[QUOTE=Number7Reds;47843802]That Jazz was quite nice, but IMO the 'om' concept is a load of wank. Perhaps I should look deeper into what it means? Could you give me a crash course so I could skip the google nonsense?
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
Ugh, so you're beginning to see why I despise myself.[/QUOTE]
it's hard to explain,
'om' is a single word focused on everything that's good, it doesn't mean anymore than what you personally assign to it though; you practice it by saying things to yourself like
All is well, om, everything is fine, om, nothing bad is happening, om
om, om, om
doing that over and over associates those ideas of positivity with the word om, you can do lots of variations on that to suit your needs. It's classical conditioning in practice
it simplifies your mantras into one simple word that you can then meditate on, i've caught myself doing it whenever good things are happening and the association part definitely works but it's tricky to explain exactly how and why this is a thing, i guess the conditioning part is probably the closest possible answer but there's a lot of 'wank' surrounding it definitely, though i'd argue learning to love yourself is more than just finding a mantra to help you stay positive, I used to despise myself and beat myself up over a lot of things but overtime with consistent effort that's more or less a thing of the past
unrelated, it's been a while since i've shared any music with you guys;
I'm working on some new production with the mastering techniques i've been practicing + some old song ideas, not really a full song at this point yet, need to do a bunch of work on it still especially the later synths
[media]https://soundcloud.com/petebound/untitled-1[/media]
let me know what you guys think though, i'm mixing ideas from these tracks and trying to create something a bit more put together and well mastered
[media]http://soundcloud.com/petebound/coasting-on-waves[/media]
[media]http://soundcloud.com/petebound/discover[/media]
Guys. I just realized that in the same patch of woods where I found the cannabis, I also just found some fucking Sassafras. This woods is a dream come true.
[QUOTE=JoeSkylynx;47845583]Guys. I just realized that in the same patch of woods where I found the cannabis, I also just found some fucking Sassafras. This woods is a dream come true.[/QUOTE]
lol well I mean, sassafrole to mda-mdma is quite the leap unlike drying some cannabis buds... would be awesome if you figured it out though.
Been in hospital the last few days, me and a couple of my family got in a really bad car crash
[img_thumb]http://i.imgur.com/mwmBCNq.jpg[/img_thumb]
Tell your family you love them and drive safe. Because you never know when you are going 70pmh on a motorway your car might short circuit and you could get rear ended by a coach. Life fucking sucks sometimes
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
Also got a codeine prescription, could this be interesting? What's the best way to get fucked up on codeine?
quick update,
i've got income now.
over 2,500 sitting in my account
Time to get me license
I've noticed after I stopped my daily toke I basically have zero appetite. I'll get hunger pains, but I have no feeling of actual hunger. The thought of solid food actually makes me nauseous
This is bad since Im trying to gain weight, I'm about 5 pounds underweight right now.
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47845772]
Tell your family you love them and drive safe. Because you never know when you are going 70pmh on a motorway your car might short circuit and you could get rear ended by a coach. Life fucking sucks sometimes
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
Also got a codeine prescription, could this be interesting? What's the best way to get fucked up on codeine?[/QUOTE]
I'd mix it with sprite and make lean. Just pour it straight into the sprite until it turns to a light pink, and its a good sipper. If you want to be legit, pour the mix in a Styrofoam cup and stack it into another empty cup, creating a double cup of dreno :v:
Have a joint or a few bowls with it too
[QUOTE=werrek;47845917]I've noticed after I stopped my daily toke I basically have zero appetite. I'll get hunger pains, but I have no feeling of actual hunger. The thought of solid food actually makes me nauseous
This is bad since Im trying to gain weight, I'm about 5 pounds underweight right now.
I'd mix it with sprite and make lean. Just pour it straight into the sprite until it turns to a light pink, and its a good sipper. If you want to be legit, pour the mix in a Styrofoam cup and stack it into another empty cup, creating a double cup of dreno :v:
Have a joint or a few bowls with it too[/QUOTE]
Awesome, I'll try that and listen to some Yung Lean lol
[QUOTE=werrek;47845917]I've noticed after I stopped my daily toke I basically have zero appetite. I'll get hunger pains, but I have no feeling of actual hunger. The thought of solid food actually makes me nauseous
This is bad since Im trying to gain weight, I'm about 5 pounds underweight right now.
I'd mix it with sprite and make lean. Just pour it straight into the sprite until it turns to a light pink, and its a good sipper. If you want to be legit, pour the mix in a Styrofoam cup and stack it into another empty cup, creating a double cup of dreno :v:
Have a joint or a few bowls with it too[/QUOTE]
I'm super super lightweight, and I feel this way regardless. I don't smoke and that's how I feel. It sucks, man
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47845772]Been in hospital the last few days, me and a couple of my family got in a really bad car crash
[img_thumb]http://i.imgur.com/mwmBCNq.jpg[/img_thumb]
Tell your family you love them and drive safe. Because you never know when you are going 70pmh on a motorway your car might short circuit and you could get rear ended by a coach. Life fucking sucks sometimes
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
Also got a codeine prescription, could this be interesting? What's the best way to get fucked up on codeine?[/QUOTE]
DD's opiate addict resident, what kind of codeine did you get? if they're the pills, a simple cold water extraction to where the codeine dose is around 90-120mg is a nice starting dose to really feel the morphine conversion. Please note though, codeine is a very strange drug compared to most drugs, for one it's a pro-drug meaning it must pass the liver and be converted to morphine before becoming active, therefore slightly longer kick in time. also along with being an antagonizer of certain receptors (the specific ones escape me atm but the ones common with opiates cy something er rather) it's also an inhibitor, meaning that once you take your initial dose, redosing codeine is practically useless. Another factor to note is, humans vary greatly in how codeine will effect them, it varies based on how well your body breaks down the codeine... And the whole sprite and making it "lean" business is highly overrated. If you wanna get high on the codeine, just take it straight, mixing it with soda or other things is just going to make it kick in slower, therefore giving it a less pronounced buzz, but all in all codeine is one of the weaker opiates, and the high isn't going to be that significant as it is, please use with caution and enjoy!
[QUOTE=Consciousness;47845841]quick update,
i've got income now.
over 2,500 sitting in my account
Time to get me license[/QUOTE]
how the fuck did you get unbanned
[QUOTE=FFStudios;47846040]how the fuck did you get unbanned[/QUOTE]
Garry's birthday, ya mook. :v:
[QUOTE=zach1193;47846035]DD's opiate addict resident, what kind of codeine did you get? if they're the pills, a simple cold water extraction to where the codeine dose is around 150-200mg is a nice starting dose to really feel the morphine conversion. Please note though, codeine is a very strange drug compared to most drugs, for one it's a pro-drug meaning it must pass the liver and be converted to morphine before becoming active, therefore slightly longer kick in time. also along with being an antagonizer of certain receptors (the specific ones escape me atm but the ones common with opiates cy something er rather) it's also an inhibitor, meaning that once you take your initial dose, redosing codeine is practically useless. Another factor to note is, humans vary greatly in how codeine will effect them, it varies based on how well your body breaks down the codeine... And the whole sprite and making it "lean" business is highly overrated. If you wanna get high on the codeine, just take it straight, mixing it with soda or other things is just going to make it kick in slower, therefore giving it a less pronounced buzz, but all in all codeine is one of the weaker opiates, and the high isn't going to be that significant as it is, please use with caution and enjoy![/QUOTE]
The full name is Dihydrocodeine (30mg), is that a different drug? The doctor just called it codeine
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47846052]The full name is Dihydrocodeine (30mg), is that a different drug? The doctor just called it codeine[/QUOTE]
hmmm I have literally no experience with DHC, but I think it may be a different drug, is it liquid or solid, perhaps the dihydro prefix just indicates it's in liquid form, otherwise I'd say yea it's a diff drug and a little stronger than codeine yet less powerful than hydrocodone.
Nope def a diff drug, still though it's similar to codeine but I'd say start with 90mg if you're trying to get high in this case... really with any drug you can overdose on it's a good idea to start slow, I believe DHC inhibits itself as well which makes dosing tricky, cause you have to take your whole dose at once, or wait til the next day pretty much.
Please excuse any writing fuck ups as I'm doing some day drinking today.
[QUOTE=zach1193;47846057]hmmm I have literally no experience with DHC, but I think it may be a different drug, is it liquid or solid, perhaps the dihydro prefix just indicates it's in liquid form, otherwise I'd say yea it's a diff drug and a little stronger than codeine yet less powerful than hydrocodone.[/QUOTE]
Nope, they're just little pills, recommended dose is 2 per 4 hours, might just try taking 2 at once tomorrow and see how it goes. I took one earlier and it really didn't help my fucked up back
IIRC, DHC is a slowly acting Hydro. Like it's something which is given to people to "prevent" addiction.
[QUOTE=JoeSkylynx;47846072]IIRC, DHC is a slowly acting Hydro. Like it's something which is given to people to "prevent" addiction.[/QUOTE]
Hydrocodone and dihydrocodiene are two completely different drugs, but normal codeine is similar, DHC is like the synthetic ER version of codeine afaik. hydrocodone though, it's nothing like that other than being opioids.
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47846063]Nope, they're just little pills, recommended dose is 2 per 4 hours, might just try taking 2 at once tomorrow and see how it goes. I took one earlier and it really didn't help my fucked up back[/QUOTE]
like I said try 90-120mg you should feel a little something euphoric if your body likes it, have a go, but 60mg isn't going to make much a difference, codeine and alike are very weak opiates
Ok cool, thanks for the advice. Obviously I'll be careful and not go overboard with my dosing, not necessarily looking to get high on it but I just want my back pain to go away for a while
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47846093]Ok cool, thanks for the advice. Obviously I'll be careful and not go overboard with my dosing, not necessarily looking to get high on it but I just want my back pain to go away for a while[/QUOTE]
so long aas you aren't noticing a significant high and you monitor acetominphen doses, you should be fine with those doses, just don't exceed 200mg if you're opiate niave.
anytime man!
[QUOTE=zach1193;47846047]Garry's birthday, ya mook. :v:[/QUOTE]
garry's birthday is supposed to show up in the event log, unless they changed it when they re-did the forums
[QUOTE=FFStudios;47846138]garry's birthday is supposed to show up in the event log, unless they changed it when they re-did the forums[/QUOTE]
It happened like a week ago
Old mate stormcharger is back as well
[QUOTE=zach1193;47845735]lol well I mean, sassafrole to mda-mdma is quite the leap unlike drying some cannabis buds... would be awesome if you figured it out though.[/QUOTE]
[url=https://www.erowid.org/archive/rhodium/chemistry/mdma.drdrool.html]I don't have the money for it, but I'm considering making some old school root beer :)[/url]
[QUOTE=/B/rother;47792792]i'm still wallowing in Self-Pity, but i'm going for a [I]speedy[/I] recovery.[/QUOTE]
i've gotten myself out of this mood now, and i've been feeling okay for almost a week now.
i fucked up greatly. i spent every day getting cracked and tumbling around doing stupid shit, in an attempt to feel happy. it all culminated at once, when i decided "fuck if this hoe is my little brothers ex, and also a friend of my now ex-gf.." and slept with her.
i thought it would help me forget about my shitty situation i think, but i was so out of it that i wasn't thinking clearly. actually i was barely thinking at all.
anyways, i immediately felt like shit and continued to do so for a few days. then this crazy hoe decided to go hang out with my ex. they went out together and hit the bars, but sometime during the night, crazy-girl decided to tell my ex about how she had slept with me and also lied about being pregnant.
if you've been reading my posts about my ex, you would know she has just been hospitalized at a psych ward and has been diagnosed with schizotypi. in plain english, she is very [I]very[/I] fragile. hearing these news about me and how fucked up i was, completely destroyed her. a few hours after she had heard about my fuckups, she was hospitalized at a closed psych ward. she called me up and told me she knew about everything and also that she was back at the hospital.
this is where it hit me, that i'm not only hurting myself, but also everyone around me. i had been acting like a complete nutjob and had done many things i'm really embarrassed about. it also dawned on me, that i was the reason she was back at the hospital. this hurt me more than ANYTHING.
i broke down. i could barely say anything out loud. i hated myself more than i've ever done before. this was a new low.
anyways, i talked it out with my ex. she said that she didn't hate me, just thought that i was a little nasty. she also was very clear about us never being a couple again, but she was willing to be my friend.
i've now realized that i've got to fix some key problems in my life, stay somewhat sober and focus on my school. i'm also trying to better my friendship with my ex now, even though it seems like theres no point.
i'm probably rambling on by now, but i really wanted to drop a status update to you guys.
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
TL;DR I'M FUCKING TRYING MAN
[QUOTE=/B/rother;47846548]i've gotten myself out of this mood now, and i've been feeling okay for almost a week now.
i fucked up greatly. i spent every day getting cracked and tumbling around doing stupid shit, in an attempt to feel happy. it all culminated at once, when i decided "fuck if this hoe is my little brothers ex, and also a friend of my now ex-gf.." and slept with her.
i thought it would help me forget about my shitty situation i think, but i was so out of it that i wasn't thinking clearly. actually i was barely thinking at all.
anyways, i immediately felt like shit and continued to do so for a few days. then this crazy hoe decided to go hang out with my ex. they went out together and hit the bars, but sometime during the night, crazy-girl decided to tell my ex about how she had slept with me and also lied about being pregnant.
if you've been reading my posts about my ex, you would know she has just been hospitalized at a psych ward and has been diagnosed with schizotypi. in plain english, she is very [I]very[/I] fragile. hearing these news about me and how fucked up i was, completely destroyed her. a few hours after she had heard about my fuckups, she was hospitalized at a closed psych ward. she called me up and told me she knew about everything and also that she was back at the hospital.
this is where it hit me, that i'm not only hurting myself, but also everyone around me. i had been acting like a complete nutjob and had done many things i'm really embarrassed about. it also dawned on me, that i was the reason she was back at the hospital. this hurt me more than ANYTHING.
i broke down. i could barely say anything out loud. i hated myself more than i've ever done before. this was a new low.
anyways, i talked it out with my ex. she said that she didn't hate me, just thought that i was a little nasty. she also was very clear about us never being a couple again, but she was willing to be my friend.
i've now realized that i've got to fix some key problems in my life, stay somewhat sober and focus on my school. i'm also trying to better my friendship with my ex now, even though it seems like theres no point.
i'm probably rambling on by now, but i really wanted to drop a status update to you guys.
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
TL;DR I'M FUCKING TRYING MAN[/QUOTE]
We all make mistakes bruh, but its all about getting back on the horse that matters. Don't give yourself the expectation that stuff is going to immediately 180 and you'll be happy in no time, these things take time. Remember that relapses like that happen, and isn't a sign of failure but a sign of you working through it one thing at a time. I know this may seem cheesy as fuck but my friend sent me this a while ago when I was directionless, terrified about where my life was going and the complete mystery of it.
[t]http://i.imgur.com/TikvPK6.jpg[/t]
Just keep working at it dude, don't let this slip up define who you are, cause when you have the time to sit down and think you really are a good dude at heart you actually care about the consequences of your actions, an important quality and not many others can say that.
tbh the way we teach kids to pledge their whole lives to a piece of fabric abstractly representing a country at the start of each school day and pretend it's something totally normal is very Hitler Youth-y. for how much we condemn the Middle East, we sure do indoctrinate our own...
i got my dealer playing hearthstone lol
oh man, i think im going to lay off this RC for a bit, i almost had a panic attack because i thought someone was controlling my PC, turns out i was just jamming the down key and didnt realize
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
still installing the latest version of malwarebytes just to make sure
[QUOTE=despair3173;47847731]oh man, i think im going to lay off this RC for a bit, i almost had a panic attack because i thought someone was controlling my PC, turns out i was just jamming the down key and didnt realize
[editline]31st May 2015[/editline]
still installing the latest version of malwarebytes just to make sure[/QUOTE]
I still will never understand why someone would use the synthetic cannabinoids rather than just weed. If you don't have access to it, spice is not a sound alternative, it's just a fairly crummy drug that just doesn't measure up and kinda makes you a retard. May I ask why you use it?
[QUOTE=zach1193;47848141]I still will never understand why someone would use the synthetic cannabinoids rather than just weed. If you don't have access to it, spice is not a sound alternative, it's just a fairly crummy drug that just doesn't measure up and kinda makes you a retard. May I ask why you use it?[/QUOTE]
Drug tests are a common response to this question, although there are better drugs that arent regularly tested for
[QUOTE=FFStudios;47847653]tbh the way we teach kids to pledge their whole lives to a piece of fabric abstractly representing a country at the start of each school day and pretend it's something totally normal is very Hitler Youth-y. for how much we condemn the Middle East, we sure do indoctrinate our own...[/QUOTE]
I wonder how effective a simple mantra that is the pledge of allegiance is at invoking involuntary patriotism. When I think about all of the people like myself who saw it as nothing more than a procedure, then it doesn't really hold much weight. My school district was fairly advanced so they taught us about critical thinking and such so with that not many of us were 'die hard' patriots who vowed to join the US army or some overly patriotic shit like that. But then imagine bum fuck towns where it quite literally is the 'murrica stereotype where if you wear an american flag shirt and went upsidedown on the monkey bars would get you a beatin because you disrespected the flag. I'd imagine for them since they know nothing else the pledge of allegiance is a big fucking deal cause they have hopes of joining the military cause their dads, and their dad's dads were in the army. If you keep people dumb enough they will attach themselves to anything, even a stupid piece of cloth or a one paragraph mantra.
[QUOTE=cody8295;47848519]Drug tests are a common response to this question, although there are better drugs that arent regularly tested for[/QUOTE]
I'd just drink if that were the case, but hey whatever people wanna do
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