[QUOTE=CoilingTesla;46953528]Mods are still asleep. Post wake n bake pui
I'm finally on academic probation! Financial-aid doesn't seem to mind, enrollment is go!
I think the lexapro is starting to build up. I keep waking up earlier and smiling, which hasn't happened before. I have never been a morning person.
My memory and focus are shit and I can't keep failing classes. I feel like I shouldn't be going to school be cause I'll end up failing again and wasting the money my grandparents invested in my education. Doc, I need some vyvanse![/QUOTE]
waking up early and having a steady schedule is awesome.
and are you sure you care about what youre learning about? or are you just doing it because you have to
[editline]17th January 2015[/editline]
vyvanse is some addictive shit when you use it to get through bullshit that doesnt matter. i was on it 5 months in high school and would always end up not sleeping right and just taking another and staying up days at a time, not good.
just be careful with it
[QUOTE=soupman345-2;46954166]waking up early and having a steady schedule is awesome.
and are you sure you care about what youre learning about? or are you just doing it because you have to
[editline]17th January 2015[/editline]
vyvanse is some addictive shit when you use it to get through bullshit that doesnt matter. i was on it 5 months in high school and would always end up not sleeping right and just taking another and staying up days at a time, not good.
just be careful with it[/QUOTE]
I'm not trying to get high off of it, I just need a little cognitive-motivational push. I haven't been abusing my Xanax, so I think I can do without abusing anything else I'm scripted.
I abused the shit out of mdma when I could get it, I learned my lesson. I don't want to feel stimmed up, I just want to be stimulated into doing my work.
When I took Automotive Electronics, I passed with an A, but any other class like English, math, or a simple auto engines class, I failed miserably. Not because I can't do the work, but because I always feel like doing something else or daydreaming.
I just ingested 5 pellets of 6 mg meclonazepam, lets see if the dosage is adequate.
[QUOTE=inebriaticxp;46952593]man whatever happened to
-that cute aussie hippie chick who was always at crazy music festivals
-i can't remmeber his exact name but it was like werewolf or something, he always had a cool shirt in his pictures
-that girl who got reddit famous over the horse picture
and the other people from the poyh thread
[editline]17th January 2015[/editline]
i know /b/rother is still around here someplace[/QUOTE]
-bethanygrace is still on here i think, last thing i remember is her living with roomies in what sounded like a psychonaut's dream of tripping and smoking
-werem00se got permad but came back on an alt
-taniatiger? i remember it being something with a tiger or cat, yeah dunno about her but yeah she was cute im sure shes fine
Oh yeah, that was adequate. How are my pals doing?
I'm about to parttake in the only drug I [del]can get my hands on[/del] even remotely trust myself with. Hopping on the alcohol train all the way to hangover town.
[QUOTE=Magman77;46954514]I'm about to parttake in the only drug I can get my hands on. Hopping on the alcohol train all the way to hangover town.[/QUOTE]
Just be careful you don't end up in the situation I managed to procure for myself: Alcoholism. The complete inability to remain sober.
Edit: Don't take this too seriously, it was kinda a unique situation that produced my alcoholism, it had to do with wrongly prescribed medication that you absolutely do not give to a bipolar patient mixed with an unbearable state of anxiety that caused me to drink, daily, for several months.
Between the meth and heroin dreams and friends trying to convince me to drink at every possible occasion this whole sobriety thing is beyond rough. Pretty much over the breakup I had recently though so there's an upshot.
Someone told me yesterday that because I'm 20 I'm allowed to be dumb and experiment, immediately after I told them I had a drug addiction problem that I was trying to get over. About to say fuck it and just be a weekend warrior and nod the fuck out all weekend every weekend
[editline]17th January 2015[/editline]
Especially because every time I start to develop a problem that becomes financially or emotional detrimental, I back off for a bit which is a nice talent.
[QUOTE=Mr. Bleak;46954535]Especially because every time I start to develop a problem that becomes financially or emotional detrimental, I back off for a bit which is a nice talent.[/QUOTE]
If you've developed financial or emotional problems due to excess drinking, it's too late man.
But what people need to understand is that you don't develop alcoholism by simply abusing alcohol, it generally takes years to get to that point where you have been drinking non-stop for 3 weeks and simply can not bear to stop drinking.
I drank every day last summer and then snapped out of my shit thankfully. Still drank every weekend though, but in a social setting. Last spring break I did hide in my room with a gallon of vodka for the week though which was p bad. But I've been sober off of alcohol for 2 months now so I mean, I have no urge to drink really. It's more of an urge to be in more social situations. My dad and my mom's mom are both really bad alcoholics so I realize how likely it is to happen to me
Really want to try shrooms still though
I keep wondering why you guys are talking about cars so much
Then I realize I'm in Automotive Addicts
[QUOTE=mrmr;46954798]I keep wondering why you guys are talking about cars so much
Then I realize I'm in Automotive Addicts[/QUOTE]
I was drinking coke while reading this and ALMOST spit at the screen in laughter.
smoke weed every day
This makes for funny reading if you pretend they're talking about the real Beatles rather than actual terrorists
[url]http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Beatles_%28terrorist_cell%29[/url]
I'm going to ingest another 5 pellets of meclonazepam, to feel better and fall asleep more easily.
I tried heroin yesterday, it was pretty fun. I fucked up every time I tried to plug it and ended up just being warm and happy, going to grab some food, and falling asleep in my bed.
After looking up salvia art and reading a ton of experience reports, it seems like it should be right up my alley
I've always enjoyed the falling feeling, visual distortion, and intense internal hallucinations of wormy, branching, tree/snake-like things flying through me I get while super blazed, and it sounds like salvia takes that to the next level and then some
Yeah fuck it I'm going back up to that level or more tonight, I haven't smoked at all today so 5-7 good hits from my Solo should get me royally fucked up
smoked a fat joint, burned my nose because my friend turbo-fuckbutted my lighter up
gotta love dat sweet sweet paycheck
snip, no longer relevant
[QUOTE=geogzm;46952806]well, i'll try to make a post about drugs in the wait for antichrist's DD
i'm looking for an intense trip and a guy at college is selling AMT, anybody experienced that?[/QUOTE]
yea AMT is cool, lasts quite a while(6-8 hours), gave a decent euphoria and a couple crazy hallucinations. i found it sort of like a weaker acid, that made us quite anal about things being neat and tidy
I got stupid crossfaded last night, although i was surprised at my ability to instantly sober up when the situation called for it, as one of my buddies had come back from working on a dairy farm in victoria and was out to get trashed, but drank was too much, became unresponsive, and an ambulance had to be called. It kinda reminded me i still want to be an ambulance officer. That point aside, i'd never seen someone that fucked up before.
[QUOTE=The Aussie;46957518]I got stupid crossfaded last night, although i was surprised at my ability to instantly sober up when the situation called for it, as one of my buddies had come back from working on a dairy farm in victoria and was out to get trashed, but drank was too much, became unresponsive, and an ambulance had to be called. It kinda reminded me i still want to be an ambulance officer. That point aside, i'd never seen someone that fucked up before.[/QUOTE]
Some people just go way too hard when they drink. I had an old co worker who was a real nice dude, really had potential to get out of the shit neighborhood he was in but his weakness was booze. This dude would get so wasted on a constant basis that I had to do an 11 hour shift without him because he got to wasted at a bbq party to come in to work. Then his friend (who was also a co worker) showed me on his phone a vid of him drunk and he was literally falling over and rolling in broken glass in their basement (they throw their bottles at a pillar so its just a bunch of shit on the floor). There were days that I'd see him at work with cuts and shit on his arm and he'd be like "you know you had a good time when you don't remember how you got these". All of his friends urged him not to drink cause they know how he gets, he knows too. Told me how he wants to quit drinking to better himself, I really hope he's doing ok with that stuff. I see him sometimes when I pickup and I recommend him anime to watch and shit, he really is a sweetheart that just needs help with his demons.
Wondering what you guys might think of a mirtazapine and etizolam mix? What reactions might that have
I was reading that certain benzos can cause a weird reaction but since etizolam is a thienodiazepine it happens to be legal in the UK. So not much research I have found so far on it, more some people speculate it should be alright and others saying it might not
Google isn't showing much either so what do you guys think
The woman I love and adore stopped all communication with me. We were best friends too, we really understood each other.
I'm going to ease the pain with drugs. A lot of them. And not stop until I'm either hospitalized or dead.
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Hurting yourself is not the road to take.
I've given up, on everything, for now.
"For now" seems key in that. Don't fuck your future self for the sake of the present. You [I]will[/I] regret it.
[QUOTE=Memnoth;46958635]I've given up, on everything, for now.[/QUOTE]
Please don't. There is only one mistake you can make in life, and that is giving up.
[QUOTE=GeeOhDee;46958773]Please don't. There is only one mistake you can make in life, and that is giving up.[/QUOTE]
That's a relative statement, if I make the decision to end my life, then my subjective goal is rather fulfilled.
[QUOTE=Memnoth;46958806]That's a relative statement, if I make the decision to end my life, then my subjective goal is rather fulfilled.[/QUOTE]
you really want to go that far with it?
and most likely drive yourself insane in the process?
when bad shit happens thats the best time to work out / meditate in some form, preferably outside to connect to nature
[editline]18th January 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Memnoth;46958806]That's a relative statement, if I make the decision to end my life, then my subjective goal is rather fulfilled.[/QUOTE]
well to be honest you cant be so sure that really is your goal or the drugs talking, be safe bro
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