The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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[QUOTE=Evilan;28863104]Hope you feel better man. I know I wouldn't want to see any FPers off themselves, and I hope you battle whatever is making you feel depressed.[/QUOTE]
i don't really feel better but i reliezed i'm better off helping others than just taking my life.
and i try fighting what hurts me but it still hurts so much i sometimes just want to die.
How was everyones day?
I need a man to hold me and tell me he loves me, sadly, there is nobody like that around here. :smith:
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28847877]I want to cry but I can't, what to do?[/QUOTE]
I hate it when this happens. It's so frustrating. Sometimes I can let it out easier if I listen to serious or sad music. Sobbing into my pillow feels really good sometimes.
[editline]28th March 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28867176]I need a man to hold me and tell me he loves me, sadly, there is nobody like that around here. :smith:[/QUOTE]
It always seems like when you stop wanting something, it comes into your life. If you're really desperate for a partner, it'll feel like it's never going to happen. Then when you stop caring people are suddenly interested. I honestly think you're better off becoming content with being alone, even if you have to wait a few years for the love of your life. It'll be worth it, I promise.
[editline]28th March 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Digivee;28866446]How was everyones day?[/QUOTE]
Could've been better, but I'm not complaining. How was yours?
[QUOTE=Shoupie;28867274]
It always seems like when you stop wanting something, it comes into your life. If you're really desperate for a partner, it'll feel like it's never going to happen. Then when you stop caring people are suddenly interested. I honestly think you're better off becoming content with being alone, even if you have to wait a few years for the love of your life. It'll be worth it, I promise.[/QUOTE]
But what do I do in the meantime?
There's nobody around where I moved, and since I go to an alternative school, nobody to make friends with.
It's lonely, man.
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28867588]But what do I do in the meantime?
There's nobody around where I moved, and since I go to an alternative school, nobody to make friends with.
It's lonely, man.[/QUOTE]
When did you move? Are you still new to the school?
A month or so ago. I've been in the alternative school since day 1. Everyone there is either druggies or...druggies, actually.
Not my kind of people.
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28867681]A month or so ago. I've been in the alternative school since day 1. Everyone there is either druggies or...druggies, actually.
Not my kind of people.[/QUOTE]
Then how come you're there? If you don't mind answering, that is.
Starting taking busperone for anxiety, it's made my depression worse. I can't concentrate at all without adderall, which suppresses my appetite, which is a problem given that I am already underweight.
Fucking medication can't live with it or without it, legalize cannabis and I'll have my shit together again. Anyone else emotionless for the most part? (When I smoke I get all emotional, meaning I'm actually able to feel something, at the very least to a greater extent)
[editline]28th March 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28847877]I want to cry but I can't, what to do?[/QUOTE]
I feel your pain, doctor says I should be able to but I just can't bring myself to. I feel weak when I do, and I can't be weak.
[QUOTE=Shoupie;28867725]Then how come you're there? If you don't mind answering, that is.[/QUOTE]
To put it simply, for being a douche, like all teenagers do.
See, I moved into Saginaw, but since my old school was sort of nearby, they let me stay.
Unfortunately, I acted poorly and so they kicked me out.
I don't want to talk about that though.
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28847877]I want to cry but I can't, what to do?[/QUOTE]
I'm never able to cry when I want to. I guess I just keep it inside.
[QUOTE=Digivee;28854880]Typically, schizophrenia goes hand in hand with depression which means you came to a good place.
Schizophrenia typically means you see and hear and sometimes feel things that aren't there. Voices yell at you. random people appear in front of you ect... With the OCD thing tho, you might want to consult a professional on that.
[editline]march 28[/editline]
Straight from a Schizophrenics mouth.[/QUOTE]
How do I seek professional help? it's not like I can go up to my parents and say "I think I am crazy, I want to see a professorial. What if it all in my head? The very though of it being in my head is enough to trigger a panic attack.
I've been feeling....empty for a while now. Not to mention lonely, even though I have friends. I also get really fucking sad sometimes, just out of nowhere. It happened to me last Friday and I almost killed myself. Jeez... things are not going well with me recently. :smith:
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I am crying.
[editline]28th March 2011[/editline]
I have nOne to run to.
[editline]29th March 2011[/editline]
I am going to seek professional help soon.
[QUOTE=T.F.W.O.;28869405]I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I can't trust anyone...
I am crying.
[editline]28th March 2011[/editline]
I have nOne to run to.
[editline]29th March 2011[/editline]
I am going to seek professional help soon.[/QUOTE]
Pull yourself together man. If you need anything like moral support, we're all here for you. and having schizophrenia doesn't mean you are crazy, it just means your brain is producing too much dopamine and can be fixed with some medicine. Just because you have a little problem, doesn't mean you should freak out.
[editline]29th March 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=aliendrone123;28868763]I've been feeling....empty for a while now. Not to mention lonely, even though I have friends. I also get really fucking sad sometimes, just out of nowhere. It happened to me last Friday and I almost killed myself. Jeez... things are not going well with me recently. :smith:[/QUOTE]
We know your pain. We've all been there. Just find something you love to do, and spend more time doing it.
My example is playing games and chatting with my lover.
Yours may be hanging with friends or watching movies
[editline]29th March 2011[/editline]
:unsmith:
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28867930]To put it simply, for being a douche, like all teenagers do.
See, I moved into Saginaw, but since my old school was sort of nearby, they let me stay.
Unfortunately, I acted poorly and so they kicked me out.
I don't want to talk about that though.[/QUOTE]
If you're still that new at the alternative school, don't rule out meeting anyone new yet. And don't judge them as druggies just because they go to the alternative school, because you do too, and you don't seem like a bad kid. I know a lot of decent kids from the alternative school in my area. Some of them are pretty troubled, but that doesn't mean they're not good people. Just give them a chance.
I went through several dark phases, due to certain events happening to me. I often wondered what use I was. I didn't want to actually kill myself but I needed something to make me feel real. So I would scratch myself, with either my fingers or whatever I could find, nothing ever to sharp, I didn't want people to know how I felt. But it helped me, eventually I managed to pull myself out of the rut I had made, several months after the first incident I had, then something else bad happened to me and I fell right back into it. I was a mess. I still am.
My friend Artemis helped a lot too.
I have a family history of mental illness, which doesn't help; depression, OCD and schizophrenia to name a few in one generation of my family.
Hey, you'll always be a unique person, and an amazing one. You always mean alot to alot of people and you can make it through, for them, for yourselves, for your future children, for this world. If you ever need to talk or anything, there are lots of people here willing to talk to you. I'm one of them. We don't know you, but we know.
How was everyone's day?
[QUOTE=Shoupie;28872291]If you're still that new at the alternative school, don't rule out meeting anyone new yet. And don't judge them as druggies just because they go to the alternative school, because you do too, and you don't seem like a bad kid. I know a lot of decent kids from the alternative school in my area. Some of them are pretty troubled, but that doesn't mean they're not good people. Just give them a chance.[/QUOTE]
I've been there for a month or so, get out next week.
All I've heard anyone talk about was drugs. There are three people there who are alright though, so I hang out with them mostly.
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28880533]I've been there for a month or so, get out next week.
All I've heard anyone talk about was drugs. There are three people there who are alright though, so I hang out with them mostly.[/QUOTE]
Its better to have a few good friends, than a lot of shitty ones.
[editline]29th March 2011[/editline]
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-diB65scQU[/media]
I keep letting people down and disappointing my parents. I feel like they're patronizing me after I told them I was depressed. Even after I told them to stop patronizing. I really want someone I know and trust IRL to just hug and talk to, I deal with stress and pressure horribly.
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28883107]I keep letting people down and disappointing my parents. I feel like they're patronizing me after I told them I was depressed. Even after I told them to stop patronizing. I really want someone I know and trust IRL to just hug and talk to, I deal with stress and pressure horribly.[/QUOTE]
Have you had that appointment yet?
So I posted in this thread when it was first made and thought I should post again considering my depression has gotten worse.
Before I get started I just want to explain something. I have always been the type of person who tries to find a few good friends and stick with them rather then a bunch of shitty ones.
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I graduated from college last July and have been unable to find work and I am unable to get assistance to continue my college education so basically I have just been sitting at home. I have been between depression and ok for long time and this time it has been considerably worse.
Recently, me and my close real life friends have been leaving me behind and not allowing me to participate in events that I would enjoy. This has been kind of hard on me but I have gotten through it because I know I am broke and it's hard to do things when money is so limited. Over the last two or so weeks I came into some money and we started to talk about getting a new game to play together (my friends are also my gaming friends)
The other day we were talking about they basically told me my opinion is shit and they do not care what I think. Buying Rift knowing that I cannot afford monthly fees and it would waste my money if I bought the game.
Since then they have basically ignored me and have been on the game nearly nonstop.
I feel completely abandoned, I only talk to one person that I know personally and one person I have known from xbox live from 2004. Other then that I have no contact and I spend my days cycling through the same websites, same threads, same videos, same emails...same thing every day.
I am probably not making much sense so basically I just wanted some opinions on my situation, mainly should I feel the way I do about my friends leaving me behind?
Also, I know this is not a blog but I just feel like shit and suicide has been on the table for many months now and I do not want this to set me over the edge.
ok one last thing. These are not just "friends" I have known these people for the better part of ten years.
If i was you, i would try and patch things up with your current friends, and if they don't want to be close com-padres with you, its their lose.
Always be as nice as possible to people and the good ones will return the favor.
Also, i have another video for you guys ^-^
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jE-Krlqi4fk[/media]
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28880533]I've been there for a month or so, get out next week.
All I've heard anyone talk about was drugs. There are three people there who are alright though, so I hang out with them mostly.[/QUOTE]
most people in alternative schools aren't bad people. they've just made a mistake. I'd assume most of them are in there for possession of drugs in school.
there are some violent ones though who brought weapons, fought constantly, etc.
[QUOTE=bionic0n3;28889172]I graduated from college last July and have been unable to find work and I am unable to get assistance to continue my college education so basically I have just been sitting at home.[/QUOTE]
what'd you major in?
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28883107]I keep letting people down and disappointing my parents. I feel like they're patronizing me after I told them I was depressed. Even after I told them to stop patronizing. I really want someone I know and trust IRL to just hug and talk to, I deal with stress and pressure horribly.[/QUOTE]
set up an appointment with a psychologist
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;28867681]A month or so ago. I've been in the alternative school since day 1. Everyone there is either druggies or...druggies, actually.
Not my kind of people.[/QUOTE]
try to look past that part
they're still people and can be really nice just like anyone else. drug abuse often coexists with mental illness and other issues.
[QUOTE=T.F.W.O.;28868675]How do I seek professional help? it's not like I can go up to my parents and say "I think I am crazy, I want to see a professorial. What if it all in my head? The very though of it being in my head is enough to trigger a panic attack.[/QUOTE]
just sit down with your mom and or dad, and tell them what you're experiencing and that you want to seek professional help
My degree is in:
Information Technology with an emphasis in Network Systems Administration
I've had 5 or 6 interviews since I graduated and I even took "second place" for a GREAT fucking job to a friend of mine.
[QUOTE=bionic0n3;28895622]My degree is in:
Information Technology with an emphasis in Network Systems Administration
I've had 5 or 6 interviews since I graduated and I even took "second place" for a GREAT fucking job to a friend of mine.[/QUOTE]
Second place just means you have to try harder just a little bit and you'll get the job.
Optimism, my friend.
[QUOTE=Shoupie;28884557]Have you had that appointment yet?[/QUOTE]
Yep.
Wasn't very helpful.
Gonna have a follow-up appointment.
He recommended I read a book he gave me, but I didn't have the concentration power to get past page 2. (Ironically a symptom of depression)
Hey everyone,
First of all, I'd like to thank everyone for being here.
As you've probably guessed, I suffer from depression. It tends to manifest itself in a lonely, empty type feeling. At school, I'm arguably one of the most popular seniors, despite the fact that I'm a huge geek, and to be honest I don't even know why. I have a lot of good friends, and while they don't really seem to get that I have depression, they know that I've had struggles and give me that offer of always being there to talk. Unfortunately, day after day and week after week, I'll hear about something fun they did while I was here on my computer. For whatever reason, they just don't seem interested in including me, and that never fails to make me feel terrible.
At home, I honestly don't feel loved. My dad lives an hour away because when I was little, my mom had to move for work. He tries, I know he does, but it's just not enough to be a "normal father figure." My mom knows I have depression, but seems less than sympathetic. She has it, and has managed it, so she seems to think it should be no problem. Whenever she tries to get me to do something like clean my room, I just can't find the motivation and I just get yelled at. She's incredibly defensive so I have no intent of discussing these matters with her again.
I do see a counselor, but unfortunately my mom only makes appointments for about once every other week or less. On the plus side, when we do meet, we've been working on unraveling my very deep rooted fear of rejection from basically everyone.
Well, thanks for listening. If nothing else, I'd like to join in on the conversation and maybe contribute, make it a group effort perhaps.
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