The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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My mother was diagnosed with depression a couple months after my brother died, it truly is hard for a family to deal with depression.
I don't know what to do with my life any more. I have severe depression, anxiety, I have constant feelings of depersonalization, as if nothing is real and this is just a dream. I have the worst social anxiety, I'm always worried of what people are going to think of me and I'm so tense and nervous in social situations. I have this fear that I'm going to go insane and lose control of my body in a public place and everyone will witness it. Because of this, I developed agoraphobia and I barely ever leave my room any more. My mother wants me to get a job and yells at me, but I'm so afraid. I sit inside all day and have like no friends, I'm so bored. I'm dying to have some sort of companionship, such as a girlfriend. I'm so lonely it kills me. I've had one girlfriend in my life, and we went out for like a month and I didn't really like her that much. I've been worried lately that I might snap one day and just kill myself because this is no kind of life to be living. These thoughts keep popping up in my head and it makes me sick to my stomach. I ask everyone and no one knows what to tell me, I feel stupid asking this on Facepunch but I'm at a dead end, I have nowhere to turn, I have no one in my life. I have a very, very small family. Most of my family is dead, my father abandoned me. I never had a father in my life, that also depresses me. I think I could've been more of a man if I had a dad, but instead I'm weak. Maybe it's not his fault though, maybe it's mine. Maybe I shouldn't blame others. But I feel like I'm losing the will to live. I lay on the floor and I just feel so empty, it's like I just want to get out of the constraints of my body. I'm sorry if this is a stupid post, I'm not trying to garner sympathy for me from anyone, I really just needed some place to vent and let my feelings out.
First time here in a while. I had the balls to talk to the girl I am in love with through Facebook, we have been talking for almost a month, she makes me feel amazing. Words can't express how I feel when I read her messages, or see her face.
I sent her a message two days ago, and I still haven't got a reply. Normally I wouldn't worry, but she has been active on Facebook since I sent her that message. I already have lost friends like this, from them never responding, and I have some sort of problem when I type things like this or talk personally, I lose control of my muscles and shake like crazy. I try not to show it publically but its really hard not to. It gets worse when I know people avoid my messages like I know she has. I haven't done anything to upset her in any way, just the same conversation. I'm kind of freaking out and this shaking won't stop.
[QUOTE=flamehead5;34272109]First time here in a while. I had the balls to talk to the girl I am in love with through Facebook, we have been talking for almost a month, she makes me feel amazing. Words can't express how I feel when I read her messages, or see her face.
I sent her a message two days ago, and I still haven't got a reply. Normally I wouldn't worry, but she has been active on Facebook since I sent her that message. I already have lost friends like this, from them never responding, and I have some sort of problem when I type things like this or talk personally, I lose control of my muscles and shake like crazy. I try not to show it publically but its really hard not to. It gets worse when I know people avoid my messages like I know she has. I haven't done anything to upset her in any way, just the same conversation. I'm kind of freaking out and this shaking won't stop.[/QUOTE]
Wow man I'm in the same exact situation right now, only they are moving away.
Wow, the 2 posts above xxncxx pretty much describes who i am, but i didn't think i'm actually depressed. Sure sometimes i think about these things and get really down but it gets better after a day. Although i'm getting down more and more these days.
So i try to reach out, talked to couple of girls this month ( via the internet sadly ) but 1 girl just stopped talking to me , AFTER i planned to visit her, which we both planned and i already got a ticket. Then this other girl started talking to me again ( after weeks not talking ) and asked if i would like to go out for dinner with her because some douche canceled on her, of course i went but once i got there i waited almost an hour. Later i heard her grandma was dead ( she was terminal ill ) but it all sounded VERY weird ( just the way she talked and stuff ). So she said let's do it another time, i said sure but i don't have any money right now, can't we just hang out or something. Then BAM, oh, well then nvm. Went offline, haven't heard from her since.
WHAT THE HELL is with this shit? Is it me or what, they were both friendly and all and i even flirted ( AND they back ). I'm getting more and more frustrated at this world.
This may got a little off topic, and maybe fits the GF thread but oh well.
Definitely not depression bud.
[QUOTE=Xehanort;34283528]Wow, the 2 posts above xxncxx pretty much describes who i am, but i didn't think i'm actually depressed. Sure sometimes i think about these things and get really down but it gets better after a day. Although i'm getting down more and more these days.
So i try to reach out, talked to couple of girls this month ( via the internet sadly ) but 1 girl just stopped talking to me , AFTER i planned to visit her, which we both planned and i already got a ticket. Then this other girl started talking to me again ( after weeks not talking ) and asked if i would like to go out for dinner with her because some douche canceled on her, of course i went but once i got there i waited almost an hour. Later i heard her grandma was dead ( she was terminal ill ) but it all sounded VERY weird ( just the way she talked and stuff ). So she said let's do it another time, i said sure but i don't have any money right now, can't we just hang out or something. Then BAM, oh, well then nvm. Went offline, haven't heard from her since.
WHAT THE HELL is with this shit? Is it me or what, they were both friendly and all and i even flirted ( AND they back ). I'm getting more and more frustrated at this world.
This may got a little off topic, and maybe fits the GF thread but oh well.[/QUOTE]
wrong thread but food for thought: women are fickle.
I really feel like shit for no reason, and I can't just can't find anything to do that makes me feel better.
I wish I had found this thread at least a year ago. So many symptoms, thoughts and problems identical to mine.
What I would like to know, is if people here feel "discarded " or put aside by others. I have been dealing with depression since before I can remember and I tried flouoxitine tablets for about 15 months. During the last few years I had short term lovers, but no girlfriends, and no true close friends. Sometimes I have tried to reach out to the few familiars I have, but I never get any true connection.
I live isolated and only see people I despise and an education I hate. I try to went my frustrations and loneliness on Facebook sometimes, but mostly with little or no results. I never go "full emo" though but still I can't help feel discarded as if I was just plain annoying or maybe even "not worth the bother".
I try to get out often, but usually only for parties or clubs/bars. During the last few months though I have developed a strange feeling of social axiety so unless somebody constantly keep me occupied in conversation, I feel awkward and out of place and need to escape to the safety of my isolated room.
I do not like where this is heading at all. And it certainly doesn't make me feel less alien to the outside world, and it only makes my loneliness feel that much worse.
[QUOTE=NickFury666;34255320]I think I'm entering another deep depression. Just recently, thing were starting to look up. I met a girl in my area on a dating site, and we seemed to be pretty compatible. Both nerds, all that. We had agreed to go out for coffee over interim (3 week class over winter break) but it seems like she's no longer interested. To add on to that, the one person I really had to talk to has recently stopped talking to me. I feel more alone than ever. I'm starting to feel like my only chance at having some companionship in life is if I somehow become very wealthy.[/QUOTE]
Zeke, tell me, would my approach to his situation be a bad idea?
[editline]19th January 2012[/editline]
[QUOTE=flamehead5]First time here in a while. I had the balls to talk to the girl I am in love with through Facebook, we have been talking for almost a month, she makes me feel amazing. Words can't express how I feel when I read her messages, or see her face.
I sent her a message two days ago, and I still haven't got a reply. Normally I wouldn't worry, but she has been active on Facebook since I sent her that message. I already have lost friends like this, from them never responding, and I have some sort of problem when I type things like this or talk personally, I lose control of my muscles and shake like crazy. I try not to show it publically but its really hard not to. It gets worse when I know people avoid my messages like I know she has. I haven't done anything to upset her in any way, just the same conversation. I'm kind of freaking out and this shaking won't stop..[/QUOTE]
What about him and the guy who responded? Just wondering, would you recommend drugs in this case?
[QUOTE=Seith;34292064]Zeke, tell me, would my approach to his situation be a bad idea?
[editline]19th January 2012[/editline]
What about him and the guy who responded? Just wondering, would you recommend drugs in this case?[/QUOTE]
Why are you doing this
[b]no one[/b] said [i]anything[/i] about drugs being used for every case of depression/sadness.
I just realised that I havn't been truly happy for 2+ years. The way I've come to see it is that from the moment you start your GCSE's to the moment you die, life sucks. Help?
[QUOTE=flamehead5;34272109]First time here in a while. I had the balls to talk to the girl I am in love with through Facebook, we have been talking for almost a month, she makes me feel amazing. Words can't express how I feel when I read her messages, or see her face.
I sent her a message two days ago, and I still haven't got a reply. Normally I wouldn't worry, but she has been active on Facebook since I sent her that message. I already have lost friends like this, from them never responding, and I have some sort of problem when I type things like this or talk personally, I lose control of my muscles and shake like crazy. I try not to show it publically but its really hard not to. It gets worse when I know people avoid my messages like I know she has. I haven't done anything to upset her in any way, just the same conversation. I'm kind of freaking out and this shaking won't stop.[/QUOTE]
I got my reply. Might as well update.
I feel a lot better. But I'm still really nervous, especially because she asked if I wanted to hang out.
You got nothing to be nervous about man. If SHE asks YOU out, chances are that you have pretty good shot. It's a really good sign. Just don't go and get yourself friendzoned.
[QUOTE=Octave;34296047]Why are you doing this
[b]no one[/b] said [i]anything[/i] about drugs being used for every case of depression/sadness.[/QUOTE]
That's what I said, but all I got was "you're causing harm". You guys need to be more decisive.
[QUOTE=Seith;34299796]That's what I said, but all I got was "you're causing harm". You guys need to be more decisive.[/QUOTE]
you need to stay out
[QUOTE=Seith;34299796]That's what I said, but all I got was "you're causing harm". You guys need to be more decisive.[/QUOTE]
you did?
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;34120976]your perspective is flawed.
The increase of depression in first world countries has been linked with many things, ranging from genes, diets, poor sleep, increase social/family issues etc etc which are all extremely agreeable are on the rise in american at least.
Your perspective is as flawed as someone who believes that cancer is over diagnosed.
It's not that it is being "over" or "wrongly" diagnosed, it's that there's a steady rise in legitimate cases of depression, which has been argued of beening caused by increased environmental issues, genetic, and social issues(higher divorce rate, economic trouble etc etc) that are rising.
I use to agree that drugs are not always the way out, but i've sort of come to the perspective that if it is not a "light" case of depression, which seems almost doesn't exist, that medication is almost always a great force multiplier in treating depression.
Not many people are fond of your perspective, especially here, and it is best that you just leave.
[editline]9th January 2012[/editline]
No shit.
Most people see their GP for a recommendation for treatment, or psychologist.
If i am shitting out blood, i go to my GP, and my GP decides that if it is in his ability to treat it, or if it is best to send me off to a specialist.[/QUOTE]
[QUOTE=Zeke129;34131200]Do you think about killing yourself every day? Have you ever been unable to go to school or work for a week because your mind simply won't let you? You're talking about something completely different than depression here.
Your thoughts being affected by outside sources is not a psychological disorder, (although it can cause you to develop one) it's a problem with being around shitty outside sources.
What does it matter how big the industry is? If your problem is with pharmaceutical companies, get a generic. But it seems to me your actual problem is not being able to realize that some people have problems that they can't just 'walk off'.
As for your tire comparison, antidepressants aren't the air in this analogy. For a lot of people that's what the act of trying to think positively is. For those people, antidepressants are the tire sealant you spray in before attempting to fill it with air.
ADHD makes people excited and "disruptive", so it's possible that there's an actual agenda behind why so many kids are being diagnosed with it. It's also possible that we're just better at diagnosing it.
But with depressed people? We don't generally get in the way so society has no reason to want to overmedicate us. Treating depressed people makes us more "disruptive" in the end so your reasoning behind why people may be overdiagnosed with ADHD is in direct contradiction to your reasoning behind why people may be overdiagnosed with depression.
Well I'm happy that you were able to get better without drugs, really I am.
I'm not so glad that you're using it as an excuse to elevate yourself above depressed people in an attempt to inflate your tiny ego.
[editline]9th January 2012[/editline]
Oh fuck off that's not how depression works. If you're just using this thread as a way to dickwave how great you are, get out.[/QUOTE]
you got intellegent replies but you literally refuse to believe that medication is a viable choice in some cases, [b]yes[/b] we know that "money clouds the mind" and all that shit, but that [i]doesn't[/i] mean that medication is [i]always[/i] ineffective/only prescribed for financial reasons. i'm not going to waste my time explaining any more why you're wrong because you're either too stupid to figure out what we're saying or you're just so conceited that you have to come in here and repeatedly wave your dick in people's faces
There's very little worse than a person who comes into a depression thread for what seems to be nothing more than an ego boost
There's healthy skepticism, then there's stubbornness in the face of evidence
and there's a hell of a lot of evidence that antidepressants can be incredibly effective for many people so they're worth discussing with your psychiatrist or therapist
Yeah, some Nobel prize winner just rated everything funny.
So full of love, he just can't help getting a little on you.
[QUOTE=Zeke129;34303499]There's very little worse than a person who comes into a depression thread for what seems to be nothing more than an ego boost
There's healthy skepticism, then there's stubbornness in the face of evidence
and there's a hell of a lot of evidence that antidepressants can be incredibly effective for many people so they're worth discussing with your psychiatrist or therapist[/QUOTE]
Jesus, I never denied that. READ MY POSTS. I remember exactly what was said here. You claim I am extreme, when in reality, I wasn't. I was giving out the examples above because I thought you were. Those 2 seem to me in perfect mental health, yet post in depression, which in my eyes may lead to wrong thinking and even path in life... (taking stuff they don't need).. there are people who need it, even a lot. I wasn't denying that.
I come here seeking answers.
Basically I have all of these:
[url]http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Depression/Pages/Symptoms.aspx[/url]
Except I do not want to kill myself and I'm not constipated.
What does this mean? I am about 90% of the time extremely sad and feel those symptoms. I have had this for about 3 weeks, every day. (I don't know if it's really related to my age, because I have many reasons of which are not just "omg xbox was tkaen away kill slef" to feel like absolute shit) And I also have OCD, I have had to do ritualistic and annoying things for years, paranoia of me thinking somethings behind me when I go to bed sometimes could be linked too.
...though it's probably just grief :v:
Angrychair, thank you for the cheer that you're spreading.
Seith reminds me of someone who has been toking too much on the jesus juice, and feels the need to spread his ideologies to make people happier in life because he KNOWS BEST!
I see it in almost all the threads he posts in.
u go 2 hell if not love jesus
I do? Oh no. More stress.
Back in my old school everyone hated me, I started shutting down and ignored my grades and such, I slipped by with C's and D's, I would be attacked in the halls and cussed at in class. I constantly contemplated suicide, crying became more common than talking for me.
I went to high school expecting the same old thing, but everyone seemed to like me, they told me I should raise my self esteem and that I am a great person.
I am happy now :D
[QUOTE=Zeke129;34201552]It can be different for everyone really. In my experience it comes and goes with no real consistent schedule. There's no minimum amount of time that you have to feel like shit before it can be counted as depression.[/QUOTE]
Sorry about that, did not mean to rate you dumb. Accidentally pushed it while using my iphone.
[QUOTE=genkaz92;34319615]Sorry about that, did not mean to rate you dumb. Accidentally pushed it while using my iphone.[/QUOTE]
Whenever I accidentally rate a post I didn't want to rate I just change it to an inexplicable late
I feel like shit. Haven't been outside my own house because I feel like a burden on society. I got long hair and I feel like I look like a bum when I'm actually outside. Outside? Yeah, twice a week when I have to go to school. On my way to school I often sweat because I can't stand being in social actions (hence: social anxiety). I also attend meetings (a specialized doctor comes around, takes me outside and we do social things e.g taking a walk, eating somewhere) once a week to fight my social anxiety. Haircut? My mother does not have the skill and I don't dare to get to the barber shop either. I've had my social anxiety for about four years now. That has made me fat and disgusting. Well, I have been depressed for about seven years now. It has gone better, then worse, better and worse again. I don't know what's causing it. The anti-depressive? The lack of being outside, socializing? Looking at a goddamn computer screen every second I'm awake, just to sleep most of the day? I don't fucking know.
I'm a joke apparently. Though, posts on Facepunch shouldn't be taken seriously, but bullying gets dull after a while. I walk like a penguin, I look like a bum, I type like I'm having a stroke, I stutter so I talk like a fucking malfunctioning machine, I'm boring... What fucking else?
Argh. Pardon me. Maybe I just need some rest.
How long will it take my bottle of zoloft to kill me if I swallow all the pills in it?
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