• Facepunch Anonymous Confessional: Revengeance
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I have no particular ill will towards Clovis, I just don't want this thread to be some battleground for personal drama. Take it to PMs or discord or something, hash it all out, I just don't want it here. This isn't a drama thread.
Ice Man accused Clovis of being a liar/having a hostile agenda, which IMO is the start of the derailing (callout post, essentially), but when Clovis defended himself you singled his post out and asked him to stop derailing, none of the others.
Yea make a fightclub thread where people fight I just wanna read about people more fucked up than me so I can feel better about myself.
Or all of this should be a separate thread for people to argue in. I'd say that AS is best to post more confessions to change the direction of the thread.
I 100% support this, but only if it runs on a bracket system and has a reward for accurate Pick Em's, March Madness style.
Personally I feel we shouldnt be sweepin it under the rug but we should just make a CLOVIS VS ALL fightclub thread and you can make bets and sell popcorn (I hold the monopoly on that rn btw dont muscle in I got the yakuza on my side) and let that do its own thing while we see read some crazy shit in this thread or something idk
I personally think it's already resolved. It seems to me that someone is being attentive to the fact that some people end up thinking transitioning will fix their shit, only to figure out they weren't trans, but bipolar, depressive or suffering from PTSD. Which then contributes to higher suicide rates, along with other factors like bigotry and unrelenting social difficulties as a result of being "different". I've seen two cases of people transitioning and being left in a bigger mess than they were before. Both were late teenagers who had major issues (one had literal Amnesia, loosing much of their teenage years to trauma after parental violent abuse). Both transitioned. one got surgery. both their lives are in ruins because no one helped them explore their experiences and feelings or their perception of what they were going through. I asked about age, initially, because everything in that accusation post reads like how a teenager would view their assertions getting explored. You got your shit figured out, finally. you don't need people challenging you and it just feels hostile. But it's not necessarily hostile. But it is absolutely important to seriously be certain beforehand and it's one of those things where you bring it up and the trans community instantly reacts in fearful rage, because they perceive what is for once genuine reserved concern, as the usual right-wing dog whistling they hear all the time. So unless there's some tangible proof of Clovis being outright abusive, I don't think there's much more to it, honestly. INB4 "you're enabling an abuser! You're silencing me!" I'm not. Proof will set you free. It literally is. These threads are all about the juice, the support and the community camaraderie.
To the person that wrote about sexual abuse. Please contact a profesional, traumas should be handled as early as possible because it fucks you up too much the longer it's been untreated. When I went to therapy after physical abuse and some other stuff it turned out I developed PTSD, and the worst part was that during the therapy I regained details and even complete memories I didn't knew I had; that we then worked with, and it explained to me why I am who I am, like that anxiety thing you talked about. It's even worse if it's during childhood because that fundamentally cripples you without you even knowing about it, it's larger than you think. The first time during these therapy sessions you feel terrible, but afterwards you realize they're worth it. Please do it.
I walked (graduated) this past december but I didnt actually end up graduating; I was missing a freakin history credit and so I've just CLEP'ed it, but my friends and family all think Im already out. this happened to me, i walked in may but had to take a class over the summer because i was missing a CS/EE elective credit. had to take an online class since i was vacationing overseas. kinda sucks but oh well, all that matters is that you got that paper
Something similar happened when I (finally) graduated a few years back too. Walked in spring, and I had filled out my paperwork to do so, but didn’t actually get the degree until the end of summer. I didn’t even need any extra classes. There was just one form I was missing, and also they told me I needed a different form for an online class I had taken earlier to count. Something for transferring credits between schools so they could know I took it. Which would make sense if the online class wasn’t from the same school system, just a different campus. For gods sake, I used my existing account and password for it, what do you mean it’s not in the system?
I think the secret piece you're missing might be conversational reciprocity (if I got that term right). Short meaningless answers create one-sided, unengaging conversations which the other party won't be interested in keeping up. Work on wrapping your responses so that the other person has something to work with, e.g. by presenting another question. If you're out of ideas, pause for a bit for a response, or try redirecting the conversation. "How are you doing" and "what have you been up to lately" might feel like pointless formalities, but they usually bring up and branch out into more interesting conversational topics. If you want to hit up a conversation those questions will often serve you well. I'm far from an expert on being socially successful, but I believe this stuff works for me, and I hope it helps you out.
Don't do nothing but ask questions, though, as that can be perceived as a bit invasive. Try to strike a balance between asking questions and making statements that build upon what they said. It doesn't have to be strictly related either, the vast majority of conversations bounce organically between various topics through association. Obviously, YMMV depending on whether you're conversing with a reserved, shy person or a confident and talkative one. You have to adapt to your conversation partner.
The arguing aside, this thread is like a neat little interactive blog, and its pretty fun to read through. Anymore confessions today, @AtomicSans ?
Of course. I usually post them after getting home from work. The pace I'm receiving confessions is actually slightly outpacing the rate at which I'm posting them, so the current backlog is now over 120. Not that I post all of them, there's some spam.
What the others have said is good as well, but what I find works for me is that I latch onto some sort of detail of whatever it is they're talking about and ask more about it. ex "Man I cut it close coming into work today, had to fill up on gas on the way in" "What kind of car do you drive?" "Oh, I drive a 1992 Brick Stick-in-the-Mud" Not only does it carry on the converstaion more than the usual "Huh/Okay/Sure," it shows the other party you're engaged in what they're telling you and they'll open up a bit more to you.
I do that a lot too, but it sounds like you're a lot better at it than I am.
Much better than me. I always revert to Metal Gear references and then the slightly awkward situation just goes nuclear. Anyone wanna read my Vulcan Raven x Fatman fanfic?
I straight up have a weird martyr complex. I often fantasize about me getting in the middle of an aggressive person and their victim and taking a punch or a shove for the other person. I used to dream up of scenarios where I even took a bullet. Me, being a total badass would at that point grunt off my injuries, and the person I was defending would, presumably, be impressed. I think this stuff originates from me always having been a complete non-confrontantional pussy irl. It's how I was raised. First sign of serious confrontation and I will show signs that I'm nervous and even tear up if it escalates. It's not that I feel intimidated easily, it just happens automatically, like some autonomous bodily response. The fantasy is further fueled by the fact that people will sometimes be openly disrespectful to or dismissive of me. So, I've accepted I have an issue, I have even recognized that a lot of the people I'm defending in these fantasies aren't even friends, but rather people I would like to impress, but how do I work this out? How do I become less of a craven in real life? Is this a common fantasy or is it basically pathological? I'm pretty confident that that's a relatively normal fantasy, especially for people with a tendency to avoid confrontation. I think you're alright. Fantasies are pretty harmless anyway. i was pretty close to having sex with a 35yr old milf from venezuela, even gave her my phone number and everything but i never got an answer back :C at least my first time remains special!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was a horny 15 year old boy from rhode island, sorry to break it to you Might as well contribute to the surefire fetish dump this will be. One of my kinks is hiccups. Like I don't know why, but a cute girl having hiccups gets me off. Weird as fuck, I know. Also I've come across others who have this fetish over the years. They're all creepy as fuck (like commenting on how "sexy" the hiccups are on a girl regardless of age), so it almost makes me feel ashamed to have this kink. I bet you wouldn't go out with someone who has this kink, would you? I can't speak for anybody else but I think that's cute as fuck as long as you aren't creepy about it. I have absolutely zero understanding of why you'd find that hot, but I'd totally date someone with that kink. It'd be pretty fun to somehow induce hiccups in myself to turn on my partner. I started browsing here maybe 5-6 (maybe more) years ago. I was drawn in by the Trans thread here as at the time I was a confused bab in Middle School wondering Who I was. After countless bullying in school I became that stereotypical recluse that wore sweaters, beanies, etc. Anything that would hide my body because I was ashamed of it. Stopped talking to most people, almost offed myself before I went into High School, pretty much the lowest point in my life so far had happened pretty early on. Anyways, through the FP Trans thread I discovered what a trans person was, and did a lot of thinking over the years if that was applicable to me and why I felt the way I did about myself. Fast forward to me now at 25 years old, I'm getting my depression and anxiety taken care of (also found out I have lupus lol), and I'm all set up to see an endo soon to start HRT (I'm MtF)!! So thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who posts in that thread for keeping me grounded and hopeful for the future, I love y'all! Oh yeah, IBD sucks. I wouldn't wish this awful fate on anyone. Oh yeah (part two), someone wanted a lewd confession I guess? I came so hard last night it got in my eyes. That's the best I got, sorry. Good luck, sister. I'm rooting for you. Also I feel sorry for your butthole. When I was young I watched some weird movie (maybe American Pie or Scary Movie), before I figured out what jerking off was. Long story short, I sucked my own cock for months before I actually figured out what masturbation actually was. .............................How and why the fuck did American Pie or Scary Movie inspire you to start autofellating yourself what the hell I have so many questions I’m bi-curious. haha this guy's gay
Im pretty sure in one of the Scary Movies a dude blows himself. Can't remember what one though.
That'd explain it, I haven't seen either of those movies.
Oh my God I keep confusing American Pie and American History X, I was like wow alright if that floats your boat
I cheat in games I play with friends. They haven't been able to catch on yet but I'm worried they might one day. Pretty lame, honestly. But if you're smart about your cheats and don't get sloppy, it's very unlikely you'll ever be caught. In CSGO particularly, a good wallhacker with a well-made, expensive, very exclusive cheat, or even one they made themselves and never distributed, will absolutely never be caught as long as they go through the motions that will allow them to pass every single Overwatch case review. Still, you kinda suck. I have the crazy hots for Vanitas from KH. Its probably due to some kind of BDSM / Latex fetish. In fact, it's one of my favorite fantasies to indulge myself in as a bottom. I recently came out about it during a late night drinking session (I'm 21 for context) and was basically accused of being a pedo for liking NSFW artwork of him. It actually was really insulting. I don't find children attractive or anything of the sort. If I jerk it to anime artwork I jerk to anime art right? I tried explaining that it seems pretty ignorant to make a very strong accusation about myself but it ended up doing more damage to the situation. Separation of fiction and reality is my main point I brought up. Am I an awful person for this? Or is this person just really uptight about this sort of thing? It really hit me hard and it made me feel disgusted with myself I looked it up and Vanitas and Ventus are both 15 so uhhhhhhhhhhhhh I don't really know. I have been an emotional trainwreck since the loss of two family pets in 2018. One I had too watch slowly die from what appeared to be a case of Chronic Wasting Disease, and the other was just a four month old kitten that we took to the vet to have something looked at, and they ended up OD'ing him on sedatives. It's gotten to the point where I'm afraid that I'm starting to look like a nutcase for carrying so much baggage over the lost of two animals, but they were like family to me. I helped bottle raise both of them, and they both met tragic ends that I couldn't even have some semblance of control over. I have to deal with going to a therapist in the next month for issues relating to long lasting depression from other issues, but I fear I'm going to emotionally break down infront of them, and be pushed onto even harder anti-depressants which will mask the suffering behind some fucking wax veneer of SSRI/MAOI happy face crap. I don't wanna be left not feeling the loss in my heart for them, but I need to appear somewhat workable to go on with living. What the hell should I do? I can reassure you that that's absolutely not how SSRIs work, or any other antidepressant. SSRIs don't change your thoughts and they don't even really change your emotions. The experience is different for everybody but to me it feels more like a gentle nudge in the right direction that's always present. I mean, they don't work for me anymore, but that's how it felt when they did. Anti-depressants don't make you happier, they just make you less miserable if that makes sense. Drugs won't change the way you process your loss, but they might make your grieving process a healthier experience for you. And make sure to find the right one for you, the side effects are all over the place and there are tons to try. I am a frequent poster that has been on the site for the better part of their developing life and I'm wrought with regret that I didn't make more online friends during my time. I never prioritized keeping in touch with the few Facepunchers I spoke to off the website, and now that the website is nearing death, I'm really worried that I'm going to lose touch with every single one of you since I hardly participate in the Discord. What am I going to have left of this significant time of my life if I don't have any friends to talk about it with? I try to use the Discord more, but it's too difficult to keep up with those conversations. I'm also terrible at keeping up conversations in general and I'm probably not very liked as a poster in general. I recently started feeling this way too. I put up my Discord on my user page but Discord servers aren't the best place for conversations anyway. PMs are great but I suck at them. I guess this is just stuff we gotta work through as our community slowly declines. I have faith that we'll hold on to each other somehow. Over the last 10 years I've managed to get a whole bunch people I've talked online to fall for me until I've eventually broken their heart in the end, it just keeps happening almost every time I make an online friend and I genuinely don't know how or why I do it because it's not something I do intentionally and it makes me feel like garbage. ♫End Of Small Sanctuary♫ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TCkdcrEeHU Well, it's been a wild twelve years with y'all. I'll keep it brief. I often wonder how different of a life I'd've lived if it weren't for Facepunch. I would have never met my boyfriend, nor my closest friends. Thinking about it helps me appreciate the life I have now. But that doesn't make watching the forum slowly enter its twilight years sting any less. Nothing will truly replace FP, but I think I accepted that fact when the decline became noticeable. We weren't perfect, god no, but that's part of why I loved Facepunch so much. The forum had its own special atmosphere, family-esque. I hope all of you manage to go on to have a happy life. The forums may be gone soon, but the experiences and relationships we've made will go on. Well, this is the one time I'm actually happy that YouTube URLs auto-embed in quote format.
I looked it up and Vanitas and Ventus are both 15 so uhhhhhhhhhhhhh I don't really know. Not as bad as some of the shit in GMF I'd argue so i'd say chaotic-neutral alignment. But this is the sort of saucy drama we love!
why are we all talking like this when Knockout is right fucking there and wide open for us? The only thing that's different from the migration from oldpunch to here, is that it's a different community name due to Copyrights and shit.
I have the crazy hots for Vanitas from KH. Its probably due to some kind of BDSM / Latex fetish. In fact, it's one of my favorite fantasies to indulge myself in as a bottom. I recently came out about it during a late night drinking session (I'm 21 for context) and was basically accused of being a pedo for liking NSFW artwork of him. It actually was really insulting. I don't find children attractive or anything of the sort. If I jerk it to anime artwork I jerk to anime art right? I tried explaining that it seems pretty ignorant to make a very strong accusation about myself but it ended up doing more damage to the situation. Separation of fiction and reality is my main point I brought up. Am I an awful person for this? Or is this person just really uptight about this sort of thing? It really hit me hard and it made me feel disgusted with myself I'd say you can be forgiven for liking a whole lot more shit in fiction than if it were real photos or videos. It's fantasy, as long as you don't act on it in real life you're good. And anime characters are notoriously ambiguous in age. It's pretty arbitrary. You've got shit like Jojo and Lucky Star where one can look like a professional bodybuilder and one can look like a little girl but both are canonically the same age. Or other shows with characters who look to be in their late teens but are canonically 12. It really depends more on how the character looks rather than what their 'canonical' age is. And that can be wide range of ages. If a character looks like they're in kindergarten but says they're a 1000 year old vampire, you're still out. If a character looks like edgy Justin Bieber, well, you've got a flexible range there. plus you can age up the character in art so canonical age doesn't even matter Then there's the fact that they probably grew up with the character. Looking it up, Vanitas first showed up in Birth By Sleep, which came out in 2010. So they'd be 12 themselves at the youngest. They get a crush on the character as a kid, they grow up but the character doesn't. It's like with Misty. If you have porn of her but you grew up with her as a kid, that's understandable. If you've never looked at anything Pokemon until adulthood, then watch the original series and get a boner for 10 year old Misty, that's less understandable.
There's no guarantee people will actually move there, though.
Most active posters will, and seldom active ones haven't made the move to newpunch for the most part anyway, so the move won't make much of a difference if any.
As a lurker, I've decided that Knockout represents the chance for a fresh start and to properly involve myself in the community. I've always loved the confessionals threads and I'd hope that we see one on Knockout (hell, I may even make the thread if one doesn't exist).
That's just IMO a bit silly. Why would people not move there? People are talking as if there's a controversy or a myriad of good reasons not to, when there isn't. FP is going into the trash bin at some point. The forum will be gone. but the community has a linear migration path not unlike the one we took to get here from old FP. It's literally the same community manager at the head of the project as well. People are treating the loss of the name as if it's the end and it all just seems a bit over-dramatic. There's this attempt to force the idea that we're force-bound to fuck off to discord and reddit without any good alternatives, despite one being right there and taylor made for this community. I'd compare it to ResetEra from Neogaf or Neogaf from GAF, but it's not. because this isn't users taking their toys and leaving over a divisive issue. This is literally the same crew that made this place work, pre-emptively going and preparing us a new hang-out because the dude in charge got all existentially lazy or whatever. I don't see why it's such a huge problem. I understand there's going to be a lot of HISTORY lost. but the only thing stopping the COMMUNITY from carrying on, is people actively ignoreing knockout in an effort to... whatever the fuck people are trying to accomplish by ignoring it. I don't get it and i can't really sympathize with it, because it really is kind of silly and a bit cuntish to the people who put in the work on Knockout...
where are today's confessions @AtomicSans please deliver ty
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