Crossdressing, Transgender & Allies Discussion: New Look, Same Dysphoria - General

I don't think you have anything to lose by being upfront so you can go ahead if you think it'd be good.

Yeah being upfront and projecting confidence about it seems like it tends to get them more on your side. When I was starting to go through the whole assessment process, I made sure to say almost right away, "I'm here because I'm transgender and I want to get on HRT." At the end of the first appointment, I asked my therapist if we could schedule the appointments more frequently because I just wanted to get it over with, and she obliged. Took what would've been a five or six month process and shortened it to about three.

i didn't know we could post selfies here, i'll try to keep it to a minimum but this was me 2day https://files.facepunch.com/forum/upload/263731/3fab4168-c634-4fff-b11f-58c25927eaa5/IMG_20180510_164222_046.jpg hi

Does anyone else got really really hot on HRT (estrogen + spiro) Since starting HRT a few weeks ago I've been feeling much much warmer and have had to go around in t-shirts and shorts when everyone else is in jeans and hoodies.

hot flashes n stuff are actually pretty normal, the first few months can have a lot of little physical ups and downs and big emotional ups and downs while your system acclimates and gets used to being estrogen dominant which can take a good little bit, there should be a point where you notice you don't really experience it anywhere near as much for sure by the 6 month mark when everything has smoothed out a little more, yr body is undergoing some major switches so a few glitches here and there are to be expected

Oh god, I was without internet for 3 days and it felt like an eternity aaa On the upside, I've decided to destroy myself slowly via exercise! Again. Maybe it'll get rid of the old fat stuck on me.

thank you!! that arm/hand has been a longstanding project and it's where i practice techniques and test things out primarily me and my wife are both DIY artists in the tattoo imperfectionist/expressionist scene and have our own tattoo guns we use on each other at home, the hand used to have a simple and clean design on it and i kinda just scribbled it out in a way that makes my hand look like it's always smudged in ink like maybe a month and a half ago, tho i've been giving and receiving tattoos for maybe a year and a half now which is why i'm so covered

Goodness, that sounds like it'd be painful for a while :<

oh yeah it fucking SUCKED lmfao

I am not looking forward to coming out to my dad. My mom is caring but I can't say her and my sister were exactly supportive when I had the talk with them a long time ago.

hooo boy dysporia blows

@laelaps I love the tattoos! Do you have one on your chest as well? Could you post a close-up of the ink of your hand?

yep! i was super fucking stupid and let an ex do a special design and we did a ritual around it and everything- and then i broke up with them and just filled it in so i have a massive black circle in the middle of my chest as part of a week long ritual of trying to purge myself of them ( i actually LOVE the black circle so there's at least that lmfaooo ) besides that there's a design on my left tit in black ink, and i have the phrase "small red boy" with little devil horns and a tail coming out of it by my right clavicle bc i'm a big AJJ fan, here's my left hand/forearm tho! https://files.facepunch.com/forum/upload/263731/e6a8ee55-fe92-4fbc-afed-5efd694796b5/IMG_20180512_085651.jpg

That is so cool oh my god ;o; I wish I wasn't a coward and actually got tattoos, but I don't even know what I'd get.

i wish i could tell you it doesn't hurt but that'd be lying! but also - the majority of arm and legs doesn't hurt anywhere near as bad as other parts of the body, or as much some people imagine, plus endorphins kick in and you stop feeling anywhere near as much of it after a few minutes in, especially on spots like that!

For what it's worth, i found it wasn't too painful, starts like someone jabbing you with a sharp pencil, dulls into a "hot scratch"

Oh it isn't the pain I worry about. It's doing it alone that I don't like doing.

that's why my wife is my primary tattooist lol

I've been gendered correctly a lot lately even though I don't really think I've changed much or even pass at all. Getting "Miss" and "Ladies" more frequently. It's really nice.

Sort of wondering if I'd be okay with top surgery without testosterone if I wanted to go further to actually transition into a guy. I've been following someone on Tumblr as they started T and they're complaining about genital stuff and it just sounds REAL unappealing to have that change around for me. Being ace means it probably wouldn't matter what I have downstairs anyway. But I'd like the benefit of a flat chest and an all-around male appearance otherwise. Anyway I've just been kinda thinking about it. Also considering getting my ovaries eliminated (I know that's not what they do shh) so periods can go the fuck away. Lots of thinking, not a lot of license to really do anything yet. Makes me feel stagnant guh.

If you're not totally sure on the idea of removing your breasts, you can try using a binder! It simulates the feel of a flat chest but are, from what other guys have said, are a bastard to break in.

@Pascall you can totally get an oophorectomy, lots of people do, but @the noofa is correct that if you remove your ovaries you will need to be on a hormone replacement therapy regimen for that a hysterectomy on the other hand would allow you to no longer experience periods without having to take supplemental hormones

I really wish PM's were still a thing.

OH! well if they don't exist anymore here's this y'all should be able to send me an anonymous message at curiouscat.me/slaughterhouse

A hysterectomy sounds more like what I'd do, I probably wouldn't get rid of them full stop if I need them for certain hormones lol. Thanks for the clarification though, obvs I'm still new at this stuff.

I misread the fucking letter, its not the 17th, its tomorrow, I am so fucking anxious oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck

Well, good news is that this diet thing is working pretty well. A bit tough at times but I can make it. Bad news is that I'm flipping out about the smallest thing (like where my hair parts or my weight) and finding out that I've gone up another cup size. Kinda hoping this diet slims me down. Not exactly looking forward to them going past this. So many bland large sized bras...

I finally got the courage to ask my mom to help me with clothes and stuff, and she happily obliged! We went shopping, but although we came home empty handed, it's the thought that counts!

Final psychiatric evaluation session today, then I will get to know if I get HRT or not. I am super, super fucking anxious, only weed is really helping with the anxiety. I cant feel it much now but I still feel like shit and physically ache from stress.

no answer on hrt yet