What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

Well it's not a secret now. Thanks a lot.

i've never really had a "crush" on any women throughout my life. maybe i'm doing something wrong. i'm not gay, by the way.. it's as if though that I feel that i'm the only person standing on the earth.

When I was 16 I had to drive 2.5 hours away to wait another 8 hours in a waiting room while my girlfriend got an abortion......

I like the smell of my own farts.

I sometimes visit /b/.

I haven't been able to come to terms with my grandfathers death. It's been 6 or 7 years. I constantly have extremely realistic dreams where he is alive. They are so realistic I think that the reality of him being dead is a dream while I'm dreaming. I have conversations with him telling him that I love him and I'm sorry that I treated him with so much disrespect when I was younger. I always wake up around that time though.

[QUOTE=Confuzzed Otto;40253412]I sometimes visit /b/.[/QUOTE] You [B]MONSTER[/B]!

[QUOTE=Confuzzed Otto;40253412]I sometimes visit /b/.[/QUOTE] Once in awhile I go to 4chan, open /b/, wonder why I'm looking at it, then close the tab. Everything I ever see there seems like the worst of Oify and fast threads but worse.

[QUOTE='[Green];40252968']And since when did guys have to be insensitive faggots? Don't be crushed by the stereotypes of the media or Hollywood, sensitive guys are perfectly normal and okay. And as for being manly, you will find those moments if there is a dick hanging from your crotch. You will, guaranteed. You just have to wait for those and if you want to [I]be[/I] more manly, do manly things to increase your testosterone. Just don't try to change yourself, you're fine as you are.[/QUOTE] This just gave me a lot more self confidence. Thank you!

[QUOTE=Alice3173;40253825]Once in awhile I go to 4chan, open /b/, wonder why I'm looking at it, then close the tab. Everything I ever see there seems like the worst of Oify and fast threads but worse.[/QUOTE] I decided to stop visiting /b/ permanently, it is a bottomless pit of horror, darkness, and agony.

[QUOTE=genkaz92;40253868]I decided to stop visiting /b/ permanently, it is a bottomless pit of horror, darkness, and agony.[/QUOTE] So like Facepunch but without ratings?

I PICK MY BUM AND EAT IT OCCASIONALLY

[QUOTE=Vacuum;40253838]This just gave me a lot more self confidence. Thank you![/QUOTE] Hey, no problem.

I was honestly never shocked about anything on /b/, maybe 2-3 times because they were posting these holes.. Not sure what the name of that phobia is but it creeps the fuck out of me. I don't mind any gore though.

I was once molested by one of my old friends, he told me not to tell anyone otherwise he'd blackmail me, the only other person i've told is my current girlfriend, it's been 4 years since it happened, and yet i still get haunted by the idea of how it all happened, i can remember it all exactly how it happened. I was also abused by my step-mom for 2 months in a row because she was jealous of me being my fathers first child, i came clean about it all and she got arresed, but i haven't seen my father or my sister in 6 years, he also had another child with her, who doesn't even know about me, i get to see them all next month at a wedding but i'm frightened by the idea of seeing my step-mom again. Sometimes during sex i get overwhelming senses of anxiety and it causes me to get really scared so i have to stop, i'm too scared to seek profesional help about it due to being embarrased, i tell myself that it's just my mind being clouded but i know it's more than that. I'm attracted to guys, not in a sexual "Oh i'd suck his D" kind of way but a "Wow, he's attractive" kind of way, i'm not sure how to put it, because usually it's just down to the fact that i'm a teenager and i'm confused, but yeah, that's pretty much all, i'm sorry for the wall of text.

[QUOTE=genkaz92;40253868]I decided to stop visiting /b/ permanently, it is a bottomless pit of horror, darkness, and agony.[/QUOTE] this is me for /v/, although instead of darkness and agony it's people complaining about shit all the time

[QUOTE=Smashing Good;40254343]this is me for /v/, although instead of darkness and agony it's people complaining about shit all the time[/QUOTE] Thankfully chanarchive exists.

[QUOTE=medal-12;40254286]but yeah, that's pretty much all, i'm sorry for the wall of text.[/QUOTE] Hey, that's what this thread is here for.

[QUOTE=Lolx0rz;40253969]So like Facepunch but without ratings?[/QUOTE] Ratings are an obvious plot of Garry to subconscously condition members of Facepunch into supporting a fascist ideology.

[QUOTE=medal-12;40254286]I was once molested by one of my old friends, he told me not to tell anyone otherwise he'd blackmail me, the only other person i've told is my current girlfriend, it's been 4 years since it happened, and yet i still get haunted by the idea of how it all happened, i can remember it all exactly how it happened. I was also abused by my step-mom for 2 months in a row because she was jealous of me being my fathers first child, i came clean about it all and she got arresed, but i haven't seen my father or my sister in 6 years, he also had another child with her, who doesn't even know about me, i get to see them all next month at a wedding but i'm frightened by the idea of seeing my step-mom again. Sometimes during sex i get overwhelming senses of anxiety and it causes me to get really scared so i have to stop, i'm too scared to seek profesional help about it due to being embarrased, i tell myself that it's just my mind being clouded but i know it's more than that. I'm attracted to guys, not in a sexual "Oh i'd suck his D" kind of way but a "Wow, he's attractive" kind of way, i'm not sure how to put it, because usually it's just down to the fact that i'm a teenager and i'm confused, but yeah, that's pretty much all, i'm sorry for the wall of text.[/QUOTE] Hey bro, none of it's your fault! First off fuck your friend, like really he needs to fuck off and die, give me his address I'll come talk to him. Secondly fuck that bitch of a step mom. I'm sorry you had to deal with that bro. Don't be afraid to get help. Being a man doesn't mean hiding your fears, being a man is saying "This is what haunts me, this is what cripples me, but I will conquer it, I will defeat it!" That's what it means. You have no reason to feel as though you should be scared or ashamed. When my fiancee messed around on me in the beginning years of our relationship, it took courage for me to admit I had trust issues. When she decided to stop doing drugs and shit, she had to admit to have a mental crutch for the shit. Yes she was ashamed, yes I was ashamed to admit I had problems, but you do it so you can better yourself. OH and don't feel bad about that attraction thing. I tell my girl about guys I think look good. It's perfectly fine to say "Hey that man looks good." We as humans have a eye for what looks good.

[QUOTE=Bryceanater;40178746]I want to buy figures like Miku and shit but im too baby to do it because opinions.[/QUOTE] I wanted to buy a beautiful painting of Bastet at Marcon, but it wasn't exactly SFW and "it's art" only goes so far to some, so I didn't get it because opinions. EDIT: So it wasn't Bastet, nor a painting, but [URL="http://waltz.elfwood.com/Cattitude.3312357.html"]yeah...[/URL] EDIT2:[URL="http://daio.deviantart.com/gallery/#/art/Cattitude-6-307123031?q=gallery%3Adaio%2F22000110&qo=6&_sid=40b7f3eb"]This was the one I saw at Marcon.[/URL] My brain isn't working right today. EDIT3: My brain is an idiot and I linked the worng ones, [URL="http://daio.deviantart.com/art/Cattitude-3-296062304"]It was this one[/URL], [URL="http://daio.deviantart.com/gallery/?offset=24#/art/Cattitude-5-297094803?q=gallery%3Adaio%2F22000110&qo=29&_sid=10a93a26"]and this one[/URL] EDIT2EP1: So I remembered to watch her on DA, and it said I already did a while ago. WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?:tinfoil: And my actual content, I think this post kind of says it.

[QUOTE=Bryceanater;40178746]I want to buy figures like Miku[/QUOTE] I'm not a fan of figures but that is one sentiment I can agree with. That and of my avatar if those actually existed but they don't.

[QUOTE=medal-12;40254286]I'm attracted to guys, not in a sexual "Oh i'd suck his D" kind of way but a "Wow, he's attractive" kind of way, i'm not sure how to put it, because usually it's just down to the fact that i'm a teenager and i'm confused, but yeah, that's pretty much all, i'm sorry for the wall of text.[/QUOTE] There's two things that come to mind. 1. you're just a teenager and going through a phase 2. you're biromantic like me doesn't mean that if i'm biromantic i'm bisexual, like i'd go on a date with a guy and have a platonic relationship but i can't get a boner from males

I feel like the only type of relationship I want is a platonic open relationship. For some reason, it's easier for me to have sex with someone who I don't know than someone who knows me. Maybe I'm shy :s

[QUOTE=James xX;40258063]I feel like the only type of relationship I want is a platonic open relationship. For some reason, it's easier for me to have sex with someone who I don't know than someone who knows me. Maybe I'm shy :s[/QUOTE] it sounds to me that you're pretty damn desperate.

it's not unusual for me to go from a mellow peaceful relaxed optimistic dude to a rampaging ragetornado who's rude to everyone and hates everything in a matter of seconds now this isn't really anything out of the ordinary, there are lots of people with a bad temper in the world, and i hate it when i just get mad and find myself unable to calm down, but somehow, at the same time, i like it the rage that i sometimes manage to build up from the smallest things is intoxicating, it feels good somehow, like i'm the king of the world and don't need to care about anything or anyone except myself. sometimes i just keep getting angrier because i fuel it myself, and i revel in it; at times, deep down, i even feel pride for being able to get visibly mad in this country where everyone tries to blend into the mass, afraid of displaying their emotions because that would be shameful. back in elementary i was bullied for almost five years straight for being a friendly, nice, innocent guy, and that's also when i really learned to hate people. before i had only been afraid, but those years really taught me the meaning of true, bloodthirsty, revenge-seeking hatred, to put it poetically. i didn't want to get to know new people (i did have my own circle of friends of course), because i had my rage as my companion, the murderous desire to hack the bullies to pieces with a hatchet if given the chance. that's when i became the kind of an unforgiving dick i'm today, i remember every insult and offense, and one of my life goals is to show the world who actually runs this business by making it in the music scene - the ultimate revenge against the fucks who probably are well on their way to becoming small-time criminals or alcoholics; it's also why nowadays a simple, small thing gone wrong can turn my good day into Hell on Earth, which can lead to me wreaking havoc on other people's fun. i'm an energetic, rage-filled, snarling, death-glaring asshole in a mass of grey, wrinkly, frowning, whining, apathetic and melancholic finns, and i love it and i find that really, really scary

I can't read traditional clocks or tie my shoes.

I am pathetic and I rarely go outside, I am also lazy as shit when it comes to things I don't get enjoyment out of such as school work. I also constantly change opinions and moods about things for no reason at all, sometimes I am a pessimistic nihilist who doesn't like anything, or sometimes I am just hyped about everything and everything is cool. It's not split personalities or anything serious but it's pretty noticeable sometimes. Maybe I am just a bitchy angsty emo kid. If you see me say some bogus dumb shit it's probably just me being really annoyed at everything, then the next day I could completely like the same thing I hated the other day. It's weird, it's not just me being moody because of angst or anything I seriously suddenly change outlooks on things. This is actually all on the internet though, when I am talking to people in real life I am pretty emotionally stagnant. I guess this isn't really anything deep and dark down though but fuck it I don't care I just feel like saying it. Maybe it's not true, maybe I am just pretentious but it's how I feel like I am as I observe myself right now.

I like My Chemical Romance and I'm not an ~edgy~ teenager.

I'm extremely rancorous, and I think I have an anger problem. I used to be bullied in high school, and I did everything in my power to get payback for the harassment that those kids put me through. Once I was bullied for an entire year, and that entire year I worked out, I practiced sparring, just to get back at them. I got back at those kids (Three of them, all one year older than me), one I threw to the ground and mercilessly punched his face, the other two tried to bail, I grabbed one by the arm, twisted his arm, tried to break one of his fingers (he practiced piano) but didn't manage to, the other guy just bailed, and never addressed me again. That's not the end of the story, my payback didn't stop there, I was taken to the principal's office, and then I started crying, I lied through my teeth about what they did to me, I said they threatened to kill me and so on. Since I was a star student the principal believed the story, and expelled all three for a week, all while she called me "chivalrous" and "honorable" for standing up to myself and taking their shit for the whole year. The next year I pretended they had insulted me some time during the annual Christmas party at school (It's strange, I think I myself believed that at the moment), I tracked them down enraged, on my way to them I bashed walls, equipment, I wanted their blood. When they saw my bloody knuckles they ran away to hide at one of the teachers offices. I knew they were there, I waited for them to come out and head to the cafeteria. At the cafeteria I engaged them, pushed one guy off his chair, threw another to a wall, a teacher stopped me. I manipulated the situation to make them the bad guys again. They were expelled yet again. I had many more plans, one of which involving scaring them with a fake gun, but I decided against it when they started to straight out avoid me. I met one of the guys not too long ago at a party (The one guy I beat up the hardest). He looked at me in fear, I could see it. The moment I stepped in there, the guy tried to avoid me. When it became impossible to do so, he apologized, and he left the party, just because I was there. I traumatized him, a kid just like me, just because I was angry, I was pissed, and I wanted blood. To this day I haven't felt as enraged as I was that time. Sometimes I fear that I may come back to that someday. That's why I quit practicing martial arts and why I never have used a gun despite having the opportunity and being interested in doing so. I've kept myself in control through among other things playing guitar, but I really do fear that something will someday hit that trigger again and make me do something I'll regret, like what I did to those kids.