So the placement test (which I needed to test me out of trig (a class I passed at another college but they wouldn't accept a c-) so I can stay in the calculus class which started yesterday) tested me out of beginner algebra into intermediate algebra:v:
Talked to a few advisors and they overrided me into the class so I can still attend. Gotta pass it this time around
p-p-p-p-percocet, without any withdrawl tomorrow, boy is this gonna be good! that being said I've gone 16 days without anything and I'm no longer depressed and just life is good, mind you this is sober me saying this, the pills are still sitting here in front of me... I think I've finally broke the cycle<3
-next week "oh guys I'm so depressed bla blah addicted again blah blah" :v:
Two weeks without the kush, and I am no longer feeling the craving to get high. I have an addictive personality :v:
Instead, I know it may sound kind of edgy, but I'm on a spiritual journey now. I've been reading about various psychedelics and their trips. Needless to say, I would love to try DMT, LSD, and shrooms. DMT the most. I'm a spiritual person myself, and I think I could better myself with the help of these chemicals. I'm hitting up some friends to try shrooms first though. DMT is really rare; and I'd have to purchase it via deep web to actually receive the chemical I want.
[QUOTE=werrek;47865216]Two weeks without the kush, and I am no longer feeling the craving to get high. I have an addictive personality :v:
Instead, I know it may sound kind of edgy, but I'm on a spiritual journey now. I've been reading about various psychedelics and their trips. Needless to say, I would love to try DMT, LSD, and shrooms. DMT the most. I'm a spiritual person myself, and I think I could better myself with the help of these chemicals. I'm hitting up some friends to try shrooms first though. DMT is really rare; and I'd have to purchase it via deep web to actually receive the chemical I want.[/QUOTE]
n,n Dimethyltryptamine is a very common molecule in many plant and animal species.
Acacia Confusa and Mimosa Hostillis are both trees which contain DMT (&analogues) primarily in the root bark.
[editline]2nd June 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=werrek;47865216]Two weeks without the kush, and I am no longer feeling the craving to get high. I have an addictive personality :v:
Instead, I know it may sound kind of edgy, but I'm on a spiritual journey now. I've been reading about various psychedelics and their trips. Needless to say, I would love to try DMT, LSD, and shrooms. DMT the most. I'm a spiritual person myself, and I think I could better myself with the help of these chemicals. I'm hitting up some friends to try shrooms first though. DMT is really rare; and I'd have to purchase it via deep web to actually receive the chemical I want.[/QUOTE]
Go to deepweb for shrooms&lsd, getting dmt in the mail is sketchy because the powder is.. shiny powder (white to off white to yellow to reddish brown). Whereas LSD and shrooms can be easily delivered, undetectable (domestically) and stealthy.
[QUOTE=KillerTele;47862566][media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXnhxzqbsNM[/media]
Gloomy music for a gloomy day[/QUOTE]
Superior version imo
[media]https://youtu.be/mcXYz0gtJeM?t=52s[/media]
Got a free eighth tonight. This never happens. I swear its only because I'm out of papers.
Also, should have a pound of poppy seed by monday and I might get to try salvia tomorrow, or whenever it gets delivered.
[QUOTE=ZenX2;47861473]I had a dream last night that I ate a gram of shrooms and smoked some weed and then everything turned into symmetrical flowing patterns
I haven't smoked since last Wednesday and after smoking a lot in my dreams last night and getting pretty high I don't really think I need to smoke in reality
Maybe I'll get back into lucid dreaming and explore dream drugs[/QUOTE]
I've been sober for a long while and holy FUCK have my dreams become more vivid.
Last night I literally dreamed a whole storyline of this character who fell into the ocean and sank to the bottom where he met all these mangled mutant-faced zombie people walking along the ocean floor and he had to run from them (on the bottom of the fucking ocean underwater) until he found another person and they had to reach some destination, so after a bunch of adventures (all underwater) they finally reach the place and there's these mangled monsters chasing them the whole time and he finally gets to this dinky lighthouse place and they're having this meeting in an overhanging dock thing about how they have to stop the mutant things and then a fucking kraken thing bursts through the dock and shoved a tentacle into everyone's face (except the main guy who was out taking a piss or something idk dream logic) and then the moment he came back in the room he sees this giant kraken monster and EVERY SINGLE FUCKING PERSON IN THE ROOM NOW HAS A MANGLED MUTANT FACE AND THEY START RUNNING AT HIM
and then i woke up
trippy shit bruh
Yeah i love those extremely vivid dreams you get when you start a sobriety streak. In other news tho, i love my Magic Flight Box. I used less than a pinch of finely ground weed (all i had left) and a few tiny crumbs of hash and stem, not even filling a 1/4 of the trench, and i'm thoroughly ripped. Goooood stuff.
Ever since I stopped smoking weed every day, I've noticed how bad my depersonalization actually is. I feel like I'm disconnected from myself, and everything is dis-interesting and flat. It's been two weeks, so it might go away soon, but it feels like I'm not in my body 24/7. Its a hard to describe feeling
I know this isn't really the place but like usual, I'm going to post here anyways because reasons.
So I moved out of my parents' house on Sunday. Coincidentally, the next day was also the day that one girl I really clicked with left for Los Angeles.
I don't have a lot of stress, I just feel empty. I'm on my own, out of my parents' place, and have felt shitty because the girl's gone too. I'm working a lot now, which is fine but the summer seems like it'll be dry as far as my social life is concerned.
Anytime I'm happy, I catch myself and keep wondering what would have happened if the girl stayed. I probably just need time, I donno.
I've just been super down lately (the past few days). The best nights I had in a long time were in with the company of that girl. I feel I'm fucking myself over by thinking about it too much.
I don't hate my life, because I have it way better than most people. I just feel like I was ripped off; a girl I hit it off with REALLY well I get to know, of course right before she leaves. God has something planned for me but he's taunting me, or trying to tell me something. (I'm not religious, you guys know what I mean) There's something here to be learned, I guess. I just don't know what.
Ugh
[editline]2nd June 2015[/editline]
I guess I need to focus on the positive and not be such a bitch. The girl is really tripping me up, not so much with moving out because I always have that kind of shit on lock. I donno, I just want to complain but it won't make things better.
[QUOTE=Banandana;47867000] God has something planned for me but he's taunting me, or trying to tell me something. (I'm not religious, you guys know what I mean) There's something here to be learned, I guess. I just don't know what.
Ugh
[/QUOTE]
You've gotta follow her, he's telling you to get out of your comfort zone and go somewhere new
I'm pretty sure now this lorazepam is real so I really don't know why it didn't kill my trip the other day
The paper tab I took was definitely way stronger than I was thinking it was, probably like 240ug instead of 120ug
On the other hand, that trip really helped me understand how much I should appreciate my friends and I've been completely at peace since then, and I've figured out how to actively relax and clear my mind when meditating. It's like un-flexing a muscle
fucking money man, stressful shit
I'm trying to maximize my potential savings as well as providing myself something of a realistic maximum expenditure allowance on top of the essentials and it's surprisingly harder than it seems.
So many things to take into account
I was considering saving up and then blowing it all on a souped up car once I'd saved enough, but now i'm thinking I won't do that and instead buy something simple that will leave me with enough money in savings to continue on accumulating wealth without emptying my account and having to start over
either way I need a job
what shits me off is a mate of mine said he could get me a job then never followed up on it, even when I sent him a message trying to follow up myself
sent him another one today, i'll see what he reckons if he's even decent enough to give a response. A nah can't do it sorry, is better than a "I could get you a job" then nothing in response after that
Finally been able to get some free time this week, gonna spliff that bowl later.
[video=youtube;LeqjjGUgGyw]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LeqjjGUgGyw[/video]
Hai guise plz check out dis great song I definitely never posted before.
[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjuorHVXgHw[/media]
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[QUOTE=ZenX2;47867384]I'm pretty sure now this lorazepam is real so I really don't know why it didn't kill my trip the other day
The paper tab I took was definitely way stronger than I was thinking it was, probably like 240ug instead of 120ug
On the other hand, that trip really helped me understand how much I should appreciate my friends and I've been completely at peace since then, and I've figured out how to actively relax and clear my mind when meditating. It's like un-flexing a muscle[/QUOTE]
Lorazepam is kinda slow acting and fairly weak compared to xanax or klonopin. it most definitely still worked, it just might've been a slow kick in and you just never noticed, plus other factors like food in your stomach etc...
[QUOTE=KillerTele;47867330]You've gotta follow her, he's telling you to get out of your comfort zone and go somewhere new[/QUOTE]
I have a year lease here, haven't finished school where I'm at to transfer, have the absolute best possible job I could ever hope for, and where she's at is not a good place to go as it's not in line with my goals.
We haven't known eachother long enough to even warrant considering it.
[editline]3rd June 2015[/editline]
I'm all about that 'fuck it ynot' thing, but it simply isn't the smart move in this case.
It seems that the mailman likes stealing packages of salvia. That's the second time it's been ordered, delivered, and disappeared.
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I don't see how they say this is that great. Sure, for what it is. But just like every other pre-built, it's overpriced as hell.
For the exact same build: 16GB of RAM, 3 290Xs, 3.5TB of storage (who needs 4?), a dual-monitor setup, a keyboard, a mouse, and all the other parts needed for the computer to run and it shaves off about 300-400 dollars.
3 290x's? Wouldn't it just be better (/cheaper) to skip one of them and just use that money to upgrade in the future. 3 sounds seriously overkill, like no way you'd ever need that anytime soon and by the time you would they would be pretty outdated no?
I would love to build custom pc's for people and sell to them cheap with only maybe $100 profit per pc. Its fun as hell just to put one together and prebuilts are always overpriced either by choosing outrageous or unnecessary components, I would totally build one for people for a much cheaper price just so they can get the gift of pc gaming and know every penny was spent wisely and honestly.
Anyone have experience with finding drugs at big music festivals? I'm going to Bonnaroo and I really wanted to find mescaline but I heard it's almost impossible to find decent stuff at festivals. Is it true that mescaline on tabs and pills can't have a big enough active dosage? How is it sold? Should I bring a test kit?
If anyone tries to sell you mescaline on a tab, I bet you it will be 25i.
[QUOTE=cody8295;47865309]Go to deepweb for shrooms&lsd, getting dmt in the mail is sketchy because the powder is.. shiny powder (white to off white to yellow to reddish brown). Whereas LSD and shrooms can be easily delivered, undetectable (domestically) and stealthy.[/QUOTE]
It has been a few years but back when I got me some dmt it came disguised quite neatly, clever cover if you're just some regular chap in your early twenties like I'd presume most deepnet users are. Wouldn't worry about ordering dmt more than any other substance except of course LSD which usually just comes disguised as some bullshit bill :v:
My mother opened a letter from the deepweb once. She believed me when I told her it was electrical contact cleaner.
I have no idea how I got out of that room with my life and my mxe.
[QUOTE=CoilingTesla;47871156]My mother opened a letter from the deepweb once. She believed me when I told her it was electrical contact cleaner.
I have no idea how I got out of that room with my life and my mxe.[/QUOTE]
Kinda makes sense, "hey whats this mysterious powder you ordered online" "oh its just a cleaning solution for my pc, you just add some water to it for when you need to clean X"
Kinda tempted to get some more LSD, or AL-LAD while I wait to see if i'll get a letter from customs. AL-LAD isnt classified here, and probably wont be for a few more months, so figured, why the hell not.
Might just go ahead and order that Knuckleduster i've been eyeing for a while, hmm..
[QUOTE=Lilyo;47870895]Anyone have experience with finding drugs at big music festivals? I'm going to Bonnaroo and I really wanted to find mescaline but I heard it's almost impossible to find decent stuff at festivals. Is it true that mescaline on tabs and pills can't have a big enough active dosage? How is it sold? Should I bring a test kit?[/QUOTE]
Active dose of mescaline begins at 150-250mg so you'd have to eat a sheet or two of mescaline blotters. They can come encapsulated
[QUOTE=zach1193;47870072]Lorazepam is kinda slow acting and fairly weak compared to xanax or klonopin. it most definitely still worked, it just might've been a slow kick in and you just never noticed, plus other factors like food in your stomach etc...[/QUOTE]
OOooohhhh I just did more research, stuff says that it doesn't actually end the trip, just reduces anxiety like normal, which might SEEM like the trip ending
I was definitely tripping for hours afterwards but calmed down hella
I think in my tripping mind the fact that it didn't immediately stop scared me more than the trip itself
Well, lesson learned in that regard, I did get high enough to be at that place where the world feels "alien" in some ways but also very familiar, which is even stranger because I don't think I've tripped at that level before. Like where you see reason sparkles and sense things twisting and flying around you
Next time I trip that high I'll definitely take some lorazepam right when I drop because it really doesn't dampen the trip at all, and that should help me get in a good mindset
Although I don't think I'm going that high for a while, I wanna do more minitrips over the summer for spritual growth, in the 60ug area. It's perceptible unlike microdosing but 100% functional so I could even go to a family gathering and still be chilling
