• The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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I try to go forward; and I am sure I eventually will. I'm slowly moving on; but then I get fearful even then. That girl was someone I wanted to share happiness with; but since she's leaving me, I just want to know why she gave me up. In some ways I know why, in others I don't. The one she's trying to go out with is a slight friend of mine, too.. I fluctuate throughout a day and just worry- about what's going to happen to her and if its going to work out for her. [I]Why[/I] am I so distraught over that? Because; I sincerely cared. and that's why it hurts so much. When I do 'get over' this, I'm very curious to know whether or not we will be friends, or if she will still be worth it. A year ago, moving away from my family brought me great fear.. but then becoming friends (then bf/gf) with this girl has given me many memories I wish to always keep. She helped me in ways she doesn't even know. however, once I am done here and ready to move out on my own.. theres so many conflicting thoughts its killing me. thanks for the response, guys. I appreciate it. Im trying my best to stay 'straight-edge' and keep away from any pills/alcohol simply because I'm okay with experiencing life naturally.. so again, thanks for the help
[QUOTE=LNKFAN;33177272]I try to go forward; and I am sure I eventually will. I'm slowly moving on; but then I get fearful even then. That girl was someone I wanted to share happiness with; but since she's leaving me, I just want to know why she gave me up. In some ways I know why, in others I don't. The one she's trying to go out with is a slight friend of mine, too.. I fluctuate throughout a day and just worry- about what's going to happen to her and if its going to work out for her. [I]Why[/I] am I so distraught over that? Because; I sincerely cared. and that's why it hurts so much. When I do 'get over' this, I'm very curious to know whether or not we will be friends, or if she will still be worth it. A year ago, moving away from my family brought me great fear.. but then becoming friends (then bf/gf) with this girl has given me many memories I wish to always keep. She helped me in ways she doesn't even know. however, once I am done here and ready to move out on my own.. theres so many conflicting thoughts its killing me. thanks for the response, guys. I appreciate it. Im trying my best to stay 'straight-edge' and keep away from any pills/alcohol simply because I'm okay with experiencing life naturally.. so again, thanks for the help[/QUOTE] Just remember, no matter what, everything will always turn out alright. As my grandmother would tell me "It'll all come out in the wash." And this much is true. I've been to the point of despair. I've tried to OD on pills, I've been close to pulling the trigger on myself. I've choked and stumbled over indecisiveness and conflicting thoughts for years, until one morning I woke up, had enough, and realized the only person that could change it, was me. Now I don't so much think as I just do. If you let go, everything takes care of itself, trust me. The hardest part is just letting go. And you have to just let go of her. The only thing I wish for you to remember is regret nothing, at the end of the end, it'll have happened and that's that. There is no failure that is permanent.
Thanks man. I'll try to pull through and focus.. And as you said, whatever happens will happen. I was just so used to trying to do whatever I could to make her feel good. So... since I now must stray from that, it's more conflict. BUT, if there's nothing I can do for it; I suppose I really must just move along. edit: I also worry if I let her down, you know, for not fighting back for her. I told her already I just want her happy. I don't want to make a fool of myself and fighting if she just doesn't want me. Buuuut I gotta stop worrying edit 2: I've been so worried about myself that I didn't bother to bring up anyone else's problems.. like Teal for example. I'm sorry to hear of what you've been through.. at least I'm not alone on it. Once again, thanks for the encouragement. :smile:
Hey n.i.a./teal moose, good to see you again. Sorry to hear shit's been going down for you like that, amigo. I'm always here if you ever need someone to vent to. anyway, short random problem I've been mulling over. I've been friends with this girl I know for roughly two years, and we've been through so much shit; mostly me pulling her out of chronic depression, cutting, and wanting to kill herself. me being a freshman this year has really opened my eyes to her general change from being a confused, depressed girl into a bitch who's been using and playing with me probably without her or my knowing. I've never gotten a thank you out of her, nothing. I'm not asking for her to do what she does to her boyfriend to me, but for God's sake I just want to feel appreciated. I've been hanging around some old friends of mine, and we've just been conversing what to do with the situation. at the moment, it's kinda stalemate and we're waiting on her to make some wrong move and see if she ends up "pseudo-cidal" as I call it. I mean, they want me to just tell her to fuck off and die if she does end up like that but I just can't. I literally cannot even fathom doing that no matter how bad she's wronged me. I'm just a nice guy and at times it feels that's all I'll ever be or amount to in life. My dad fucking graduated from the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill one of the hardest schools to get into and he fucking ending up pushing bags at the airport for his whole fucking life. That's where I feel I'll end up in my life, just without a companion to go along with me like he has with my mom.
well I mean she seems happy enough even though her current boy-toy is a womanizing piece of shit and really it's just countdown time until there's a huge explosion and I'll be the one having to pick up the pieces because she'll come crawling to me or she'll make some kinda sad depressing post somewhere and I'll feel terrible and need to help her. I dunno.
[QUOTE=MIPS;33175825]I'm down to my last $150 and I don't think my only attempt at a job is going to pay my bills this month and I maxed my line of credit with my parents and the rent is due in two weeks and oh god, what do I do?[/QUOTE] What did you do last time? I remember a thread like this in the past. I also remember you saying that if everything goes completely tits up you can move back with your parents, so there's always that
Depressed once again. When i look into my past i see nothing. When i look into my future i see nothing. I sometimes wonder whats the meaning of life, nothing seems to make sense. I have been doing nothing for a good while now. Even when im not depressed, I wonder I live. There is no meaning to life. It just is. There is no why. Nothing happens to me, nothing good or bad. I just am, and I dont know why do I still keep holding on to this nothing. Probably in hope that things will be better someday, but i dont see how. All feels pointless, im going to die anyways. Im only in the way of other people. If i offed myself, i dont know who would mourn, except for my parents. I wouldnt leave some kind of burden i didnt take care of to anyone.
Feeling a tid bit lonely the last few days. I have plenty of friends who i hang out with talk to now and then, but at the end of the day I still feel a little bit lonely. I think it's because I have not really gotten to know someone on a extremely personal level in awhile, and the few people I do know on that sort of level have drifted slowly, or have changed.
At least you hang out with people. I was going to go to a hockey game with two friends this saturday. One was an old friend who I haven't seen since march and the other is my main (essentially only) friend outside of school. The former couldn't go because of a previous engagement with a girl, and the latter wasn't allowed to because he fucked off on his school work recently. I wish I had more friends so that I wouldn't be stuck either home or going with my parents when just two people happen to not be able to attend.
[QUOTE=Str4fe;33206283]Depressed once again. When i look into my past i see nothing. When i look into my future i see nothing. I sometimes wonder whats the meaning of life, nothing seems to make sense. I have been doing nothing for a good while now. Even when im not depressed, I wonder I live. There is no meaning to life. It just is. There is no why. Nothing happens to me, nothing good or bad. I just am, and I dont know why do I still keep holding on to this nothing. Probably in hope that things will be better someday, but i dont see how. All feels pointless, im going to die anyways. Im only in the way of other people. If i offed myself, i dont know who would mourn, except for my parents. I wouldnt leave some kind of burden i didnt take care of to anyone.[/QUOTE] jump off a bridge with me
[QUOTE=Str4fe;33206283]Depressed once again. When i look into my past i see nothing. When i look into my future i see nothing. I sometimes wonder whats the meaning of life, nothing seems to make sense. I have been doing nothing for a good while now. Even when im not depressed, I wonder I live. There is no meaning to life. It just is. There is no why. Nothing happens to me, nothing good or bad. I just am, and I dont know why do I still keep holding on to this nothing. Probably in hope that things will be better someday, but i dont see how. All feels pointless, im going to die anyways. Im only in the way of other people. If i offed myself, i dont know who would mourn, except for my parents. I wouldnt leave some kind of burden i didnt take care of to anyone.[/QUOTE] How old are you? Are you at school? Are you at uni? Do you have any friends?
This passage from Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar describes that state I am in pretty well. [quote]I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.[/quote]
I finally told my mother, and though I downplayed the effect depression has on me, it at least opens up a few avenues for discussion. One of which is treatment. What is the general consensus regarding whether or not depression medication actually works, especially compared to a placebo?
I think it has varying effects for different people. The biggest commonality is having to try several or even many different types and doses before achieving a desired effect.
[QUOTE=Collin665;33270778]I finally told my mother, and though I downplayed the effect depression has on me, it at least opens up a few avenues for discussion. One of which is treatment. What is the general consensus regarding whether or not depression medication actually works, especially compared to a placebo?[/QUOTE] Depression, at least here in America, is usually treated first with an SSRI. This inhibits the reuptake of serotonin, thereby meaning more of it is in your brain, which means more serotonin receptor stimulation, which means more happy. Well, that's if your depression is related to serotonin and serotonin only. There's a lot of other shit that goes down in the brain, and depression is a vague, umbrella term for chronic sad and despair. Not serotonin down regulation. Of course, there are many other medications, all with their pros and cons. Your biggest example here would be Zoloft, which I take daily at the median dose of 50mg. It works, but it has its downsides. Namely, for some it's sedating. For me, it gives me a strong compulsion to drink, all the time. It really is bad some days. Also, uh... You might have some trouble getting it up. I did for a while. MAOIs, many people find effective, but there's an assload of food you can't eat on them, medication you can't take with them, and drugs you just can't do on them unless you have a deathwish. The latter was my issue. A main example here would be Welbutrin, prescribed under many different names. Finally, in order to summarize the most common classes of prescriptions, you have your pharms that affect dopamine activity. The main neurotransmitter associated with pleasure and satisfaction, among other roles. Problem being with these is that their effect on the dopaminergic system can cause tremors not unlike those of parkinson's disease, weight gain, and possible worsening of psychotic symptoms. Psychotic? Why yes, their technical classification usually goes something like "Third generation antipsychotic," or "Novel antipsychotic." Examples are Abilify, and that's pretty much it. On a side note, cannibidol can actually act as a "third gen antipsychotic" without the overly sedating effects, and you know, those permanent tremors. Cannibidol, as the name implies, is yes, found in marijuana. It's an isomer of THC, but has much different effects. Studies have shown it counteracts the powerful stimulation of THC, is an anticonvulsant (stops convulsing in seizure patients), antipsychotic, and for me, a hell of a good antidepressant. I only recommend this course if you live in a state with medicinal marijuana and can get Indica strains. Sativas (more THC, less CBN and CBD) were too much for me during the worst of my bi-polar. Best of luck.
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;33278782]Depression, at least here in America, is usually treated first with an SSRI. This inhibits the reuptake of serotonin, thereby meaning more of it is in your brain, which means more serotonin receptor stimulation, which means more happy. Well, that's if your depression is related to serotonin and serotonin only. There's a lot of other shit that goes down in the brain, and depression is a vague, umbrella term for chronic sad and despair. Not serotonin down regulation. Of course, there are many other medications, all with their pros and cons. Your biggest example here would be Zoloft, which I take daily at the median dose of 50mg. It works, but it has its downsides. Namely, for some it's sedating. For me, it gives me a strong compulsion to drink, all the time. It really is bad some days. Also, uh... You might have some trouble getting it up. I did for a while. MAOIs, many people find effective, but there's an assload of food you can't eat on them, medication you can't take with them, and drugs you just can't do on them unless you have a deathwish. The latter was my issue. A main example here would be Welbutrin, prescribed under many different names. Finally, in order to summarize the most common classes of prescriptions, you have your pharms that affect dopamine activity. The main neurotransmitter associated with pleasure and satisfaction, among other roles. Problem being with these is that their effect on the dopaminergic system can cause tremors not unlike those of parkinson's disease, weight gain, and possible worsening of psychotic symptoms. Psychotic? Why yes, their technical classification usually goes something like "Third generation antipsychotic," or "Novel antipsychotic." Examples are Abilify, and that's pretty much it. On a side note, cannibidol can actually act as a "third gen antipsychotic" without the overly sedating effects, and you know, those permanent tremors. Cannibidol, as the name implies, is yes, found in marijuana. It's an isomer of THC, but has much different effects. Studies have shown it counteracts the powerful stimulation of THC, is an anticonvulsant (stops convulsing in seizure patients), antipsychotic, and for me, a hell of a good antidepressant. I only recommend this course if you live in a state with medicinal marijuana and can get Indica strains. Sativas (more THC, less CBN and CBD) were too much for me during the worst of my bi-polar. Best of luck.[/QUOTE] I second this. I don't have a lot of experience with sativas so I can't comment much, but indica is really nice. Be forewarned, though - sometimes it amplifies your dominant emotion. So if you're really anxious, it might make you feel more anxious. If you're fairly relaxed, you almost feel euphoric after getting high. That's just me, though. I sometimes take several small hits instead of a couple big ones because it gradually gets me high. That way I avoid the overwhelming feeling of it all hitting me at once. Just some suggestions. Happy toking! (If that's what any of you end up doing.)
[QUOTE=Shoupie;33278910]I second this. I don't have a lot of experience with sativas so I can't comment much, but indica is really nice. Be forewarned, though - sometimes it amplifies your dominant emotion. So if you're really anxious, it might make you feel more anxious. If you're fairly relaxed, you almost feel euphoric after getting high. That's just me, though. I sometimes take several small hits instead of a couple big ones because it gradually gets me high. That way I avoid the overwhelming feeling of it all hitting me at once. Just some suggestions. Happy toking! (If that's what any of you end up doing.)[/QUOTE] Good point, I didn't mention getting high will reflect how you feel beforehand and it can color your experience. Not so much for a seasoned smoker, as I could say I once was. But now, it's harder for me to control myself because I lost my tolerance I had when I bought only in quarter ounces and up and smoked four or more times a day. It helped me, but it won't work with a school schedule and I had to stop for legal reasons. I'm an occasional toker now. Another interesting note, credited to FreakyMe, a bro from DD, is that vitamin and nutrient deficiencies can color your experience too. Particularly potassium. Eat a banana before smoking and drink water. It really helps.
Thought I'd post, need to vent or whatever. Late as hell Personal Statement assignment for class ended up being about depression and self-loathing. Instead of writing help, I had to see a psychologist during school which was somewhat awkward, but I felt alright with expressing myself in front of her despite just meeting her. Lately I've been up and down like fucking crazy, having mood swings as always. Typically jumping from calm to painfully sad. I'm going to assume that this just might be manic. Though, its hard to recognize myself as bi-polar despite how likely it is. Recently stopped giving a few fucks that weren't at all needed (girls girls girls), but I can't drop them all. Being around people/classmates still ends with exhaustion, both mentally and physically. I get incredibly spacey, even completely out of it when surrounded by people. I can't describe it, but I'm not all there. I just want to fall asleep. As a result, I've really still been isolating myself. One second, I'll be around friends, and the next, I'll need to sit alone for a while. Having an odd week of school called "intensives", and as a senior, I have class with mostly juniors due to missing credits. Its kind of strange finding out that I don't seem like a complete reject or idiot to any of them. Though, usually the only opinion I hear of myself IS from myself. Which isn't good. Occasionally smoking weed, I cut down from smoking about every other day with friends because I need to get my shit together. Smoking for those past couple of weeks really only made me feel out of it rather than the usual high, which is only another reason to take a break. I haven't smoked in about a week, it seems longer, though. Started exercising recently, too, as suggested by my dad. It really does take your mind off things. Sore as all hell today, but I hope I can keep it up. Speaking of my dad, he finally opened up to me the other day. He told me that he has been struggling with depression his whole life, along with his dad. He knows he passed it on to me. He told me that he had gone down the route of drugs and getting into serious trouble as a kid and he could only hope that I didn't follow. He told me that he is still trying to figure out how to cope with it. To quote him roughly, "My dad had it, and he was very intelligent. I have it, and they say I'm intelligent. Now, I know you're intelligent. Its just our minds. They'll just race and keep going and going and going, its ridiculous. You have to set yourself free." Its really odd realizing that this might not just be a phase. I could be like this for the rest of my life, and I can't even comprehend that, and I can only hope not. I had assumed I was in for some serious shit, but things might not be that bad. All I know is that this is going to be a huge challenge. Side note - What's a good answer for "Why are you so quiet?" This shit always catches me off guard.
[QUOTE=Skinny;33296214]Thought I'd post, need to vent or whatever. Late as hell Personal Statement assignment for class ended up being about depression and self-loathing. Instead of writing help, I had to see a psychologist during school which was somewhat awkward, but I felt alright with expressing myself in front of her despite just meeting her. Lately I've been up and down like fucking crazy, having mood swings as always. Typically jumping from calm to painfully sad. I'm going to assume that this just might be manic. Though, its hard to recognize myself as bi-polar despite how likely it is. Recently stopped giving a few fucks that weren't at all needed (girls girls girls), but I can't drop them all. Being around people/classmates still ends with exhaustion, both mentally and physically. I get incredibly spacey, even completely out of it when surrounded by people. I can't describe it, but I'm not all there. I just want to fall asleep. As a result, I've really still been isolating myself. One second, I'll be around friends, and the next, I'll need to sit alone for a while. Having an odd week of school called "intensives", and as a senior, I have class with mostly juniors due to missing credits. Its kind of strange finding out that I don't seem like a complete reject or idiot to any of them. Though, usually the only opinion I hear of myself IS from myself. Which isn't good. Occasionally smoking weed, I cut down from smoking about every other day with friends because I need to get my shit together. Smoking for those past couple of weeks really only made me feel out of it rather than the usual high, which is only another reason to take a break. I haven't smoked in about a week, it seems longer, though. Started exercising recently, too, as suggested by my dad. It really does take your mind off things. Sore as all hell today, but I hope I can keep it up. Speaking of my dad, he finally opened up to me the other day. He told me that he has been struggling with depression his whole life, along with his dad. He knows he passed it on to me. He told me that he had gone down the route of drugs and getting into serious trouble as a kid and he could only hope that I didn't follow. He told me that he is still trying to figure out how to cope with it. To quote him roughly, "My dad had it, and he was very intelligent. I have it, and they say I'm intelligent. Now, I know you're intelligent. Its just our minds. They'll just race and keep going and going and going, its ridiculous. You have to set yourself free." Its really odd realizing that this might not just be a phase. I could be like this for the rest of my life, and I can't even comprehend that, and I can only hope not. I had assumed I was in for some serious shit, but things might not be that bad. All I know is that this is going to be a huge challenge. Side note - What's a good answer for "Why are you so quiet?" This shit always catches me off guard.[/QUOTE] Agh, that's what my onset of bi-polar disorder was like, except believe it or not much much worse. Regardless, seek help. Those first four or so months with bi-polar disorder were without a doubt the absolute worst of my life. I had a tinge more psychosis thrown in the mix during my onset. I frequently had motion hallucinations, saw things that weren't there, heard voices, had nihilistic delusions (these are what brought me back to the point of suicide so many times), god I don't even want to think about the month of May. Fuck, point is do something before it gets worse.
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;33296341]Agh, that's what my onset of bi-polar disorder was like, except believe it or not much much worse. Regardless, seek help. Those first four or so months with bi-polar disorder were without a doubt the absolute worst of my life. I had a tinge more psychosis thrown in the mix during my onset. I frequently had motion hallucinations, saw things that weren't there, heard voices, had nihilistic delusions (these are what brought me back to the point of suicide so many times), god I don't even want to think about the month of May. Fuck, point is do something before it gets worse.[/QUOTE] How are you doing now? Is it under control? I can only hope that I don't get that bad. I'll be seeing a psychologist soon, so I hope I can sort it out.
On a somewhat related note, how do I distinguish between having bipolar disorder or just normal periodic sadness and such, because I can be fairly ok some days, but others I can end up really down to the point of suicidal thoughts and delusions. Then again, I feel like I'm a fairly big hypochondriac when it comes to mental disorders, so I have no clue whether or not I'm just exaggerating normal emotions and labeling them as symptoms.
[QUOTE=Fhenexx;33296476]On a somewhat related note, how do I distinguish between having bipolar disorder or just normal periodic sadness and such, because I can be fairly ok some days, but others I can end up really down almost to the point of suicidal thoughts. Then again, I feel like I'm a fairly big hypochondriac when it comes to mental disorders, so I have no clue whether or not I'm just exaggerating normal emotions and labeling them as symptoms.[/QUOTE] I feel that way too sometimes, trying to self-diagnose myself often times seems pretty wrong. If you seriously don't feel well and you're worried about it but don't want to jump to conclusions, see a doctor.
[QUOTE=Skinny;33296448]How are you doing now? Is it under control? I can only hope that I don't get that bad. I'll be seeing a psychologist soon, so I hope I can sort it out.[/QUOTE] As of right now, I'm stable. I take 50mg SSRI daily (thank god that's all it takes for now, mood stabilizers are still on the table though). I was able to distinguish a change probably fall of last year. I had intense depersonalization, spaced out constantly, isolated myself, and an hour later I'd chat up everybody about anything. My technical diagnosis is Bi-polar Type I with rapid cycling moods. I can have complete mood swings over the course of a day, on a bad day that is.
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;33296662]I had intense depersonalization, spaced out constantly, isolated myself, and an hour later I'd chat up everybody about anything.[/QUOTE] This is a pretty vivid description of how I've felt. Its almost scary to read. Glad to hear that you're feeling better, and that I have a good chance of doing the same. Very cool to hear about your experiences.
Facepunch, I think I may be bipolar or depressed. There is a bunch of confusion inside me about the symptoms. I feel sad a lot of the time, but it's broken up by these crazy 'I can do anything' periods (which makes me think I may be bipolar) However, this current spell may or may not be caused by girl troubles, so I'm not sure. It's becoming incredibly hard to concentrate on school and homework and shit, I just feel the need to sit there and procrastinate, and wallow in my sadness. This depression is lessened during school (maybe because I have something to concentrate on?) and during track practice (and slightly after) it's gone, but that is probably just runner's high. Also pulled my hamstring today, which might have contributed to this current depression spell.
[QUOTE=noneshallpass;33098295]You're in highschool, right? you have to remember it's all bullshit and almost everyone isn't worth your time. If you need to feel better , here you go, this man got me through a lot of tough days. [video=youtube;9J8fu_p1DwI]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9J8fu_p1DwI[/video][/QUOTE] Yes, I am in high school. And thanks.
[QUOTE=neos300;33307823]Facepunch, I think I may be bipolar or depressed. There is a bunch of confusion inside me about the symptoms. I feel sad a lot of the time, but it's broken up by these crazy 'I can do anything' periods (which makes me think I may be bipolar) However, this current spell may or may not be caused by girl troubles, so I'm not sure. It's becoming incredibly hard to concentrate on school and homework and shit, I just feel the need to sit there and procrastinate, and wallow in my sadness. This depression is lessened during school (maybe because I have something to concentrate on?) and during track practice (and slightly after) it's gone, but that is probably just runner's high. Also pulled my hamstring today, which might have contributed to this current depression spell.[/QUOTE] Sounds a lot like I feel, right down to the lack of concentration, and I feel just as unsure as you do.
Well it's time to let it all out. I'm not particularly feeling too confident with myself lately. I'm a freshman in a private catholic school and i'm doing terrible. I have ADHD and pretty much guzzle down Clonedine and Adderal pills every morning and before I go to bed. I'm the smallest guy in school and get picked on a lot and that really bothers me yet it almost never bothered me before and that's whats worrying me. My averages are really bad and finals are around the corner and i'm not ready for them. In the middle of the night I burst into tears for no reason and then I can't sleep afterwards. I use to be a really athletic kid but i've been too behind on school work that I had to leave the baseball team. Because of this my friends like to nag on me for quitting the team and how they are doing terrible without me. I am a terrible procrastinator and I can't seem to get myself to do my homework anymore and I don't really know what to do with myself. My mom is recommending we stop seeing my neurologist and to start seeing my old psychiatrist again from when I was little and when I resorted to punching kids in kindergarten, but that won't be for a while and in the mean time I'm going to vent here. What do you guys recommend me doing?
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;33278782]Depression, at least here in America, is usually treated first with an SSRI. This inhibits the reuptake of serotonin, thereby meaning more of it is in your brain, which means more serotonin receptor stimulation, which means more happy. Well, that's if your depression is related to serotonin and serotonin only. There's a lot of other shit that goes down in the brain, and depression is a vague, umbrella term for chronic sad and despair. Not serotonin down regulation. Of course, there are many other medications, all with their pros and cons. Your biggest example here would be Zoloft, which I take daily at the median dose of 50mg. It works, but it has its downsides. Namely, for some it's sedating. For me, it gives me a strong compulsion to drink, all the time. It really is bad some days. Also, uh... You might have some trouble getting it up. I did for a while. MAOIs, many people find effective, but there's an assload of food you can't eat on them, medication you can't take with them, and drugs you just can't do on them unless you have a deathwish. The latter was my issue. A main example here would be Welbutrin, prescribed under many different names. Finally, in order to summarize the most common classes of prescriptions, you have your pharms that affect dopamine activity. The main neurotransmitter associated with pleasure and satisfaction, among other roles. Problem being with these is that their effect on the dopaminergic system can cause tremors not unlike those of parkinson's disease, weight gain, and possible worsening of psychotic symptoms. Psychotic? Why yes, their technical classification usually goes something like "Third generation antipsychotic," or "Novel antipsychotic." Examples are Abilify, and that's pretty much it. On a side note, cannibidol can actually act as a "third gen antipsychotic" without the overly sedating effects, and you know, those permanent tremors. Cannibidol, as the name implies, is yes, found in marijuana. It's an isomer of THC, but has much different effects. Studies have shown it counteracts the powerful stimulation of THC, is an anticonvulsant (stops convulsing in seizure patients), antipsychotic, and for me, a hell of a good antidepressant. I only recommend this course if you live in a state with medicinal marijuana and can get Indica strains. Sativas (more THC, less CBN and CBD) were too much for me during the worst of my bi-polar. Best of luck.[/QUOTE] There are also atypical antidepressants like Bupropion (what I'm on right now) that seem to have the opposite side effects as other ones - the most notable being moderate weight loss and appetite suppression, and increased libido. It's also prescribed as a stop-smoking aid. (A skinny, horny, non-smoker? Who doesn't want that?) The main side effect is the possibility of seizures - they're still incredibly rare but it lowers your seizure threshold. I didn't get sore muscles like I did on the last one (Citalopram), but I do have a bit of dry mouth. Stopping it rapidly is also more risky than other ones. I'm sure there are other atypical ones, they're worth discussing with a psychiatrist if you don't like the looks of the side effects on other ones.
so i need alittle help. I've been going out with this girl for about 4-5 months now. and I've never been happier in my life. although it's a internet realationship, it still worked good and we talked almost everyday and ALOT. she was just perfect for me, everything i could ever ask for. however her mom isn't excatly the nicest to say the least. she treats her like she is some bad girl and has total control of her life. she don't have a dad which means that her mom has taken on a father role for her. she had to approve of me before anything was to happend between me and her. and being an honest good guy I got the seal of approval soon enough. but a few weeks ago I had alittle incident with alcohol, that caused a fight, followed by a brief breakup. but we made up and got back together. i was planning on visiting them this christmas. but after the breakup I lost my chance and the plane tickets got too expensive for me to afford. so then her mom started going all "he's not coming", "he doesn't care about you", and "you're better off finding someone here instead of dating over the internet". basicly trying to pull us appart. but we stayed together. and two days ago her mom ended it, she forced her to break up with me. she doesn't let me skype anymore. and made her change her realationship status on facebook. and I'm helpless here, nothing i can do to help. and I've been really deppressed the last two weeks and tried taking my life last week. so i need her but her mom is keeping her from me... I don't know what to do.
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