What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

[QUOTE=NicoleEmilid;40287163]There's nothing wrong with homosexuality.[/QUOTE] But there is at 9. I don't even know if I could get hard at 9, I was too busy playing Wind Waker.

[QUOTE=Zally13;40287169]But there is at 9.[/QUOTE] True. Wind Waker was a good game. Is that the one where you could break the vases? I loved doing that.

[QUOTE=Zally13;40287169]But there is at 9. I don't even know if I could get hard at 9, I was too busy playing Wind Waker.[/QUOTE] I was still on OoT and Majora's Mask then.

I have a hard time opening up to people.

I am really scared that no-one will accept the real me. I have an attraction to unusual things that I do not see others do and hide my hobbies because I think people start alienating from me if they know. They're not common so maybe I will be segregated from my friends and that is something I really do not want. I try to act like everyone else when I am at work or in my free time, but when I get home, I start acting normally again and it is relieving but depressing too. I do not feel like I can show my real personality to anyone without them judging me. I feel lonely sometimes. I want a boyfriend and a nice relationship, I want to be cuddled on a sofa and waken up by him, wrestle playfully and laugh at funny things, go walking and hiking and do things with him and be happy...but I do not feel like I can reach it.

Here goes: I sped. I followed too closely. I ran a stop sign. I almost hit a Chevy. I sped some more. I failed to yield at a crosswalk. I changed lanes at the intersection. I changed lanes without signaling while running a red light and *speeding*!

I suffered severe psychological and physical abuse from my older sibling. I often think of projects and ideas i could make come to fruition by getting an engineering degree. I feel sad most the time, thinking i'm worthless, although i'm in honor roll, with a 3.7 GPA, With a likelyhood of harvard being a possibility, as they've contacted me in the middle of this semester. I have strong urges to hit or hurt people, don't know why, it's getting harder to stop them. I was also raped while in kindergarten when i was 5, by an older boy. I cannot even admit that to my past girlfriends, or bestfriends for that matter. I have sex toys. (Some are my current GF's hidden away from her catholic family) in my drawer. I found a gray hair yesterday in my beard, and my happy trail. I'm not even twenty yet. I've fought a few times, but nothing ever serious, although i've been the winner of all but one. I killed my sisters goldfish by stabbing it because i thought it was having babies, and would pop if i didn't stab it. I feel deeply depressed about that. I want to own a firearm, But i feel sometimes i would be too stupid to handle one, and shoot myself somehow. I've never stolen anything i can remember. I've gotten a blowjob from my mother's MILF friend, She hates me now because i came in her mouth and she swallowed. That was the best damn feeling in the world, although i've never told anyone that either. I destroy things for fun, Just to remake them better. I feel a huge regret for not saving money, but i am still young. I've had to stop my friend from killing himself. I've also had to stop my best friend from doing a home invasion, and murder. I've disowned a few of my best friends for trivial reasons.

[QUOTE=TheDestroyerOfall;40287457]I've gotten a blowjob from my mother's MILF friend, She hates me now because i came in her mouth and she swallowed. That was the best damn feeling in the world, although i've never told anyone that either.[/QUOTE] That right there is winner material.

[QUOTE='[Green];40287462']That right there is winner material.[/QUOTE] It was strange how it happened. You expect it to be in the shower or one of you naked. I just got home and everyone was gone wjen i got in. I chilled out and watched tv for a while and she knocks on the door. She comes in and asks where my mom is i Told her I didn't know. She asked if she could Wait for her. cue cable outage and jokes of how bad it'd look if my parents came home to us together in the dark. So go to reach for the flashlight and touch her on her hip. One thing led to another, blowjob, got it in but we couldn't do it. she gave me signals to ask If i ever needed another, never happened because of her moving. That and we never hit the board cause someone was always home

[QUOTE=Zally13;40286952]This is probably common, but... I'm quite depressed and don't see a huge future for myself, but I feel that I can't show anyone because I'm currently playing the role of helping everybody else out. Everyone else I know comes to me when they're sad, and I make them happier due to it. But lately I've been lashing out because of it being bottled up for so long, and I'm getting very irritable.[/QUOTE] I used to have that same sort of issue. You should try to find someone who can do the same thing you do for others but for you instead. It helps quite a bit even if it's difficult to get used to getting it out. I still always feel like I'm just whining about stupid shit when I do it. [QUOTE=Ninja Pirate;40287439]Here goes: I sped. I followed too closely. I ran a stop sign. I almost hit a Chevy. I sped some more. I failed to yield at a crosswalk. I changed lanes at the intersection. I changed lanes without signaling while running a red light and *speeding*![/QUOTE] Is that a quote from that one Jim Carrey movie?

[QUOTE=TheDestroyerOfall;40287457]I found a gray hair yesterday in my beard, and my happy trail. I'm not even twenty yet.[/QUOTE] I guess it wasn't that happy then. [editline]15th April 2013[/editline] I'm sorry.

[QUOTE=TheDestroyerOfall;40287533]It was strange how it happened. You expect it to be in the shower or one of you naked. I just got home and everyone was gone wjen i got in. I chilled out and watched tv for a while and she knocks on the door. She comes in and asks where my mom is i Told her I didn't know. She asked if she could Wait for her. cue cable outage and jokes of how bad it'd look if my parents came home to us together in the dark. So go to reach for the flashlight and touch her on her hip. One thing led to another, blowjob, got it in but we couldn't do it. she gave me signals to ask If i ever needed another, never happened because of her moving. That and we never hit the board cause someone was always home[/QUOTE] How old were you?

Had sex with a girl last night multiple times (shit was intense) even though i'm supposed to be seeing another girl. I'm a terrible person. Oh well.

I can't use a urinal, and I have no idea why.

[QUOTE=applemaster;40289609]I can't use a urinal, and I have no idea why.[/QUOTE] Simple. You don't want people to see you pissing.

[QUOTE=Xubs;40287372]I have a severe fear of public restrooms, all because when I was 4, I was caught singing in the bathroom. I was 4, fuck off (people who made fun of me back then).[/QUOTE] Hell, bro I sing in the public restroom. I don't give a fuck, and I'm 20. Singing is a outlet for emotions that are overflowing in our "souls" music and singing are such wonderful things, people only laugh because they regret that they can't do the same thing and have the balls to sing out loud. [editline]15th April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=thewhitz;40289512]Had sex with a girl last night multiple times (shit was intense) even though i'm supposed to be seeing another girl. I'm a terrible person. Oh well.[/QUOTE] You're how old? Are you two getting married? I made a mistake once in my relationship, no I never told my girl, and it ate me alive for awhile, but then I realized I was young and stupid. You make mistakes, don't let them control you though.

I'm cheap when I buy things for myself but I'm terrible with money when I buy stuff for others I have no friends, I can't talk to strangers and even typing makes me nervous. I've only felt comfortable using voice commands in TF2 I'm in my second year of college and I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm constantly aware I'm wasting the best years of my life.

Every time i look back at stuff iv done and written, i just cringe. And i always think i've changed socially for the better, then look back a year later and see that i looked and acted like an annoying dumbass. That being said, i think i changed for the better this year. I'll let you guys know in a year

Massive consumption of incest doushinji at the age of 13 has completely morphed my perception of incest. After trying to brainwash it out of my system, the only thing I could do is not think about it. However, recent browsing of the Fast Anime thread tore those ignored wounds wide open. I found out that characters I have seen in those incest doushinji lo those many years ago actually were anime characters instead of fabricated fuck dolls. Now I'm sitting at my desk, my heart's beating at a dangerously low pace and my jaw's about to rot off from shame. I can never look at anime the same way again. And that's why hentai should never be one's introduction to anything.

When i was like 6 or 7 i licked my dogs anus. It turned around and it made the most creepiest face ever.

Remind me never to go into this thread while eating

I'd give up sex permanently for a happy relationship that lasted atleast 3 months. Like, I'm not even interested in sex. All I want is to be happy in a relationship with a girl I like.

I still sleep with a giant stuffed duck toy from when I was a baby. I'm not adult baby or something like that. Shit's just comfy.

I have brushed my teeth for 4 months without tooth paste. Whenever I do use tooth paste my tounge burns so much I can't keep myself from screaming in massive pain. Does anyone know why this happens?

[QUOTE=Jocke;40291944]I have brushed my teeth for 4 months without tooth paste. Whenever I do use tooth paste my tounge burns so much I can't keep myself from screaming in massive pain. Does anyone know why this happens?[/QUOTE] Visit a dentist, Trust me you want good teeth.

I'm 20, and the closest I've come to a relationship is being in my bed with someone making out for the first time in my life (it was also my first kiss), but I started shivering rapidly and felt extremely nervous. That quickly put the other person off me and they wouldn't take it further, which made me quite upset. I wouldn't have taken it further either because I was so nervous and I'm literally afraid of sex, but I still felt ashamed. It was like "really? you finally get somewhere and now you screw it up like this?" I'm not actually gay, but my sense of dominance is totally warped. If I were to have a relationship with a woman, I would not feel comfortable being dominant. Don't ask why. On a completely different note, I very rarely get mad but when I do I totally lose it. I've broken things quite a few times out of rage, but said rage is always caused by technology screwing up. There is one game in particular for this that really lights my fuse and I'm not sure why, but it's just too entertaining to give up playing for me. I might actually make a thread about the game some day in GDD, it's a quite obscure indie.

I once went a year without drinking water.

[QUOTE=billi999;40292656]I'm not actually gay, but my sense of dominance is totally warped. If I were to have a relationship with a woman, I would not feel comfortable being dominant. Don't ask why.[/QUOTE] 'Dominant' and 'male' aren't synonymous. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being the submissive part of the relationship.

[QUOTE=billi999;40292656]I'm 20, and the closest I've come to a relationship is being in my bed with someone making out for the first time in my life (it was also my first kiss), but I started shivering rapidly and felt extremely nervous. That quickly put the other person off me and they wouldn't take it further, which made me quite upset. I wouldn't have taken it further either because I was so nervous and I'm literally afraid of sex, but I still felt ashamed. It was like "really? you finally get somewhere and now you screw it up like this?" I'm not actually gay, but my sense of dominance is totally warped. If I were to have a relationship with a woman, I would not feel comfortable being dominant. Don't ask why. On a completely different note, I very rarely get mad but when I do I totally lose it. I've broken things quite a few times out of rage, but said rage is always caused by technology screwing up. There is one game in particular for this that really lights my fuse and I'm not sure why, but it's just too entertaining to give up playing for me. I might actually make a thread about the game some day in GDD, it's a quite obscure indie.[/QUOTE] That's actually quite normal. You're usually submissive until your second relationship. It's also okay to be nervous. All the times i've had sex, i was shaking for minutes before, the first two times i couldn't even get hard- It's part of the heat of the moment that revitalizes it though. Anger comes naturally, But i hold a ton of anger i can't let go of, even with therapy. I don't know why.

nobody knows this, but i train dommes [editline]15th April 2013[/editline] i was once subject to "sensory overload" by one of the dommes i was training, and i loved it