[QUOTE=Mr. Bleak;47460755]I've went through withdrawals the various times I kicked heroin and I have never found anything that really helps. Benzos supposedly do, but I've never had access to those. Honestly, the only thing that ever helped (marginally and for a short duration) is jerking off. Here's hoping you don't have many obligations this week.
Speaking of, I relapsed like a fucking idiot but I'm going to try and quit again before my problem spirals and I spend all the money I've saved for a new car. It's really true what they say about the company you keep. I was clean for a good bit and then one day decided to go see my old nodding friends and boom right back into it like nothing ever changed. I can't wait until I move.
On a happier note, I found a DMT connection. I've never done psychs before, but I really want to try it. Would it be a decent first time trip drug?[/QUOTE]
DMT would probably be a little bit powerful for a first-time trip. I did a low dose of shrooms my first time and it was still too much - if you're an anxious person, be really really careful. If you have somewhere you can be comfortable, go for it. It's a short trip but from what I've heard you'll blow your brain the fuck open.
Also currently rolling balls on molly, took a break for like a week and a half. Still worried about my friends, but they won't listen to me at all even though I've told them to at least slow down, if not stop entirely. I stopped smoking weed, which is great - I used to feel way more happy and cheerful when I smoked, especially the day after, but now it just drains me and I feel tired and groggy and it makes my allergies a thousand times worse, so fuck 'em.
lol @ DMT as a first time psych
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;47454006]I can't imagine having schizophrenia, but I don't see a way of using your mind to think a way out of it. If the voices are hitting you 24/7 then it can fatigue you pretty quickly to try and fight every critique that comes at you. Better off using drugs to decrease the symptoms enough so it can be put off as a bothersome noise in the background than directly trying to combat the thoughts. In my opinion paranoia is one of the worst symptoms to have, because when a human can't trust their own senses/observations for reactions they have nothing to keep them grounded, not even their own thoughts are safe, and the sense of safety is paramount to healthy mind.[/QUOTE]
oh yeah i completely forgot to tell you guys, but my gf is still hospitalized and has gotten diagnosed with schizotypi, which is a mild form of schizophrenia.
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[QUOTE=KillerTele;47449693]Don't fall too deep brother[/QUOTE]
[QUOTE=explodingape;47450131]no worries man, life has its ups and downs it'll be alright.[/QUOTE]
thank you guys. i'm staying somewhat safe and responsible, but it feels bad because i had finally started doing progress and now i'm back in the same position i was in a year or two ago. i'll stay safe though.
Woops I done had a relapse. Oh well time to start again and get my shit together.
so heres the scoop, i quit my job because the manager screwed up by editing the schedule and didn't notify me about it so i ended up going in 40 minutes late on that day i supposedly have off hung over like a bitch, tried to work it out but 15 minutes later i started to get really nautious so i had to clock out and leave so i don't puke over peoples food. So i come back in the next day which i know i am off to try and talk to the manager about what the hell was going on with the schedule and she just bitched me out saying that im wasting her time when she has things to do. I became incredibly pissed at this point but obviously i couldnt get anything through to her professionally. So i carry on and as i finish the rest of the week and tonight i go in look at the schedule and all my days are blank except one that has 3 hours only. I said fuck that tried to finish up the rest of this shift but by 1:30 am i said im fucking done with this shit i quit. Walked over to the lobby cashier terminal clocked out and left mad as fuck.
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it's worth to mention i grabbed four 2mg ativans i popped two of them and i feel great atm
[editline]5th April 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=DELL;47461365]Woops I done had a relapse. Oh well time to start again and get my shit together.[/QUOTE]
relapse on what buddy?
[QUOTE=confinedUser;47461432] relapse on what buddy?[/QUOTE]
Codeine and oxycodone which is because I quite enjoy being numb. Not in a good environment so I use it to escape from all that emotional pain. Which just makes my horrible depression worse in the long run. Can't touch any psychedelics, they just lead to some very very nasty trips. On the flip side though I've never had an addiction problem with stims somehow. Plus I always keep my doses low as I've learned the high doses lead to some nice times in the short time but in the long run it makes it much worse. Hard to stay clean when you live with a bunch of alcoholics that make you feel worthless and they all suck at dealing with there problems.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;47456642]Goddamn, bro. Pot is starting to get steep around here. Most people are charging $15 a gram unless it's home grown.
Not getting more than 2 shifts a week at work doesn't help that. Not to mention all those fellow durg bros who want to smoke up with me all the time.
Shit's expensive, yoooo[/QUOTE]
you have it easy, 20$ a gram was a decent price everyone was happy with few years back, now it's so in the youth culture that everyone wants to smoke it and unless you know the old fellas its pretty much regular to have it 25 now, sucks for us
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgDz5-tfnTY[/media]
get jiggy widdit
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;47456833]If I could have one wish involving weed it would be to have a fucking choice of what strain I buy.
Every person I buy from has no fucking idea what the strain is that they're selling me, they just say it's "some weed", "homestone" or "good hydro".
I've only ever had the strain name given to me once or twice. It'd be nice to know so I can compare easier and know what I'm fucking buying into.[/QUOTE]
This is the most annoying shit ever from the dealer perspective, I pick up some weed from some dude and im supposed to know what strain it is? Even if he does tell me what it is how am I supposed to believe that he's gonna say its some dank strain just to sell it.... strains are literally useless unless you buy from a dispensary where they actually care about that. to me theres good weed and bad weed just smoke it.
Yesterday was hella fun. it's been raining for the last couple of days so but yesterday was nice so we took a qtr of durban poison with us and took out the jeep ('74 CJ-5 on 33's) and my truck ('85 F150 Short Bed on cut 38" TSL boggers with a 414) and took some of the 300 roads (unpaved and unkempt for the most part wilderness roads) out to the back side of an area they call twin falls ended up hiking to here [img]http://i.imgur.com/cPPlsGhl.jpg[/img] smoked on top of the rim of the falls in that pic swam a bit surprisingly enough wasn't too cold. Took the other way back only got the jeep stuck once but that only took like 5 minutes to get out. All in all hella fun and there are some definite perks to being a redneck in the middle of nowhere lol
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;47461499]God fucking dammit. My budget for weed this time was $30 but my dealer got me to go in $40 because he said he could get a deal and he fucking didn't get me a deal. That's fine, whatever. But then since I can't go back home since my stepdad's still fucking there, we have to chill somewhere for a few hours, so he finds us a place to chill with a few people I didn't even know very well and he said we'd roll a few joints and head back out. Then he told the dude that we'd be smoking a joint or two without asking me first. Two joints turned into three and they were big. I only have 1.3 grams left.
And then he turns around and has the nerve to ask if I wanted to get more high as I was walking home. Like dude, holy fuck, it's not your weed.
Gotta be conservative for a while. This is the only weed I'll have for another fucking 2 weeks. Thank God winter's fucked off a bit and my annual depression is leaving with it, but if this was in the winter, I'd be so depressed that I'd probably buy another $30 or something without thinking and that really fucking scares me.
Then my brother told me I should have waited another half hour because he spent $50 and got 12 grams of good hydro, which it was.
Could have had nearly a bag, got 1.3 gs instead.
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Sounds like your "dealer" is a shitty middleman, characteristic of offering things they cannot deliver
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[QUOTE=Jagur;47463087]This is the most annoying shit ever from the dealer perspective, I pick up some weed from some dude and im supposed to know what strain it is? Even if he does tell me what it is how am I supposed to believe that he's gonna say its some dank strain just to sell it.... strains are literally useless unless you buy from a dispensary where they actually care about that. to me theres good weed and bad weed just smoke it.[/QUOTE]
This is completely true. If you're even told a strain name by an illegal dealer it's bullshit 99.9% of the time. Don't be one of those fools who goes around saying they have "og king kush" or some bullshit. It's a stupid damn gimmick. If you ask a dealer what strain it is and they don't laugh in your face, then they're probably just lying to you to appease you.
My dealer forgot about my "order" because he was on klonopin. He's coming now though. I wasn't sure if I wanted him driving to me while he's on kpins but I just told him to drive carefully. I feel too shitty to really take the humanitarian route here. :v:
[QUOTE=Draginz;47463907]
This is completely true. If you're even told a strain name by an illegal dealer it's bullshit 99.9% of the time. Don't be one of those fools who goes around saying they have "og king kush" or some bullshit. It's a stupid damn gimmick. If you ask a dealer what strain it is and they don't laugh in your face, then they're probably just lying to you to appease you.[/QUOTE]
probably way less than 99.9% in reality but it does happen a lot
Around here I get told strain names all the time when I buy, I doubt every dealer knows what he's talking about/is being honest but I know some dealers that move weight so it wouldnt surprise me if they knew what it really is
Microdosing 1/8 of a tab to try to study a language a bit
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;47464131]Well now I feel like an idiot. I don't usually ask, but I've had enough people tell me the strain without me asking them to be curious. Yeah, I won't do that again. I'll just feel like an annoying ass.[/QUOTE]
I didn't mean to make you feel like an idiot or annoying, the perpetrators are dealers who engage in calling their weed whatever the hell they want because it sells better. Never once has someone reliable selling me green told me a strain name, and never once have I asked.
The only exception is sometimes there will be "kush" which basically just means indica. No 'OG kush', no 'watermelon icecream kush', etc..
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I'm speaking from a regional perspective, I should mention, if you live in a state with medical dispensaries where they sell verifiable product then I would think you're more likely to get legitimate 'strains'.
You also have to ask yourself, does strain [i]even really matter[/i] for non medical users?
It's such a great feeling exhaling a fat cloud of vapor after scraping to feel well throughout the entire day until now.
Anubis be praised!
Stressed as fuck, smoked a bowl and popped a mg of ativan, time for Halt and Catch Fire, anyone else what this show? im almost done with the 1st season
Happy zombie Jesus day everyone. Let's celebrate by smoking God's greens. Hallelujah.
Friend gave me 2g of shrooms today. Dunno what species they are specifically but hopefully they'll be good for some giggles.
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;47464490]Happy zombie Jesus day everyone. Let's celebrate by smoking God's greens. Hallelujah.[/QUOTE]
CAN I GET AN AMEN
Let the bread leaven, let the pigs be slaughtered and honeyglazed, and let the seed-bearing plants be consumed!
I took my first klonopin the other day when i was panicking because I got too high and it's really nice. I was drowsy for a while but then when I came down from the weed I felt great. I've taken one .5mg the last few nights and I just feel normal after the drowsyness.
Also, day 5 of taking half a 10mg lexapro. I'll move up to a full one a day on the 10th. I keep napping every day for a couple hours after taking it. I don't really notice anything yet.
I know I can't take shrooms or LSD now but would DMT be okay?
[QUOTE=Magman77;47464946]Friend gave me 2g of shrooms today. Dunno what species they are specifically but hopefully they'll be good for some giggles.[/QUOTE]
2gs is a good starter dose, won't be too crazy but it will be awesome
I wont even be taking it all at once. I might only have one mushroom at first just to see what changes. I'll chew it for a few minutes with a spoon full of honey or something. :v:
can confirm that 2g is excellent starter dose, have fun with it man
be creative lol
pussy shit
chomp those badboys down rough rugged and raw
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@using honey
well if that fits your definition, I am most certainly a pussy.
I ground mine up and ate them in a PB'n'P: Peanut Butter and Psilocybin.
It was not pleasant.
My first time I diced them up and drank them like pills.
actually worked pretty well
didn't end up bothering to get honey, the taste really isn't that bad. let's see how this goes.
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