oh boy the dysphoria hit me like a brick wall today I was a mess a few hours ago... but I'm tryna hold it together till I go to this Trans support group in 2 days, gonna be my first visit I'm so anxious/excited about it I hope I can get a reference to a gender therapist
I have a question that I meant to ask my doctor about my weight. Is a healthy weight for MtF the same as a female? Or is is higher? I assume it must at least be lower than a typical male since much of your muscle mass goes away from the drugs, but I'm not sure which weight is what I should be going for.
i guess i'm returning to FP
That's a tough question to answer since a lot of it comes down to genetics. Starting at a lower weight would help as any more weight could be added into the usual feminine spots, but how much depends on your biology. The weight you have now won't shift (according to the brief research I did), but losing weight while transitioning becomes harder with less muscle to go around. I'm not experienced enough to give a greater explanation than that, but yeah. Maintain healthy eating choices and weight. After that, the changes will reduce muscle, causing more dip in weight.
I started at like 210, but I'm hoping to maintain a healthy eating habit to help with going under because I hate that fucking 2 (stocky build). Get rid of the old weight and allow new weight to go where it needs to go.
Ahhhhh fuck, finally found my blood test results from 3 months ago and at that point (3 months into hrt) my testosterone was over 900, which i believe is normal male levels? so, fuck. next blood test is soon, hopefully that changed in the last 3 months...
Ended up working myself up a lot today. Got to GP to book blood tests but I completely forgot which ones I needed, and they weren't too willing to jump on all the tests. I should've just winged it and thought what I might need but I faltered and didn't manage to get them booked in time, now I'm a little worried I won't be able to get the results before my next checkup (and potentially prescription of T blockers).
It seems events come in massive waves in life, as my next 3 weeks will be house viewings, mortgage advice, doctors appointments and EGX London. x.x
I can next potentially see my GP on Wednesday and that means I'm losing another two days of work, since I'm home and away from my main PC.
Got just over a month of Progynova left, but thankfully can source that easy.
*angrily squints at facial hair shadow*
https://imgur.com/a/lzhgT
here's to hoping they have dropped!
So lately I've been looking into my health, and I've confronted the fact that I haven't seen good results in my transition because I wasn't handling my medication regime properly. I skipped Spiro doses almost as often as I took them, so I haven't seen any progress since about month six. My hair even started to fall out again, until I finally recommitted around New Year's to take my meds every single night. I've been able to keep it up this whole time, so I'm starting to see progress again, but I'm still a bit ashamed of how much time I've wasted. I'm in month 16 and still look like month 6. Don't do what I did.
I'm going to see about switching from patches to pills, too, because I think that'll help me. But at least I'm seeing the mental health benefits coming back. I used to have very positive dreams about being openly trans or female, early in my transition, but they stopped occurring after a while. Well, a couple of days ago, I had a dream where I saw myself in a mirror and I was beautiful, and I had the presence of mind to actually appreciate it. I stared for a long time and burned that image into my brain. My brother was also in my dream and he openly referred to me as his sister to someone else, and that feeling, even if it was imaginary, has stuck with me all week. I feel more committed to this than ever.
it's gonna suck if they're the same/similar but honestly, all that would mean is i would have to try and figure out a fast-track to orchi.
5 Years in, still dunno how to do makeup. I should uh, probably learn a little eh
Also why the fuck is my insurance trying to charge for bloodwork out of the blue, its making the new doc in a new city think kind of a pain
Late to the party, but I'll throw in my coin
I don't see "trap" as a bad term on its own, it's mostly a term to refer to specific sorts of characters in anime. People like Felix, Astolfo, etc. any other guys that may/may not crossdress, but usually look more like girls than guys.
People who call themselves traps aren't doing anything bad either, if they fall into the same category really: Guys who look convincingly much like females, despite not being transgender.
It starts to become problematic when people use it to refer to transwomen against their will, though. So unless you're talking about anime characters, you should probably not use it.
Getting pretty frustrated by the lack of clear-cut voice therapists in my area. I just want to start working on that aspect of me before anything else, why is it hard?
Man, for someone as shy at me; contacting all these companies and agencies to inform them of change of name is uniquely terrifying... Wish there was a way to just tackle it all in one go.
makeup youtubers are the godsend of the modern age
Heya! I'm Jacklyn, I posted in the thread before. I'm a girl who came out in 2016!
I'm not on hormones yet, but hopefully i'm looking to start next year.
Here's an old picture of me from early 2016:
https://i.imgur.com/3DHVPCw.jpg
and here was me a few days ago:
https://i.imgur.com/enewy8K.jpg
My hair's a mess, but my facial shape is still the same, just with more facial hair. Depression beard really kicks in sometimes.
Hey I've been on estradiol for ~6 months now. For the first four I've been taking 4mgs a day and now I'm taking 8mgs. My endo hasn't shown any desire to put be on any type of antiandrogens since my last visit (January). I really don't feel like I've had much changes besides breast growth. I don't think I'm anywhere near looking feminine besides my hair and tiny boobs. Maybe I shouldn't be comparing myself to others but it hurts so much. Everyone I've seen online at the 6 month mark looks like they've made way more progress than me.
Is it normal for endos to do this? I kinda got the first four months because hey, he just wanted to see how my body would react to estradiol by itself, fair enough. But at this point I feel like he'd at least show some desire to start me on something.
Some folks need an AA and others don't. If you feel that you need one then talk to your doctor about taking blood tests and seeing what your T levels are at on just E. Also, try not to be in such a hurry, it takes years for most people to start to notice major changes.
God these new ratings are throwing me off. I've rated two people a child molester and asshole now. Changed it right away, but if someone noticed I just hope you know it's because I'm messing up.
Thinning hair on top, thick hairs on face that I can't murder right away, stupid wide frame
holy shit i want to scream :c
My shoulders are the worst. They make me look like one of the goombas from the mario bros movie.
My case at sexological clinic is "in review"
I am super fucking anxious, if it passes I will begin treatment.
So apparently my state has an Informed Consent thing in play - meaning no therapist.
I called today, made sure the place I'm looking at is covered by my insurance, and then I have an appointment for the earliest day - July 17th. It may get bumped up sooner if anyone cancels.
I'm super anxious now, nobody knows except a few people online, and I mean nobody.
As bad as American Healthcare is, I'd move there in a heartbeat for Informed Consent alone tbh
I'll happily trade places lol.
Insurance doesn't matter when you can't afford it.
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