• The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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[QUOTE=ScoutKing;33729057]The mods don't give a shit.[/QUOTE] ~*~*~*~*~That's not a positive thing to say, cheer up!~*~*~*~*~
[QUOTE=Craptasket;33730252]~*~*~*~*~That's not a positive thing to say, cheer up!~*~*~*~*~[/QUOTE] Tildes are fine but asterisks are not approved for the treatment of psychological disorders
[QUOTE=Zeke129;33730460]Tildes are fine but asterisks are not approved for the treatment of psychological disorders[/QUOTE] this cheered me up.
My brother got sentenced 4 years in prison. He's already been in jail for a year now, so he'll have like 2 years and 10 months left. It's pretty shitty, my mom is pretty upset. He has 2 charges for burglary to unoccupied dwelling btw.
[QUOTE=Scoooby;33732093]My brother got sentenced 4 years in prison. He's already been in jail for a year now, so he'll have like 2 years and 10 months left. It's pretty shitty, my mom is pretty upset. He has 2 charges for burglary to unoccupied dwelling btw.[/QUOTE] when you damage/steal property without traumatizing the owners why isn't the penalty just paying them for all damages plus interest and inconvenience if someone robbed me while I was gone and they went to jail, ok super, I'd rather my shit though
So im curious to know what Facepunch thinks; I've suffered from depression for a while, so it has been a long-standing issue with me. The topic of suicide has crossed my mind in the past but i've always been able to dismiss it, life is too unique to give up so quickly. In my eyes, the gift of living and experiencing far outweighs the pain from my depression. However.... Over the past three years my life has steadily begun to decline. I am in school for aviation, now feeling as if I have wasted all the money I have put into it over the past three years. I could have spent half as much and gone twice as far, but no one bothered to tell me this was a possibility. Instead the school wanted the money, so they only continued to press the idea of attending their institution making it out to 'crucial' to my profession, it is not. Now burdened by great amounts of debt I feel like a washed up whale on the shore with no means of getting anything off the ground or started. I work at a local airport here in Colorado, and nearly lost my job today... On the 9th I was pushing an aircraft into the back of the hanger trying to put it in at an odd angle, unfortunately I snapped off a [url=http://www.askacfi.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2009/07/static-wick.jpg]static wick [/url]on the tail of the plane. Mind you, these only cost about 20.00 bucks to replace, by far one of the cheapest things to fix on an aircraft. Today I was brought into the office and told "It probably wont work out" and had to beg to keep my job. Yes, BEG. Sent home early and told I would hear on their final decision at some point in the next couple days I am left stressed and angry. Another worker left the batteries on overnight some months ago, costing the company 6,000.00 USD to replace, I cost them under 25.00 and am being let go. I realize I screwed up, but my problem isn't with the company its with the mentality of our world. There is no loyalty, instead of trying to figure out what happened and how it can be avoided they'd just rather let me go and start fresh. My issues don't stop here though, they go on to the mentality of the women, the other people around me, how our world works, and the way things are... They say money is the root of all evil, and yet we live in a world that is dominated by it on all sides. I'm angry because I am the only one supporting my family right now, "making the dough" so to speak and doing it on a shit wage. Now the folks who pay my wage want to discard me with little thought, my anger towards these situations has caused a downfall in my romantic relationships. Not only can I not find a woman who is respectable, stable, and somewhat mature but most of them just see me as an angry individual right now... and who wants to date that? All in all... the reason go on and on... but the base line is that... Suicide doesn't look like a bad option anymore. Overall I enjoy [b]living[/b], and understanding how we go about "living" on a biological and physics level only enriches that view... But I don't want to live in this world anymore. Our world is very cruel and torturing. We do not feel for others... and especially here in the US there has come a distance between people.. There is no community, no helping. It's every man for himself.... I don't want to live in such a [i][b]Savage[/i][/b] World.... Am I wrong in feeling that way?
[QUOTE=Keys;33739263]snipped[/QUOTE] The world might not be so savage as you think it is. The people and circumstances in your life aren't representative of the "norm" of life - the fact is there is no "norm" of life, just different pockets of different types of experiences and all that. Your bosses don't know that you feel this way. They are ignorant of you, and see you as a worker; that's pretty much the extent of the professional relationship. People don't always make rational decisions, and yeah it's stupid to fire you over $25 dollars, I mean come on. It may be stupid and incredibly irrational, but it won't always be like that. Everyone has rough patches, but we all gotta keep going. I hope you feel better soon.
Do you guys have any special songs you listen to when you're sad? My favourite would be this one: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9km20oSLb8[/media] It's really beautiful in my opinion, it's a bit depressing, but it tends to cheer me up.
[QUOTE=Zeke129;33732522]when you damage/steal property without traumatizing the owners why isn't the penalty just paying them for all damages plus interest and inconvenience if someone robbed me while I was gone and they went to jail, ok super, I'd rather my shit though[/QUOTE] Yeah, his attorney made that argument. It was only a 1,000 dollars worth of stuff. I've been robbed from, and as usual, I had nobody convicted due to no evidence. They're lucky he even admitted it to them.
[QUOTE=KillerTele;33739832]Do you guys have any special songs you listen to when you're sad? [/QUOTE] I usually listen to a ton of post-rock. I've been into Giles Corey lately, but its not at all "cheer up" music. [video=youtube;1zmXOKAom_Q]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zmXOKAom_Q[/video] For cheering up, actually, [video=youtube;3dG945L8Js8]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3dG945L8Js8[/video]
[QUOTE=Keys;33739263]...post... Am I wrong in feeling that way?[/QUOTE] Feeling suicidal is never wrong, just like feeling happy or angry is never wrong. They're feelings, they come and go on their own. That's why I don't like people who say "oh you're not depressed, snap out of it". People should look at controlling whatever is causing the feelings instead of the feelings themselves. You seem to know why you feel this way, that's a start. I'm not a shrink or a lawyer, but if I were you I'd tackle the job problem first. If you lose the job, and have proof that you were fired for something more minor than another employee wasn't fired for, it might be worth getting in touch with the union (if there is one) or your state's labour board. They'd have the best advice. And in the end, there are other jobs. Maybe not very many right now, but they're there. About seeing the world as savage, I don't think many people would disagree, especially those who are active on the internet. We get news from around the world in minutes, and the stories that sell are the ones involving people doing bad things to other people. But in the end the world is a huge place, and as long as we stick with compassionate people we can avoid most of the savagery. You said you enjoy the biological and physical aspects of living, and no matter what's going on externally those things will keep going pretty much the same.
I think being apart of the internet, and the fact we are exposed to a lot of shit happening in the world, may liberalize us. They say journalists are more likely to be liberal, because they get news in person. And experience a lot of the savagery first-hand. Pretty much what Zeke brought up.
Now, I don't know if this is the right place to post this, and if it isn't, I apologize, but I have no idea where else I could post this. Now, I wouldn't say I'm depressed, but throughout the past 2 - 3 weeks, I've had these constant feelings that everyone I know hates me. When I message my friend, and he may not reply, all I can think about are the things that I could've done to anger him, and then I end up getting really anxious and upset, thinking that they may hate me, when in reality, they may have just been away from Steam. This same thing happens in school, where whoever I see, I feel that they're just talking to me to be polite, when in reality, they wish I'd get out of their face. Also, whenever I hear people say things that are negative about someone, I always end up making myself think it was directed towards me, and no matter what I do, I always have the constant feeling in the back of my mind. I'm sorry if this came off as a whiny, useless post, but I wanted to get it off of my chest, and if anyone in this thread could possibly have any ideas on how to make me stop feeling this way, I would appreciate it SO much.
back i am. god fucking damn it i am fucking up everything recently. i've been failing a course i don't even like that can only lead to jobs i despise. being one ugly motherfucker with no social or athletic skills i am in every possible way a terrible person. also i am the most paranoid motherfucker i know so you can add insanity on the shitlist. this is really stupid but i would really be better off if i killed myself at this point i don't feel very sad about this whole ordeal but just really fucking angry because i have spent two years trying to make it better and this is pretty much the result
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33756822]Been a while. My transgenderism is making me feel down all the time. My mood is incredibly unstable and I get so easily pissed off I'll snap someday soon. I haven't told anyone but one person IRL. I have to keep everything for myself. It's incredibly hard. My GP told me he'd talk to a friend of his that's a psychologist to get me an appointment, and send me a text when he had. It's been 11 days and I feel cheated. Everything's a bloody chore. Everything I do seems pointless and I feel like giving up.[/QUOTE] Reddit has a large and fairly non-retarded LGBT community (as long as you stay out of the most popular subreddits), you'll likely find lots of people who relate with you there if you need more people to talk to.
I fucking hate Fridays.
I like Fridays cuz it's the last day of school before the weekend and school is a horrible place.
I got sent to a psychiatrist because of my depressions n shit. Man, People told me she was a nice person, turns out she was a fuckin bitch. You see, me and my mom sorta went through the same shit over the past decade. When I told her that, she just told me to "keep distance to her.". I almost fucking snapped. I mean, the fuck does that have to do with anything? But yeah, she just gave me some anti depressants and basically told me to gtfo. This country is filled with such assholes. It's time for me to pack my fuckin stuff and go back to my family in the USA because I've just about had enough of this bullshit
[QUOTE=Raizo;33766063]I got sent to a psychiatrist because of my depressions n shit. Man, People told me she was a nice person, turns out she was a fuckin bitch. You see, me and my mom sorta went through the same shit over the past decade. When I told her that, she just told me to "keep distance to her.". I almost fucking snapped. I mean, the fuck does that have to do with anything? But yeah, she just gave me some anti depressants and basically told me to gtfo. This country is filled with such assholes. It's time for me to pack my fuckin stuff and go back to my family in the USA because I've just about had enough of this bullshit[/QUOTE] go to a different psychiatrist
[QUOTE=Zeke129;33768809]go to a different psychiatrist[/QUOTE] I won't even bother. I tried to make the first step to open myself, then this. Fuck it.
[QUOTE=Raizo;33769482]I won't even bother. I tried to make the first step to open myself, then this. Fuck it.[/QUOTE] most shrinks aren't cunts best thing I did was just write a basic introduction down as a letter, so if I had to see someone else I could just give them the letter answering questions is easier than going over everything again and again
Just posted this in the rage thread thing, I'll post it here though. Due to me battling what I think is depression, the last couple of weeks have been hell for me. My friends keep telling me that it's not depression even though I feel like shit and that "everyone goes through those feelings" Yeah, wanting to kill myself is totally a normal feeling. And one of my friends is getting on my nerves to an extreme. He keeps talking to me and if I ever look sad, he says "Don't kill yourself it's bad for your health!! llolollolol" I want to punch him in the fucking face when he says that. Everyone around me has been making me mad when they do something stupid. Why should they be able to act retarded when people are dying around the world, our government is collapsing, and the internet is going to be gone due to SOPA? As soon as SOPA is passed my sanity will slowly start to deplete. It's my only outlet for my life. It keeps me happy. With youtube gone, Facepunch gone, everything gone that is dear to me on the computer, I don't know how long I"ll last. Why am I forced to face the drama of school, the annoyance of people begging to be popular by acting retarded? There are thousands of other people around the world that are rich and famous because they caught a lucky break. When am I going to catch a lucky break? Why should I go through school and learn when I could make more money for one contract to catch a ball and score a touchdown then any other occupation? [editline]17th December 2011[/editline] Also, I do not have a desire to get out of bed anymore. I just want to lay there all day. I figure laying there would be easier than facing what's going on around the world.
Been feeling... off. Smoked with friends for what will probably be the last time. None of them can calm down or fuck off. I got paranoid as shit and couldn't stop thinking/reflecting on whatever must be bothering me. Really serious shit I feel like I never accepted. Woke up today feeling awful, went home, went to sleep. I've been having insanely negative thoughts about every aspect of my life. Shit is looking grim. I've been thinking, and I really don't want to be around my friends anymore. I don't at all feel comfortable around them anymore. I want to stop talking to them entirely. Fuck, I can't wait until I finally leave for college. That is unless I fuck everything up, which I'm headed towards. I can't get my shit together. [QUOTE=iggy650;33776695] He keeps talking to me and if I ever look sad, he says "Don't kill yourself it's bad for your health!! llolollolol"[/QUOTE] Fuck everything about this. Tell him to fuck off. [QUOTE]Also, I do not have a desire to get out of bed anymore. I just want to lay there all day. I figure laying there would be easier than facing what's going on around the world.[/QUOTE] I feel this way too. I wish I could sleep all the time, I can't be bothered to wake up anymore.
I'm ashamed to admit it. It's because I have no reason to be depressed, and yet I am. Other people talk about how their parents hit them, they get bullied every single day, they have no friends and so on. But my family is nice, I don't get picked on. I don't lack friendship which I yearn, and yet I find myself feeling empty. Like it's not worth it. Life brings me more pain than pleasure. I'd rather not be here. So mathematically it is ultimately a bad thing, right? I don't know
[QUOTE=Sjokoladeplate;33779992]I'm ashamed to admit it. It's because I have no reason to be depressed, and yet I am. Other people talk about how their parents hit them, they get bullied every single day, they have no friends and so on. But my family is nice, I don't get picked on. I don't lack friendship which I yearn, and yet I find myself feeling empty. Like it's not worth it. Life brings me more pain than pleasure. I'd rather not be here. So mathematically it is ultimately a bad thing, right? I don't know[/QUOTE] Don't worry I feel the same way. I don't have a specific reason why I'm depressed, I just am. It also annoys me when people ask [I]why[/I] I'm depressed. I tell them because of a chemical imbalance in the brain. then they say, "No, I meant the real reason. Like what's going on in your life?" Nothing at all you stupid ass.
[QUOTE=Sjokoladeplate;33779992]I'm ashamed to admit it. It's because I have no reason to be depressed, and yet I am. Other people talk about how their parents hit them, they get bullied every single day, they have no friends and so on. But my family is nice, I don't get picked on.[/QUOTE] Never feeling happy despite a good life is a bigger indicator of clinical depression than never feeling happy because your life is shit.
[QUOTE=Zeke129;33780931]Never feeling happy despite a good life is a bigger indicator of clinical depression than never feeling happy because your life is shit.[/QUOTE] Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. I haven't thought of it in that way. But it makes it that much harder to talk about, though.
I was so depressed I was considering suicide last night, instead I cut myself 4 times for some fucking reason [t]http://dl.dropbox.com/u/4838268/DSC00251.jpg[/t] I have had transgender feelings constantly going on and off, feeling fine one hour, next hour I feel uncomfortable with everything, and I get depressed Worst is, because its not really constant, I have no idea what to actually do, making me stressed and making everything worse
I'm gonna do an attempt at getting professional help, if they cant do anything properly for shit (which I dont expect, Swedens system is fucking terrible) I'm going to kill myself
[QUOTE=Tobba;33784741]I'm gonna do an attempt at getting professional help, if they cant do anything properly for shit (which I dont expect, Swedens system is fucking terrible) I'm going to kill myself[/QUOTE] What a sound idea.
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