[QUOTE=zach1193;47732638]oh man this batch I made tonight is soo good, so happy my supermarket keeps restocking em![/QUOTE]
God... poppy seed tea is just so bad to me.. I guess I shouldn't have expected much as codeine always just gives me a huge body load and a head rush along with being the only opiate that makes me nauseous and itchy. It tasted like shit and I basically got nothing for drinking that disaster.
I'm sending the rest back -.-
Ayyeeee, Agora is finally back up :D
[editline]15th May 2015[/editline]
Taking forever to get on though.
[QUOTE=Banandana;47733087]how come safeway has poppy seeds but not in a decent quantity[/QUOTE]
In cali I tried safeway's seeds, no good afaie
[editline]15th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Creid;47733294]God... poppy seed tea is just so bad to me.. I guess I shouldn't have expected much as codeine always just gives me a huge body load and a head rush along with being the only opiate that makes me nauseous and itchy. It tasted like shit and I basically got nothing for drinking that disaster.
I'm sending the rest back -.-[/QUOTE]
haha you either didn't do it right or the seeds were no good, what'd you use and stuff?
[editline]15th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=The fox;47733149]Wow, I just lost conciousness, I can't remember the past 10 - 15 minutes, at all, except there was something I was gonna say or something, and being extremely tired the second I came out of it.
Been doing lines and parachutes of Speed since I woke up, along with Alcohol. Kinda starting to get a tad bit worried, here.[/QUOTE]
My advice is to just chill on the drugs for a day or two and see how you feel, other than like shit, which is normal haha
stop doing drugs theyre bad
I'm moving in 13 days and I'm worried about ordering something and it coming late.
Well, I went to the psychiatrist and he told me to stop using drugs before he will treat me. Going so far as to test my saliva in three weeks to see if I have stopped using.
I don't know how shitty I should feel that I'm thinking of ways to get around this.
[QUOTE=Elecbullet;47733612]Well, I went to the psychiatrist and he told me to stop using drugs before he will treat me. Going so far as to test my saliva in three weeks to see if I have stopped using.
I don't know how shitty I should feel that I'm thinking of ways to get around this.[/QUOTE]
You should leave that therapist right away IMO. If they're gonna force their morals on you like that you need a psychiatrist that's there to help you on your terms, not theirs. The ideal therapist is someone who can see you from an unbiased point of view, not putting themselves in the thought when treating you, they have to look at it from a reality POV not theirs... In a sense.
[QUOTE=zach1193;47733699]You should leave that therapist right away IMO. If they're gonna force their morals on you like that you need a psychiatrist that's there to help you on your terms, not theirs. The ideal therapist is someone who can see you from an unbiased point of view, not putting themselves in the thought when treating you, they have to look at it from a reality POV not theirs... In a sense.[/QUOTE]
Bruh I've used 39 drugs. I have a list. I'm not just some pothead anymore.
In the interest of being truthful, and giving the fullest information, I was naming drugs like 25i-NBOMe and DOC, and he and his student hadn't ever heard of it, and they were Googling them and reading off things like "full agonist of 5-HT2A" and "substituted phenethylamine", and they were shaking their head and shit.
I do not blame him for thinking the drugs may be related to my problems and in the interest of getting an honest diagnosis and an actual attempt at therapy I will cut down. And I will ultimately not rule out the possibility that if I hadn't ever touched drugs I might have been less fucked up than I am currently.
Tycho is dank, gentleman jack is dank, dank is dank, everything is dank
I drink fireball straight from the bottle because propylene glycol is delicious
[QUOTE=Elecbullet;47734149]Bruh I've used 39 drugs. I have a list. I'm not just some pothead anymore.
In the interest of being truthful, and giving the fullest information, I was naming drugs like 25i-NBOMe and DOC, and he and his student hadn't ever heard of it, and they were Googling them and reading off things like "full agonist of 5-HT2A" and "substituted phenethylamine", and they were shaking their head and shit.
I do not blame him for thinking the drugs may be related to my problems and in the interest of getting an honest diagnosis and an actual attempt at therapy I will cut down. And I will ultimately not rule out the possibility that if I hadn't ever touched drugs I might have been less fucked up than I am currently.[/QUOTE]
They still just sound very uneducated on the matter, if it were me, I wouldn't want to trust someone with my thoughts and future mindset with someone like that.
[QUOTE=BLOODGA$M;47734399]I drink fireball straight from the bottle because propylene glycol is delicious[/QUOTE]
Hey If I haven't died yet from consuming massive amounts of fireball I'm sure you'll be fiinnnee. and in other news I realized that somehow I've managed to have an entire full size fridge/freezer whose contents consist solely of alcohol and things that go in alcohol......I may have a problem
[QUOTE=zach1193;47734410]They still just sound very uneducated on the matter, if it were me, I wouldn't want to trust someone with my thoughts and future mindset with someone like that.[/QUOTE]
Essentially any therapist's #1 recommendation would be to stop using all drugs not prescribed for treatment.
It's the same exact thing as a doctor telling you not to consume alcohol 24 hours before a surgery and not to eat or drink past midnight. Sure, you could ignore them, but it makes everyone's life easier if you just listen to the professionals.
Drugs mess with your brain and therapists and psychologists are supposed to help you fix your brain. It's not a lifestyle choice they're forcing on you, it's a medical concern and it's totally reasonable. Recreational drugs almost always exacerbate psychological diseases, and people with psych issues tend to be more prone to addiction and self-medication and other shit. Getting off drugs is what any self-respecting doctor would tell you to do - they want to figure out what's going wrong with your brain at the baseline level, not the day after binging on coke and alcohol and some speed and a few RCs. It's totally reasonable - doctors really don't want you dosing yourself with medications outside of their control, because if they decide to prescribe another medication they could very well kill you or cause unnecessary complications - and psychologists are essentially the same.
Seriously, a therapist who goes out and says "quit all drugs they're bad!!" is just a bad therapist. A therapist (or especially a psychologist) who puts the effort in to read into what drugs you're taking that they don't know of (and most people don't know about 25i it's not something you study in school), and then recommends that you stop doing drugs to reach a baseline level for more effective treatment - that's actually a good, worthwhile therapist.
in the meantime, got a job. haven't smoked since 4/20. haven't drank in 2 weeks. feeling pretty good about life. need more vyvanse.
I just got an unexpectedly massive hit from this wax
Normally I get barely any visible vapor exhaled, this one was a really dense cloud
[QUOTE=.Isak.;47735038]Essentially any therapist's #1 recommendation would be to stop using all drugs not prescribed for treatment.
It's the same exact thing as a doctor telling you not to consume alcohol 24 hours before a surgery and not to eat or drink past midnight. Sure, you could ignore them, but it makes everyone's life easier if you just listen to the professionals.
Drugs mess with your brain and therapists and psychologists are supposed to help you fix your brain. It's not a lifestyle choice they're forcing on you, it's a medical concern and it's totally reasonable. Recreational drugs almost always exacerbate psychological diseases, and people with psych issues tend to be more prone to addiction and self-medication and other shit. Getting off drugs is what any self-respecting doctor would tell you to do - they want to figure out what's going wrong with your brain at the baseline level, not the day after binging on coke and alcohol and some speed and a few RCs. It's totally reasonable - doctors really don't want you dosing yourself with medications outside of their control, because if they decide to prescribe another medication they could very well kill you or cause unnecessary complications - and psychologists are essentially the same.
Seriously, a therapist who goes out and says "quit all drugs they're bad!!" is just a bad therapist. A therapist (or especially a psychologist) who puts the effort in to read into what drugs you're taking that they don't know of (and most people don't know about 25i it's not something you study in school), and then recommends that you stop doing drugs to reach a baseline level for more effective treatment - that's actually a good, worthwhile therapist.
in the meantime, got a job. haven't smoked since 4/20. haven't drank in 2 weeks. feeling pretty good about life. need more vyvanse.[/QUOTE]
but isak theyre tryign to force me to think drugz r bad and dats bad i want to do drugs and dont want to improve my life fuck them 4 telling me wut 2 do and fuck athority im fine the way i am *snorts more cocaine*
[insecurity intensifies]
Skipping out some details but ran into someone yesterday who knows a couple people I distantly know and now I can get 2C-B again, guy said he can sort DMT and MXE as well but was really against getting MXE for me, said everyone he knows who did any had a horrible time. Guess I just need to give him some incentive.
Might stop taking sertraline soon, doesn't feel like it's doing anything at all anymore whereas before I was feeling noticeably more motivated. Nothings changed in my daily life, if anything things are better so I don't see why it's stopped helping me. Probably back to experimenting with whatever I can get my hands on if I can find a job.
might be scoring some shrooms today.... fuck yea, i have been waiting for this like a year !
Took ~2 grams with the girl I'm seeing last night and boy, what a night it was.
Never thought I could feel so close to somebody
[editline]16th May 2015[/editline]
this but everywhere
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[editline]16th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=The Aussie;47733251]Did you get the 10 gram or the 30 gram pack?[/QUOTE]
Yea
Last night I hit the bong so hard I almost passed out.
I want to see how long I can go without smoking, starting today.
[QUOTE=.Isak.;47735038]Essentially any therapist's #1 recommendation would be to stop using all drugs not prescribed for treatment.
It's the same exact thing as a doctor telling you not to consume alcohol 24 hours before a surgery and not to eat or drink past midnight. Sure, you could ignore them, but it makes everyone's life easier if you just listen to the professionals.
Drugs mess with your brain and therapists and psychologists are supposed to help you fix your brain. It's not a lifestyle choice they're forcing on you, it's a medical concern and it's totally reasonable. Recreational drugs almost always exacerbate psychological diseases, and people with psych issues tend to be more prone to addiction and self-medication and other shit. Getting off drugs is what any self-respecting doctor would tell you to do - they want to figure out what's going wrong with your brain at the baseline level, not the day after binging on coke and alcohol and some speed and a few RCs. It's totally reasonable - doctors really don't want you dosing yourself with medications outside of their control, because if they decide to prescribe another medication they could very well kill you or cause unnecessary complications - and psychologists are essentially the same.
Seriously, a therapist who goes out and says "quit all drugs they're bad!!" is just a bad therapist. A therapist (or especially a psychologist) who puts the effort in to read into what drugs you're taking that they don't know of (and most people don't know about 25i it's not something you study in school), and then recommends that you stop doing drugs to reach a baseline level for more effective treatment - that's actually a good, worthwhile therapist.
in the meantime, got a job. haven't smoked since 4/20. haven't drank in 2 weeks. feeling pretty good about life. need more vyvanse.[/QUOTE]
Suggesting to stop drugs is one thing, but they shouldn't just tell you not to do them or they'll deny treatment, what if I want help with my psyche and still want to take drugs? Hell denying treatment for something so arbitrary isn't really helping someone, especially if someone has an issue quitting drugs in the first place.
[editline]16th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Banandana;47735166]but isak theyre tryign to force me to think drugz r bad and dats bad i want to do drugs and dont want to improve my life fuck them 4 telling me wut 2 do and fuck athority im fine the way i am *snorts more cocaine*
[insecurity intensifies][/QUOTE]
Lol did I really sound like that? well, that's opium.
fuck yea, few hours till the mushies... i have taken like half a trip ( dont know the weight ) before and it was very nice, hoping I am going to experience full trip today
Ahhhh more poppy seed tea... I wonder how shitty withdrawal is for this compared to other opiates...
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysPcyOvNJew[/media]
The rain needs to stop, I want summer :(
Spend two hours night before prepping computer and house for acid trip.
Proceed to wakeup and check weather. Cloudy and going to rain after being sunny all week when I was inside at work.
I guess I'm tripping on Sunday now, at least I can start earlier.
Yeah I'm delaying my trip until tomorrow as well; too many little things that aren't right all kind of adding up instead of any one thing stopping me
I didn't sleep as much as I'd want to before a trip, my brain is a bit unbalanced after last night's festivities, the people I'd want to hang around and talk with between meditation aren't here today, and I'd like to start at 11am instead of 1-2pm
I might just explore nature today to get in the right mindset
Meditation on shrooms is cool because you can visualize the silence filling the room
I gotta start stretching every day, before I wake up at 45 with fibromyalgia and sciatica needing opiates to function.
Well, I have been.. naaaaughty, just dropped a tab of LSD, gonna see if I can increase the potency with some Speed and just drop the remaining 4 tomorrow. Should still give a pretty nice trip, i'd reckon.
Lol so I just went to play some magic the gathering. .... and they passed me lIke a gram of death caps
sooo Choo Choo this train is leaving. :)
loneliness is crippling and emphasized after bacardi
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