• The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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I'm probably going to try a new medecine, I'm currently going on remeron (I think it's called). Though it hasn't helped me with my depression, I sleep very well on it. It makes me tired and dozy so I take it before I go to bed and I can sleep, alot better than normally. I hope I get to keep this medicine that I sleep well on and add the newer one or perhaps get something else to help me sleep.
I've been starting to feel really depressed this week, getting worse for every day, but I do not actually know WHY I feel depressed, I just keep pushing it out of my head to be able to code properly, but its just feeling like I got a massive weight on my chest currently, slowly spreading to my throat What do? Watching movies worked great last night, but I'm out of them right now
[QUOTE=brianosaur;33518675]I try to base my friends around something other than drugs.[/QUOTE] This, exactly. My closest friends do nothing but smoke weed as of now, and I feel very distant. I feel like I don't belong with them, but I don't really have any other friends. Shit's been weird since we all started smoking. [QUOTE=Tobba;33524892]I've been starting to feel really depressed this week, getting worse for every day, but I do not actually know WHY I feel depressed, I just keep pushing it out of my head to be able to code properly, but its just feeling like I got a massive weight on my chest currently, slowly spreading to my throat What do? Watching movies worked great last night, but I'm out of them right now[/QUOTE] I know how this is, its no fun. I skipped school today because I couldn't get out of bed. To distract myself, I usually listen to music or play guitar. I've been finding new music of all sorts over the past few months, shit really helps keep my mind off things. Also, you could exercise. Something I've been neglecting for a while, but I need to do. It just feels good.
My friend seems to be distant now, just hanging out with people I don't like and smoking weed. I do like smoking weed and for a while we did it all the time together, but now with the load of school (I do homework on fridays and saturdays most weekends) I don't want to as much, and I also believe it was having a detrimental effect on my anxiety and general state. It sucks that all my old best friends are pretty much stoners now, none of them are in "smart" classes as far as I know and it seems like they aren't going to go anywhere.
[QUOTE=Octave;33527190]My friend seems to be distant now, just hanging out with people I don't like and smoking weed. I do like smoking weed and for a while we did it all the time together, but now with the load of school (I do homework on fridays and saturdays most weekends) I don't want to as much, and I also believe it was having a detrimental effect on my anxiety and general state. It sucks that all my old best friends are pretty much stoners now, none of them are in "smart" classes as far as I know and it seems like they aren't going to go anywhere.[/QUOTE] /I know that feel bro I am friends with a lot of stoners, even though i've never gotten stoned in my life, i just am friends with them because i've known them since elementary school. And a lot of them are failing like 5 classes, one can't read and write but is trying to become a writer. and it's frustrating to see people you know piss away their education/grades/things in general away. It's gotten to the point to where i am being a flat out arse in the way i tell them they need to get their shit together. They're actually smart, it's not like they're "dumb" or "daft". They just don't try. At all. One of them though did go from a C and F student to an A and B student like I am, so i am sort of proud of him and give him my respect. It may be wrong that i judge someones character based on how much they try in school, but damn it, there's really no excuse i see in failing this badly. They have good home lives, they don't have any mental or health conditions, they're just lazy, they even admit to it. Drives me crazy and it's sad to see. I don't care if it makes me the bad guy to poke and prod at them to try to get up and do something, if it ends up alienating myself from the bunch, i guess that's okay too. it was worth a try. (uber run on sentence above) [editline]2nd December 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33527256]A friend of mine went to bed at 20:00.. after taking anti-depressives which weren't his. He's never been given a prescription for any either.. Hope he didn't do anything stupid.[/QUOTE] He's fine.
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33527256]A friend of mine went to bed at 20:00.. after taking anti-depressives which weren't his. He's never been given a prescription for any either.. Hope he didn't do anything stupid.[/QUOTE] Overdosing on anti-depressants is almost impossible and taking a single dose once won't do anything.
OD on anti-depressants would be kinda funny, but sad too
[QUOTE=minilandstan;33538364]OD on anti-depressants would be kinda funny, but sad too[/QUOTE] Yes I can see the fun in it... But yes, as Zeke stated, it's impossible to OD on them because they're supposed to work over time. Why would they prescript something that you can OD on to a possibly suicidal person?
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33536100]Apparently, they were 5++ years old and he didn't even know what kind it was when I asked him.[/QUOTE] 5 year old medication will be absolutely useless.
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33536100]Apparently, they were 5++ years old and he didn't even know what kind it was when I asked him.[/QUOTE] It takes time for anti-depressants to work. You can't OD on them in reality. In a sense you could i guess. and 5 years old, they would have lost a good deal of their potential. What was your friend trying to achieve?
~coolness~
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33549355]I just got a scare because he told me he'd found a box of pills and some antidepressants. I guess it really wasn't worth getting worked up over, but I felt really uneasy.[/QUOTE] Nono, it was very much worth getting worked up over and good of you to ask about.
I feel like killing myself right now, I should probably seek help For the past few hours its just been a case of feeling fine for 20 minutes, then being extremely depressed for 20
Do you have any reason for feeling like you do? Or is it just random ups and downs?
[QUOTE=Pedro the Fuzzy;33570011]Do you have any reason for feeling like you do? Or is it just random ups and downs?[/QUOTE] No real reason I can think of, I've been feeling shit for a week, but those recent hours have been pretty terrible
[QUOTE=Tobba;33570119]No real reason I can think of, I've been feeling shit for a week, but those recent hours have been pretty terrible[/QUOTE] are you seeing a professional about this?
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;33570384]are you seeing a professional about this?[/QUOTE] Not currently, I should really talk to someone though
[QUOTE=Tobba;33570475]Not currently, I should really talk to someone though[/QUOTE] If you're having mood swings, Happy, to crippling sadness with a side of suicidal thoughts, you should talk to a professional. There's no shame in doing it or anything, just you can get tons more help by going to the doc and talking to them.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;33570525]If you're having mood swings, Happy, to crippling sadness with a side of suicidal thoughts, you should talk to a professional. There's no shame in doing it or anything, just you can get tons more help by going to the doc and talking to them.[/QUOTE] Never actually really felt happy since this started, but thanks for the advice
We should all make sad videos on youtube to catchy music and get millions of views.
Shit, guys... I've been depressed before, but this is the first time I've actually considered suicide. It used to be a fleeting thought, but this time it's just lingering in my head for literally an hour now. I feel like I have nothing to live for. Deep down, I know that isn't true, but I'm having a really hard time seeing why it isn't. My friends and I have grown far apart. I'm failing nearly all of my classes. My life is non-existent outside school and this computer. I don't see the point. I don't care. And yet I feel like I SHOULD. I feel wrong. It's all wrong. Everything I do feels wrong, like I shouldn't be doing it. But I do it all day, everyday, and I can't break this awful cycle. I don't know how to. Like I said earlier, I've never thought about offing myself before, but now I'm seriously thinking about it. It's not RIGHT. I KNOW it isn't. I just don't know where to turn. I'm lost. That's it, I guess. I'm going to bed.
I had two dreams last night. One in which my father was alive. I've been thinking about the first one all day. I'm still thinking about it. Why has my mind got to play cruel tricks on me? [editline]6th December 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Lunik;33574864]Shit, guys... I've been depressed before, but this is the first time I've actually considered suicide. It used to be a fleeting thought, but this time it's just lingering in my head for literally an hour now. I feel like I have nothing to live for. Deep down, I know that isn't true, but I'm having a really hard time seeing why it isn't. My friends and I have grown far apart. I'm failing nearly all of my classes. My life is non-existent outside school and this computer. I don't see the point. I don't care. And yet I feel like I SHOULD. I feel wrong. It's all wrong. Everything I do feels wrong, like I shouldn't be doing it. But I do it all day, everyday, and I can't break this awful cycle. I don't know how to. Like I said earlier, I've never thought about offing myself before, but now I'm seriously thinking about it. It's not RIGHT. I KNOW it isn't. I just don't know where to turn. I'm lost. That's it, I guess. I'm going to bed.[/QUOTE] Hey dude, add me on steam if you want to chat about stuff. names the same as on FP
[QUOTE=Lunik;33574864]Shit, guys... I've been depressed before, but this is the first time I've actually considered suicide. It used to be a fleeting thought, but this time it's just lingering in my head for literally an hour now. I feel like I have nothing to live for. Deep down, I know that isn't true, but I'm having a really hard time seeing why it isn't. My friends and I have grown far apart. I'm failing nearly all of my classes. My life is non-existent outside school and this computer. I don't see the point. I don't care. And yet I feel like I SHOULD. I feel wrong. It's all wrong. Everything I do feels wrong, like I shouldn't be doing it. But I do it all day, everyday, and I can't break this awful cycle. I don't know how to. Like I said earlier, I've never thought about offing myself before, but now I'm seriously thinking about it. It's not RIGHT. I KNOW it isn't. I just don't know where to turn. I'm lost. That's it, I guess. I'm going to bed.[/QUOTE] I know how that feels; I am not really good at consoling people in my own condition, but.. and it's good you can grasp that it's ridiculous to think of killing yourself. Don't worry about your friends drifting apart.. let them know you're going through a rough time and just give yourself a little space to focus. As for school.. yeah it fucking sucks, but it's hoops you gotta jump through. See if you can squeeze in some study time and get grades a kick start again. Hope is lost if you have no will to hold it, so keep your chin high and bite the bullet and I [I]know[/I] you'll pull through. [QUOTE=Turnips5;33589464]I had two dreams last night. One in which my father was alive. I've been thinking about the first one all day. I'm still thinking about it. Why has my mind got to play cruel tricks on me?[/QUOTE] I know this feeling, too. It's not as harsh, but it feels just as deep. I get the most agonizing dreams of any hopes failing - be it with my ex, career, or just fear I will drive away those I love. I'm sorry you lost him, but that's your mind's way of bringing back what you hold in so dearly. It's cruel but at least you get to see him there in your subconscious.
Anyone else see the Jonah Mowry video? I honestly think he isn't depressed. I don't feel like I'd ever do that, ever. Also, fuck more suicide thoughts and more insults every day insulted on my acne, insulted on my hair, ect
[QUOTE=Lunik;33574864]Shit, guys... I've been depressed before, but this is the first time I've actually considered suicide. It used to be a fleeting thought, but this time it's just lingering in my head for literally an hour now. I feel like I have nothing to live for. Deep down, I know that isn't true, but I'm having a really hard time seeing why it isn't. My friends and I have grown far apart. I'm failing nearly all of my classes. My life is non-existent outside school and this computer. I don't see the point. I don't care. And yet I feel like I SHOULD. I feel wrong. It's all wrong. Everything I do feels wrong, like I shouldn't be doing it. But I do it all day, everyday, and I can't break this awful cycle. I don't know how to. Like I said earlier, I've never thought about offing myself before, but now I'm seriously thinking about it. It's not RIGHT. I KNOW it isn't. I just don't know where to turn. I'm lost. That's it, I guess. I'm going to bed.[/QUOTE] You're cool.
[QUOTE=The First 11'er;33593113]Anyone else see the Jonah Mowry video? I honestly think he isn't depressed. I don't feel like I'd ever do that, ever. Also, fuck more suicide thoughts and more insults every day insulted on my acne, insulted on my hair, ect[/QUOTE] I don't like the idea that there are millions of depressed people flying under the radar and then when this one kid posts a video that is basically a plea for attention literally [b]everybody[/b] jumps on the bandwagon and start saying "bullying is awful, you don't know what this kid's been through." and all that stuff. A lot of them are just saying that because it makes them look like they care. Thousands of people are too scared or too modest to post a video like that, and thousands of people suffer with worse depression for far longer and never receive acknowledgement.
Its funny because on the videos they'll be anti-bullying one moment, and telling someone to kill themselves the next.
[QUOTE=Collin665;33604972]Its funny because on the videos they'll be anti-bullying one moment, and telling someone to kill themselves the next.[/QUOTE] [img]http://i.imgur.com/1wHcz.png[/img]
I feel like I am falling, but I never hit the bottom. She was so beautiful but she fucked herself up, I only saw her when it was too late. I am just a shadow in the corner of the room, there is no standing out. Insomnia is starting to emerge, no pills, no "Quick fixes" no help. I sleep for around three hours a day, at night I think about staying awake, in the day I think about going to sleep. Dissapointment is a word I heard often, and I still hear it to this day. I am such a useless being I can't even cut myself. I think I am going to kill myself.
[QUOTE=flamehead5;33620806]I feel like I am falling, but I never hit the bottom. She was so beautiful but she fucked herself up, I only saw her when it was too late. I am just a shadow in the corner of the room, there is no standing out. Insomnia is starting to emerge, no pills, no "Quick fixes" no help. I sleep for around three hours a day, at night I think about staying awake, in the day I think about going to sleep. Dissapointment is a word I heard often, and I still hear it to this day. I am such a useless being I can't even cut myself. I think I am going to kill myself.[/QUOTE] Was that a poem or a description of your life? Eh, just go talk to a counsellor or call the suicide hotline. You're a moron if you think that anyone is going to help you out on the internet, and you're a moron for thinking that posting about it will help. Go talk to a specialist and get better, and don't give me that "It's too hard to talk about" bullshit because no one is that much of a coward. The choice is, talk about your feelings with a counsellor and live or sit in your room, alone with your thoughts to die. Inb4 I'm an asshole.
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