail, thankfully I have a whole day to try and get a new one.
If it fails I'm just gonna get high and play video games saturday.
[QUOTE=Creid;47631781]They probably would. Before I got xanax my doctor tried every anti-anxiety med there is (except ativan). You might have to do some trials before you get to anything that you notice will work well. It all depends on the doctor though.[/QUOTE]
I'll book a doctors appointment sometimes and see how it goes. I wont ask for anything but if he suggests and SSRI Im gonna be annoyed because the last time he did that and it didnt do anything but make me feel shit when I came off it. In the meanwhile I have .09 bitcoins, should I buy Xanax or Valium of Agora?
[QUOTE=bs8814;47636925]I'll book a doctors appointment sometimes and see how it goes. I wont ask for anything but if he suggests and SSRI Im gonna be annoyed because the last time he did that and it didnt do anything but make me feel shit when I came off it. In the meanwhile I have .09 bitcoins, should I buy Xanax or Valium of Agora?[/QUOTE]
Ooh, you should definitely try experimenting with different benzos to see which one you want to aim for in your treatment. I'd do it. Benzos are cheap as fuck too.
[editline]May 1st, 2015[/editline]
btw out of the two xanax would be much more powerful, when I was prescribed valium a whole bottle wouldn't really do anything for me.
Can anyone describe the difference between Ativan and Xanax
[QUOTE=ZenX2;47637024]Can anyone describe the difference between Ativan and Xanax[/QUOTE]
I can tell you when the psychiatric hospital gave me ativan it stopped my psychotic break a couple years ago because it basically knocked me out.
[QUOTE=Creid;47637051]I can tell you when the psychiatric hospital gave me ativan it stopped my psychotic break a couple years ago because it basically knocked me out.[/QUOTE]
Yeah it's def p sedating, it kinda killed my productivity with .5mg overpowering a ton of caffeine
I was given a hefty dose of ativan when i was forced to go to the hospital when somebody caught me tripping on shrooms. I hate that shit but lower doeses are good for anxiety. Ive never tried xanax so i cant compare
[QUOTE=cody8295;47637621]I was given a hefty dose of ativan when i was forced to go to the hospital when somebody caught me tripping on shrooms. I hate that shit but lower doeses are good for anxiety. Ive never tried xanax so i cant compare[/QUOTE]
I've tried Xanax, highest dose I did was about 2mg. Felt pretty drunk on it, i.e. hard to balance and such, mind was pretty blank and I fell asleep pretty fast. Definately helped with what I needed help for.
Valium doesn't really do much for me, took 4mg last night after doing Ketamine and alcohol for several hours, and it only made me yawn once. Wouldn't recommend it.
Lorazepam in my experiences is a lot less fuck you up, and more like riding a wave to sleep, whereas alprazolam just knocks me out within an hour/ hour and a half. as for the "highs" I don't ever consider the feeling I get from them anything recreational, they just make me want to sleep, the higher doses just knock me out longer/better. IMO benzos are best for therepy and that's it, recreation ain't worth it.
I occasionally take lorazepam to help out with meditation (although I really shouldn't) but mostly I just use it therapeutically for anxiety, it's just a chill pill really, not much disinhibition/drunk feeling
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
I just took 1.25mg of Focalin, I don't think I've tried a dose this low in a while but I'm hoping it'll help me be productive instead of fucking me up/making me feel shitty
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
Got my blood pumping, meditated for a few minutes and YEAH wow it's working. Quietly but veryyy effectively.
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
This feels very different from how Focalin used to feel
I'm actually focused and feeling just waves of good feeling through my body at the same time. Chrome sparks is godly right now
Definitely gonna whip this dose out on more occasions
[QUOTE=ZenX2;47640237]I occasionally take lorazepam to help out with meditation (although I really shouldn't) but mostly I just use it therapeutically for anxiety, it's just a chill pill really, not much disinhibition/drunk feeling
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
I just took 1.25mg of Focalin, I don't think I've tried a dose this low in a while but I'm hoping it'll help me be productive instead of fucking me up/making me feel shitty
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
Got my blood pumping, meditated for a few minutes and YEAH wow it's working. Quietly but veryyy effectively.
[editline]1st May 2015[/editline]
This feels very different from how Focalin used to feel
I'm actually focused and feeling just waves of good feeling through my body at the same time. Chrome sparks is godly right now
Definitely gonna whip this dose out on more occasions[/QUOTE]
I'm going to start trying low doses if you can feel 1.25mg of focalin. it seems like it wouldn't even be noticeable. I'll definitely try this.
It might be sensitivity from taking 54mg/day concerta and then 25mg/day Focalin for a few years
And also I've been off XR Focalin for a few months now and haven't really much IR so I have no tolerance
But it definitely has an effect, like a big cup off coffee but more focused than awake
So some light rum is doin' the trick, 3 days clean I suppose.
Well, thats the last of the benzo and ketamine, and alcohol, at least until Monday. Man, this weekend is gonna suck.
EDIT:
What people say about benzo and alcohol mix is true, I just broke down and I feel like absolute shit right now. Don't do that mix, people, it really ain't good.
Smoked a bowl and ate a whole loaf of sourdough bread to myself once the munchies set in. Nothing added to it. Just straight up ate a loaf of bread the size of a foot/soccer ball.
Sourdough bread is good as fuck man.
I'm making some AVB edibles later today. How much AVB should i use in them?
Other than Agora, what other DarkNets are good?
none
srs tho Nucleus works but it's sketch. I just got scammed by someone I thought was a legit guy from Evo. The PGP key checked out, but if you do end up buying from someone who used to be on Evo, send them a PGP encrypted message using THE OLD EVO KEY before ordering.
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