• The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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[QUOTE=Pedro the Fuzzy;30531007]I don't know what to do, or say. So I told you all about one of my friend's who is now going to a therapist and is feeling generally better. She isn't anorexic anymore, she's eating, most of all she's relatively happy. I've been following her on her Tumblr for awhile and she makes this long, drawn out post about her friend inviting her to go to Bible Camp. I don't mind that, really, I don't. I may be atheist or agnostic depending on the day you ask me, but I don't care if you worship fucking Allah as long as you're happy. At this Bible Camp thing she said she re-established her faith in God. Once again, no problem there. But then she goes on and on talking about how she returned to Church, youth groups, etc. And she went Wednesday night, and wanted to officially re-accept God into her heart. She thinks she can take on the world now, she's stronger because all she did was say a few "magic words." I just want to tell her so bad that what she just described were her [i]believing[/i] in herself, but I also don't want to start a big religious fight and end up severring all ties with her/making her depressed again. I just don't want her to fall into a fucking God-fearing, Jesus-knows-all, Christian-type. And from what she described, it sounds like she's heading down that path. I just don't know any light way to put what I just described into words.[/QUOTE] You shouldn't tell her then. Until she starts pushing Christianity or saying horribly ignorant things, just let her have her bliss. Maybe lightly mention that God isn't the only factor in her new found strength, but don't completely shatter her new found happiness because you aren't completely accepting of it.
I suppose you're right. I really don't mind if you follow a religion until you start waving it around and being completely ignorant, like there is no other solution. I'm kind of afraid of what happens when she may get into another situation of depression, sadness, suicidal thoughts, etc., and pray for God to help her. But when no miracle happens, what to do. If she follows God completely, Him not doing anything would seem like he doesn't care about her. I don't know. I'm just not going to worry about it until it becomes an actual problem.
So, I've taken a huge step in life, slowly, but I'm still not doing fine yet. I'll make it simple because I know how annoying walls of texts are and I'm not here to get something off my mind, just explain my situation. I'm still just as depressed as I used to be, I haven't gotten out of that, but I'm handling it much better than I used to. I used to think there was no way out of my depression, and everytime I got really low it felt like the end of the world and yaddiyaddiyadda. I didn't know what to do, I kept rejecting the depression, which lead to anxiety and stuff... which, if I'd have to choose, anxiety is worse than depression. So I went through a period of alcohol abuse, somewhat secret, that was later revealed by my family. I'm doing much better now, because I'm accepting the depression. It comes just as often, but instead of rejecting it, I just let it come and I let myself feel sad. I don't need to drink. I don't think I'll get out of this depression anytime soon because the cause of it and the base is still there, and I can't face it now, I've done it once before, and it failed. So I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with the cause itself nor when. So while I've taken a step forwards, there is still a problem. So for the time being I'm living a very boring life. I spend my days at home, doing nothing. I don't get out, because there is really nothing out there for me to do that I like and enjoy. So when I get out, and I'm bored, I fall into dark thoughts and become a downer, and there is really nowhere for me to hide then which lead to me rejecting the depression and then later it comes back at me as anxiety. Shit, it ended up being a tiny wall of text anyways. Well I tried to make it short.
It's shitty people as cool as you guys are feel this bad. I felt genuinely alone until I read this thread but now I feel understood and hopeful. I don't know how to explain It but I feel this sense of security that I'm not really a useless piece of shit and this is a condition. Thank you. You guys are my bros', bro.
I have Bipolar disorder and my moms so proud she refuses to accept that she has a mentally sick son so i get no medication. Me being so out of control with emotions with people i'm fully open with(usually only girls or rare cute sensitive guy that have managed to win my heart)i drive them away with the mood shifts and the inappropriate moods. I have constant racing thoughts and they often are over what has gone wrong in my life which i have a tendency to blame everything that other people have done to me on myself.i dont fight being sad when i'm alone but when i'm around most other people i just pretend to be happy for their benefit and i have abandonment issues so i tend to get really clingy sometimes so i have to fight most of my feelings yet people i trust always try to push my limits and purposely see if i really do have anger control which i do to a certain degree but they always end up saying things they know cut deep because i have low self confidence(do to abusive older sister and unloving father)then yell at me for finally snapping and attacking every weak point they have then i apologize if i care about them,but it happens so often they dont believe that i'm sorry or even care anymore and its hard for me to sleep at night i mostly sleep during the day and i constantly feel tired no matter how long i sleep and i always hurt physically. [editline]20th June 2011[/editline] It feels good to finally admit everything most of my bestfriends would seriously stop talking to me if they found out i was bi-sexual or that i'm usually sad and that i'm agnostic because everyone always jokes how my luck is only extremely good or extremely bad and it tends to be the latter.
I feel like I'm on the verge of a total breakdown. I feel anxious all the time. It sometimes even makes me feel physically ill. I don't know what to do.
[QUOTE=Tim Henson;30625765]I feel like I'm on the verge of a total breakdown. I feel anxious all the time. It sometimes even makes me feel physically ill. I don't know what to do.[/QUOTE] What's troubling you?
Used to be like that for me, not anymore though. Is there something worrying you? Something about to happen or has happened?
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;30633711]Nope. It just happens completely randomly once in a while, like 2-5 times a week.[/QUOTE] Huh, how social are you?
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;30633805]Very little.[/QUOTE] And there's probably what's causing it. You're nervous about social situations, weather they are real or not.
I find that social situations leave me feeling depressed, actually. it seems like almost Every time I'm talking in a group everyone talks about the parties they were at. Which makes me feel bad because I really don't have the time to party because I work either 5-6 days a week and when I'm off I'm too tired to go out. But when I do get in social situations I try to remind myself I am with friends. They don't hate you, just be yourself because they are your friend for that person. What really bothers you about it? Can you tell the feeling of the anxiousness? [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] I feel the anxious a lot too. I feel like I am constantly doing something wrong. Like there is some one to tell some one to tell some one what I am doing. I guess it's my work getting to me, I can't sit down for my whole shift, I have to pace the restaurant pretty much, even if there is no tables at all so I have to search for something to clean.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;30628852]What's troubling you?[/QUOTE] It's just... everything. I've been depressed pretty much my whole life. I feel trapped - no matter how much I want to end everything I know I can't because it'd fuck up the lives of the people I care about. I'm too afraid to get help and not cruel enough to end it. I feel like I'm in limbo, my life is going nowhere and I'm not important to anybody. I just go on existing and hating myself and my life. It feels so pointless and futile. I have nobody to talk to, and no way to get my feelings out. I can't even cry. It just builds and builds and I feel like I'm going to explode, but I can't, and then I push it all back down and it builds up again.
[QUOTE=Back_Slash;30636312]I find that social situations leave me feeling depressed, actually. it seems like almost Every time I'm talking in a group everyone talks about the parties they were at. Which makes me feel bad because I really don't have the time to party because I work either 5-6 days a week and when I'm off I'm too tired to go out. But when I do get in social situations I try to remind myself I am with friends. They don't hate you, just be yourself because they are your friend for that person. What really bothers you about it? Can you tell the feeling of the anxiousness? [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] I feel the anxious a lot too. I feel like I am constantly doing something wrong. Like there is some one to tell some one to tell some one what I am doing. I guess it's my work getting to me, I can't sit down for my whole shift, I have to pace the restaurant pretty much, even if there is no tables at all so I have to search for something to clean.[/QUOTE] Perhaps you feel depressed in social situations and like you're generally doing something wrong with your life because you're missing something, socially related. Perhaps you're not that much into your friends or don't feel that close to them, or perhaps you just don't feel that loved. Or both, or something else. [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Tim Henson;30636422]It's just... everything. I've been depressed pretty much my whole life. I feel trapped - no matter how much I want to end everything I know I can't because it'd fuck up the lives of the people I care about. I'm too afraid to get help and not cruel enough to end it. I feel like I'm in limbo, my life is going nowhere and I'm not important to anybody. I just go on existing and hating myself and my life. It feels so pointless and futile. I have nobody to talk to, and no way to get my feelings out. I can't even cry. It just builds and builds and I feel like I'm going to explode, but I can't, and then I push it all back down and it builds up again.[/QUOTE] Yes, I know how it feels and here's the deal; you may feel like you can't do anything, and perhaps you can't, not right now. Don't turn away from your depression, don't push it away, let it come and feel low down. In the future you will be able to do something about all the troubles you have, but you've gotta let them in. You can't reject your troubles and the hard feelings, let them come, do something relaxing but sad, watch a movie, listen to some music, cry, whatever suits you. If you just feel like talking, I'm here, you can add me on steam and talk to me at anytime, really. I know it's not the same as having a friend in real life to talk to, but if it's something you'd want and need then you're more then welcome.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;30636664]Yes, I know how it feels and here's the deal; you may feel like you can't do anything, and perhaps you can't, not right now. Don't turn away from your depression, don't push it away, let it come and feel low down. In the future you will be able to do something about all the troubles you have, but you've gotta let them in. You can't reject your troubles and the hard feelings, let them come, do something relaxing but sad, watch a movie, listen to some music, cry, whatever suits you. If you just feel like talking, I'm here, you can add me on steam and talk to me at anytime, really. I know it's not the same as having a friend in real life to talk to, but if it's something you'd want and need then you're more then welcome.[/QUOTE] Who said I was rejecting anything? It's not like I can say "depression depression go away come and bother me another day". It's always there. I always feel it. I just repress it so I never show it. And how would making me feel more sad make me feel better?
Heh, you hit in spot on. I feel like people walk all over me. And people get mad at me because I am essentially a push over. [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] @ jazzy
[QUOTE=Tim Henson;30636840]Who said I was rejecting anything? It's not like I can say "depression depression go away come and bother me another day". It's always there. I always feel it. I just repress it so I never show it. And how would making me feel more sad make me feel better?[/QUOTE] I didn't explain what I meant very good. When you feel sad, what do you do? [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Back_Slash;30636885]Heh, you hit in spot on. I feel like people walk all over me. And people get mad at me because I am essentially a push over. [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] @ jazzy[/QUOTE] Which school do you go to (college, high school etc) ?
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;30637437]I didn't explain what I meant very good. When you feel sad, what do you do?[/QUOTE] Nothing. It's part of my everyday life. It's not like every once in a while I get sad and cry and have a bucket of ice cream; I just consistently feel shitty.
[QUOTE=Tim Henson;30637624]Nothing. It's part of my everyday life. It's not like every once in a while I get sad and cry and have a bucket of ice cream; I just consistently feel shitty.[/QUOTE] Yeah well what I mean is, perhaps that's what you should do, get a bucket of ice cream and cry, that way you don't only feel sad but experience it, and will become tired and not sad anymore :v: Like what I mean is, the body cannot keep up with being in an anxious and depressed mood for a very long time, so if you feel sad, let yourself feel sad instead of ignoring it.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;30637770]Yeah well what I mean is, perhaps that's what you should do, get a bucket of ice cream and cry, that way you don't only feel sad but experience it, and will become tired and not sad anymore :v: Like what I mean is, the body cannot keep up with being in an anxious and depressed mood for a very long time, so if you feel sad, let yourself feel sad instead of ignoring it.[/QUOTE] I can't cry. Or rather, I can't make myself cry.
It's a way to deal with it, but not make it go away. To make it go away we'd need to understand why you're feeling so low. Is there anything specific you feel sad about or something that has happened or gone on for a long time or so? [editline]22nd June 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Tim Henson;30637785]I can't cry. Or rather, I can't make myself cry.[/QUOTE] Nor can I, but there are things that I can do to make myself cry such as music, movies, sad news or just generally things that affect me emotionally. Try something.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;30637799]It's a way to deal with it, but not make it go away. To make it go away we'd need to understand why you're feeling so low. Is there anything specific you feel sad about or something that has happened or gone on for a long time or so?[/QUOTE] There's a lot of things I feel shitty about. I feel worst when I think about them a lot. [QUOTE=MrJazzy;30637799]Nor can I, but there are things that I can do to make myself cry such as music, movies, sad news or just generally things that affect me emotionally. Try something.[/QUOTE] Those things don't work.
[QUOTE=Tim Henson;30637910]There's a lot of things I feel shitty about. I feel worst when I think about them a lot..[/QUOTE] Do you have any idea of how to deal with and get rid of these problems?
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;30637940]Do you have any idea of how to deal with and get rid of these problems?[/QUOTE] A lot of it is regret. Things I can't change. Finding motivation to deal with anything I can change is difficult, to say the least.
[QUOTE=Tim Henson;30638013]A lot of it is regret. Things I can't change. Finding motivation to deal with anything I can change is difficult, to say the least.[/QUOTE] Yeah, I know what you're saying. You could try to organize your problems and goals and deal with them, one by one. If you feel like it, I can help you do so, in case you want reflections and help.
I just got out of high school jazzy. I worked today I got off early because of it being slow. I feel gutted, and I can feel what's missing. I don't know why.
I think more than anything I just feel exhausted. Emotionally and physically. Exhausted of life. I'm just so tired of everything. It all feels like a big endless routine. I'm tired and empty and I wish I could just go to sleep and keep sleeping.
[QUOTE=Back_Slash;30647081]I just got out of high school jazzy. I worked today I got off early because of it being slow. I feel gutted, and I can feel what's missing. I don't know why.[/QUOTE] Ah yeah. If you don't want to find some new friends and meet new people, atleast not now, then the best thing to do is really take it easy. Try not to be super active, socially, and be chill, and wait for something to happen. [editline]23rd June 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Tim Henson;30650623]I think more than anything I just feel exhausted. Emotionally and physically. Exhausted of life. I'm just so tired of everything. It all feels like a big endless routine. I'm tired and empty and I wish I could just go to sleep and keep sleeping.[/QUOTE] I see. I'm not sure how to help ya, as you just need some time to relax.
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;30632445]Anyone else suddenly feel incredibly nervous and built up sometimes? For me it's completely random and can happen when I'm just resting or watching a move, I suddenly feel frightened or anxious.[/QUOTE] Yeah. It happens in my sleep sometimes. Fucking hypnic jerks scare the hell out of me and I'm usually nervous all day. I get really paranoid at night and I feel like I'm being watched. I don't even like having a single limb out of the covers because of some infantile fear I can't explain. Does that happen to anyone else?
[QUOTE=Shoupie;30661789]Yeah. It happens in my sleep sometimes. Fucking hypnic jerks scare the hell out of me and I'm usually nervous all day. I get really paranoid at night and I feel like I'm being watched. I don't even like having a single limb out of the covers because of some infantile fear I can't explain. Does that happen to anyone else?[/QUOTE] Used to be just like that for me, every night, being so scared and in panic I wouldn't dare to move. Hasn't happened to me in a while though.
I feel like sleep is an escape for me. Like I don't have to put up with anything.
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