liquor is only good for loneliness when you've got other people to drink with. if you try to combat loneliness by getting drunk alone, you'll just end up yelling at walls and parked cars.
Random depression incapacitated me mentally and physically for the past 7 hours but I just kicked it the fuck out of my mind
That shit has no place in here. Just gotta jumpdafuckup
[editline]16th May 2015[/editline]
I want to go scream at the sky for a while
24 hours without sparking a thing. It's a start, it's the first time in probably two years.
Goodnight DD.
Who's line is it anyways?
[QUOTE=Banandana;47741180]Who's line is it anyways?[/QUOTE]
I have no idea, but i'll gladly let it go up the nose anyhow.
And that LSD trip was pretty damn intense for being just 90ug. Kinda glad I didn't drop all 5 at once as I was thinking, I have a feeling that would just be way too much.
Another thing I also noticed, that while Speed and LSD works on different parts of your brain and such, should not be mixed. Many people seem to get bad trips out of it, I also saw a seizure warning about the Stims/Psychedelic mix. Personally, though, I had one hell of an intense trip, and am pondering on whether to wait with the last of these blotters or not.
EDIT:
Also
[quote]Happy birthday, The fox! Have a good one :)[/quote]
Go me, I guess, one year closer to death and even more stupid than last time. Just sucks how much things can change in a year.
where do I learn about the basics of darknet safety and shit?
[QUOTE=geogzm;47741735]where do I learn about the basics of darknet safety and shit?[/QUOTE]
Download Tor, follow recommended settings it gives you. Look up Bitcoins, get a wallet. Get Kleopatra and encrypt all communication you do over Tor.
TAILS on a USB drive if you're really paranoid.
[img]http://i.imgur.com/JmYyRHL.jpg[/img]
[QUOTE=geogzm;47741735]where do I learn about the basics of darknet safety and shit?[/QUOTE]
Google:
[B]PGP [/B]encryption/decryption (GNU Privacy Guard for windows: [url]https://www.gnupg.org/%28es%29/related_software/gpa/index.html[/url])
[B]TOR[/B]
[QUOTE]Tor is a popular privacy enhancing system that is designed to protect the privacy
of Internet users from traffic analysis attacks launched by a non-global
adversary [1]. Because Tor provides an anonymity service on top of TCP while
maintaining relatively low latency and high throughput, it is ideal for interactive
applications such as web browsing, file sharing, and instant messaging. [/QUOTE] - [url]http://freehaven.net/anonbib/cache/mccoy-pet2008.pdf[/url]
[url]https://www.torproject.org/[/url]
[B]BTC and the blockchain [/B]
[url]https://www.circle.com[/url]
[url]http://www.ofnumbers.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/Learning-from-Bitcoins-past.pdf[/url]
[QUOTE]A block chain is a transaction database shared by all nodes participating in a system based on the Bitcoin protocol. A full copy of a currency's block chain contains every transaction ever executed in the currency. With this information, one can find out how much value belonged to each address at any point in history.[/QUOTE]
[url]http://coinalytics.co/tech.html[/url]
[B]Tumbling[/B]
[QUOTE]using our service you mix up your bitcoins in our own pool with other users' bitcoins, and get paid back to other addresses from our mixed pool, which, if properly done by you can eliminate any chance of finding your payments and making it impossible to prove any connection between a deposit and a withdraw inside our service.[/QUOTE]
[url]http://www.bitcoinfog.com/[/url]
Marketplace info, status, and news
[url]http://www.deepdotweb.com/[/url]
User Helix Light to tumble, no account, super fast and Bitcoinfog had weird scamming allegations a while ago:
[url]https://en.bitcoin.it/wiki/Helix_light[/url]
Also, use Electrum to store your coins, don't store them on a wallet you don't have direct access to
[url]https://electrum.org/#home[/url]
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47742043]User Helix Light to tumble, no account, super fast and Bitcoinfog had weird scamming allegations a while ago:
[url]https://en.bitcoin.it/wiki/Helix_light[/url]
Also, use Electrum to store your coins, don't store them on a wallet you don't have direct access to
[url]https://electrum.org/#home[/url][/QUOTE]
I use multibit for my wallet
I was thinking about starting a Addicts Lounge group on Steam, though, figured id gauge the general interest of it here, before doing that?
When a friend offers me a bump of coke, am I supposed to say no?
I don't even know anymore. It feels weird being sober still.
[editline]17th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=The fox;47743354]I was thinking about starting a Addicts Lounge group on Steam, though, figured id gauge the general interest of it here, before doing that?[/QUOTE]
I don't see why? Are we going to discuss our drug experiences over steam group chat? Doesn't sound like a good idea to me.
There was a steam chat/group around two years ago
Eating a big breakfast, then I'm gonna get everything sorted and take a 60ug tab
Today is gonna be chill af
[editline]17th May 2015[/editline]
Dropped about 40min ago, meditation and the visualization is going well. I moved from visualizing my home to visualizing where I am now after I started, sat down where I am sitting, started meditating, and did that again and again, in every thought I am here, in every thought I am clear, and in every thought I am happy
This is very mellow
[editline]17th May 2015[/editline]
I'm feeling somewhere between micro dosing and tripping, drawing is super easy right now. No mental barriers stopping me from just going
[editline]17th May 2015[/editline]
This is more of a walk across the street than a trip but that's exactly what I was going for
I can be a lot more productive if my mind is free, not fried
[QUOTE=The fox;47743354]I was thinking about starting a Addicts Lounge group on Steam, though, figured id gauge the general interest of it here, before doing that?[/QUOTE]
There's already one. Anubis started it iirc
we should split off and make our own DD forum
and monetize it by making members pay for gold
and then make it so dissimilar to DD that it alienates most everyone
41 hours without a smoke. New 2015 record!
Got ninja'd by a j though, so the timer resets.
Can anyone who's up to date with BTC send me a PM? I got some money for graduation and I want to get some goodies but I need private instructions and help since I'm so obsolete in terms of BTC knowledge.
[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95-YHckfo0s[/media]
feels good
I realized tonight that a lot of my constant underlying anxiety is just from expecting bad things to happen, and I need to shift my mindset to expecting or at least thinking about more positive possibilities, because even though that won't change their probability I'll be happier so why not
I do that do. I, by default, expect bad things to happen when speaking to someone new or trying my hand at something different.
[I]marijuana is just used so people can escape reality and find comfort in an imaginary world[/I]
[editline]18th May 2015[/editline]
[video=youtube;8KZ0wjz_mNs]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8KZ0wjz_mNs[/video]
It's like my anxiety for external stuff has kind of disappeared, like although I'm not significantly more socially active, I don't worry about it anymore
What happened is now it's more internal, within my mind. I worry about my thoughts and not anything physical. Which I think is progress, even though it's not pleasant. I think this is the death throes of my anxiety, grasping on to something it can make me worry about before it dies away completely and I emerge the person I want to be
And some therapy could help
well that's the 3rd time my mom has viewed DD and confronted me about it. looks like i've got to stop posting about what I'm doing or have done for a long time. back to lurking or at least only helping/warning people
ffs
[QUOTE=Creid;47748952]well that's the 3rd time my mom has viewed DD and confronted me about it. looks like i've got to stop posting about what I'm doing or have done for a long time. back to lurking or at least only helping/warning people
ffs[/QUOTE]
what does she think of me? <3
[QUOTE=Creid;47748952]well that's the 3rd time my mom has viewed DD and confronted me about it. looks like i've got to stop posting about what I'm doing or have done for a long time. back to lurking or at least only helping/warning people
ffs[/QUOTE]
Also curious about what cody said, has she commented on anyone else who posts here? :v:
she must absolutely adore my posting habits
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