• The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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Maybe, but I have no other symptoms of bipolarness. I have none of the hypomania symptoms either, but I'll have it checked. [editline]5th March 2011[/editline] Bi means two - AKA two different moods, high and low. Uni means one, one mood. Right now I'm thinking that it's more likely that I have unipolar depression rather then bipolar disorder.
Fuck man. Ok, so my anorexic friend who refused to see a therapist actually went, and enjoyed it(!!!) however, some other bullshit happened. So my friend with anorexia had said in some texts that she was upset/hated her dad (he must not really be there/give a shit) and while she was at school, her dad read through her texts and saw the one where she said she hated him. He goes batshit insane, starts yelling at his mom and tells her and his daughter to "Enjoy living on the street!" before driving away. He called her mom awhile later, and ends up coming and going back because legally, the house is in his name. He refuses to talk to the mother or my friend though. Sigh. In (semi) better news, she did say she actually liked her therapy, and she will be taking meds for her insomia/depressing and will be seeing her therapist weekly. I feel bad because a few nights ago when I was talking to her we got into our parent's professions and I said her dad's job was pretty chill. It was an off-hand comment to lighten the mood, but I honestly hadn't a clue she hated him. I feel sort've bad but on her blog-post she thanked myself and my suicidal friend for being there, so I don't think she holds much against me.
Hey Pedro, don't feel bad. You didn't say he was a good person, but that he had a good job. So I'm thinking of finally breaking down and going to a psychotherapist about my night terrors but I'm kinda expecting it won't work.
This is sort of weird, but bare with me; Whenever I'm depressed I really feel like talking with people about it, and whenever I'm with people, be it family or friends I really, really don't and it's pretty aggravating. What can cause that?
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28443616]This is sort of weird, but bare with me; Whenever I'm depressed I really feel like talking with people about it, and whenever I'm with people, be it family or friends I really, really don't and it's pretty aggravating. What can cause that?[/QUOTE] I'm similar. I really wish I had someone who I could trust, and who cared enough to actually listen to me. I want someone to talk to about things, but I don't have the right person. If I tried to talk to my friends or family I would just be too embarrassed.
Well yeah it's probably just because you don't feel like you can talk about it to your friends and family though you'd like to have someone. It's probably the same for everyone, but eventually you'll find someone you can trust and feel close to. [editline]5th March 2011[/editline] I'm the same btw.
It's just when I talk to by best friend about it I feel like such a downer. Even when he's listening interested, I'm boring myself.
Yeah well perhaps you haven't met someone you can talk to without feeling like a downer.
How about you, how do you think I'd feel talking to you?
I don't think you'd feel like a downer because I wouldn't think of you as a downer.
So mate, up for a chat then? :)
Sure, man. Wanna do it over steam?
Lets. Added you.
I have to talk to my parents about my depression, whether I want to or not. I'm really transparent and they always know when I'm not feeling good. It almost always happens like this. They ask what's wrong and I start crying, partly because I'm a pussy and partly because I hold it in all day. It's pretty humbling when you're crying your eyes out in front of your parents, yelling about how shitty of a person you think you are, and then they start crying. :v:
Weird thing, i don't use drugs nor am i depressed but when i feel sad, then i play my own CD (WMP playlist) It starts with sad songs and builds up to happy songs This always works for me and i am using this method for 7 years Also [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyCljTq4AXc[/media]
Guys, it's past 4 AM, but for the first time in weeks I actually feel like [I]doing something.[/I] Man I missed that feeling. Should I: A) Go to sleep. B) Put grilled chicken on the oven, while it's on the oven go out and take night pictures and stargaze at the same time, then come back to learn a dance like tango, possibly practice my guitar some if I have time after/while or before eating the chicked? Need a reply ASAP or I'm going to bed. [editline]6th March 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=MrJazzy;28444469]Sure, man. Wanna do it over steam?[/QUOTE] Great guy, this guy.
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28448532]Guys, it's past 4 AM, but for the first time in weeks I actually feel like [I]doing something.[/I] Man I missed that feeling. Should I: A) Go to sleep. B) Put grilled chicken on the oven, while it's on the oven go out and take night pictures and stargaze at the same time, then come back to learn a dance like tango, possibly practice my guitar some if I have time after/while or before eating the chicked? Need a reply ASAP or I'm going to bed. [editline]6th March 2011[/editline] Great guy, this guy.[/QUOTE] B
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28448532]Guys, it's past 4 AM, but for the first time in weeks I actually feel like [I]doing something.[/I] Man I missed that feeling. Should I: A) Go to sleep. B) Put grilled chicken on the oven, while it's on the oven go out and take night pictures and stargaze at the same time, then come back to learn a dance like tango, possibly practice my guitar some if I have time after/while or before eating the chicked? Need a reply ASAP or I'm going to bed.[/QUOTE] I think this is a pretty obvious question... B
[QUOTE=Tim Henson;28448565]B[/QUOTE] This night is going to be awesome! :buddy: [editline]6th March 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Evilan;28448574]I think this is a pretty obvious question... B[/QUOTE] I had A there because there's school tomorrow, and I'm going to be tired as fuck, but man... I don't want to waste this feeling!
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28448579] I had A there because there's school tomorrow, and I'm going to be tired as fuck, but man... I don't want to waste this feeling![/QUOTE] that feel is the feeling of sleep deprivation. I notice when ever i stay up really late, around 4-6 AM, you get a high off life feeling. it usually goes away at 8-12 AM, when you start to crash.. hard.
in my opinion drugs like weed and alcohol are the worst way to deal with depression because your body will soon depend on it to feel good
I'm in a very lonely, self-loathing, morbid state right now. I really wish someone liked me. People tolerate me, but nobody actually wants me around very much. I don't really understand why. I'm nice and generous. I give people things for nothing all the time. I don't make fun of people nearly as much as others do. I just don't understand what the fuck is wrong with me.
I'm sure people do like you, it's just people might not express it? I dunno. I know people [i]like[/i] me, but it's just...I dunno. It feels like mixed signals at times. Examples: I told this one girl I liked her, actually, it was the suicidal friend of mine, a long while back at least two summer's ago and she didn't really say anything. I knew she was dating someone, but the relationship was falling apart and even earlier in the evening she told me her and her current boyfriend would "never break-up." I decided that if they were going to be "perfect couple" I'd move on. Of course two weeks later she comes back and asks if (I thought sarcastically) if I still liked her, but I said plain out frankly "Nah, I moved on." She gets terribly sad and depressed I knew that if I told her it was her own damn dueing she'd go suicidal on me. So I took the blame for it and all this. Fast-foward to earlier this year I start to fall for this crazy chick again, and whether it was out of sympathy or not tell her I like her again. This time she doesn't even do shit, even brings it up in public. I just clammed up and decided that she's too..jumpy? I dunno. Then, some new cats I met this year, I hadn't had any classes with them previously all turn out to be pretty cool, funny, similiar sense of humor, etc. They knew some of my friends before I'd met them, and with their crazy humor and wit had started this sort've...project, I guess it's safe to say, about creating a Youtube channel for Monty Python-esque skits and such. I mean, I expressed my liking to this multiple times and they all, even my friend's who I'd known previous to these guys blew it off of me, it's just...Like...wow, it feels like I'm being slapped in the face. I still talk to them all and enjoy their company, but...It just feels...insulting. Perhaps it's because they think I don't live close enough or whatever, but it won't kill me to actually get over to wherever they do the writing and filming. Hell, a skit that me and one of the new cats I met this year sort've co-wrote (in our heads) and performed for a group of my friends, he fucking told me he used it as one of their own skits. It's just like...wow. Stab to the heart, y'know? I feel like in my life, I'll be the intelligent, funny one who's just too much of an outsider to actually get TOO close to.
I completely agree about the sleep related issues. I always get energetic at completely incorrect times and as a result always get my schedule messed up in one way or another. It really does annoy the crap out of me, I feel like I am about to fall asleep all day and then cannot get my mind to stop racing and thinking when it would actually be a good time to fall asleep. I also remember mentioning that I appeared to have been sleeping way too much lately.
I'm an insomniac, it's either that, or I just hate sleeping. (I think it's a little of both)
I know, as explained earlier. I'm myself pretty hit by a depression. If anyone wants to talk, or share experiences. You're more than welcome to add me on skype/steam/msn or whatever. Just PM me here. Don't be alone.
Hey, I have gathered enough self confidence to post a picture of myself on the Internet because someone said I wasn't as ugly as I thought. Now, for an [B]honest [/B]opinion; [img]http://dl.dropbox.com/u/1467131/UglyFaggot.jpg[/img] Ugly faggot or not?
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28461717]Hey, I have gathered enough self confidence to post a picture of myself on the Internet because someone said I wasn't as ugly as I thought. Now, for an [B]honest [/B]opinion; [img_thumb]http://dl.dropbox.com/u/1467131/UglyFaggot.jpg[/img_thumb] Ugly faggot or not?[/QUOTE] no you're cute, really cute.
Is that genuine or just sarcasm? It's hard for me to tell any more.
[QUOTE=Spetzaz;28462014]Is that genuine or just sarcasm? It's hard for me to tell any more.[/QUOTE] I don't know about jani_killer, but my agree was genuine.
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