Crossdressing, Transgender & Allies Discussion: New Look, Same Dysphoria - General

that site has some tempting stuff. hmm

Had a funny dream last night where I was talking to someone, saying 'Wow my boobs don't hurt AT ALL', then i woke up and they were extreeeemely sore

https://twitter.com/Sneaky/status/984161058775490560 I feel like such a shitter but I get really upset at seeing how well these crossplayers pass He's suuuper cute both in and out cosplay but dang, I know its also the make-up and his gf does it for him but dang I'd kill to look half as good as that

It's 90% makeup with 10% being thin. I'll admit, they're cute as heck and they should rock whatever they want buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut fuck that pizza. Pineapple. Urgh. Though looking at that doesn't help my own body dysphoria. Gonna just dive into this tub of ice cream because that helps.

The fact that this individual is a boy is kind of fucking with my head, I don't get it.

wtf I love league of legends now

I wish I had more time to take care of myself. I've been working 5 days a week, 12 hours a day since the beginning of the year. On my days off I'm either sleeping or out of town with friends. Seriously been thinking about getting my own house so I have more free time away from people. I'm 25 and still living with my dad... I told myself the last 10 years of my life were shit, and I wanted my next 10 to be great. I should really get on that.

I get irrationally extremely mad at crossdressers and cosplayers who pass really well That probably makes me a bad person.

Not really, if I was trapped in the wrong body and saw a person who was capable of flawlessly passing as either gender I would probably get a bit fucked up as well.

I get REALLY envious with stuff like that, I wish I got that kind of luck with my genes lol

Funny that you mention it, I largely consider the past 10-12 years of my life to have been completely retarded as well.

I wasted the last decade of my life without knowing it and that makes me feel dead inside

It will fuck with me for YEARS, even if I end up achieving what I want to. Those years could have been so vastly superior to what they were instead.

Sometimes it takes a few "wasted" years to get you to appreciate the years ahead of you.

I guess from a different perspective if I didn't go through all of the bullshit during that decade I may have ended up being a considerably more careless and selfish person and a worse human being in general, and forced to waste a different decade of my life on the reverse instead.

That's how I see it as well. No time is ever truly wasted; we're always learning and growing, even when we don't try to.

unfortunately the opportunity to have a proper childhood is gone

If I knew what I know now about being trans, I think things would've gone better for me, too late to change that now though.

Does he not have cheekbones or something

Sneaky is the best (girl) streamer.

I get the same way, but sorta internalize it. It doesn't make you a bad person at all. If you went out of your way to be a jerk to them, then you would.

I'm hoping my tax refund comes soon. So then I can deal with the anxiousness of trying to make the appointment and the fears of them turning me down for HRT because I am to fat.

What do you mean LGBT Center, like please give an example because it's returning lots of things when I look it up on google ;w;

i don't know where you're located but look for something similar to the LA lgbt center. https://lalgbtcenter.org Its a place specificaly for lgbt people that offers counseling, therapy, medical stuff, and support groups. While I'm sure planned parenthood is just fine, I feel as if it was much less awkward going to a center, because a lot of people are relatable or there for the same reason.

Dunno how many people that visit this thread aren't in the discord, but for those of you who aren't: I came out at work on Friday. No longer will I ever have to be a boy again in public.

Anyone had experience taking their own blood? Due to the NHS being a fucking laughing stock when it comes to transgender stuff my only option was to continue with private practice, but due to my GP refusing to work with private practices I have to do my own blood tests.

Go you! I forgot this thread had a discord but still, keep it up. You got this c: I've read about some DIY blood testing involving Private MD, which sells kits you can use, but I'd take precautions and read up on DIY blood tests as much as possible to make sure you're doing well and not in any harm. Side note: Voice training is painful as heck.

I'm not self-medicating/DIYing as such, I am with a private gender clinic but they are based in England and I am a Scottish resident (and for those who don't know NHS Scotland and the NHS are two entirely separate entities, despite having the same name and logo) They are no private gender clinics in Scotland so I have to go with England for that. I need to travel to England to see my gender specialist but my medication will be managed by her. If I was English this would not be a problem as GP's now need to perform blood tests, but under NHS Scotland your GP can tell you to get fucked if you go private so my only option is to take my own blood or go down to England every 3 months (which I can't afford) I was meant to be on HRT 3 months ago but beaurocracy fucked me over. GP initially said they would manage my blood tests then turned around and spat in my face.

As garbage as America is at least getting on HRT here isn't basically trying to be Sisyphus. Got on it within 6 months, only reason I was initially given hold was mental health issues. Canada's way better though as it has good healthcare and laws for transgender people as well as informed consent, so getting on HRT isn't a problem.

Oh no :c I'm afraid I'm not much help being on this end of the river. I'm sorry.