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[QUOTE=xZippy;31404297]Parents are out of town. One garage. One car. I'm hopin' I don't botch this one.[/QUOTE] what's wrong bro
Wow, fuck, I can't get a break. I had it fine and put together for a week ONE FUCKING WEEK. First my mom drops the bomb of making me move out the day after my birthday. Whoo 2 months to get enough money for rent, at a job where I make shit money. Then my dad asks me for rent money ($300) Which I, to be honest couldn't refuse cause he's my dad. People start shit with me on facebook and shit mostly walk in the park rumors and stuff I can't troll my way out of but still. I've contemplated suicide because I feel like it's the only way out. I'm calling the hotline now. [editline]30th July 2011[/editline] I feel like I should elaborate more. My mom hates my dads guts. If she found out. I would be fucked for sure. It was a bitch just to get the money let alone get to my dad.
My problem is completely minuscule compared to everyone in this thread, but I don't know where else to post. I feel like I've lost all of my friends. I'm in my final year of school. And I don't really talk to anyone at Lunch. I kind of just sit by myself. All of my friends have gone their separate ways. They all hang out in different groups, we're no longer just one group any more. The thing is, each one is in a group I don't want to hang out with. Yeah I suppose beggars can't be choosers but I just don't want to hang out with those people. I want my friends back. Over the past year or so things have just become shit. I still occasionally see them outside of school, but school is the worst part for me. Well lunch is the worst. It should be the best, a break from class hanging out with your friends, but now I look forward to class. One of the groups is into longboarding. I am the least physical person I know, I mean I go to the gym, but I am way too uncoordinated to learn how to longboard and I feel it will just be a phase they go through. But the thing is they always go out and do it. That's one of the reasons I've been marginalized. I'm looking forward to school ending. But it's not because of no schoolwork. It's because I won't have to spend any more time sitting on the bench at lunch communicating with no one. I do have one friend that I talk to occasionally at lunch. But I want my old group back. But it's not gonna happen. Lately I've just been feeling like shit, I just feel alienated. My best times are spent alone. But it didn't used to be this way. I never really felt this much like a loner before. I've tried to talk to my friends, all of them in their different groups. But It's usually just a small conversation I have with them, it seems they don't want to be with me. I try to make conversation with them, but they just turn their backs and start talking to their other friends. I don't know how I can fix this. I know a lack of friends doesn't really equate to depression. But I feel like shit, and I don't know where else to post.
If your friends care about you they wouldn't do that to you. Or if they're oblivious to what they have done try talking to them about it. Maybe they might come to their senses.
[QUOTE=Back_Slash;31430725]If your friends care about you they wouldn't do that to you. Or if they're oblivious to what they have done try talking to them about it. Maybe they might come to their senses.[/QUOTE] I've spoken to two of them about it. They tell me not to worry and to hang out with them. And I do, but it just feels like I'm ignored. I sit with them, make conversation, but I either get a laugh out of it, or just completely ignored. And then I go back to my current reclusive state. I don't think it's their fault. There must be some factor about me that makes them not want to hang out with me. I don't know, I'm not very confident at all. I hardly make jokes. I just try to make conversation. I suppose no one really shares much similar interests with me. I dunno, I find it hard to make conversation with them. [editline]31st July 2011[/editline] I mean right now it's 12:45AM and I just do not want to go to bed. Because then I'll wake up and it will be sunday, one day closer to school. I fucking hate school. Not for the work. I don't want to be put in that awkward situation. I feel like my life is just going by too quick. All these days of school going past and I'm fucking miserable. Everyone I've spoken to says High School was the best time of their lives. I hope that's not the case with me, because if it is, what's the point of living anymore? If things are just going to get worse once I finish. Maybe I've been watching too much TV. But I want one of those teenage lives where you just hang out with your friends all the time. Just chill at someone's house, watch TV. I want that. No one else seems to be into it. They've all got other plans. I invite them around but they're doing something else. Too busy for me. I spent some time with them on the holidays. But I suppose they have no excuse then. And just because my parents were on holiday, I feel like they used my house as a place to get high. I don't want to think that, I mean, they probably just wanted to hang. But I just feel like more often than not I'm being used by them. They sometimes ask me out to take photos of them skating, but It's probably because I'm the only one with an expensive camera. Again I feel like I'm just being used, and they don't really want to hang with ME. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But I don't feel joy when I'm with friends. It doesn't feel like there's anything there. [editline]31st July 2011[/editline] And then there's the whole "get new friends" I'm not interested in spending any time with anyone else at my school. Yes that probably sounds really hypocritical. But I don't really share any interests with them. They're all into sports or something. I mean I've known these people for 5 years, by now I'd know if I'd want them as friends. All the ones I actually like just don't seem to want me around.
[QUOTE=Khaos-23;31430924] They sometimes ask me out to take photos of them skating, but It's probably because I'm the only one with an expensive camera. Again I feel like I'm just being used, and they don't really want to hang with ME. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But I don't feel joy when I'm with friends. It doesn't feel like there's anything there.[/QUOTE]I'm exactly like this. To the letter. And I hate it so much when friends all go together doing one thing like longboarding or smoking weed or whatever and if you don't want to do it they just leave you out. I wouldn't do that to someone who i considered a friend.
[QUOTE=Octave;31431115]I'm exactly like this. To the letter. And I hate it so much when friends all go together doing one thing like longboarding or smoking weed or whatever and if you don't want to do it they just leave you out. I wouldn't do that to someone who i considered a friend.[/QUOTE] Good to know I'm not alone. There is one friend who doesn't skate either and goes out with them. Though if I'm talking to him and someone 'more interesting' walks past I just get shunned. He starts talking to them, even if I'm in the middle of a sentence. I know he means well. And he probably does it subconsciously. But I've tried to talk to him about it and he doesn't change. Also if we're standing in a group or sitting on a bench, or at a table in class he will just turn his back to me and talk to the person on the other side of him. It fucking kills me but I've tried to do something about it and he wont change. But that's just one friend. All of them have their own way of making me feel like shit. I want to spend time with them and hang out with them, but I don't get the feeling that they want the same with me. I mean another one who I've been friends with for ages just flat out acts like he's too fucking good for me. Another thing that boils me up inside is that any opinion I have is just laughed at. I find it hard to voice an opinion and stick with it, because it just seems like they all gang up on me. If I say something they will all just counter it. Especially if we're in a group. [editline]31st July 2011[/editline] I want school to finish so I don't have to deal with this anymore. But then again, when it finishes I will lose contact with everyone I know. I will have absolutely 0 friends, except for my best friend since we've been friends since primary school. Although even he has his other friends. I used to be so happy. I used to have a lot of friends, I used to consider myself popular. Not in the "cool group" sort of way, just that I felt I had quite a few friends, and I was happy like that. I mean you know you're a fucking loser when you've been in the same school as someone for 5 years and they say "are you new? I've never seen you here before"
I kinda know what you're going through. Ever since I started University I haven't really seen any of my old friends as they've either went pretty far off to college or the military and I haven't made many friends here so I'm feeling really alienated when I hear about people talking about going to the mall together or to see a movie or something.
I went to an new high school not knowing anyone and I still miss a lot of my old friends. They were fun people who loved to talk about interesting things and they were caring people. I don't like the crowd at my new school. Anyway I get what you're feeling, Khaos. Also you should know that not everyone says that highschool is the best years of your life. At least half the people I've talked to say that it's really the worst years of your life and that growing up during your teenage years sucks big-time. How to get through it? I have no idea to be honest.
Thanks guys, I'm actually feeling a bit better now. All of my main friends were going to leavers in their separate groups. (I don't know what it's called in America but basically where you all go somewhere after the end of high school to party). So I didn't really have anyone to go with but then one of the groups asked me to come with them. So yeah I'm feeling a bit better.
I never went to the after school party here when it was on, what are they usually like?
[QUOTE=Absentman;31468264]I never went to the after school party here when it was on, what are they usually like?[/QUOTE] Everyone from all different schools goes to an area stays in different cabins/houses and just parties/goes to events that are held. They do check for alcohol when you drive in, but once you're already in your house they kind of turn a blind eye to it.
Hey guys, I need to ask a question. Is being pissed off at every little thing that bugs you a sign of depression? Cause I've been experiencing it a lot for quite some time.
You could be tired and stressed, sometimes happens to me when I haven't been sleeping well probably due to more stress, you just get pissed of real easy and want to destroy everything.
[QUOTE=xZippy;31404297]Parents are out of town. One garage. One car. I'm hopin' I don't botch this one.[/QUOTE] Seems xZippy is still active. Good...
I have really long showers when I feel upset. After maybe an hour I feel better, it might just be the thinking over it all but I get out refreshed and ready for anything.
I always love to listen to this song whenever I'm upset over something. It just suits how I'm feeling. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIbepKZC7Po[/media]
I just listen to this when ever I get depressed. I guess it just calms me down. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DekaGW2D8ww[/media]
I would like to ask this thread yet again about an anti add medication known as straterra. More importantly, do add drugs have the capacity of killing interest or enthusiasm? Has anyone else here experienced anything in this area?
I just got put on Effexor XR for social anxiety and depression a week ago, my head is full of fuck right now. I keep going between really up and at it to completely lethargic to restless as fuck.
I got back from a Cedar Point trip with my brothers a little a week ago and I've felt like shit since. I have two older brothers. One of them moved out at the start of the summer and the other is never around since he is working. The trip has been the first time we've all been together having fun in many many months. I can say that I've felt lonely all summer because of the absence of my brothers, but I think that this trip set me off. The first few days after the trip was horrible, and it was the worst I've felt in a very long time. I don't know what I would've done without my earphones and music. When I was feeling down I put the earphones in, turned the music to max, and I straightened up the house. I feel claustrophobic when the house is a mess. The music helped me clear my mind, and I kept myself busy. During this week however, when I wasn't kept busy or listening to music, I had time to think about the position I was in, and how I currently felt about my family. I realized that near the end of school, I was striving to push myself away from everyone; I felt that I didn't need them. Now during summer, I realize that I need them more than I think. I became so obsessed with their characteristics that I disliked, that I forgot about what I liked about them and the good times we had. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. I guess it's mostly just explaining my current situation and how my week went, I suppose. All in all, I'm feeling pretty good right now. You all are great people here, helping each other out in need, and even saving lives. You should get a medal.
I don't know if I'm depressed, and I really, really don't want to self diagnose, but I think I'm at the point where I have a problem. I read a quote from Hugh Laurie about how he realized he had an issue with depression when he participated in a charity monster truck race and felt rather bored even when cars were exploding around him. I bring this up because it made me realize how emotionally numb I think I may be. Today, my grandmother had a stroke, and I didn't even feel all that bad. I wasn't indifferent or completely non-empathetic - I realized how horrible this was. I also realized how scary it was that I didn't react like a normal person would. I don't get excited very easily - rather, the only emotions I feel other that the baseline is love and irritation. I don't want a diagnosis, I just want to know what the possible explanations could be.
[QUOTE=BagMinge104;31618199]I don't know if I'm depressed, and I really, really don't want to self diagnose, but I think I'm at the point where I have a problem. I read a quote from Hugh Laurie about how he realized he had an issue with depression when he participated in a charity monster truck race and felt rather bored even when cars were exploding around him. I bring this up because it made me realize how emotionally numb I think I may be. Today, my grandmother had a stroke, and I didn't even feel all that bad. I wasn't indifferent or completely non-empathetic - I realized how horrible this was. I also realized how scary it was that I didn't react like a normal person would. I don't get excited very easily - rather, the only emotions I feel other that the baseline is love and irritation. I don't want a diagnosis, I just want to know what the possible explanations could be.[/QUOTE]Were you close with your grandma? Because it's really normal to feel sort of apathetic about unfortunate events like that if you aren't close with the person. For example,Wwhen I was 4 and my grandma died, I didn't feel all that bad. I don't think I'm going to feel bad when my last remaining grandparent dies, she's like 96 and hasn't had her complete sanity in a while. I won't feel bad because I was never close to her. I'll feel bad for my dad and try to comfort him, but I don't think I'll take it too hard.
[QUOTE=Octave;31618455]Were you close with your grandma? Because it's really normal to feel sort of apathetic about unfortunate events like that if you aren't close with the person. For example,Wwhen I was 4 and my grandma died, I didn't feel all that bad. I don't think I'm going to feel bad when my last remaining grandparent dies, she's like 96 and hasn't had her complete sanity in a while. I won't feel bad because I was never close to her. I'll feel bad for my dad and try to comfort him, but I don't think I'll take it too hard.[/QUOTE] I was somewhat close with her, what scares me is that for a while now nothing seems to affect me. Games merely starve off boredom, a birthday up in the city was merely uplifting then an awesome day with friends, etc. When nothing seems to really get to me and excite me, it becomes hard for me to get motivated, and my grades show that last year. I normally make straight A's, but for nothing other than a lack of motivation I got B's and C's to go along with that. I guess it's normal that one would remain apathetic, it's just that it didn't emotionally register with me that my own grandmother had a stroke.
I feel like shit a lot because my mom doesnt really care about me. And on top of that, my best friend of ten years started getting attention from girls. Whenever he comes over thats all he talks about. Ive never come close to having anything with a girl and that fucker has them hanging off him, he is allmost in grade eleven and he doesnt ever care what he is going to do. Doesnt make money, doesnt do anything productive. I make money, I have a career in the making, get better marks, smarter, and I get sqat. I cant even ask a girl that ive known for ten years out, and he gets a girl hes known for a day. I dont know what the fuck to do, I just feel alone all the time. Im allmost 16 and I havent even fucking kissed a girl. What the fuck. I havent felt really joyus in a long time. That feeling I used to get in the pit of my stomach, when some familiar place or smell came along I felt that feeling, not anymore. Ive tried to feel it, sometimes it feels as if it just scrapes the surface, but it seems that its not enough to sustain me. Statistics, numbers, fake acheivements in games make me feel happy, but a fake happy. When im with my small group of friends I feel happy, I dont feel it in my stomach, but its still there. Im just as lonely as I was before they were there after they leave. It seems if your a bit overweight you cant do anything in relation with girls, all they want is some dumbass with the IQ of a golf ball and a six-pack. Not a brainy person who isnt as shallow as a drop of water. Fuck.
[QUOTE=flamehead5;31620922]It seems if your a bit overweight you cant do anything in relation with girls, all they want is some dumbass with the IQ of a golf ball and a six-pack. Not a brainy person who isnt as shallow as a drop of water.[/QUOTE] You're contradicting your entire first paragraph. Not to mention that you reek of insecurity which is probably why your friend seems like the more attractive person. Work on caring less about what others think and quit making comparisons between yourself and others. You are your own person, why the hell should someone else make you in any way feel jealous and insecure.
[QUOTE=Evilan;31621368]You're contradicting your entire first paragraph. Not to mention that you reek of insecurity which is probably why your friend seems like the more attractive person. Work on caring less about what others think and quit making comparisons between yourself and others. You are your own person, why the hell should someone else make you in any way feel jealous and insecure.[/QUOTE] I swear that one of the guidelines of this thread was "Dont be an ass" not every reply you make on something has to be about how the last poster was dumb, especially in the DEPRESSION THREAD. Putting down people who are allready at the bottom doesnt really help them.
[QUOTE=flamehead5;31628412]I swear that one of the guidelines of this thread was "Dont be an ass" not every reply you make on something has to be about how the last poster was dumb, especially in the DEPRESSION THREAD. Putting down people who are allready at the bottom doesnt really help them.[/QUOTE] I was being honest, I'm sorry the truth hurts. If you only want pity then you'll never get out of the hole that your trapped in.
[QUOTE=Evilan;31629129]I was being honest, I'm sorry the truth hurts. If you only want pity then you'll never get out of the hole that your trapped in.[/QUOTE]Haha my god you have no understanding of depression.
[QUOTE=Octave;31629417]Haha my god you have no understanding of depression.[/QUOTE] Agreed.
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