The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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I think my friend needs counseling, I suspect he's going through a true depression (almost said derpression, which would be just about accurate too...) I've been friends with this guy for over 15 years now, he used to date my mom back in the day... He's always been one of the more gifted people that I know, and I think that this may be part of his behavior recently.
He goes back and forth from anger, to happy, to everything's generally ok, to sadness. I'd say it's bipolar, but it's too predictable. Any criticism he immediately responds to with anger, even when it's me telling him clearly that I'm just giving him my OPINION on a subject. He's always been too damn smart to listen to anyone else's thoughts (in the past I would have even said rightfully so). But lately he just been distracted, too much shit hitting the fan for him to follow anything through, and it's taken it's toll on his family. So now he's just addled, all the time, and I think THAT bothers him more than anything...
Today it was him having to guard his words when talking to his 5 year old daughter because she used the word "God" in reference to whatever higher being there may be/may not be. Here's the thing though... He talks all the time about how he's following a "higher being" when anyone calls the projects he works on, his.
So I suggested a change in movie. He'd picked out a documentary about the evolution of life on Earth for a 5 year old to watch, whose been going to a Universalist Church with her mom, (perfect example of a derp moment, I would have bet my last dime, knowing EXACTLY where that was going), so that we could get AWAY from the subject, and he starts drawing ME into the conversation, by saying to me "It's easy for you if we were to watch (X, can't remember the movie she'd picked), because you could just walk away." So I pointedly looked him into the eyes and said "You're absolutely right. I AM capable of just walking away." His wife giggled at that, and it started him up. He started talking about how he's educating his daughter, in which, no, I don't disagree with the subject matter myself (I even said this to him before it got out of hand), just the seemingly, slightly (vocally) aggressive method he was using. TO ME IT SEEMED LIKE HE WAS STARTING TO GET PISSED AT HIS DAUGHTER OVER HER THOUGHTS ON GOD, and having to check himself on it, however fully underdeveloped/misunderstood they are, and however vigilant he was at trying to conceal his distaste. I can only imagine what was going on through her mind... All I really said to him, that was negative, was "If you're wanting to focus on education, cool. I'm down with that. Just watch your TONE, bro." (This wasn't said very harshly or in an INSTRUCTIVE manner, just trying to let him know that his tone of voice was getting away from him, which it OFTEN does, with me, his neighbors, his wife, his mom, pretty much anyone who is close to him.)
And that was it, he started yelling at me, threw an empty box at me, accused me of ruining his time with his family, got in my face, and when his wife started in on him (luckily), he left. I want to feel guilty for saying something, but when I went to apologize to his wife she let me know that she was already livid with him for the way that he had handled things with his daughter, and then to act like that in front of his daughter towards me, when she saw exactly what I said and how I said it, was inexcusable. She even thanked me for saying something and keeping my cool when he got in my face, because things haven't been going that smooth between them, and she was already biting her tongue pretty hard in an effort to keep the peace...
So what the hell do I do? I want to help my friend, but he WILL NOT listen to my opinions on anything relevant in his life, ever. It always, A-L-W-A-Y-S, turns into an argument now, I'm surprised it hasn't come to blows (he knows that's the line with me, if I hit him or him, me, it will be over between us. I've done it before, to a close friend, simply because he started a fight at my house. Even after that person apologized to anyone involved I still made it clear where I stand on violence, namely it's used in self defence, period. I've broken that rule, once, and it took me 10 years to forgive myself for what I did to that person on that occasion (Even after they apologized for pushing me to that point two years later). He know's if he pushes me to that point, there's no going back.) But I know what he's going through, I've been watching it from the sidelines when I haven't been actively helping him try and deal with it. He's got good reason to be upset/depressed/whateverthefuckitis. I just can't help but wonder if it would be better (maybe a little more reality dropping), if I just left the friendship, let him come looking for me, because I'll be damned if I can find him anymore...
I almost got killed today, when a car almost t-boned the passenger side door i was at, when we were going 55 miles per hour. would of either fucked me up really badly, or would of killed me.
came 3-5 feet of going into my door. and i was perfectly calm.
Kind of depressing, cause it tells me how calm i am, and how much i couldn't care if i almost got to meet god.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;29009842]I almost got killed today, when a car almost t-boned the passenger side door i was at, when we were going 55 miles per hour. would of either fucked me up really badly, or would of killed me.
came 3-5 feet of going into my door. and i was perfectly calm.
Kind of depressing, cause it tells me how calm i am, and how much i couldn't care if i almost got to meet god.[/QUOTE]
Ive gotten into mild car accidents with some of the people at my GSA and i was more agitated i would be getting home later, more than afraid.
But i guess yours wasn't mild.
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[QUOTE=Digivee;28980544]Get out neo, this thread is for people with problems, not trolls and assholes[/QUOTE]
There was no trolling there, you honestly don't do stuff like that and then expect people to think of you normally. That's just common sense.
[QUOTE=NeoDement;28977983]"everyone thinks of me as some kind of a freak."
Aren't you the guy that walks around almost completely naked, wearing a nazi helmet?[/QUOTE]
Wasn't talking about that part. Most of my friends do crazy and dumb stuff too, and it isn't like I'm doing dumb shit 24/7.
I just feel like everything that comes out of my mouth is wrong, and that everyone else thinks I'm retarded, or something.
It's hard to explain what goes on in my mind, but that's atleast some clarification for you.
And by the way, judging by the ratings in your post I just wanted to say that I didn't think of your comment as anything bad. I thought this thread was for making people feel better. If I write here, it's because I want to get something of my chest, and I didn't see your comment as something bad.
I'm addicted to her lol, she is not in school and though there is nothing between us I miss her alot.
Being second year at high school and second year in mental care system. Started on "Setralin 50mg"
[url]http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sertraline[/url] - as a affecting matter.
It's working fine, I'm feeling a little bit better daily and taking vitamins also proves my condition.
Only side effect was head ache for first day and stomach going crazy.
Don't really know, feeling that I'm not being treated like others, being out from the community at my school and so on..
I can't take part in group events because I'm scared that something bad might happen with people I don't know. (Thank God for the Internet, I don't have to face people if I don't want to - but I can hear and read about their thoughts)
And yes, there's always a girl behind this all..
So, I tried making a few attempts to "bond" more with friends, stating interest in hanging out and such. The result have me feeling more alone than ever. At this point, I'm just holding onto the hope of college in August. With any luck the jump from 600 people to 14000 will allow me to find a few who don't find my interests laughable.
Being 20 sucks. Most of my friends are teenagers.
It always makes me feel like such a huge creep. :sigh:
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
Is someone here on Facepunch out to get me?!
I got a call from someone from Facepunch, and now I look like an ass.
This plus being paranoid is not helping me.
I have a few updates to share since my last visit to this thread.
My difficulties with ADD now appear to be solved with a drug known as Straterra.
I recently discovered that I have anxiety problems, which now appear to be solved with a medication known as Lorazepam.
For the most part my psychological problems appear to be out of the way, yet there are still some problems that I must work on, such as being more organized and having a more defined daily schedule.
It might take me some time to fully get used to the feeling of no longer having the counter productive psychological barrier that I had from now realized and solved anxiety.
I should also probably consider getting a job and finally getting a license, considering the fact that a certain quantity of people consider me to be rather late in the area of driving, me being 18.
Just to again list the psychological problems that I appeared to have successfully solved: Depression, ADD, anxiety.
Anyone who may be interested in talking about anything including the problems mentioned in this thread can contact me through these methods:
Steam: [URL]http://steamcommunity.com/id/genkaz92[/URL]
Skype: Genkaz
Email: [EMAIL="Genkaz92@gmail.com"]Genkaz92@gmail.com[/EMAIL]
I am aware of me already mentioning this, but this thread certainly appears to be getting more visitors.
[QUOTE=genkaz92;29083483]I am aware of me already mentioning this, but this thread certainly appears to be getting more visitors.[/QUOTE]
That's kinda good thing that people are opening their minds and coming out to tell their stories without being told "oh lol get a life go out and play with your friends".
But in other hand it's not great to know that there's so much unhappy folks here, which are just victims of bad enviroment or not-so-great social skills to have people supporting them without asking it.
Yeh, that's good that you have overcome your problems.
ive recently had a massive "forever alone" feel the last few days.
I hate that I think so much about what people think of me. I don't want to speak to my friends how I feel, because firstly, I don't want to be an annoying depressed friend (because those suck, really) and I don't want to show everyone that I'm just a weak minded fuck.
fucking shit
[QUOTE=Gurant;29096434]I hate that I think so much about what people think of me. I don't want to speak to my friends how I feel, because firstly, I don't want to be an annoying depressed friend (because those suck, really) and I don't want to show everyone that I'm just a weak minded fuck.
fucking shit[/QUOTE]
If your friends really cared about you, they wouldn't judge you as the annoying depressed friend. They'd try to help you.
[QUOTE=Shoupie;29096557]If your friends really cared about you, they wouldn't judge you as the annoying depressed friend. They'd try to help you.[/QUOTE]
I very much agree with this statement. For the reason described above, i've been able to sort out my real friends from the fair weather ones. It may bite finding out who's not a "real friend", but finding who is is so much better, because they really care about you.
And the best part: if they all disassociate with you afterwards, you getta be alone.
[QUOTE=Gurant;29096434]I hate that I think so much about what people think of me. I don't want to speak to my friends how I feel, because firstly, I don't want to be an annoying depressed friend (because those suck, really) and I don't want to show everyone that I'm just a weak minded fuck.
fucking shit[/QUOTE]
I think about others' thoughts on myself all the time.
Sort of. I make up hypothetical conversations, in my head, that they have with their friends.
The way I handle that is that I always make it positive.
So, pretend that they all think highly of you. Then you will feel highly of yourself.
I think.
[QUOTE=Phsykotik;29098072]And the best part: if they all disassociate with you afterwards, you getta be alone.
I think about others' thoughts on myself all the time.
Sort of. I make up hypothetical conversations, in my head, that they have with their friends.
The way I handle that is that I always make it positive.
So, pretend that they all think highly of you. Then you will feel highly of yourself.
I think.[/QUOTE]
a rare glimpse into the mind of phsykotik.
Is that sarcastic? The text prevents me from knowing.
I think it was a reference to your name and the noun it resembles.
Girl I like haven't been in school since wednesday. I have been feeling great during this time!
[editline]11th April 2011[/editline]
I'm wondering how it will be when she comes back.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;29109255]Girl I like haven't been in school since wednesday. I have been feeling great during this time![/QUOTE]
That happens to me also. I don't have to stress what I'm doing - she's not seeing.
[QUOTE=Uusis;29109385]That happens to me also. I don't have to stress what I'm doing - she's not seeing.[/QUOTE]
I've gotta stop caring about her more than anyone else :v:
My doctors say I'm not depressed, I just work differently from mainstream society and it leads to huge levels of frustration that I don't know how to deal with.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;29109689]I've gotta stop caring about her more than anyone else :v:[/QUOTE]
Yeh, start to care myself - there are plenty of fishes in the water
And as I suspected I feel just as depressed as usual now that she's back.
I don't know anymore... I never knew... there's nothing
[editline]12th April 2011[/editline]
I can't do this anymore.
So after 11 months in a relationship with a girl that I've loved with my entire heart and body, she decides to tell me that she spend the past many weeks lying about her love for me.
She helped me out of a depression that had been going on for about 10 years; 2 of which were severe depression with (almost) constant suicide thoughts, planning, and problems with cutting and other bad-bad things.
And then, a few months back, I got setbacks and she pushed me down under. When I come to her with my problems now, she's just angry with me, and rejects me and refuses to be there for me, telling me that I can't demand that from her.
So here we go again..
[QUOTE=T3hGamerDK;29129736]So after 11 months in a relationship with a girl that I've loved with my entire heart and body, she decides to tell me that she spend the past many weeks lying about her love for me.
She helped me out of a depression that had been going on for about 10 years; 2 of which were severe depression with (almost) constant suicide thoughts, planning, and problems with cutting and other bad-bad things.
And then, a few months back, I got setbacks and she pushed me down under. When I come to her with my problems now, she's just angry with me, and rejects me and refuses to be there for me, telling me that I can't demand that from her.
So here we go again..[/QUOTE]
You'll get past it. Just open up about the situation to any of your friends and 10 times out of 10 they will be supportive. It's a classic high school break up.
The worst thing you can do is let her breaking up with you affect you in a negative way.
Citalopram and Wellbutrin every day. Without them, I would go insane.
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