What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

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I think my parents are extremely disappointed after I announced I don't ever want children, on top of being aromantic. I'm not going to let go of my decision, but it sure pains to know that their dreams are pretty much crushed because of me.

[QUOTE=Kirbyfactor;40234331]Will do, some day.[/QUOTE]I wanna go too, especially LA or San Diego. Seems like cool places, but my secret is... I have a fear of flying :v:

[QUOTE=ojcoolj;40234171]I obsessively make lists in Microsoft Excel and get depressed whenever I can't think of a list to make Do I have OCD or am I just nuts[/QUOTE] that's pretty amazing

[QUOTE=Infab;40228461]Deepest, darkest secret I'm willing to share? I've fapped to furry and scalie porn. Sometimes regular porn just doesn't cut it for me.[/QUOTE] I can agree with this, after a while straight porn just loses its edge. Then you go and mix it up with some crazy thing like shemale or furry porn.

[QUOTE=CritNick;40233720]Little too far, come visit Cali.[/QUOTE] Let's smoke each other out just don't get the blunts too soggy. In kindergarten during playtime we had the option to play with the toys they had in the class, go outside to play, read, draw or play these learning games on some computer in the corner that used floppy discs. During clean-up I was cleaning the fuck out of the classroom and the last thing I did was go up to the computer and turned it off using the power button. Next day before playtime our teacher announces to the class that we may never be able to use the computer anymore because someone broke it and asked if anyone saw anything. I didn't speak up and prayed that no one saw me do it. To this day I still feel a little guilty. During highschool I was an officer in my jrotc battalion in all sorts of leadership roles but none of the jrotc instructors or officers higher than me knew I did ecstasy and smoked marijuana on the side. I even did ecstasy during the jrotc winter ball which was funny because I was the only one grinding on their date like a rabid dog that night. I grew out of that "do all kinds of drugs" phase by the end of my junior year but I still smoke marijuana from time to time.

[QUOTE=koeniginator;40235021]that's pretty amazing[/QUOTE] No really. I'm listing out scientific explanations for EVERYTHING in basically any franchise I've even seen right now. I'm trying to explain how a Bullsquid from Half-Life would be able to project its vomit at such a velocity and direct shot. HELP ME

[QUOTE=ojcoolj;40235528]No really. I'm listing out scientific explanations for EVERYTHING in basically any franchise I've even seen right now. I'm trying to explain how a Bullsquid from Half-Life would be able to project its vomit at such a velocity and direct shot. HELP ME[/QUOTE] Step away from the computer.

[QUOTE=ojcoolj;40235528]No really. I'm listing out scientific explanations for EVERYTHING in basically any franchise I've even seen right now. I'm trying to explain how a Bullsquid from Half-Life would be able to project its vomit at such a velocity and direct shot. HELP ME[/QUOTE] Do you enjoy doing it? Because it sounds like you hate it. If you enjoy it then fuck it, go nuts.

[QUOTE=assassin_Raptor;40235173]I can agree with this, after a while straight porn just loses its edge. Then you go and mix it up with some crazy thing like shemale or furry porn.[/QUOTE] Oh, so porn is like cocaine.

I like it when it's not consensual and they don't come back

I have Dyscalculia.

[QUOTE=ojcoolj;40234171]I obsessively make lists in Microsoft Excel and get depressed whenever I can't think of a list to make Do I have OCD or am I just nuts[/QUOTE] To be entirely honest, I find it freakishly pleasant to organize things like that myself. I recently started using LibreOffice Calc for some basic list making, so incredibly satisfying.

I used to distribute porn in shady middle school hallways. I'm planning of starting it back up again.

[QUOTE=ojcoolj;40235528]No really. I'm listing out scientific explanations for EVERYTHING in basically any franchise I've even seen right now. I'm trying to explain how a Bullsquid from Half-Life would be able to project its vomit at such a velocity and direct shot. HELP ME[/QUOTE] There is nothing wrong with having an obsession if it is not destructive, and ESPECIALLY if it is productive.

My dirt scoundrel cousin has taught me the thrill of stealing coffee creamer. One time I did it in front of the cops and didn't get caught. Livin' life on the edge, here, people.

[QUOTE=RenegadeCop;40236383]I have a phobia of bees and wasps and I really try to stay inside in spring and summer for that very reason.[/QUOTE] I assume that it would probably be quite unlikely for you to be a fan of hornets.

[QUOTE=RenegadeCop;40236383]I have a phobia of bees and wasps and I really try to stay inside in spring and summer for that very reason.[/QUOTE] Wasps can rot in hell.

[QUOTE=assassin_Raptor;40235173]I can agree with this, after a while straight porn just loses its edge. Then you go and mix it up with some crazy thing like shemale or furry porn.[/QUOTE] I agree with this because of my fucked up experience. I used to be a furry, but I stopped because I realised how messed up it is. I learned that living in a fantasy world is just pathetic and really unhealthy. I've learned to control my hormones and not make my life revolve around something so bizarre. I hate about the things I did and I wish I knew how to control my depression and hormones.

I almost never finish anything because every time i try to start a project it just feels like i run into one problem after another. Eventually (very quickly) the project will feel more like work then for fun because I hate leaving things unfinished, but eventually I always will. This is the main reason why i stopped doing most of my favourite hobbies (mostly drawing and learning programming). What's worse is that most of the time my idea of fun is to spend all my free time on these projects, so after I abandon it (or wait for a fix that will never come to a problem that's out of my control which is 90% of the time) I never really have any fun. My parents think I'm just lazy because I don't do much, but it's really because I don't want to keep making and leaving around unfinished stuff. It doesn't help that my parents were both in the military and had some less-then-pleasant childhoods, so their way of thinking usually is "If it's not productive, you're wasting your time." I also get really paranoid when talking to strangers because I'm constantly worrying about what they're expecting me to do or say. Conversations are never pleasant for me regardless of subject matter and I always feel exhausted after talking with somebody, even over the internet. I also have problems with physically expressing emotion, like I can feel emotion like any normal person just fine, but I never feel like I can accurately show it well. This pisses me off because if someone gives me a gift or something that I really do like, that person might think I don't really like it and that I'm just faking it so I don't hurt their feelings or something. Also I get super frustrated if someone gives me a job or tries to talk to me when I'm already doing something (which is all the time.)

[QUOTE=Renegade Master;40237396]I almost never finish anything because every time i try to start a project it just feels like i run into one problem after another. Eventually (very quickly) the project will feel more like work then for fun because I hate leaving things unfinished, but eventually I always will. This is the main reason why i stopped doing most of my favourite hobbies (mostly drawing and learning programming). What's worse is that most of the time my idea of fun is to spend all my free time on these projects, so after I abandon it (or wait for a fix that will never come to a problem that's out of my control which is 90% of the time) I never really have any fun. My parents think I'm just lazy because I don't do much, but it's really because I don't want to keep making and leaving around unfinished stuff. It doesn't help that my parents were both in the military and had some less-then-pleasant childhoods, so their way of thinking usually is "If it's not productive, you're wasting your time." I also get really paranoid when talking to strangers because I'm constantly worrying about what they're expecting me to do or say. Conversations are never pleasant for me regardless of subject matter and I always feel exhausted after talking with somebody, even over the internet. I also have problems with physically expressing emotion, like I can feel emotion like any normal person just fine, but I never feel like I can accurately show it well. This pisses me off because if someone gives me a gift or something that I really do like, that person might think I don't really like it and that I'm just faking it so I don't hurt their feelings or something. Also I get super frustrated if someone gives me a job or tries to talk to me when I'm already doing something (which is all the time.)[/QUOTE] This. All of this. all day erry day. Do you debate it in your head, constantly wandering in there is a better way you just cannot grasp?

[QUOTE=Shadowwalker;40231430]I also have a huge crush on someone at school, I keep trying to tell my self that it's nothing, That my body's just being a piece shit but nope, Feelings are still there after a year and a half, Making my look over at her every 30 seconds like a stalker.[/QUOTE] Welp, here's another one, I normally get a new crush every 30 or so seconds. [editline]10th April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=ojcoolj;40235528]No really. I'm listing out scientific explanations for EVERYTHING in basically any franchise I've even seen right now. I'm trying to explain how a Bullsquid from Half-Life would be able to project its vomit at such a velocity and direct shot. HELP ME[/QUOTE] As a response to the bullsquid, maybe use the mechanics of how a man ejaculates? [editline]10th April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=MuffinZerg;40234816]I think this thread is forming some sort of a community[/QUOTE] We should have some sort of dedicated thread or something? Like Computer Illiterates?

[QUOTE=smileykiller447;40237498] As a response to the bullsquid, maybe use the mechanics of how a man ejaculates?[/QUOTE] In a big smelly mess?

[QUOTE=assassin_Raptor;40235173]I can agree with this, after a while straight porn just loses its edge. Then you go and mix it up with some crazy thing like shemale or furry porn.[/QUOTE] Or: How I learned to forget morals and love the tentacle.

What's in [URL="http://d.facdn.net/art/xadera/1359775562.xadera_nimin_fetish_fantasy_v0.97.swf"]%appdata%/stuff/[/URL][sup][B][FURRY/TEXT NSFW][/B][/sup] Eheheheh...

[QUOTE=Renegade Master;40237396]I almost never finish anything because every time i try to start a project it just feels like i run into one problem after another. Eventually (very quickly) the project will feel more like work then for fun because I hate leaving things unfinished, but eventually I always will. This is the main reason why i stopped doing most of my favourite hobbies (mostly drawing and learning programming). What's worse is that most of the time my idea of fun is to spend all my free time on these projects, so after I abandon it (or wait for a fix that will never come to a problem that's out of my control which is 90% of the time) I never really have any fun. My parents think I'm just lazy because I don't do much, but it's really because I don't want to keep making and leaving around unfinished stuff. It doesn't help that my parents were both in the military and had some less-then-pleasant childhoods, so their way of thinking usually is "If it's not productive, you're wasting your time." I also get really paranoid when talking to strangers because I'm constantly worrying about what they're expecting me to do or say. Conversations are never pleasant for me regardless of subject matter and I always feel exhausted after talking with somebody, even over the internet. I also have problems with physically expressing emotion, like I can feel emotion like any normal person just fine, but I never feel like I can accurately show it well. This pisses me off because if someone gives me a gift or something that I really do like, that person might think I don't really like it and that I'm just faking it so I don't hurt their feelings or something. Also I get super frustrated if someone gives me a job or tries to talk to me when I'm already doing something (which is all the time.)[/QUOTE] Hi are you me?

I've masturbated in my dorm room with my roommate asleep less than 15 feet from me. Multiples times. I'm also more conceited than I can admit to myself, which is a weird thing to admit to myself.

[QUOTE=BigJoeyLemons;40237602]In a big smelly mess?[/QUOTE] -edit I interpreted that wrong, however it is just a suggestion.

Well...one should be immediately obvious. Like someone else here I am totally afraid of social rejection so I simply avoided revealing it on here until now, it's nice to have somewhere to post this stuff though and not feel at risk of being named, shamed 'n' flamed. I suspect myself to be gay and would act like an affectionate, hyperactive girl if I were to really be myself in real life. I just want to love the shit out of people, I'd go around my class hugging everyone if it were socially acceptable. I have such a horrifically large number of fetishes, name any and it is more likely I either know it and like or don't know about it but will like it, than I don't/won't like it and do or don't know about it. It feels so wrong too because I have some self-control by the age I am, but on the other hand I only started being active in that way less than a couple of years ago.

Reading about other people's problems makes me feel bad. I have too much empathy.