[QUOTE=Cree8ive;47991999]Being high makes me more aware of my own insecurities. Maybe a good thing, not sure...[/QUOTE]
Depends on how you use that information my friend
I get really emotional when im high on 5F, I've spent the past two days reading through oyasumi punpun and ive actually cried at it, its really depressing
You guys are usually pretty level headed, what's your guys opinions on death? It just seems like society, western culture mainly as I haven't lived many other places, put such a huge deal on death and fear of it and what have you. But just looking at a bigger picture, it seems like death is just another aspect of life, nothing to fear or feel bad about, and those who died, they're no longer hassled by emotions and stress, it almost seems silly to feel bad for them, if anything I'd mourn for those still alive, missing those who've passed. I guess I just don't see death as a scary evil thing, more just part of life and if it happens it happens, not to say I want to die, I'd rather live, but I just hate how much people stress about something like that... idk please, opinions?
"note" I don't believe in any organized religion either which may contribute to this, although if all those churchies really believed in heaven and what have you, why fear death soo much still?
Oh also I don't enjoy death or any sadistic type of stuff, just interesting food for thought IMO
[QUOTE=zach1193;47992446]You guys are usually pretty level headed, what's your guys opinions on death? It just seems like society, western culture mainly as I haven't lived many other places, put such a huge deal on death and fear of it and what have you. But just looking at a bigger picture, it seems like death is just another aspect of life, nothing to fear or feel bad about, and those who died, they're no longer hassled by emotions and stress, it almost seems silly to feel bad for them, if anything I'd mourn for those still alive, missing those who've passed. I guess I just don't see death as a scary evil thing, more just part of life and if it happens it happens, not to say I want to die, I'd rather live, but I just hate how much people stress about something like that... idk please, opinions?
"note" I don't believe in any organized religion either which may contribute to this, although if all those churchies really believed in heaven and what have you, why fear death soo much still?
Oh also I don't enjoy death or any sadistic type of stuff, just interesting food for thought IMO[/QUOTE]
I would love to believe that there is a Heaven, because I honestly know more people that deserve to be there than a Hell but it's pretty hard to believe, I'm a catholic but I lean towards deism. I just kind of hope that death is more comforting than scary, people theorise that it's like taking a big-ass hit of DMT which sounds pretty nice
[QUOTE=zach1193;47992291]Depends on how you use that information my friend[/QUOTE]
Definitely. Just not sure where/how to move forward knowing them.
[QUOTE=Tacooo;47992606]I would love to believe that there is a Heaven, because I honestly know more people that deserve to be there than a Hell but it's pretty hard to believe, I'm a catholic but I lean towards deism. I just kind of hope that death is more comforting than scary, people theorise that it's like taking a big-ass hit of DMT which sounds pretty nice[/QUOTE]
I'd like to think it's comforting, but what's comforting to an entity that has no feeling? It's some weird shit to think about stoned. The fact that there can be no feeling or emotion seems terrifying to me, but that's just a feeling as well... man now I'm all high and spacey and "whoa" and shit :v:
[QUOTE=zach1193;47992446]You guys are usually pretty level headed, what's your guys opinions on death? It just seems like society, western culture mainly as I haven't lived many other places, put such a huge deal on death and fear of it and what have you. But just looking at a bigger picture, it seems like death is just another aspect of life, nothing to fear or feel bad about, and those who died, they're no longer hassled by emotions and stress, it almost seems silly to feel bad for them, if anything I'd mourn for those still alive, missing those who've passed. I guess I just don't see death as a scary evil thing, more just part of life and if it happens it happens, not to say I want to die, I'd rather live, but I just hate how much people stress about something like that... idk please, opinions?
"note" I don't believe in any organized religion either which may contribute to this, although if all those churchies really believed in heaven and what have you, why fear death soo much still?
Oh also I don't enjoy death or any sadistic type of stuff, just interesting food for thought IMO[/QUOTE]
Death scares people since it reminds them of their lack of control in two aspects. The first is the unknown, we've talked about this before how humans hate the unknown as well as adore it as it can be both the 'key' to our downfall or a key to unlimited possibilities. That dichotomy is interesting and in a way is fueled by our evolutionary compulsions like wanting to control the Earth and it's surroundings, explore life, and interpret ourselves/our psyches. So if the unknown is what we are afraid of about death, then so is the lack of control that death brings upon us. Besides the fact that we are not immortal yet, death shows us that there is a phase of existence (or lack thereof depending how you look at death/afterlife) where we [B]don't[/B] have control, or at the very least it seems like it for now. That once we die, that's it, your 'soul' or consciousness either shuts down completely (cutting you off from your ability to interact/observe) or transitions to some other state of being that we have no idea of; which [I]could[/I] or [I]could not[/I] allow for more or less control.
I don't think we should look at our fear of death as a bad thing in this instance, but rather that fear like any other state of mind is automatic in some cases for a reason to help us survive, or at the very least used to help at some point. There are a lot of automatic emotions that have stuck with us through the years of evolution such as our drives to survive, innovate, reach for things that seem restricted, etc. Funny enough just recently in the shower I thought about how in romance and love the cliche of 'restricted love' kinda makes sense in terms of evolution, granted at the risk of talking out of my ass. If you are a human who saw a bunch of potential mates that are appealing to you but already with another, then you would try harder to win them over (whether it be through straight up eliminating competition or building yourself up) then that instinct, that [I]drive[/I], which is no more than a physical response in the brain has a better chance of being passed on. Same can go for other reflexes like when on the brink of death or thinking you are in the brink of death (jump scares trigger rapid heartbeat and fight or flight response, granted very quick/short). You know the jump scare was coming, you know ghosts don't exist, you know Freddy isn't real but you still [I]feel[/I] spooked.
So maybe with death you have a similar instinct or reflex to not want death. Death is like an end of an era, and humans love having their pie and eating it too. If you told me I could live in a place of forever happiness I would be totally for it, but if you told me I could live in that same paradise but there is a limited amount of time that I have no idea when its coming then it makes me uneasy. It makes me uneasy and almost self aware that the happiness I'm enjoying now is going to end eventually, then you focus on that fact then you aren't as happy as you were before, then the next thing you know you don't feel happy at all because you overconcentrated on it ending. That's the one sucky thing about thinking about death, it can easily bum you out, but I feel like that's the point of that reaction. That if death was just this frilly thing we wouldn't be so cautious, we wouldn't treat drugs with such importance, we wouldn't have as much safety protocols, and so on. If sex didn't feel so good we wouldn't do it, if pain wasn't a nuisance we would die more easily to shit by not taking pain seriously, and if death wasn't scary or at least something you'd want to avoid our species might not have made it. This is all well and good to acknowledge but by no means do I think we should just stop the conversation there.
As much as we want to become immortal we still shouldn't abandon trying to learn more about death and understand what it really is, and maybe use it to better ourselves. It's a very mysterious subject because the word itself isn't very concrete or based in anything concrete itself. It is as difficult as studying an abstract concept like love, to where nowadays love and sex is being decoded with mathematics and physics, which leads me to believe well do the same for 'life' and 'death'. Our language is still very young and fluid so well see where these few decades take us in terms of reversing the microscope onto ourselves and ask ourselves what does it mean to 'live' 'die' and other humanity-like constructs.
[QUOTE=WoodenSpoon;47991953]Cody I'd like to share my san pedro cactus with you
[img]http://i.imgur.com/zxODaRrl.jpg?1[/img]
It's 3.5+ inches in diameter at the widest parts and several feet tall. That tan spot on it is a gash from falling over because this thing is waay too top heavy now, I need to either cut it (and consume) or replant it somewhere like the ground.
If I want to grow a new cactus from a cut section, do I just lay that section horizontally on the ground and let it start branching or do I have to like bury it?[/QUOTE]
Ive got about 6 that high and taller growing around my house, they leaning on my house for support :v:
Haha yeah man I know what you mean, I had to keep that cactus tied to the tree to the left in the picture for a while to keep it from falling over in high winds.
They be some heavy motherfuckers.
Sploke a toking some phat spliffy bowls after another good day, summer is great so far
Man does anyone like to get high and watch ridiculously shit rappers on youtube for laughs?
Fucking young thug lmao
[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAzzv6Ks9nc[/media]
[editline]18th June 2015[/editline]
heres some cleansing for the above video
[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7IXmV6A6Bk[/media]
[QUOTE=WoodenSpoon;47991953]Cody I'd like to share my san pedro cactus with you
[img]http://i.imgur.com/zxODaRrl.jpg?1[/img]
It's 3.5+ inches in diameter at the widest parts and several feet tall. That tan spot on it is a gash from falling over because this thing is waay too top heavy now, I need to either cut it (and consume) or replant it somewhere like the ground.
If I want to grow a new cactus from a cut section, do I just lay that section horizontally on the ground and let it start branching or do I have to like bury it?[/QUOTE]
A very impressive specimen, what a Trich! I definitely recommend sacrificing the beautiful thing for a mescaline extraction. I'd go with 69ron's d-limo [URL="https://wiki.dmt-nexus.me/69ron's_D-Limonene_Mescaline_Extraction"]tek[/URL]
As for propagation, I'd recommend saving at least the top foot if you intend on planting vertically. If you'd like to try horizontally you can cut it in half length wise, several times, planting them half way into soil. Several new branches should form
[QUOTE=Consciousness;47822422]I'd say don't let the fact that she's going away soon get in the way of enjoying what time you have left with eachother[/QUOTE]
just a followup post
two weeks-ish after she left now, and still on my mind. I'm not absolutely miserable, but my day to day is still somewhat affected by me thinking about it.
Basically we went to a cafe, talked, and it turned out that
- She was awesome
- We had a really similar, sarcastic, and dorky sense of humor
- For some reason when she mentioned some unfortunate past events, the only thing I really was thinking about was how I wanted to express how much I'd be there if she's having a shitty day, or if things were hard, really wanting to give her a hug on the spot
during that meetup, the first real meetup (which made it more strange as I'm fairly emotionally detached from shit that has happened to people, but her talking about what happened to her hit me right in the feels, I still don't understand why) we agreed to go to dinner again.
dinner happened at a nice restaurant, where I covertly paid the bill. The waiter know what the fuck was goin on when I gave him my credit card and brought us a nice desert after the food, and we had a wonderful time.
She basically told me how I wasn't like everyone-fucking-else who raved about how beautiful she was, telling her that they loved her on the first date. I replied with a 'I can't possibly love you after a second meetup, but I really like you and would ask you out if you were staying here' She also mentioned that we had legit conversation and I didn't give her the creeps; she seemed turned off by a lot of the guys here and expressed how I wasn't like that.
we get out to our cars and she gives me two pictures of herself, give/get a hug, and that ended the night. we had no plan to meet up again, from what I could tell
then we were talking via message and she squeezed in one last time for us to meet up. sunday at like 10pm (she needed to wake up at 5AM but still put time aside to meet!!) we'd meet at a starbucks
we took a bunch of pictures together and I was pretty down by how she was leaving. we talked more about stuff and I stole a kiss on the cheek when we hugged at departure. She mentioned that it wouldn't be the last time we meet and not to stop messaging her or ignore her (which was part of an ongoing joke between us).
now that she's gone, we talk a little bit but it seems like she's super busy with the job she got. I feel like a desperate creep because I'm still thinking about this daily, two weeks out, chewing on dates to see if I could match a time to take a 6 hour drive out to see her. The soonest time is christmas due to schedule mismatches from what I understand.
but yeah, I also made a tumblr blog so I can vent and have almost no one listen. my blog is where I store my depressing, frustrating, vulgar, self-deprecating, and abysmal thoughts
[QUOTE=Banandana;47994530]just a followup post
two weeks-ish after she left now, and still on my mind. I'm not absolutely miserable, but my day to day is still somewhat affected by me thinking about it.
Basically we went to a cafe, talked, and it turned out that
- She was awesome
- We had a really similar, sarcastic, and dorky sense of humor
- For some reason when she mentioned some unfortunate past events, the only thing I really was thinking about was how I wanted to express how much I'd be there if she's having a shitty day, or if things were hard, really wanting to give her a hug on the spot
during that meetup, the first real meetup (which made it more strange as I'm fairly emotionally detached from shit that has happened to people, but her talking about what happened to her hit me right in the feels, I still don't understand why) we agreed to go to dinner again.
dinner happened at a nice restaurant, where I covertly paid the bill. The waiter know what the fuck was goin on when I gave him my credit card and brought us a nice desert after the food, and we had a wonderful time.
She basically told me how I wasn't like everyone-fucking-else who raved about how beautiful she was, telling her that they loved her on the first date. I replied with a 'I can't possibly love you after a second meetup, but I really like you and would ask you out if you were staying here' She also mentioned that we had legit conversation and I didn't give her the creeps; she seemed turned off by a lot of the guys here and expressed how I wasn't like that.
we get out to our cars and she gives me two pictures of herself, give/get a hug, and that ended the night. we had no plan to meet up again, from what I could tell
then we were talking via message and she squeezed in one last time for us to meet up. sunday at like 10pm (she needed to wake up at 5AM but still put time aside to meet!!) we'd meet at a starbucks
we took a bunch of pictures together and I was pretty down by how she was leaving. we talked more about stuff and I stole a kiss on the cheek when we hugged at departure. She mentioned that it wouldn't be the last time we meet and not to stop messaging her or ignore her (which was part of an ongoing joke between us).
now that she's gone, we talk a little bit but it seems like she's super busy with the job she got. I feel like a desperate creep because I'm still thinking about this daily, two weeks out, chewing on dates to see if I could match a time to take a 6 hour drive out to see her. The soonest time is christmas due to schedule mismatches from what I understand.
but yeah, I also made a tumblr blog so I can vent and have almost no one listen. my blog is where I store my depressing, frustrating, vulgar, self-deprecating, and abysmal thoughts[/QUOTE]
Dude honestly that sounds like it went really well for ya! though the seperation sucks, just hang in there buddy, i'm sure you guys will cross paths again soon enough, don't feel like a creep for having her on your mind though, you guys were clearly pretty into each other in a non-rushed kinda way (you told her if she wasn't leaving you'd ask her out, she squeezed in to see you again) so it's only natural that you're both probably thinking about each other a fair bit right now,
try and stay positive for now and don't beat yourself up for having feelings man, you did well
I know I did well. I did very well, and from what I can tell she was totally interested. It just made it all that more painful, and I try to stay positive but my mind doesn't want to. It wants to keep thinking about it. We didn't know eachother very well but that was the best I've hit it off with anyone ever.
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;47994017]Man does anyone like to get high and watch ridiculously shit rappers on youtube for laughs?
Fucking young thug lmao[/QUOTE]
Young Thug has nice tracks
[video=youtube;ILTj255b4bE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILTj255b4bE[/video]
[QUOTE=Satansick;47995704]Young Thug has nice tracks
[video=youtube;ILTj255b4bE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILTj255b4bE[/video][/QUOTE]
naaaa man, that voice
[video]http://soundcloud.com/c4bombs/i-got-it-young-thug-rich-homie-quan-kebu-mix[/video]
[editline]18th June 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;47995710]naaaa man, that voice[/QUOTE]
Opinions differ I guess. I like Young Thug even though he's a drug induced retard.
Did absolute shit on my Digital Forensics final.. I hope this doesn't mean I failed for the year :(
Haven't smoked anything in about two months now, because finals. Want to keep a clear head during these times. Hate to admit it but I miss getting high, be it on my own or with some friends. Sometimes it's like I can't [I]fully[/I] relax, you know. Everything feels kinda dull and boring.
coke is fun
too bad its expensive as all hell
good thing i got good friends who give me some every once in a while when i party with them!
[QUOTE=MEOWTFLOL;47997103]coke is fun
too bad its expensive as all hell
good thing i got good friends who give me some every once in a while when i party with them![/QUOTE]
Could always try out other stims. I usually get a pretty euphoric feeling from Speed, depending on the batch.
Fuuck I'm stuck with only one tab of LSD for the summer
I've already planned to share it with someone but I'd rather split it into 4 and microdose and read koans and draw
Finished my final assessment for college, now I have like 6-8 weeks to chill and get high. Celebrated by sparking a joint with a friend and his brother and I have another 0.5g joint to enjoy later tonight. Any good movie recommendations to watch baked?
[QUOTE=ZenX2;47999622]Fuuck I'm stuck with only one tab of LSD for the summer
I've already planned to share it with someone but I'd rather split it into 4 and microdose and read koans and draw[/QUOTE]
Sharing 1 tab? How strong is it?
[QUOTE=cody8295;47999768]Sharing 1 tab? How strong is it?[/QUOTE]
A 1/4 of a decent tab is good vibes, a nice day, and an interest in things that might otherwise be somewhat dull as well as a different flavor of a sober thought process.
[editline]18th June 2015[/editline]
Did I misunderstand your question? I just realized you might not be asking about the concept but the strength of the tabs in his possession.
[editline]18th June 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=The fox;47997764]Could always try out other stims. I usually get a pretty euphoric feeling from Speed, depending on the batch.[/QUOTE]
I get more euphoric from speed than coke if I remember correctly. I've actually done speed on a shitty day and it turned it around rather quickly
[QUOTE=The fox;47997764]Could always try out other stims. I usually get a pretty euphoric feeling from Speed, depending on the batch.[/QUOTE]
I would, but i fear for my ability to deal with addictive chemicals. I force myself to take a break from coke after every time i use it. My brother got fucked over by it (and hes younger then me) so i don't want to fall into the same hole. However its a nice "once in a blue moon" type of deal
So my buddy bought some capsules of what he was told was MDMA at a festival. The dealer showed him a reagent (done before they met) which matched the mdma color on the tester kit. He and a friend took 1 cap each and only felt minor effects.
He bought the same test kit the dealer was using and opened one of the caps to test a small amount. It was bath salts (MDPV).
Always always always reagent
[QUOTE=cody8295;47999987]So my buddy bought some capsules of what he was told was MDMA at a festival. The dealer showed him a reagent (done before they met) which matched the mdma color on the tester kit. He and a friend took 1 cap each and only felt minor effects.
He bought the same test kit the dealer was using and opened one of the caps to test a small amount. It was bath salts (MDPV).
Always always always reagent[/QUOTE]
I feel like festivals are the worst place to buy MDMA and you're just asking for trouble when doing so. idk
Yea i dont trust almost any drug
like i dont do it unless i see someone else do it and wait a bit
and i'd also like to do a reagent kit but "bro don't you trust my shit?" "i got 10g of this stuff because i gave some guy a ride to somewhere" like yea sure man let me just ingest this unknown chemical from an unknown person you'll never see again
[editline]18th June 2015[/editline]
The only drug i really ever trust is weed/budder/shatter/etc
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