Crossdressing, Transgender & Allies Discussion: New Look, Same Dysphoria - General

I'd have to probe around to see if I can find anyone with experience, but so far my search has come up pretty dry. My girlfriend told me to go see her therapist, but she's not specifically trained in gender dysphoria (as far as I know). As for the friends issue... I'm just worried constantly, about every day, like a noose is tightening around me. I'm not a social butterfly by any means, I don't trust people much and I think the feeling is mutual for how much I try to protect myself. But even I crave the intimacy and security of a close friendship with someone irl. It's not something that a online, parasocial relationship can do. Even I have fallen out with other online friends and it just compounds the issue, especially when you don't have many friends to start. I'm slowly growing stir crazy by the day and having myself confined to my usual room in the middle of buttfuck nowhere really limits my possibilities of finding the right people. My closest friend keeps trying to hook me up with people but it just doesn't work out. I know the issue is tangential, but I still worry that being openly trans only compounds the issue.

Talked to my mom about trans stuff again on the way home from work yesterday morning. Basically told her I was referred to an endo doctor (which I'm trying to get a hold of...) and we talked about girl stuff and what not. It's hard to explain how I feel, because I was never good at explaining feelings. Anyway, probably going to come out to my friends this weekend. Once/If I get meds (or this god damn doctor's appointment) I will talk to my dad about it.

Talked to some of my friends back home. They're making plans to take me out to do stuff like girls-only sleepovers, clothes shopping, stuff like that. In her words, to "catch you up on what you missed for the past 19 years." gonna heckin cry

my granpa has sorta beat me to the punch and started calling me she/her without me even asking ahaaa feels goood

Got my doctors appointment scheduled. Going to have to make another appointment with the counselor though...dont think I can convince her over the phone to send them a letter. Oh well.

Hi I'm a nonbinary femboy on HRT how much does this trigger you

dang it mods why'd you have to act so fast

this is like the most fuckin sci fi insult ive ever heard like god damn this is like some fuckin bioware shit like right now i can picture it like fuckin moral choice n shit with someone yelling in the middle of town at random ppl abt gender hybrids

If you ever stand back for a sec to think about it, we're cyberpunk as hell. Basically biohackers, but instead of bringing down the neocorporate zaibatsu we just want tiddies we also do the bringing down the system thing but it's on the down-low

tbh being a gender hybrid mutant sounds dope im gonna come for ur capitalist system with my mutations that make me emotionally stable and ok with my body its a real shitty super power

Gotta love how my mom calls me and starts crying about how she's worried about me, asking if I'm taking hormones and all sorts of stuff. I haven't even had contact with the place in over a year because it's takes too much time travelling while I'm studying at uni. I don't get why she's crying when I'm the one suffering. When she asked me why I feel the way I do I just had to tell her I can't talk about it now. Right in the middle of me studying for the exam tomorrow.

i feel guilty because i wish i had the body that my boyfriend was born in, even though i know he hates it as much as i hate mine

Pretty common sentiment. There has been many a "JUST GIVE YOUR BOOB TISSUE TO ME" said by an mtf to an ftm, and while it's a bit tasteless I hear it often.

>tfw not being a gender-hybrid mutant in the year 2058

wish we could just trade

Took the words right out of my mouth. I'm sick of this feeling of being a soul trapped in a husk of a vessel.

Happy pride month everyone!

Anyone get weird sort-of headaches on HRT or is that just me?

I think I know what you mean. Sometimes there's just this weird feeling up there and it isn't quite a headache but something is definitely a little off and noticeable. It's happening right now, actually. I think it's dehydration from the spiro, maybe?

I bought a Pride shirt today so I can wear something to the festival in town. I have to hide it from my parents but I'm proud of myself for at least being brave enough to buy it at all. https://files.facepunch.com/forum/upload/1868/4a77c7f9-0dd9-43f4-9c2a-0384205ddab7/hmprod.jpg

I really like that font.

Spiro is a diuretic, so you gotta chug that water. Dehydration will give you the business if you're not careful.

God, I always, always forget that I pretty much drink the same amount of water as I did before starting HRT, which is to say, not much can't be good for me

Get in the habit! And avoid banana's! It retains potassium in the body and too much will lead to bad news. You may end up craving salts and may hear about pickles or see pickles around trans circles.

I love pickles. I've always loved pickles. What is wrong with pickles? Do I have a problem? I don't need help if I do. This is a good problem to have.

i love pickles please enslave me and feed me only sprite, pickles, chips and weed

Devil's grass is bad yo. Don't play around with drugs kids. Before you know it, weed turns into kush and pot and maijuana's and there no escaping once you start shooting those up.

lmao I do it so I can eat So I dont become overweight and even more flat chested than I already am

I was making a joke ._. Smoke all the dope you want fam.