What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

[QUOTE=Desuh;40097324]I wish I was a (cute) girl.[/QUOTE] Also this.

I used to care about everyone who was in my life but they never did it to me, so i said fuck them and their problems and i dont really want to help out anyone but a few close buds

i'm extremely open about things like way too open i'd fuck anything so long as itw ants 2 fuck me back and i'll play anything and even if it's really shitty i'll enjoy it anyways ACM Duke Nukem the new one etc

[QUOTE=yazrak;40277731]i'm extremely open about things like way too open i'd fuck anything so long as itw ants 2 fuck me back and i'll play anything and even if it's really shitty i'll enjoy it anyways ACM Duke Nukem the new one etc[/QUOTE] I like DNF up to the Hive.

fuck it guys its 4am im tired as all hell and shit i talk to myself a lot, i think of some of the greatest ideas when im doing nothing, they run rampant in my mind I just replay them and evolve them, only now am I writing them down, I was thinking of this video game idea and all you could do with it but i knew i couldnt code but i found a passion in tv shows and writing and i was like maybe i can think of something like that, so i shared it with a friend and she found it merely entertaining so im kinda jotting down all i can think of, i want to change this I have 0 idea what im going to do with my life, i sit in class everyday wondering is this what i want to do, i hear kids discussing their futures and it seems gloomy. I don't want to work in an office job or do something boring though theres a huge chance thats exactly whats going to happen. I'm in grade 11 already dreadding what future im going to fucking have, bein told that in grade 12, when i finish i need to go to uni like every other man and his dog, no i hate that thought, why finish 12 years of education just to get back into more education, i want to see the world and get an idea of what im going to do, i heard in seminars and the liking that "hurr you think you dont know what you're going to do but thats bullshit cause you do know and you will do that" no fuck off thats not the case here, i swear if i stepped into this big world right now id be fucked i have no idea what i want to do I regret my early days of being quiet and locking myself in my bedroom thinking everythings going to be just fine, ever since i grew out of it im loving life more, i just wish that happened earlier and not later but i guess it doesnt matter that's all i want to let out to an internet forum

[QUOTE=fruxodaily;40279810]I'm in grade 11 already dreadding what future im going to fucking have, bein told that in grade 12, when i finish i need to go to uni like every other man and his dog, no i hate that thought, why finish 12 years of education just to get back into more education[/QUOTE] Getting a good idea of what you want to do first is a good idea but you also don't want to end up wasting several years doing nothing and then never even going as well.

[QUOTE=Alice3173;40279870]Getting a good idea of what you want to do first is a good idea but you also don't want to end up wasting several years doing nothing and then never even going as well.[/QUOTE] thats what i fear, really right now i just want a year to think, but i was discussing with my mother the thoughts of going to tafe and doing some course or something, it means i void my chances of an OP and I have to take a different timetable program for school just like the boys who are learning trade but im not to sure yet this is all australian shit btw

I really want to use a wallpaper of Ellen Page, but if I did and someone saw it I would never hear the end of it.

i think pokemon is overrated as hell, and the franchise should've died many years ago

I'm too paranoid to write anything.

I don't really see a future for myself. I don't mean I can't choose what path I'm going to go down, I just see no paths at all; I know I have paths though, I mean I have education and friends and that's gonna lead me somewhere. But I am incapable of even guessing what's going to happen, all I see is just pitch black. How can I work or be worried for my future when I strongly feel like I have no possible future at all? It makes everything I do just seem futile and it makes me apathetic.

[QUOTE=Big Bang;40259682]I'm extremely rancorous, and I think I have an anger problem. I used to be bullied in high school, and I did everything in my power to get payback for the harassment that those kids put me through. Once I was bullied for an entire year, and that entire year I worked out, I practiced sparring, just to get back at them. I got back at those kids (Three of them, all one year older than me), one I threw to the ground and mercilessly punched his face, the other two tried to bail, I grabbed one by the arm, twisted his arm, tried to break one of his fingers (he practiced piano) but didn't manage to, the other guy just bailed, and never addressed me again. That's not the end of the story, my payback didn't stop there, I was taken to the principal's office, and then I started crying, I lied through my teeth about what they did to me, I said they threatened to kill me and so on. Since I was a star student the principal believed the story, and expelled all three for a week, all while she called me "chivalrous" and "honorable" for standing up to myself and taking their shit for the whole year. The next year I pretended they had insulted me some time during the annual Christmas party at school (It's strange, I think I myself believed that at the moment), I tracked them down enraged, on my way to them I bashed walls, equipment, I wanted their blood. When they saw my bloody knuckles they ran away to hide at one of the teachers offices. I knew they were there, I waited for them to come out and head to the cafeteria. At the cafeteria I engaged them, pushed one guy off his chair, threw another to a wall, a teacher stopped me. I manipulated the situation to make them the bad guys again. They were expelled yet again. I had many more plans, one of which involving scaring them with a fake gun, but I decided against it when they started to straight out avoid me. I met one of the guys not too long ago at a party (The one guy I beat up the hardest). He looked at me in fear, I could see it. The moment I stepped in there, the guy tried to avoid me. When it became impossible to do so, he apologized, and he left the party, just because I was there. I traumatized him, a kid just like me, just because I was angry, I was pissed, and I wanted blood. To this day I haven't felt as enraged as I was that time. Sometimes I fear that I may come back to that someday. That's why I quit practicing martial arts and why I never have used a gun despite having the opportunity and being interested in doing so. I've kept myself in control through among other things playing guitar, but I really do fear that something will someday hit that trigger again and make me do something I'll regret, like what I did to those kids.[/QUOTE] I wish I could do this, you sir are my hero.

Whenever I get out of the shower I look at myself in the mirror and have conversations with myself.

I can't find any skill on me. I don't tell this to my friends or someone close because it is kinda embarrassing.

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My biggest secret is that I know you love me I wanna roll you up into my life Let's roll up to be A single star in the sky

[QUOTE=EmperorKabuto;40285871]My biggest secret is that I know you love me I wanna roll you up into my life Let's roll up to be A single star in the sky[/QUOTE] gay

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;40285988]gay[/QUOTE] :c Maybe I wanted to platonically roll you up into my star man

My biggest and personal secret-ish story During a depressing time a couple years ago I met a girl over Facebook (lets call her Jodi) who I became good friends with, a few months later I met another girl who I shared interests with (lets call her Emily) but I wasn't interested in a relationship at the time because I thought it would ruin my friendship with Jodi. Anyway Jodi kept trying to set me up with Emily because she figured it would make me happy (Jodi was helpful and got me out of a depressing time in my life) and she kept trying but I wasn't interested still. Emily and I went to the same school and we'd occasionally pass eachother and say hi, eventually we met outside of school and after about a month of meeting her we started going out. A month into the relationship I was happy, I had my first girlfriend and my best friend was supportive, but eventually Emily got jealous and told me to stop talking to Jodi, I complied but would talk to Jodi in secret. Another month went by and Emily eventually finds out and started beating me (this was my first relationship and whilst I new assault was bad I didn't know what to do so I didn't tell anyone. Thats when I did stop talking to Jodi and where my relationship got really bad. Eventually she made me turn on all my friends and I was bullied because of her because she'd start on people and I'd try to defend her. I'm someone who is very caring and when I met Emily she was depressed and it was one of the reasons why I started going out with her, which is why I would always defend her. Anyway about 14 months into the relationship when I was hated because of her and getting beaten by her she said she wanted to break up with me over facebook, I complied because at this point I started to wisen up, I was over my best friends and life long friends house at the time (hes called Jamie and hes called MajorMattem on here) and he always hated her and we actually celebrated breaking up with her. My family was happy and so were my friends who came back to me immediately. Anyway she was a really crazy person and even though this was 2 years ago she still tries to have a go at. She hates all of her exs and occasionally she'll call me up and with her new boyfriend and say something horrible like "Haha your Nanas dead, she's rotting in hell" or quite recently she said "Your mams got cancer and is going to die slowly, and your brother is a spacka!" this was over the phone and happened 2 weeks ago, I have a disabled brother and my mam actually got rid of her cancer, my nana however died a few months back. It wasn't till 2 weeks ago that I was so sick of her shit that I called the police on her, since then she hasn't said anything and my family want to rip her head off. I've had a lot of support from my friends and one of them has even gone as far as tracking down her boyfriend (I stopped him because I didn't want him to get in trouble over it). I have a ton more stories concerning this crazy bitch but because of her I have little confidence and I haven't been in a relationship since, I genuinely think she has broken me. Also she ruined my friendship with Jodi and I haven't spoken to her since, which is one of the biggest regrets I have. Wow didn't notice it was this big of a page-stretch, sorry about it

[QUOTE=Zakkin;40282241]I don't really see a future for myself. I don't mean I can't choose what path I'm going to go down, I just see no paths at all; I know I have paths though, I mean I have education and friends and that's gonna lead me somewhere. But I am incapable of even guessing what's going to happen, all I see is just pitch black. How can I work or be worried for my future when I strongly feel like I have no possible future at all? It makes everything I do just seem futile and it makes me apathetic.[/QUOTE] What skills and talents do you have?

I don't brush my teeth very often.

[QUOTE=zombojoe;40286879]I don't brush my teeth very often.[/QUOTE] Same. You shoulda seen the shit that came out of my mouth.

You two are fucking disgusting

I like penis a lot.

I'm really paranoid sometimes, not always but sometimes I get worried by everything, especially getting the wrong house when visiting someone even after going there multiple times.

This is probably common, but... I'm quite depressed and don't see a huge future for myself, but I feel that I can't show anyone because I'm currently playing the role of helping everybody else out. Everyone else I know comes to me when they're sad, and I make them happier due to it. But lately I've been lashing out because of it being bottled up for so long, and I'm getting very irritable.

[QUOTE=Purple Gecko;40286938]I'm really paranoid sometimes[/QUOTE] I once had this paranoia that people could read my mind. It was so strong that I literally had to think "lalala" around certain people. Maybe that's some mental disorder that I need to fix.

[QUOTE=NicoleEmilid;40286957]I once had this paranoia that people could read my mind. It was so strong that I literally had to think "lalala" around certain people. Maybe that's some mental disorder that I need to fix.[/QUOTE] The disorder you are referring to is called Faecal Encephalopathy.

Lost my virginity when I was nine to another dude my age, have a crush on a friend's male dog; whichever y' think is worse. They're about tied in my mind.

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