The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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I'm in a catch-22 situation here. I'm bored and lonely, so I need people in my life. But people and socializing are anxiety-inducing, so I'd rather be alone.
hmm well Medicman are there people that you find not anxiety inducing to be with? If so spend time with them then perhaps try to branch out a bit.
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=pie_is_good;32583457]Thank you. This really means a lot to me. My whole day is brightening up now.[/QUOTE]
Really? That's great to hear pie! I hope you have a great day.
Actually now my day's just gone to shit and I'll never be successful and I wanna stick my head in the oven.
[QUOTE=pie_is_good;32584029]Actually now my day's just gone to shit and I'll never be successful and I wanna stick my head in the oven.[/QUOTE]
Oh, well the chat's open man talk about it.
UPDATE:
The payment was reversed because they had a problem with my adress. Now they have my account on hold. Fuck everything.
I currently work at a gas station. I get paid $7.75 an hour and work 3 days a week. I get paid every two weeks, earning around $220 a paycheck. I have worked at this gas station for a year now and this is how my life is turning out...
I make about [B]$220 every two weeks[/B].
I spend about [B]$60+ every week [U]for gas[/U][/B] (I have to drive 30 miles to get to college)
The classes that I am taking won't be teaching me what I want to learn, and I have come to realize that this school teaches the most babiest of things, as well as things that shouldn't even be taught in school (I can explain this if someone wants to know)
I had to use my student loan money to pay off my car, and now I have no money to use from that.
I have to pay for my car insurance (which is like $80-$100 or something because I was in a car wreck) and for a cellphone (I'm not a text-y kind of person, but I would not go somewhere without it)
I am not making a profit here. I am quickly losing money. [B]Every day I go to college, during break I go to McDonalds and get something off of the dollar menu[/B].
I feel like I'm wasting my time going to college and money driving there and paying for car related stuff.
I don't know what to do. This is making me depressed with each passing day, and my mom knows this. We talked about my options and it [B]basically came down to me being told that I'm fucked[/B].
Word of advice. Stay the fuck away from Kansas. There is nothing here for anyone. No education. No jobs. Nothing.
I don't know what kind of decision to make here. What the fuck am I doing Facepunch?
I'm not good at writing things so I'm sorry if this doesn't sound as depressing as it really is. Trust me. This is some depressing shit going on right now. Knowing that what you're doing right now will mean nothing later on, and there isn't much you can do about it really sucks.
I'm at that point in life where I have to decide what I wanna do with my life and it seems everyone else has got it down. The other kids at school want to be an engineer. They wanna be an architect. They've got it all down about what school they wanna go to and what courses they're gonna take and all that and what I would like to do with my life is write songs. I love to write and sing and play songs. When I tell people that I wanna be a song-writer they give me that look like the doctor is deciding how long the cancer patient's got til death comes around. It's the only thing about my future that I'm sure about and the thought about doing any other occupation makes me sick. Yeah I know do what you want to do and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise but really there's a slim as hell chance that I'll actually go anywhere with this, especially considering that I can't sing. Hell even sometimes I don't feel like doing anything and just sleep all day and I can't even do that because school gets in the way and my classes are so fucking boring it almost hurts. It would help that I made friends at school but everyone's either evil or stupid or uninteresting. I'm not being anti-social. I've gotten along with many other people. It's just that the school seems to attract idiots and there's very few people in my life I can actually connect with. Y'know I keep hearing the phrase first world problems being thrown around like it's the new "yo mamma" and many of the stuff I'm complaining about are like that. They're insignificant and I shouldn't be worrying about them but really I can't not worry about them. I'm glad that everyone else can achieve great happiness at ease but really it's hard for me and I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself and I'm gonna go to bed now. Wish me good dreams.
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[QUOTE=pie_is_good;32584374]I'm at that point in life where I have to decide what I wanna do with my life and it seems everyone else has got it down. The other kids at school want to be an engineer. They wanna be an architect. They've got it all down about what school they wanna go to and what courses they're gonna take and all that and what I would like to do with my life is write songs. I love to write and sing and play songs. When I tell people that I wanna be a song-writer they give me that look like the doctor is deciding how long the cancer patient's got til death comes around. It's the only thing about my future that I'm sure about and the thought about doing any other occupation makes me sick. Yeah I know do what you want to do and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise but really there's a slim as hell chance that I'll actually go anywhere with this, especially considering that I can't sing. Hell even sometimes I don't feel like doing anything and just sleep all day and I can't even do that because school gets in the way and my classes are so fucking boring it almost hurts. It would help that I made friends at school but everyone's either evil or stupid or uninteresting. I'm not being anti-social. I've gotten along with many other people. It's just that the school seems to attract idiots and there's very few people in my life I can actually connect with. Y'know I keep hearing the phrase first world problems being thrown around like it's the new "yo mamma" and many of the stuff I'm complaining about are like that. They're insignificant and I shouldn't be worrying about them but really I can't not worry about them. I'm glad that everyone else can achieve great happiness at ease but really it's hard for me and I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself and I'm gonna go to bed now. Wish me good dreams.[/QUOTE]If I had to recommend a back up job it'd be journalism, or being a novelist. If you can write well, go for it. But keep up with your own dreams, man. I want to learn to play music, but I'm too busy during the school year. I love to write, so I'm pursuing journalism.
I wish my friends listened to the lyrics to some of my favorite songs.
Because the lyrics hold words I'm too scared to say.
[QUOTE=pie_is_good;32584374]I'm at that point in life where I have to decide what I wanna do with my life and it seems everyone else has got it down. The other kids at school want to be an engineer. They wanna be an architect. They've got it all down about what school they wanna go to and what courses they're gonna take and all that and what I would like to do with my life is write songs. I love to write and sing and play songs. When I tell people that I wanna be a song-writer they give me that look like the doctor is deciding how long the cancer patient's got til death comes around. It's the only thing about my future that I'm sure about and the thought about doing any other occupation makes me sick. Yeah I know do what you want to do and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise but really there's a slim as hell chance that I'll actually go anywhere with this, especially considering that I can't sing. Hell even sometimes I don't feel like doing anything and just sleep all day and I can't even do that because school gets in the way and my classes are so fucking boring it almost hurts. It would help that I made friends at school but everyone's either evil or stupid or uninteresting. I'm not being anti-social. I've gotten along with many other people. It's just that the school seems to attract idiots and there's very few people in my life I can actually connect with. Y'know I keep hearing the phrase first world problems being thrown around like it's the new "yo mamma" and many of the stuff I'm complaining about are like that. They're insignificant and I shouldn't be worrying about them but really I can't not worry about them. I'm glad that everyone else can achieve great happiness at ease but really it's hard for me and I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself and I'm gonna go to bed now. Wish me good dreams.[/QUOTE]
Go to university and never leave
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Pedro the Fuzzy;32585765] journalism, or being a novelist.[/QUOTE]
neither of those careers paths tend to produce very good writers
Unless you experience and study other things and then go into those fields.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]life[/QUOTE]
I have some tips
1, find a second job with similar hours or even something with a casual shift schedule so you can pick what days off from your other job you want to work to make more money
2, lose the cell phone, get a pay as you go one if you need one for emergencies and stuff
3, decide if you really need a car. if not, park it and stop insuring it
4, no more mcdonalds, it costs more than making your own food, yes even the dollar menu
5, if push comes to shove, take a year off school
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=pie_is_good;32584374]I'm at that point in life where I have to decide what I wanna do with my life and it seems everyone else has got it down. The other kids at school want to be an engineer. They wanna be an architect. They've got it all down about what school they wanna go to and what courses they're gonna take and all that and what I would like to do with my life is write songs. I love to write and sing and play songs. When I tell people that I wanna be a song-writer they give me that look like the doctor is deciding how long the cancer patient's got til death comes around.[/QUOTE]
Fuck them all, do what you love. There are TONS of careers in the music industry aside from catching a lucky break and making it big as a singer or something.
Hell, if music is your true passion and you'll take nothing less than actually making music yourself then you could even just forget about uni and go to a community college or vocational school instead, get a trades job, and have lots of time for music while still making good money. Be glad you have an awesome passion for something, don't give it up just because of what others expect of you.
[QUOTE=Pedro the Fuzzy;32585765]If I had to recommend a back up job it'd be journalism, or being a novelist. If you can write well, go for it. But keep up with your own dreams, man. I want to learn to play music, but I'm too busy during the school year. I love to write, so I'm pursuing journalism.[/QUOTE]
Writing is also another thing that I would possibly like to do.
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Zeke129;32588078]
Fuck them all, do what you love. There are TONS of careers in the music industry aside from catching a lucky break and making it big as a singer or something.
Hell, if music is your true passion and you'll take nothing less than actually making music yourself then you could even just forget about uni and go to a community college or vocational school instead, get a trades job, and have lots of time for music while still making good money. Be glad you have an awesome passion for something, don't give it up just because of what others expect of you.[/QUOTE]
Well I could also be a producer. All you do is set up the microphones and stuff like Steve Albini and if you want you can mess with their creative vision just because you can!
[QUOTE=Beezleboss;32584720][IMG]http://i.imgur.com/uVjHv.png[/IMG]
Really?
Anyway Slayer, I would recommend you to get a bus pass, I'm aware you're paying for your car still but $100 a month (around here, yours seemed to be around 65-95) would be much more beneficial to you rather than spending $60 a week.[/QUOTE]
I can't ride a bus everyday to school. I don't live in a big city or anything. There's barely 3000 people living in this city. And the only bus that comes around here is some old person bus.
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Zeke129;32588078]
1, find a second job with similar hours or even something with a casual shift schedule so you can pick what days off from your other job you want to work to make more money[/quote]
Actually, a completely new job would just be great. The hard part is actually finding a job that relates to what I want to do around here.
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2, lose the cell phone, get a pay as you go one if you need one for emergencies and stuff
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I'm not sure I'd like one of those phones where you have to buy cards and stuff to add minutes to it...
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3, decide if you really need a car. if not, park it and stop insuring it
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I have to drive to school everyday. I don't have a second way of getting there.
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4, no more mcdonalds, it costs more than making your own food, yes even the dollar menu
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ew sack lunches
Just kidding. My mom usually tells me to just take a can of pop with me to school and get a cup of ice somewhere.
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5, if push comes to shove, take a year off school
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Oh god that would be great but I can't really take a break when I'm in the middle of classes.
I'm not trying to sound like I'm making up a whole bunch of excuses or anything...some things just aren't easy around here :/
[QUOTE=Contag;32587657]Go to university and never leave
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
neither of those careers paths tend to produce very good writers
Unless you experience and study other things and then go into those fields.[/QUOTE]I guess you're right. You could go the Andy Rooney style and be a curmudgeon who writes about the silliest things/everyday problems and then you speak what you write for your life. Or early Rooney and be a writer as in behind the scenes writing scripts for people, jokes, etc.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]I currently work at a gas station. I get paid $7.75 an hour and work 3 days a week. I get paid every two weeks, earning around $220 a paycheck. I have worked at this gas station for a year now and this is how my life is turning out...
I make about [B]$220 every two weeks[/B].
I spend about [B]$60+ every week [U]for gas[/U][/B] (I have to drive 30 miles to get to college)
The classes that I am taking won't be teaching me what I want to learn, and I have come to realize that this school teaches the most babiest of things, as well as things that shouldn't even be taught in school (I can explain this if someone wants to know)
I had to use my student loan money to pay off my car, and now I have no money to use from that.
I have to pay for my car insurance (which is like $80-$100 or something because I was in a car wreck) and for a cellphone (I'm not a text-y kind of person, but I would not go somewhere without it)
I am not making a profit here. I am quickly losing money. [B]Every day I go to college, during break I go to McDonalds and get something off of the dollar menu[/B].
I feel like I'm wasting my time going to college and money driving there and paying for car related stuff.
I don't know what to do. This is making me depressed with each passing day, and my mom knows this. We talked about my options and it [B]basically came down to me being told that I'm fucked[/B].
Word of advice. Stay the fuck away from Kansas. There is nothing here for anyone. No education. No jobs. Nothing.
I don't know what kind of decision to make here. What the fuck am I doing Facepunch?
I'm not good at writing things so I'm sorry if this doesn't sound as depressing as it really is. Trust me. This is some depressing shit going on right now. Knowing that what you're doing right now will mean nothing later on, and there isn't much you can do about it really sucks.[/QUOTE]
can you bring your own lunch instead of eating out? you'll save hundreds of dollars every year if you pack your own food.
regarding the gas, what kind of car do you have, and how many miles per gallon are you getting? I could give you some tips on saving gas if you'd like
[editline]2nd October 2011[/editline]
for your car insurance, are you on your parents policy? it's much cheaper if they just add you to their plan
[QUOTE=MedicmanV500;32583815]I'm in a catch-22 situation here. I'm bored and lonely, so I need people in my life. But people and socializing are anxiety-inducing, so I'd rather be alone.[/QUOTE]
I feel the same way. I have an awful time trying to approach or interact with anybody, yet I want to. I dig people, but I hate feeling so uncomfortable.
[QUOTE=pie_is_good;32584374]I'm at that point in life where I have to decide what I wanna do with my life and it seems everyone else has got it down....
[b]and I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself[/b][/QUOTE]
My situation is so incredibly similar, its bizarre.
I still don't have a clue what I want to do or where I want to go or if I even want to ever get out of bed again. This is my last year of high school, and I'm afraid I'm fucking everything up. I don't want to do anything. All I do is listen to music all day, and I love it. As much as I would want to pursue that, I feel like I'd be an awful musician as I'm hardly creative. In school, I just sit there in some fucking dazed, terrified state of self-loathing; putting off school work and insulting myself. Goddamn, I really don't like the rut I'm in.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
I make about [B]$220 every two weeks[/B].
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Either get a new job, or request more hours. I work at a supermarket 5 days a week for 20 hours overall. I'm getting minimum wage, but I get paid ~$140 a week (or ~$280 every two weeks). You should probably work more than that if your financial situation is so dire.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
I spend about [B]$60+ every week [U]for gas[/U][/B] (I have to drive 30 miles to get to college)
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[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
I had to use my student loan money to pay off my car, and now I have no money to use from that.
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60 every week? That's a tank a week, what kind of car are you driving that uses that much gas? My trip to college and back is roughly 35 miles, which means 175 miles a week. I manage to get away with paying for gas every week-and-a-half. This is with my not-so-efficient moldsmobile, and my leadfoot driving.
So what kind of car do you have? I'm assuming its relatively new 'cus your still paying for it. I can't really give you advice in this area till I know more about the car situation. Still, you could probably sell your car, buy some cheap-ass used jap beater and save money on gas.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
The classes that I am taking won't be teaching me what I want to learn, and I have come to realize that this school teaches the most babiest of things, as well as things that shouldn't even be taught in school (I can explain this if someone wants to know)
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I took a multimedia class thinking I'd learn about flash and stuff like that, turns out it's a class about windows movie maker. [img]http://i.somethingawful.com/forumsystem/emoticons/emot-argh.gif[/img]
Nothing much you can do about this than just get it out of the way and continue on your way to a degree.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
I have to pay for my car insurance (which is like $80-$100 or something because I was in a car wreck) and for a cellphone (I'm not a text-y kind of person, but I would not go somewhere without it)
I am not making a profit here. I am quickly losing money. [B]Every day I go to college, during break I go to McDonalds and get something off of the dollar menu[/B].
I feel like I'm wasting my time going to college and money driving there and paying for car related stuff.
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If you're using your cellphone purely for emergency contact/rare use then just get the cheapest plan you can. Also, bring your own lunch to school, it's always cheaper than going to McDonalds.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
I don't know what to do. This is making me depressed with each passing day, and my mom knows this. We talked about my options and it [B]basically came down to me being told that I'm fucked[/B].
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Be a cheap, miserly son of a bitch. It may take some discipline to do at first, but once you do you'd be surprised how much money you can save on just about everything.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32584351]
Word of advice. Stay the fuck away from Kansas. There is nothing here for anyone. No education. No jobs. Nothing.
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...and Lancaster. Nothing here but farms and amish people.
[QUOTE=JDK721;32600709]regarding the gas, what kind of car do you have, and how many miles per gallon are you getting? I could give you some tips on saving gas if you'd like
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Like taking the rear seats out of your Hyundai? :v:
I'm not sure if I should be more of a nice guy, or less of a nice guy.
What do you guys think?
[QUOTE=minilandstan;32603682]I'm not sure if I should be more of a nice guy, or less of a nice guy.
What do you guys think?[/QUOTE]
You should be you.
[QUOTE=Super_Noodle;32602392]Like taking the rear seats out of your Hyundai? :v:[/QUOTE]
this definitely isn't the thread to shit post in
[QUOTE=JDK721;32607849]this definitely isn't the thread to shit post in[/QUOTE]
I didn't. I made a helpful post with an unrelated witty quip at the end.
[QUOTE=Super_Noodle;32608983]I didn't. I made a helpful post with an unrelated witty quip at the end.[/QUOTE]
Everything is thread-shitting according to JDK721. Just ignore him when he gets like that, it helps keep the thread on topic.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;32615209]Everything is thread-shitting according to JDK721. Just ignore him when he gets like that, it helps keep the thread on topic.[/QUOTE]
get off my dick. you haven't even posted in this thread for a while, and then you come out of the woodwork just to say stupid shit about me again.
JDK is cool when you have clinical depression he helped me get over some of my shit.
Scout king is cool when you have depression as in brought on by events,hormones, etc.
Jesus Christ will you stop bitching at each other holy fuck we're here to help not fight.
[QUOTE=minilandstan;32603682]I'm not sure if I should be more of a nice guy, or less of a nice guy.
What do you guys think?[/QUOTE]It's like someone already said, do what you want to do. I'm stuck with nice guy syndrome, and I somewhat seem to get along just fine. I don't bother myself with relationships. Although at times it feels sort've depressing, feeling so alone for so long. Albeit, I have plenty of girl friends, but no girlfriends.
[QUOTE=slayer20;32596210]
I have to drive to school everyday. I don't have a second way of getting there.
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Is carpooling possible?
[editline]3rd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;32615209]Everything is thread-shitting according to JDK721. Just ignore him when he gets like that, it helps keep the thread on topic.[/QUOTE]
Yeah it was definitely you being the instigator this time
back off
[editline]3rd October 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=JDK721;32616302]get off my dick. you haven't even posted in this thread for a while, and then you come out of the woodwork just to say stupid shit about me again.[/QUOTE]
you back off too just ignore him
I've been lingering in that terrible limbo after highschool for almost an entire year and I don't have any ambition.. Sometimes I just want to just drop everything and move into a monastery for the rest of my life.
Hey all...I've been going in and out of increasingly depressive moods for the past year and a half, I've recently started talking to a therapist and for shits and giggles I went through a psych eval. The psychiatrist offered me meds (Wellbutrin, in particular) if I wanted them, as one option -- he left the choice up to me.
The mood are...pretty much depression in a nutshell. They come and go with little to no reason, besides one normal trigger of frustration that doesn't always apply, and last from a half hour to half a day. There are weeks where I only get one episode in a week, and weeks where it happens pretty much all day every day to different extents.
My question to you guys-- what are your opinions on meds? Is it worth trying them this early on in treatment? What do you think about side effects? My body already went through accutane, I'm rather iffy about putting it through another med, but my moods are putting increased stress on an already incredibly stressful long-distance relationship and academic career...I'm beginning to doubt how long I can keep fighting and keep up with the number of things in my life right now.
[QUOTE=Jazucu;32619804]
My question to you guys-- what are your opinions on meds? Is it worth trying them this early on in treatment? What do you think about side effects?
I'm beginning to doubt how long I can keep fighting and keep up with the number of things in my life right now.[/QUOTE]
Their effectiveness is a total crapshoot. Either your first prescription will work like a lucky-charm and cure you of your ailment or you will have to deal with a long period of time adjusting doses up and down, side to side, different type for this, different type for that, i think the diagnosis could have been off maybe we should try a different brand, unforeseen elements, etc.
Medicine IS a practice, after all, and I'm not trying to discredit every doctor who has their degree but it's how it goes for some people- don't make it your only hope.
With all that said: Medication will work if you really [I][B]want[/B][/I] them to.
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