I think I know the reason for my depression, or one of the main triggers: my uncle's death. :(
[QUOTE=Sgt. Lulz;39156556]Nope, it's gone forever now.
YouTube is as good at accepting user feedback as a brick wall.[/QUOTE]
Well shit
What a beautiful surprise
Welp time to install hundreds of layout scripts to make Youtube look about half decent
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;39156993]I woke up kind of dizzy today, but other than that, I'm OK. I just have an overall "blargh" feeling.
I went to go downstairs and unwind by playing some Rock Band 3 when I noticed that the Xbox wasn't turning on. I look down on the floor and see that the power transformer is gone. Shit.
I went to my mom and asked if she had any idea where it was. She tells me to ask my stepfather.
"Yeah, I took it. You need to go to the job bank before you play video games."
"I went yesterday and I checked the jobs online today. I sent my resume into Sykes today and by the way things are looking, I'm probably going to get the job. Since we live in such a rural area, I highly doubt that there are any more jobs and it's a 2 hour walk to town. Do we really have to do this?"
"YES! YOU NEED TO GET A JOB AND YOU NEED TO DO IT NOW!"
So I go downtown to the job bank to check out the listings.
There's 3 binders. One for my town, one for a town that's 30 minutes away and another one that's 30 minutes in the opposite direction.
All 3 binders combined have 20 pages in them. That is the extent of how fucking out in the middle of nowhere I am.
[B]EIGHT[/B] of these jobs are for specifically female nurses who have gone through med school. 5 of them were for people who have been involved in culinary arts college. 6 of them were construction and one of them was the job I already fucking applied for.
So I walk home and he's looking me right in the eye the second I walk through the door.
"So, did you get a job?"
Yeah, of course I did. I just picked a job off of the job tree that grows downtown.
"Nope. No more new positions are available."
"WELL, YOU SHOULD GET ONE."
[h2] How. [/h2][/QUOTE]
Your stepdad is being a git now. Buy one of those stress toys instead that might help you wind down however, believe me it's done me wonders.
Tell your parents you're still trying?
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;39157598]My mom understands. My stepfather told me today that if I was actually trying, I would have had one by now.[/QUOTE]
Been trying to get a job here for 4 years.
I know what you're like. You'll get a job fairly soon!
[QUOTE=Riptideshark;39155862]People calling me hun. Not really bad, just annoyed for some reason.[/QUOTE]
You should move to Baltimore
Gay porn ads on my school's laptop when looking up poetry about fish
Goddamnit I feel like absolute shit. I've got a splitting headache and all my bones fucking hurt for some reason.
Did that even make sense? I'm not sure anymore.
[QUOTE=M.Ciaster;39158440]Goddamnit I feel like absolute shit. I've got a splitting headache and all my bones fucking hurt for some reason.
Did that even make sense? I'm not sure anymore.[/QUOTE]
Dehydration?
Flu?...
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;39157598]My mom understands. My stepfather told me today that if I was actually trying, I would have had one by now.[/QUOTE]
Isn't he unemployed?
So, I said I'd rant about recent happenings in the near future. The near future is now, apparently.
Ever since Winter break, I feel like things have been getting worse and worse for me. My new video card, a Gigabyte GeForce GTS 450, the one I've been waiting months for, doesn't fit inside my case because we have an ancient dinosaur of a CPU heatsink taking up over 50% of the available space. So I'm stuck with my Sparkle GeForce GT 430 with a broken fan that overheats if I play [i]anything[/i] other than RuneScape on all minimum settings. Since we ordered the Gigabyte card back in October, the thirty-day warranty has been expired for months. $110 down the shitter. We're going to keep it around in the event that I ever decide to do some kind of budget build, but for now, it just feels like a big waste.
Couple of days after that, I suffered from my first ever anxiety attack. I felt like I was going to vomit, and I almost did, so I went straight to the bathroom and just sat in there for half an hour, my arms and legs completely numb. I was hyperventilating on and off, and I thought I was going to pass out. The worst part was, I didn't even know the cause of it at the time. It just happened. When I finally calmed down, I went straight up to my room and just laid in my bed for the rest of the afternoon, struggling not to vomit. I told my Mom about it and we eventually linked the stress to my college essay, which I still have to finish by February. I spent all of the next day laying around, watching TV in the living room and eating toast for my meals. I felt like I was dying, or at least, some significant part of me had died off for some reason. By the time that dinner came around, my Mom had noticed that I had eaten [i]all[/i] of my Italian cookies we got from my Aunt's house a few days beforehand. Turned out that they were made with Anisette, and consuming too much of that had completely thrown off the electrolytes in my body and caused the anxiety attack. Eating a banana with dinner made me feel fine again, because the Potassium regulates electrolytes. I just can't completely shake off the feeling, though. It's awful.
On the flip side, it feels good to be back, Facepunch.
I got even more Dota 2 copies. What am I supposed to do with all of them? I have already sent them to everyone in my friends.
[QUOTE=digigamer17;39158737]Dehydration?
Flu?...[/QUOTE]
Pretty sure it's not dehydration, and I'm really hoping it's not flu (though it probably is)
My grandma likes to think that I know everything about computers and how to fix every problem with hers, and when I don't know how to, she yells at me and says I'm lazy and I just don't wanna help her out.
Usually when she gets pissed over something like that she just goes on and on about how "I don't do anything around the house, don't deserve to live here, go like with your father/his mom and dad, etc." I used to get really depressed everyday I come home from school and fake smile to everyone in the house. My mom, who also lives with us and gets yelled at more than me by her own mom, my dad, my brother, and my girlfriend helped me get through it. Now I don't feel depressed everyday and I can just blank out all her words and walk away with a smile most of the time.
I guess sometimes getting used to the same thing over and over again for years, you just learn to not give a shit anymore.
Got a game tonight. If we win we return to .500
We just lost two straight after going on a huge streak to get above .500 for the first time this season.
[QUOTE=Mr. Face;39159608]Got a game tonight. If we win we return to .500
We just lost two straight after going on a huge streak to get above .500 for the first time this season.[/QUOTE]
My kill death ratio is 1.5 get on my level scrub
I've quite literally spent 3 or so hours using last.fm.
I didn't think that discovering new music would be so addicting, a healthy 6 hours sleep is ahead of me for school. I guess you gotta pay the price for such disorganization.
[QUOTE=robo126;39155951]my classmates are fucking childish as shit
they think walking up to me and playing a sound of someone screaming and someone saying "UUUURGH" on their phone is hilarious[/QUOTE]
This. One of my classmates in my geometry class thinks that knocking my stuff over and saying I'm "salty" if I tell him he's being an annoying little bitch must make him the funniest man alive.
So I signed up for this Art field trip.
Turns out it's a Drama-only field trip, and has no other forms of art.
My best friend, the only actual friend on the trip, can't go.
I'm stuck with our pisshat Drama teacher, a kid who plays minecraft 24/7 and can't stop making meme jokes and doesn't know when to stop, and another kid in my class who doesn't know when his "sex joke ahaha" routine is going too goddamn far. I'm going to be with these 3...
For 3 days. I don't want my weekend ruined.
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;39161678]So I signed up for this Art field trip.
Turns out it's a Drama-only field trip, and has no other forms of art.
My best friend, the only actual friend on the trip, can't go.
I'm stuck with our pisshat Drama teacher, a kid who plays minecraft 24/7 and can't stop making meme jokes and doesn't know when to stop, and another kid in my class who doesn't know when his "sex joke ahaha" routine is going too goddamn far. I'm going to be with these 3...
For 3 days. I don't want my weekend ruined.[/QUOTE]
That meme joke kid could provide some quality entertainment if you play your cards right.
[QUOTE=samuel2213;39161760]That meme joke kid could provide some quality entertainment if you play your cards right.[/QUOTE]
I don't want to get in trouble on a field trip. School rules are really strict when it comes to that, and I don't want to miss out on actual fun things.
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;39161808]I don't want to get in trouble on a field trip. School rules are really strict when it comes to that, and I don't want to miss out on actual fun things.[/QUOTE]
It wont get you into trouble.
I would try to see how many memes I can get that kid to inadvertently say in a single sentence.
And that other kid's "sex jokes" aren't really jokes. Some of them involve him sliding his hand up my shirt/pants. If he pulls that shit again I'll call the goddamn cops.
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;39162097]And that other kid's "sex jokes" aren't really jokes. Some of them involve him sliding his hand up my shirt/pants. If he pulls that shit again I'll call the goddamn cops.[/QUOTE]
Punch yourself in throat and start vomiting.
I don't give a damn how irrational my fear is, I hate fucking bugs. and I think that despite them being crucial to the ecosystem, they all need to fucking die and hamsters need to take their jobs as pollonators. and it's not that I don't hate all bugs equally, i flinch when a butterfly comes near me. fuck bugs. fuck arachnids. fuck Elise the spider queen in League (not so much, but I won't play her) fuck Shino in Naruto (dude who controlled bugs) Fuck the antlions in half life (fuck a lot of things in half life, now that I think about it) if It has more legs than my dog naturally, it needs to go. NOW.
and fuck that stupid ass crawling feeling you get when someone even BRINGS UP bugs. where you feel them all over yourself. fuck that more than the whole paragraph above me (besides that fucking bug that landed on me. fuck that the most)
[editline]9th January 2013[/editline]
AND FUCK THAT THIS BUG KEEPS DISAPPEARING BEFORE I CAN CAPTURE/KILL IT VICIOUSLY.
[editline]9th January 2013[/editline]
It's behind my computer monitor now. I might as well never see it again.
[editline]9th January 2013[/editline]
on the bright side, I'm now aware of exactly how messy my desk is and that I need to clean it (with acid) and I also apologize for the four posts in quick succession.
just threw out a bag of Gummy Bears because I wasn't quite sure whether or not the bug was in or on it.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;39156993]
[h2] How. [/h2][/QUOTE]
He sounds power hungry over you all the time treating you like you're 5 and as if you can't make decisions for yourself
[editline]10th January 2013[/editline]
[QUOTE=Zambies!;39162335]Punch yourself in throat and start vomiting.[/QUOTE]
what
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;39162097]And that other kid's "sex jokes" aren't really jokes. Some of them involve him sliding his hand up my shirt/pants. If he pulls that shit again I'll call the goddamn cops.[/QUOTE]
Fuckin christ, kick his ass, or at least tell him that shit aint happening.
Place guitar in stand just as I have every other time, and go to the bathroom.
Come back and its laying on the floor, having fallen over with a dent in the headstock.
Just sitting on the toilet, taking a shit
Feel a big log slitherimg out of my anus
[b]ploop[/b]
Giant turd makes a giant wave in the water of the toilet, thus sending a splash of water onto my anus, drenching said anus
[editline]10th January 2013[/editline]
Worst part is I find it extremely annoying but apparently my boner doesn't
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