What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

[QUOTE=absolalone111;40187453]I am the exact opposite, I feel really uncomfortable when there's mostly white people around. I grew up, and live in leicester, soon to be the first city in the UK where white people will be an ethnic minority, which I think it brilliant. But my problem is, when I got to newcastle, everyone is white, and I feel really fucking uncomfortable. Just going to point out that I am actually white as well.[/QUOTE] I'm from / live in leicester too, my mum said when she lived down narborough road in the 70s or 80s it was full of white people but now its just mainly indians and polish,funny how times change. Also I have a foot fetish (female ofc) it annoys me to no end when I see a attractive girl I always wonder what her feet are like. College was awesome for me, seeing the milf tutors etc wear heels / sandals. I love this fetish to much I think :/ even offered money to female college friends (anonymously) for pics but they said no.

[QUOTE=kirby2112;40213006]Why would you say that? Just to be a fucking asshole? [b]That's like someone saying they're horrified of spiders a posting a full page of massive spider pictures.[/b] Cunt. [sp]lol we both think he's a cunt[/sp][/QUOTE] Ive had this happen to me both on FP and in real life even from my parents because people think my Arachnophobia is a joke :(

I'm pretty insecure about my looks and I tell myself everybody goes through this. I see myself in pictures and just hate.

I have a phobia of cockroaches.

[QUOTE=Minimole;40213280]Ive had this happen to me both on FP and in real life even from my parents because people think my Arachnophobia is a joke :([/QUOTE] I remember that time someone posted a picture of a wolf spider carrying an eggsack in LMAO Pics. When I brought it up to my friend, he called a "cupcake" and sent me a picture of a tarantula 2 days later. I don't even get why people do that. I tried doing a trick like that once when I was a kid and had a friend who was scared of clowns. It wasn't funny at all, it felt bad as fuck and I still regret doing it.

[QUOTE=Tomo Takino;40101883]I am an absolutely awful person to people who do matter to me. I almost managed to drive a friend to hurt themselves because of it.[/QUOTE] I too am a massive cunt to people I know. I have little to no tolerance for people who irritate me in some trivial way. [QUOTE=Stoffy;40095144]I'm a sarcastic, pessimistic, rude sociopath. The happy and friendly personality that my friends know me for is an act that I use to avoid making others feel bad. Or in other words; I use my "personality" to cover up my hatred, for myself and for other others.[/QUOTE] Doing that feels so artificial to me.

I used to bite my wooden stair railings and my dad always wondered why there were marks.

I'm a pretty friendly guy, but I have a mild self-hatred and I hyperanalyze others' behavior. I'm terrified of others having a negative opinion of me, which leads to the hyperanalyzation problem. I wish I could wear a sort of sign that read NOT ANTISOCIAL, JUST SHY (you can talk to me) because while I love talking to people, I cannot initiate conversation with people I'm not very familiar with. Occasionally I run terrifying social experiments on the people around me. I've been doing this less of late, though. I have too much empathy. I'm paranoid of my body failing. I walk really fast. Rejection is beyond terrifying. I really like people but my actions indicate that I don't. It's also odd to be on good terms with massive amounts of people and have one friend.

[QUOTE=darth-veger;40198149][video=youtube;mvM2eyk1frk]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvM2eyk1frk[/video] Don't forget the hellish sound it produces. Imagine your TV's volume is near maximum with this on.[/QUOTE] I was watching Nicktoons Network on a weekend night when I was 8, back when it showed classic cartoons like Rockos Modern Life, Ren And Stimpy, had a film festival every year etc. Out of nowhere it goes off air, scaring the ever loving hell out me, and I ran into the bathroom. Then I had an aural version of a Medusa battle until I nabbed the remote and flipped on something else. Then an hour later an EAS test, and I ran off again. I am surprised I don't have a phobia of TVs. [editline]8th April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=Zakkin;40200235]I don't think I can draw for shit using this £140 tablet my parents got me for my birthday. I want to get better at it, though. Also there's this one image online which shouldn't be very creepy but it affects me something awful. I won't say what it is 'cause I feel like some fucker's gonna show it to me somehow but gah, it does things to me. People don't think much of it, but i saw a youtube video of it where it just zooms in and out of it in silence and I thought nothing of it. Until that is, It just appeared in my head out of nowhere the next day and wouldn't get out. I went up to my room to play some games to try and get it out of my head but as soon as I walked in through the door I heard this loud alien-like sound right next to me and I almost shat myself. There was nothing there, though. So it turns out whenever that image gets stuck in my head I start to hear things. Only that image though, nothing else.[/QUOTE] I just imagine a funny comparison. Smile Dog (red) - Hairy Chimpanzee Smile Dog (old photo) - I just think that one is adorable period with it's evil grin. Happy Appy - The image never creeped me out but Forenzik is unsettling. "Jeff The Killer"(I read the old creepypasta that went with the image) - me and Jigsaw having a kid, because it looks eerily a tad like me, at least in facial structure. Slenderman was just terrifying to me, but then it became popular and lost all meaning as it became and ~edgy~.

[QUOTE=Rantosaurus;40213467]I have a phobia of cockroaches.[/QUOTE] Don't worry, I have a phobia of dogs.

[QUOTE=applemaster;40212641]Have you heard of biofeedback? I have tourettes and I've been doing that for years, its worked wonders.[/QUOTE] I'll ask my psychiatrist

[QUOTE=Naaz;40214258]I'm a pretty friendly guy, but I have a mild self-hatred and I hyperanalyze others' behavior. I'm terrified of others having a negative opinion of me, which leads to the hyperanalyzation problem. I wish I could wear a sort of sign that read NOT ANTISOCIAL, JUST SHY (you can talk to me) because while I love talking to people, I cannot initiate conversation with people I'm not very familiar with. Occasionally I run terrifying social experiments on the people around me. I've been doing this less of late, though. I have too much empathy. I'm paranoid of my body failing. I walk really fast. Rejection is beyond terrifying. I really like people but my actions indicate that I don't. It's also odd to be on good terms with massive amounts of people and have one friend.[/QUOTE] Holy shit, are you my doppelganger?! I always overanalyze people because im so terribly scared of what they might think of me. Most of the times my analyzations only help to further fuel my insecurity. I like talking to people, and i find it very easy to speak my mind around friends. But my god, if someone i dont know enters my 20 meter radius it's like my tounge locks up. This makes me both trust and doubt myself. I do the social experimenting aswell, sometimes i iniciate awkward silences and then observe the people around me. One time i spent two weeks fake-moping and playing melancholic only to see if the others would notice. They noticed within the first day, no, the first hour! I feel empathy for the stupidest things, like not using one of my pencils as much as i use the others. I once watched the Simpsons valentine episode (the one where Ralph doesn't get any card) and spent the entire day heartbroken. I've had back-and-neck-problems for a while now together with a bad cold, and the first days i was scared it might be Meningitis. People always make fun of how fast i walk. I dont walk, i march. My fear of rejection has kept me from ever asking a girl out, or even make a move. I keep telling myself that it'll go over, and if i really wanted to be in a relationship i would know. But i'm still terribly scared of the thought. I love my friends, my house just feels like a place to sleep until i can go back to school and be with them. But i never even show my gratitude, and i feel like such a douche because of it. Isn't it funny how alike people can be?

I'm afraid of dying, I have a fetish that I have hid from 90% of people I know, I am shy to the point where it is affecting my life in a bad way, and probably the worst of all - [I]I like how I look[/I]

I don't know what the hell to ever think. I love to be around people I know, but I hate speaking with them, or anyone. I can converse with many people online (albeit oddly) or over text, but in person your silent presence is plenty. I'll still respond to people if they start a conversation, but I usually won't enjoy it, and use short, concise sentences. I can't hold a conversation in person very well. I'm relatively articulate, I suppose, and I'm not shy. I just don't know what to say to people. Often I come off like an uncaring asshole, which isn't entirely true. Out of the 10 or so "friends" I routinely talk to, there's only 2 that I'd care if I lost. Even then, I'd only kind of care, and one of them I've known for over 95% of my life. I keep my musical interests to myself because I've listen to the same small groups of artists for years, hardly like anything new I hear, and I'm sick of hearing how shitty they are. I try extremely hard not to sound pretentious. I'm not, but somehow I always manage to sound like it. I've only got one friend who I could complain about anything to and have them listen seriously, but I don't because she has a much harder life than me and I'd feel guilty. I can't bring myself to cry about anything simply because I know there are people who have it worse. If I had $50 to spend on myself, and only myself, I'd probably spend it on 25 cans of Pringles. Maybe a Gatorade, too. I carry a knife. Mostly for utility, but also because I might need it for self defense. But the idea of causing pain and possibly death to another person makes me wonder if I'd ever even use it for that. That's enough whining from me for one day.

[QUOTE=gaminji;40212049]I can blow through 2 liters of Sam's Cherry Cola in under 2 days.[/QUOTE] I drink a 2 liter of soda every day, and if I didn't keep myself from drinking more I could drink two.

[QUOTE=LondierX;40212910]Here's a slight thing: every few minutes, a puppy , a kitten , a chick, or a baby dies And everyday,someone dies Every day, someone cuts themself or is fighting for a meaningless war. So, hows your reaction?[/QUOTE] I really hope you just get perma'd within the next few days. Seriously, you're one of the worst posters on the entire forums.

One time, when I was eight, I used the cardboard tubing around a tampon as a straw... I don't know why.

I'm very shy around people I don't know. I'm terrible at starting conversations with people I don't know in real life. I didn't pursue a serious relationship because my mother is obsessed with collecting useless trash. I'm afraid of telling my problems to people, because I fear that they might take it as attention whoring. I can't hurt anything bigger than pest insects. I was shocked when I saw my grandmother kill a chicken. I can't catch fish either. I don't masturbate at all. I'm scared of bees. I think they are always planning to attack me. I'm not afraid of wasps or bumblebee though. [QUOTE=Tomthetechy;40212878]I still cry at the slightest thing. Not in public but i do just... Let it out... Every now and then.[/QUOTE] I do tear up quite often. Over both sad and happy things. For example when see really great trailer for a game or a movie, when I see someone doing really well. When someone talks about their parents and sometimes even for no reason.

i shot the sheriff [QUOTE=LondierX;40212910]Here's a slight thing: every few minutes, a puppy , a kitten , a chick, or a baby dies And everyday,someone dies Every day, someone cuts themself or is fighting for a meaningless war. So, hows your reaction?[/QUOTE] stop being so edgy [editline]9th April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=Minimole;40213280]Ive had this happen to me both on FP and in real life even from my parents because people think my Arachnophobia is a joke :([/QUOTE] i once mentioned my fear of the ichthyosaur and other sea creatures in the hl2 discussion thread, the next two pages were nothing but pictures of sharks :smith:

I stole a chocolate bar when I was in the third grade and felt so bad about it that I left twice its worth on the counter later that day and ran out

[QUOTE=smileykiller447;40214662]Don't worry, I have a phobia of dogs.[/QUOTE] Arf.

[QUOTE=smileykiller447;40214662]Don't worry, I have a phobia of dogs.[/QUOTE] :(

[QUOTE=Naaz;40214258]I'm a pretty friendly guy, but I have a mild self-hatred and I hyperanalyze others' behavior. I'm terrified of others having a negative opinion of me, which leads to the hyperanalyzation problem. I wish I could wear a sort of sign that read NOT ANTISOCIAL, JUST SHY (you can talk to me) because while I love talking to people, I cannot initiate conversation with people I'm not very familiar with. Occasionally I run terrifying social experiments on the people around me. I've been doing this less of late, though. I have too much empathy. I'm paranoid of my body failing. I walk really fast. Rejection is beyond terrifying. I really like people but my actions indicate that I don't. It's also odd to be on good terms with massive amounts of people and have one friend.[/QUOTE] Are you me?

[QUOTE=Kirbyfactor;40220472]I really hope you just get perma'd within the next few days. Seriously, you're one of the worst posters on the entire forums.[/QUOTE] I just don't get it. He tried to make someone cry, and the other guy got banned for one word.

[QUOTE=xianlee;40213125]I'm from / live in leicester too, my mum said when she lived down narborough road in the 70s or 80s it was full of white people but now its just mainly indians and polish,funny how times change.[/QUOTE] Seriously? That's impossible for me to imagine, Narborough road's always been full of indian shops, clothing, food, takeaways etc. It's only recently, like the past 5 years or so that I've noticed more Poles and Polish shops around, but then again, I might just have been to young to really notice or pay attention. [QUOTE=Naaz;40214258]I'm a pretty friendly guy, but I have a mild self-hatred and I hyperanalyze others' behavior. I'm terrified of others having a negative opinion of me, which leads to the hyperanalyzation problem. Occasionally I run terrifying social experiments on the people around me. I've been doing this less of late, though. I really like people but my actions indicate that I don't. It's also odd to be on good terms with massive amounts of people and have one friend.[/QUOTE] I edited you post so it's more accurate to me, I can really relate to the being on good terms with loads of people, but only having one, or in my case 4 friends.

I write fanfiction plz don't kill me

[QUOTE=pansarkurt;40215718]Holy shit, are you my doppelganger?! I always overanalyze people because im so terribly scared of what they might think of me. Most of the times my analyzations only help to further fuel my insecurity. I like talking to people, and i find it very easy to speak my mind around friends. But my god, if someone i dont know enters my 20 meter radius it's like my tounge locks up. This makes me both trust and doubt myself. I do the social experimenting aswell, sometimes i iniciate awkward silences and then observe the people around me. One time i spent two weeks fake-moping and playing melancholic only to see if the others would notice. They noticed within the first day, no, the first hour! I feel empathy for the stupidest things, like not using one of my pencils as much as i use the others. I once watched the Simpsons valentine episode (the one where Ralph doesn't get any card) and spent the entire day heartbroken. I've had back-and-neck-problems for a while now together with a bad cold, and the first days i was scared it might be Meningitis. People always make fun of how fast i walk. I dont walk, i march. My fear of rejection has kept me from ever asking a girl out, or even make a move. I keep telling myself that it'll go over, and if i really wanted to be in a relationship i would know. But i'm still terribly scared of the thought. I love my friends, my house just feels like a place to sleep until i can go back to school and be with them. But i never even show my gratitude, and i feel like such a douche because of it. Isn't it funny how alike people can be?[/QUOTE]:hug: [editline]9th April 2013[/editline] I also form strong emotional attachments to inanimate objects.

When I worked in a convienence store if I had the closing shift and I was hungry for something I used to take with me chocolate bars, candy or crisps because in the backroom we stored excess products in a small closet where there were no cameras. :tinfoil:

i have a shemale fetish

[QUOTE=Smashing Good;40224632]I write fanfiction plz don't kill me[/QUOTE] If it's good, then I don't care.