• The Depression Chat - Symptoms, Assistance, Medicines and More.
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[QUOTE=99% More Fail;34392957]I'm not quite sure what to do right now. I recently got kicked out of school for a week, AGAIN, after losing my cool and having a serious episode with my I.T and Maths teachers. I have a history of unstable emotions, but I've never felt that angry before, in fact the school had to call the cops to drag me back home forcibly. They are debating letting me come back to finish up my GCSE science exams, but to be honest I really can't be fucked with it anymore. I don't even know what to do any more, but at last my doctor has decided to refer me to a psychologist or something like that, because they think I have bipolar or depression. What do you guys think? I think I might just be a generally unbalanced person, theres nothing medically wrong with me, but I seem to match all of the symptoms of basic depression, and I sometimes display symptoms of bipolar, for example I can be perfectly calm and happy one minute, and considering overdosing on something the next. I really don't know what the fuck is going on anymore, and I don't think theres much that can convince me to keep going for much longer.[/QUOTE] It's hard to say with just a couple of short paragraphs. Going to see a psych is a good idea though.
Well fuck me. I asked a girl out six months ago and I was just now informed she apparently was so appalled by that one deed alone that she started gossip about me in my dorm. 10 minutes later the girl i was currently seeing texted me. I asked her if she wanted to do something this weekend, she replied "nah I have already seen you once this month". Fuck me. The extension chord in my toolbox might become a sturdy noose after all. I dont know what I am gonna do with this constant sadness of mine. I do my best to be a good and attractive man but to no avial. It's gonan end in me doing something terminally stupid, or deciding to go fucking Darth Vader on everybody. Being good is worth less than shit.
She started gossip about you 6 months after the asking out? Also, go take it out on her, not yourself.
Apparently the gossip has been around ever since. all my neighbors talk and laugh behind my back. I have done nothing but being nice to them. borrowing them stuff when they needed it etc. And I cant even take it out on the girl since she just moved to France. And my issues is not just with her, but several girls. It's like they can sense Im "damaged goods" efter a while and slowly back off, and apparently sometimes need to add to the pile of self-loathing apparently I am already struggeling with. Only one girl cared for me and now she lives halfway across Europe.
I have been given a choice. I really don't know how to express my dislike of going to college. My mom knows I can't stand going there, and so does my dad. I've cried on multiple occasions because of going to this college. It's a 45 minute drive just to get there, and then a 45 minute drive back. I should also mention that this is a technical college, if that means anything to anyone. However, I have the choice of dropping out. My parents certainly aren't for that, but my mom understands where I'm coming from with this. My dad has told me that if I drop out, I either have to pick up 40 hours at work (I'm only part-time) or find a second job. I'd have a much better chance of finding a second job than picking up 40 hours where I currently work, and even then finding a second job would not be easy in this town. If I don't do either of those, then I get kicked out of the house, and then I'd have to live with my mom. I'd have to live on her couch, but it's a place to live nonetheless. I don't want to go to that college anymore, but I also don't want to get kicked out and I'd feel bad for leaving my dad on his own, that is if he really does kick me out. I've had this decision for a while now, but I feel like I'm going to make my choice this week, if not tonight.
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Why do you dislike the college?
I have been suffering from depression for a very long time, but i have been working though it slowly and then my doctor put me on 100mg sertraline ( zoloft) a day and it has helped, been on it for about 4 months now, glad i saw my doctor about it, the only thing was some of the side effects in the first couple of weeks were not fun
[QUOTE=kenji;34394921]I have been suffering from depression for a very long time, but i have been working though it slowly and then my doctor put me on 100mg sertraline ( zoloft) a day and it has helped, been on it for about 4 months now, glad i saw my doctor about it, the only thing was some of the side effects in the first couple of weeks were not fun[/QUOTE] What were the side ffects if you don't mind me asking?
[QUOTE=Jasun;34395034]What were the side ffects if you don't mind me asking?[/QUOTE] headache, diarrhoea, dry mouth, upset stomach and the worst, suicidal thoughts.
[QUOTE=Octave;34394399]Why do you dislike the college?[/QUOTE] Driving back and forth to the college is one thing. I was interested in going to this college because it had a game design and programming classes that I wanted to take to get myself started in these areas. I've only taken the game design class and it wasn't anything like I expected. We started out learning Alice 3D, and I hope those that have used it feel my pain. What ticks me off about using that is that we even paid $60 for a book on how to use the damn program. I won't go into detail about Alice 3D, but it really has nothing to do with game design. The second thing that ticked me off was near the end of the course, where we were assigned a program to learn and we had to write some kind of game or application using it. The two things that bothered me were: 1) We were put into pairs, and didn't work together as a class 2) The programs we were assigned were things like Game Maker, FPS Creator, and some other stuff I've never heard of. Basically, we were all assigned these free lame-ass programs to work with. There was nothing industry-standard related to this class. But no one seems to understand that though. The whole reason I went to this college was to get a jump start in programming. I try to explain to others that the stuff we're learning isn't worth anything, but no one seems to listen. I don't care about the general education courses, or any other class for that matter. I feel so restricted having to take "prerequisite" classes. I have to pass one class that I don't care about just to get to another. Speaking of general education courses...I have to have a credit for certain areas like Math, Science, Reading, etc. I took a basic math class called Technical Math. It covered on some areas like algebra, geometry, and so forth briefly. Well, this semester I go to talk to this lady in the office that handles this stuff and my teacher (the one that taught the game design class) comes in and tells me AND the office lady that there is a required math class, and it wasn't technical math. Apparently she "updated" the requirements for this course I'm taking, but never got around to checking to make sure it went through. Neither I or the office lady knew about this. I guess it also doesn't help that the teacher hardly knew the subject she was teaching. [editline]26th January 2012[/editline] I keep getting told to take "baby-steps", you have to start at the bottom and work your way up. I call complete bull-shit on that. I shouldn't have to waste thousands of dollars on a shitty technical college just to get my foot in the door at some small business and then work my way up from there. I want to be a level designer for video games. I just want to time to make something worth-while and build up a porfolio. I want to relax. That's all I want.
I have no personal experience with game creation classes, but I've heard they're basically useless. You should do a general programming class instead.
I've been trying to keep off medication for as long as I could (I've never been on medication), but I'm basically giving up on that now. I can hardly live my life now, ocd and anxiety is making it difficult, on top of depression. Can anyone tell me what their first weeks on medication was like? From what I know, it makes everything worse before it starts to help, I'm terrified of this, since the next 8 weeks of my life are going to be the most important 8 weeks so far, and I can hardly function as it is.
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[QUOTE=Bones85;34401148]Don't worry about rushing to get off medication. If you aren't ready yet then there's no need to rush to get off them. It's better to be on medication and be happy than to be off of them just for the sake of not being someone who takes medication and have your problems worsen as a result of lack of medication. There will most likely be a time when you no longer need them. Make sure you consult your doctor first before you stop taking them.[/QUOTE] That doesn't answer or have anything to do with my question.
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I've never been on medication.
My fault. I should've realized that after what you said about the side effects. Everyone reacts to medication differently, and sometimes it does take a while to find the right one. Also, antidepressants generally take at least a few weeks to become fully effective. In my opinion, the benefits of the right medication outweigh the side effects you may have.
[QUOTE=Bones85;34401336]My fault. I should've realized that after what you said about the side effects. Everyone reacts to medication differently, and sometimes it does take a while to find the right one. Also, antidepressants generally take at least a few weeks to become fully effective. In my opinion, the benefits of the right medication outweigh the side effects you may have.[/QUOTE] I know this. My question was about what the side effects for the first few weeks are like, as I was told it takes weeks to become effective, and in that time it makes everything worse, generally.
[QUOTE=Roll_Program;34401481]I know this. My question was about what the side effects for the first few weeks are like, as I was told it takes weeks to become effective, and in that time it makes everything worse, generally.[/QUOTE] There's no way to answer that really. It varies by person. What medications are you specifically talking about? You'd be best off asking a psychiatrist.
[QUOTE=Bones85;34401649]There's no way to answer that really. It varies by person. What medications are you specifically talking about? You'd be best off asking a psychiatrist.[/QUOTE] I know. I'm going to start discussing this with my psychiatrist, I was just wondering about experiences FPers had.
woke up to find out my mom got admitted into a psyche hospital arms still don't work right, still on medical leave, still little to no social contact malformed ribcage is making it hard to sleep what do
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[QUOTE=Roll_Program;34401481]I know this. My question was about what the side effects for the first few weeks are like, as I was told it takes weeks to become effective, and in that time it makes everything worse, generally.[/QUOTE] For the first two weeks I had dry mouth and sore arms on Citalopram, but ended up switching to Bupropion after a few months. For the first couple weeks on that I had next to no appetite and lost quite a bit of weight (I needed to anyway, it wouldn't have been hard to just eat things if I didn't want to lose any). The lack of appetite is rather unique to the latter, but dry mouth and sore muscles are common with all the other ones
Sup guys, i'm a diabetic. Not the unhealthy lifestyle caused kind, but the genetic/random kind. This is my fourth year of having it, and i've been on 6 different kinds of insulin (injections) and the current ones seem to work best, but keep making the site where i inject swell up for 1-2 days, and it fucking burns, like literally burns. I'm always feeling like there's no one who knows what i feel like, coz i know no other diabetics, and there are none others at my school. Anyone ever feel like that sometimes?
[QUOTE=Evil-Muffin;34419192]Sup guys, i'm a diabetic. Not the unhealthy lifestyle caused kind, but the genetic/random kind. This is my fourth year of having it, and i've been on 6 different kinds of insulin (injections) and the current ones seem to work best, but keep making the site where i inject swell up for 1-2 days, and it fucking burns, like literally burns. I'm always feeling like there's no one who knows what i feel like, coz i know no other diabetics, and there are none others at my school. Anyone ever feel like that sometimes?[/QUOTE] I feel like I can't tell people about my problems sometimes. Mainly because nobody else can really relate to them, so I just get tons of useless sympathy and pity. I think I know that feel, bro.
[QUOTE=Evil-Muffin;34419192]Sup guys, i'm a diabetic. Not the unhealthy lifestyle caused kind, but the genetic/random kind. This is my fourth year of having it, and i've been on 6 different kinds of insulin (injections) and the current ones seem to work best, but keep making the site where i inject swell up for 1-2 days, and it fucking burns, like literally burns. I'm always feeling like there's no one who knows what i feel like, coz i know no other diabetics, and there are none others at my school. Anyone ever feel like that sometimes?[/QUOTE] Do you have Type 1 or Type 2, since Type 2 can be caused by either genetic or lifestyle reasons I'm guessing 1 since you mentioned injections but I don't know much about it
[QUOTE=Zeke129;34423979]Do you have Type 1 or Type 2, since Type 2 can be caused by either genetic or lifestyle reasons I'm guessing 1 since you mentioned injections but I don't know much about it[/QUOTE] Type 2 is really only caused by lifestyle. He is too young to have type 2, that's like saying a kid in high school has hypertension and heart disease because he eats too much fatty food. Getting a disease like that from just lifestyle at such a young age is extremely rare. Type 1 is genetic, and mostly associated with younger patients. And I serious doubt that there are no other diabetics at your school.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;34424567]Type 2 is really only caused by lifestyle.[/QUOTE] Well then my doctor is lying. Both my parents have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and Type 2 diabetes and I was told that because of that I'm highly susceptible to all three.
All of those problems can be caused by an unhealthy lifestyle.
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