Just took a bottles worth of dextromethorphan hbr in pill form, how long does it take to kick in? Not my first time messing with robo by the way, but its the first time using the gel pills.
I've been sober for months (besides alcohol lol).
That's really getting old though, it's just a chore at this point I've overdone it. :\
I need to find some new dealers and quick. This sucks.
Ive never been this hungover before
you could also buy guns off of silk road which im sure didnt help his case.
[editline]30th May 2015[/editline]
also he received money from every sale
[QUOTE=Banandana;47836753]Just because there's no evidence doesn't mean he didn't do it. I mean yeah they shouldn't put him away for something so severe, but keep in mind, we're at war.
....the war on drugs :v:[/QUOTE]
Yea only it's like in the movies or video games where the protagonist (america) is working for the supposed "good guys" who turn out in the end to be the bad guys and the drug users are the good rebel group trying to expose the bigger group for it's crimes... :v:
[editline]30th May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;47839248]you could also buy guns off of silk road which im sure didnt help his case.
[editline]30th May 2015[/editline]
also he received money from every sale[/QUOTE]
Regardless I think it was a cool concept and I'm just bummed he got caught I guess haha
The main thing that bothered me about his case was they had family members of people who OD'd off drugs sold from his site go to court and basically guilt trip him with their personal experiences. Seriously fucked up and unnecessary shit right there, people made a conscious decision to go out, buy bitcoin, learn pgp or whatever it took to contact a vendor, risk it coming through the mail, and then ingest the drug. You wouldn't blame Walmart if there was a recall on your Hersheys chocolate bar containing bleach, Walmart is just a means to make the product available to people and by no means has quality control outside of their own products like fresh vegetables/fruits so on. It just pisses me off that people thought bringing family members there to relive their tragedy just to 'get back' at someone is somehow "justice".
The general public's idea of justice is so fucking shortsighted and archaic its no wonder its so one sided these days. We try to sell ourselves as being all compassionate creatures who would do anything to help a troubled child, or that we are so high and mighty and in control that we can just throw in a new law and everyone will follow it to the t just like that. But its anything but that, people forget that its not like our justice system was created flawlessly in the first place, that maybe just maybe our old justice system was broken as fuck and we just made very small changes to a very broken system over the years to where we are now. So that amazing balanced scale of justice really never was balanced, it was loaded from the start not just by people in power, but by our own social biases, instinct like knee jerk reactions, that we naturally have as humans but fail to correct it when it gets out of hand. Think about how tv has turned court cases into fucking reality tv shows, how all of a sudden, this specific case about a poor white girl who has disappeared and no evidence besides a troubled mother who lives no where near you is all your news station is talking about and suddenly you are now an expert juror on the case and you believe, no wait you [I]know[/I], that shes guilty just from shreds of evidence that has gone through the telephone game that is the media. Shit drives me nuts when people think court cases are some watercooler conversation where we can casually talk about how someone got murdered or some shit like that. That kind of thinking devalues justice and makes it just as shortsighted as the system in place during the Salem witch trials.
Justice should be about critical thinking, about looking at all the facts at hand, then looking at the severity of the crime, what kind of person and what circumstances brought them there, and determining what would be the best course of action if found guilty. We've gotten so ok with the idea of 'undesirables' that its totally ok to pick and choose people to place them out of society and just leave them there to rot. Some people can change if you gave them the proper rehab, but nope that's too harwd, there's too many people, can't afford it. Well if you had some kind of system that didn't throw everyone in jail for different crimes, if you sent more people to community service, if you actually gave people shorter sentences but those terms would teach them new skills and help them get back into society and function then you get them back on their feet instead of being a useless leech on the system. I applaud the social workers who do reading and writing classes in prisons to try and teach them [I]something[/I]. Make some kind of use for them cause otherwise prisoners will just turn to their old ways of aggression and anti social behavior to survive in the can.
Our system is fucked way before this anyway cause we have no system in place to teach people laws in the first place. People don't know that you have to give an officer your name if he/she asks, so when they hear an officer ask them the dumb people think "oh god must be a fake cop, I know my rights, I don't have to give you shit" and they freak out and escalate a totally benign situation and forces the cops' hand. If you take a moment and think, who [I]should[/I] be going into the encounter with less knowledge, the citizen who knows cops are there to protect and serve who are bound by jurisdictions and rule books, who in the end has to report to a supervisor and show proof that the procedure they used was justified, or the cop who is dealing with a totally random person they never met before and has no idea what morals, manners, or mannerisms this person has? I'm not saying people should unconditionally follow all cops actions and not question their tactics, but for a minute stop and think as to what they are walking into and assure them you're just a regular Joe Shmo and not go all black/white woman on their ass yelling "my rights my rights!" for no reason. I get it, lawyers say not to talk to cops. But if we completely alienate ourselves from cops, how can we hold a dialogue with them? How can we let them know of the real problems of the neighborhood if we are so fucking terrified of being arrested for saying something that seemed off? Justice goes both ways, we need to actively work with law enforcement if we want to influence it. Cops should be there not as enforcers but as community members who can help out situations and resolve the big ones that others aren't qualified for. We've gotten so touchy touchy and vengeful as a society that we turn to fake child services calls and police calls just to smite each other because we got our feelings hurt, turning law enforcement into a joke and then criticizing them when they aren't going after the 'real' crimes. Its shit like that which leads to fucktard laws like 'manspreading' on the subway, men can't be shirtless, being ok to not serve to gays, or any of those stupid as shit laws you see on Sensationalist headlines.
People think justice is some kind of concrete aspect of society that we totally got right the first time, when in reality many of our societal structures were just old ones from the past that were actually really fucked up but got tons of band aids over the decades and centuries which dominoe'd by chance to where it is now. It's imperfect as fuck and yet we hold this word "justice" so highly because of how we would love some kind of concrete justification in our lives to help ease those hurt feelings when that mean guy took your seat on the bus, like some life karma bullshit.
Ignorance is what makes the world go round, donchaknow.
Which case are we talking about?
[QUOTE=cody8295;47840658]Which case are we talking about?[/QUOTE]
Robert Ulricht' conviction for creating and running Silk Road.
It turns out that it is the Wellbutrin that gives me horrible stomach cramps. Might as well have not even taken it, Costco wouldn't even replace my tires because they're not real technicians and can't get new lugs. Fuckers. I got up at the crack of dawn and waited in pain for no reason.
Makes me want better drugs.
There are three forces that officiously defines the dichotomy of sanity: Discipline, addiction and faith. With the latter two being circumstantial to exposure, discipline is the empowerment of the soul. Act by the vocation of archetypal ideals that encompasses the light in our dreams, lest there be decadence and insanity populating the soul scattered sea of the collective mind of humanity.
My faith is simple; Unity by vivifying disciplinary consciousness.
Got the last gram I'll be able to get for a while. I'm gonna try to blaze through it all tonight.
My life went down the drain in the last couple of months. Me and my soulmate were raging tweakers for 2 whole months, and as a sufferer of Bipolar Disorder my mood swings were insane. I could never hurt a woman, but sometimes when I were manic, I figured things out like what went wrong in her last relationship and used it as a weapon for a neuro-lingvistic attack on her self esteem. She has Borderline Personality Disorder and can sometimes become violent. I have marks on my body reminding me what a horrible person I had become, I fell into complete decadence. She is now in the hospital for detoxification. I managed to quit on my own.
Now I am adequately medicated and relatively stable. I take 2 different types of anti-depressants, anti-psychotic medication, a mood stabilizer, a bensodiazepine and sleeping pills.
I was so psychotic when I used amphetamine every day I hallucinated people outside my window talking about me, I saw police vehicles parked outside my apartment, and I looked through the hole on the door for so long I got a bump on my forehead, seeing people walking up to my door on the outside and disappearing, over and over and over.
[editline]30th May 2015[/editline]
I'm sorry to admit that I nearly traumatized her by actually trying to hang myself at one point.
[QUOTE=cody8295;47840658]Which case are we talking about?[/QUOTE]
I'm just salty about justice in general, and the fact that they had people go to court to add nothing to the case but sit there relive their sorrows just for dramatic effect in the courtroom makes me fucking sick. Saying that Robert Ulricht is responsible for your son/daughter/relative dying from drug use is fucking despicable and pointless. Sure he made revenue from sales, but in the end of the day he didn't manufacture the drug, he wasn't the vendor, hell even if it was true it was a conscious decision by a person who was either uneducated about drug use or had personal problems you could've supported them through. Drug use isn't some magic fairy that comes down, touches you with a wand and bam you OD. There's events and circumstances that lead to it, the path doesn't always end up bloody as some of us can use drugs on occasion responsibly. But to say that this specific person (drug dealer or wholesaler) is at fault and the kid in a body bag is totally innocent despite them ingesting the drug annoys me.
[QUOTE=Memnoth;47840830]My life went down the drain in the last couple of months. Me and my soulmate were raging tweakers for 2 whole months, and as a sufferer of Bipolar Disorder my mood swings were insane. I could never hurt a woman, but sometimes when I were manic, I figured things out like what went wrong in her last relationship and used it as a weapon for a neuro-lingvistic attack on her self esteem. She has Borderline Personality Disorder and can sometimes become violent. I have marks on my body reminding me what a horrible person I had become, I fell into complete decadence. She is now in the hospital for detoxification. I managed to quit on my own.
Now I am adequately medicated and relatively stable. I take 2 different types of anti-depressants, anti-psychotic medication, a mood stabilizer, a bensodiazepine and sleeping pills.
I was so psychotic when I used amphetamine every day I hallucinated people outside my window talking about me, I saw police vehicles parked outside my apartment, and I looked through the hole on the door for so long I got a bump on my forehead, seeing people walking up to my door on the outside and disappearing, over and over and over.
[editline]30th May 2015[/editline]
I'm sorry to admit that I nearly traumatized her by actually trying to hang myself at one point.[/QUOTE]
Holy shit Memnoth I missed you, you lovable person. I'm very sorry to hear about those events and happy you are stable now. Don't worry now, it will be okay and DD is here for you always.
[QUOTE=Nifae;47840883]Holy shit Memnoth I missed you, you lovable person. I'm very sorry to hear about those events and happy you are stable now. Don't worry now, it will be okay and DD is here for you always.[/QUOTE]
You are so nice, it warms my heart. I was a little sad but after I read your post I am happy.
[QUOTE=Memnoth;47840929]You are so nice, it warms my heart. I was a little sad but after I read your post I am happy.[/QUOTE]
That's what I wanted to do! Add me on Steam?
Trippinnngggg wooooo
Actually working on software for a medical company is awesome. Especially when the (expensive) software theyve been using is horribly in violation of HIPA and very buggy
Went out shroom hunting yesterday, found probably thousands of shrooms but unfortunately none we were looking for. Going again today to try in a different area of the national park.
I had a rough peak and I took like 2mg lorazepam and it didn't do shit to calm stuff down
My psychiatrist has no available openings for the next two months.
Drugs?
Drugs.
had a few sneaky cones this morning and didn't have a bad experience
now i'm sober and going for a bushwalk with some mates soon
on the other hand one of my closest friends just lost another family member
it's a weird contrast of things, living it up and then hearing of people passing
on my end, things are going well though, like really well all things considered.
Still trying to nail down a job of some kind, not really many available to go for at the moment which sucks but gotta keep chipping away until I can put the ball in so to speak
i've also been getting some friends into music production, which feels nice in a weird kind of way,
like planting the creative seed in the mind of other's for them to grow and nurture as they please
my own music production has been getting more uplifting as a whole, starting to learn how to master the audio now and it makes a world of difference in even simple things
What's a good mantra for someone who absolutely despises himself?
need some music I see
[video=youtube_share;SbY33tZl_pY]http://youtu.be/SbY33tZl_pY[/video]
have some jazz, and a smoking cat
[QUOTE=Number7Reds;47843704]What's a good mantra for someone who absolutely despises himself?[/QUOTE]
study the buddhist 'om' concept
if you get into a habit of it, om represents everything that is positive in life, as opposed to looking for loosely connected words to practice
That Jazz was quite nice, but IMO the 'om' concept is a load of wank. Perhaps I should look deeper into what it means? Could you give me a crash course so I could skip the google nonsense?
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
Ugh, so you're beginning to see why I despise myself.
Ooh may be able to try that new 1P-LSD stuff this week, hear that it's less of a duration which is nice. Debating on either walking around the woods or just camping out at home, this will be my second trip so I know what to expect and will probably enjoy it more.
sobriety feels like a new experience
kind of surreal, how cliche
I took BK 2CB on Friday and walked through the centre of town watching drunk people and listening to Skream's debut album
it was a great time but the stuff gives me the worst tension headaches on the comedown
Holy fucking shit, I don't think any post could do the experience I've had today justice
I'm having some transcendent moments of clarity right now after running through the foggy meadows at 6am, after seeing beetlejuice in a theatre and before that I would love to explain but I just don't think I can describe the amazing conglomeration of people and experience without writing an extended essay on this day
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