[QUOTE=Banandana;47822313]nah dude I have it easy, people would love to be me
it's always about the girl though, and how she will be leaving
yet she's the coolest person ever how could I ever get over that[/QUOTE]
Getting over those kinda girls is a bit tricky, you feel like you've been robbed of something when you lose them and for a while the pain can make it difficult to appreciate what you've in fact gained by having those feelings regardless of the extent of the relationship; I'll tell you what I think about this but I understand if you struggle to see it in the same way for a while, and i'm not saying that this is necessarily the way to go about it but imo you don't worry about getting over it, the harder you try to 'get over it' the harder it gets. Instead, you appreciate that you had the opportunity to share something with her and make the most of those good memories, reminding yourself that you were awesome enough to share something with someone that cool, which means you're awesome enough to do it again in the future, and learning from any mistakes you made for future opportunities;. What you gain from having had that ultimately outweighs the loss in the long run, though for a while the loss will suck a huge deal and can put you through a deal of hardship, something I didn't quite understand with my first big relationship was that sometimes, letting each other go is for the best even if you really love eachother, especially if you have the other person's best interests in mind, it gives you both the opportunity to grow, learn and explore other people, and it may not seem like it now, but there are a LOT of awesome people out there that you will probably get along with far better
Don't focus on the loss of a relationship, because really, it's not a loss of a possession, something I used to struggle with (I didn't think I felt that way, but in reality I did), really it's just a change in the relationship between the two of you which has probably been happening naturally over time, but the security of being in a 'committed' relationship is something people often fight for in a possessive way, which is kind of weird.
Love and infatuation is weird in general, but yeah. You'll get through it, try to think back on what you had in a fond way if at all possible and keep that in mind, you were fully capable of having that, and you are fully capable of having it again someday.
Short term rapid infatuation is the most confusing, I was really into this one girl not too long ago, I still occasionally think about her and get confused as to how that didn't work out, she was pretty awesome but nowadays I laugh at my own shortcomings in that situation (Was so going to get laid, but I was high and overthinking and ended up with a haircut, no more contact with her after that night but I so wish I hadn't missed the obvious and messed up that bad... She was a Bi girl and got in a relationship with a girl not too long after that though I think I turned her off guys ohshit)
GETTING OVER THAT IDEA IS SOMETHING I AM NOT GOOD AT
I'm a sucker for those books where the character finds love and fuckin goes off to live a new life with them and shit works out
[QUOTE=Banandana;47822375]GETTING OVER THAT IDEA IS SOMETHING I AM NOT GOOD AT
I'm a sucker for those books where the character finds love and fuckin goes off to live a new life with them and shit works out[/QUOTE]
neither man, most of us are fucking terrible at it until we've done it quite a few times, I still suck at it :)
fuck everything
out of curiosity, is she gone yet or is she just leaving soon or what, if you've been posting the story in here as it goes I haven't really been following it probably due to being mostly disconnected and less frequent, so I apologize for not knowing the full story
leaving at the end of this month
also I snorted this fat line of ketamine holy shit things are getting weird
it's literally another signature bullshit post by me :v:
[editline]27th May 2015[/editline]
dude holy shit this is actually a lot of k
I'd say don't let the fact that she's going away soon get in the way of enjoying what time you have left with eachother
snorting lines of k hoping everything will be ok Stufff will happen
YOU HAVE NO IDEA I'm at the end of the universe
[QUOTE=ZenX2;47822173]I have a deep love for all of you
If I could be drunk 24/7 without being an alcoholic that would be a nice existence[/QUOTE]
love you 2 zenx2,
being drunk 24/7 with no repercussions would be cool in a way, i'm sure we've all contemplated that more than once
sober me disagrees though, on account of how careless I get when i'm drunk;
but then drunk me is careless enough to not care about how careless I am when i'm drunk
such a paradox
fuck my life
I have no idea
I've decided, no more weed until saturday when i finish all my uni stuff. I've been smoking way too much lately and i believe it's affecting my mental health. I stopped monday and so far i haven't noticed many changes but i'm sleeping a lot better at least. I think my mind is a little clearer too. This is the longest i've been sober for about two months. I finish uni tomorrow (although i've got 5 exams spaced over the next three weeks). It's my first semester of university, maybe i'm naive but it's so much fucking better than high school already.
[QUOTE=The Aussie;47822573]I've decided, no more weed until saturday when i finish all my uni stuff. I've been smoking way too much lately and i believe it's affecting my mental health. I stopped monday and so far i haven't noticed many changes but i'm sleeping a lot better at least. I think my mind is a little clearer too. This is the longest i've been sober for about two months. I finish uni tomorrow (although i've got 5 exams spaced over the next three weeks). It's my first semester of university, maybe i'm naive but it's so much fucking better than high school already.[/QUOTE]
uni is worlds more enjoyable than high school
you get a lot more freedom, and it's usually that you're doing it because you actually want to be doing it as opposed to feeling forced into it
Can about 80% confirm the plants I have found are ruderalis.
I'm probably gonna do some hedgework in order to get them to brush out more, but hey always hilarious to find pot plants growing in your local neighborhood thanks to some potheads throwing seeds everywhere.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;47822433]love you 2 zenx2,
being drunk 24/7 with no repercussions would be cool in a way, i'm sure we've all contemplated that more than once
sober me disagrees though, on account of how careless I get when i'm drunk;
but then drunk me is careless enough to not care about how careless I am when i'm drunk
such a paradox[/QUOTE]
Drunk me is just super giddy/comfortable with the world and people
I still run through checklists in my head so I'm not especially careless
The only problem is that my usual willingness to help people out turns into me being willing to do whatever people tell me without really thinking about it, including eating a whole clove of raw garlic (I really don't recommend this)
I'm also taking a break from weed until after my trip Saturday and possibly longer. I've been blocking out the world by smoking all day I realize now (again), I've gotten way off track from my mood control regime of sleeping, exercising, and heavily restricted smoking
drunk me makes me hate myself even more
[editline]28th May 2015[/editline]
wait ever single drug makes me like that
[QUOTE=MEOWTFLOL;47823175]drunk me makes me hate myself even more
[editline]28th May 2015[/editline]
wait ever single drug makes me like that[/QUOTE]
drunk me just goes and tells people he used to wank over them when he was 13 and its not very fun
[QUOTE=Consciousness;47821167]found or "found" ?
in any regard you should maybe bring it up with a manager, while it's great you're getting a small collection from it, someone's either losing their meds or getting their meds jacked by someone else and that's going to interfere with your company's productivity[/QUOTE]
Found on the ground while vacuuming. It wasn't in the dementia units so im guessing whoever it should belong to isn't gonna die because of it. The only other unit is short term rehab so i dont feel as bad picking up pills from that ground
[editline]28th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Banandana;47822313]nah dude I have it easy, people would love to be me, having the dream job at fuckin 19
it's always about the girl though, and how she will be leaving
yet she's the coolest person ever how could I ever get over that
I just met her, and it's crazy how much life hates me
we could have been awesome together :/
[editline]27th May 2015[/editline]
better count my goddamn lucky stars son[/QUOTE]
I'm kinda going through something similar. Although were not officially dating, this girl and i have been fucking and going out to eat for a few months but shes leaving for college in fall. Its gonna be a long drive between us but weve talked it out and were gonna try to enjoy the time we si have
[QUOTE=cody8295;47823886]Found on the ground while vacuuming. It wasn't in the dementia units so im guessing whoever it should belong to isn't gonna die because of it. The only other unit is short term rehab so i dont feel as bad picking up pills from that ground
[editline]28th May 2015[/editline]
I'm kinda going through something similar. Although were not officially dating, this girl and i have been fucking and going out to eat for a few months but shes leaving for college in fall. Its gonna be a long drive between us but weve talked it out and were gonna try to enjoy the time we si have[/QUOTE]
ahhhhh I didn't realize you worked in a place where medication was common, thought it was just some random workplace and it was one of the worker's meds
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47822205]Omfg I am so fucking tired and I'm tripping balls so hard. I keep wanting to fall asleep, and I get so close it feels like I'm dying, it's terryfing, like giving in to sleep at this point would be like death. The darkness is actually so scary I dont like closing my eyes, going to head out to college and interact with people because I feel like I'm going insane brb
[editline]28th May 2015[/editline]
I'm actually really scared of passing out now lol[/QUOTE]
Ok I got out of this bad trip feeling, I think I got most of my shit figured out. I think I can enjoy summer and put my mind at ease for a while.
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Chillin' with flybro before I go pass out in bed
hahahahaha so guys guess what I just found sprawled generously throughout my backyard? Shittons of poppy plants from the pounds of poppy seeds I threw back there after using them for tea! Gonna be a good year if some of these guys make it!
Maybe I should make some pact with myself not to take any opiates til the plants are done, that'd be cool
Drunk me is an asshole, though, gets way better after some Speed, of which I have none anymore :( Probably gonna wait until next time I get cash before ordering more, in case the last shpiment actually is stuck in customs.
As for ketamine, yeah, doing lines of that shit makes me feel real good, especially combined with alcohol. Basically how I got past losting my girl this year, kinda helped me turn the page somewhat, too, still hurts more than anything i've ever experienced, though.
Man, now I really want more Ketamine, god damnit.
[QUOTE=zach1193;47824673]hahahahaha so guys guess what I just found sprawled generously throughout my backyard? Shittons of poppy plants from the pounds of poppy seeds I threw back there after using them for tea! Gonna be a good year if some of these guys make it!
Maybe I should make some pact with myself not to take any opiates til the plants are done, that'd be cool[/QUOTE]
are they the little green sprouts? they won't make it unless you specially help them grow I've seen it happen heaps.
Can you harvest anything from poppy flowers? My sister grows some and I might too if they're any use.
ive just made a fucking awful decision, ive just smoked some of the 5F-AKB48 soaked herbs, and now im kinda fucked, ive not only got to deal with eating infront of the family, ive got the guys over for DnD in an hour or so and im not sure if ill be able to handle it
[QUOTE=despair3173;47825241]ive just made a fucking awful decision, ive just smoked some of the 5F-AKB48 soaked herbs, and now im kinda fucked, ive not only got to deal with eating infront of the family, ive got the guys over for DnD in an hour or so and im not sure if ill be able to handle it[/QUOTE]
oh my well best of luck to you, just take it easy and think about what you did later bro
[QUOTE=CoilingTesla;47825153]Can you harvest anything from poppy flowers? My sister grows some and I might too if they're any use.[/QUOTE]
if its these ones
[img]https://encrypted-tbn2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRhxCeJOa53JgPTP0Xi9DMLDCI9cA0eMgksJPWPqfdE9hk6XwztSA[/img]
Then yes
If its these ones
[img]http://ala.pa-legion.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/10/poppy-image.jpg[/img]
Then no.
Damnit. Whats the distinction?
Will the seeds I get from Safeway or amazon grow the somniferum or rhoeas?
The one that doesn't get you high is Papaver rhoeas
while the one that does is Papaver somniferum,
AKA they are two different plants
Paid for my fall semester and got some shitty news about summer. Smoke time
[QUOTE=CoilingTesla;47825153]Can you harvest anything from poppy flowers? My sister grows some and I might too if they're any use.[/QUOTE]
Not the flowers the pods before they bloom.
[editline]28th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;47825107]are they the little green sprouts? they won't make it unless you specially help them grow I've seen it happen heaps.[/QUOTE]
They are currently the sprouts but the soils is treated soil from my dad's plants and there's a run off drain so the soil doesn't stay too moist. Any tips on how I can help them grow?
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