What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

My mum bought me condoms before I went to Uni [img]http://forums.jetcareers.com/images/smiley/tinfoil.gif[/img] [sp]I haven't even come close to using them[/sp]

I really like the film Miss congeniality.

A divine being came to me in my dreams and explained the meaning of life to me but I euggghh ... lost the piece of paper I wrote it down on. [SUB]I'm sorry guys [SUB]I really am :([/SUB][/SUB]

I killed my goldfish. With mint. He died for my sins.

People scare me so bad. I'm just terrified to be around them, as though I'm paranoid that they all hate me, even if they don't. I'm even uncomfortable around my friends and family, but I'm still too scared to tell anyone.

I enjoy anal. I'm probably pansexual but I identify as straight because I'm in a committed relationship (coming on 10 years). I enjoy painting my nails and using tame makeup (mineral powder). I would have no problem dressing in womens clothing, because men's clothing selection is generally really awful bland bullshit.

[QUOTE=Alice3173;40287649]Is that a quote from that one Jim Carrey movie?[/QUOTE] Maybe..!

I have had problems with defecating since I was a young child(i had to wear diapers until I was 10) and have just recently gotten better about shitting when I need to instead of holding it in. I claim to have low to no sex drive, but that might be entirely due to how frequently I masturbate. If I could be hairless from the neck down, I would gladly give up a variety of things, including my gender. Unfortunately, that isn't possible without extensive work on my part and I know it. I'm actually a nice guy when I'm away from more than three people in a crowd.

I'm quite terrified of crowds. I can go into a crowd, but if I'm in it for more than 5 minutes I suddenly become scared and look about trying to find an exit. Don't know why, I've just never been able to handle crowds at all.

I watched the full first season of MLP:FiM

I watch My Little Pony. [SUP][SUB][SUB][SUB]please don't hit me[/SUB][/SUB][/SUB][/SUP]

[QUOTE=applemaster;40295299]I watch My Little Pony. [SUP][SUB][SUB][SUB]please don't hit me[/SUB][/SUB][/SUB][/SUP][/QUOTE] If anybody hates you because of that, then they're just assholes.

I have almost died on 2 occasions. One where I almost starved to death because I puked everything out due to the pain and shit. I was lucky a doctor saved me from this and now I'm even a little overweight :v: Second one is where I couldn't eat anything [B]again[/B] and they couldn't get the probe in my nose to force feed me so they put me under narcosis (is that the right word?) and they couldn't get it in either so I basically was getting choked until the oxygen level was 20% where they finally got it in. I have lost a little of my memory and I my short term memory is fucked.

I have the HGEC with BBB mod installed for Oblivion. I keep on a tasteful level with underwear enabled, and looking for a good male body replacer.

[QUOTE=Vodkavia;40295658]Well that's not very deep or dark.[/QUOTE] Well, not on a forum it isn't.

I have an extremely addictive personality. I get addicted to things (drugs, entertainment, anything fun really) really quickly and easy and I get depressed if I can't do them even if I've just started. This means confining myself to no drugs harder than alcohol and MJ.

i used to be scared of people. but after working in retail for 5 years i just fucking hate them now

I sometimes get these thoughts that I'd want to be a girl and it sends a shiver down my spine and it tears me up, but it isn't overwhelming to the point where I constantly feel that I hate being male. Then again, it's the same mind that's always apathetic about everything and I should be getting my shit together but I won't because I'm a piece of shit. I suffer from major panic attacks that are always preceded by giving 0 fucks, and it's always completely irrelevant. Like when my father died after 2 months of sickness, I knew it was coming, but I didn't cry once about him being dead. Instead, I was crying because I missed one day of school and thought it was the end of the world because it was the end of the semester and I still needed to finish some things. [editline]16th April 2013[/editline] I dislike people, it's not that I can't speak to people or whatever because when I'm in a room full of people, I have no trouble striking conversation, I'd just rather be alone.

[QUOTE=Tinter;40295751]If anybody hates you because of that, then they're just assholes.[/QUOTE] Speaking of that, I might have a slight interest in ponies. Result of this was using e621.net as a source for a table.

I'm a horrible hippocrate when it comes to bronies, they are the single and only subculture that I loathe the people it contains [B](until proven otherwise)[/B]. I hate myself for it too and normally I'm open-minded, but if I see you are a brony I see you as a moron, again only until you prove yourself otherwise I think it's because it has a lot to do with how I lost my (internet) ex, he got interested in it without telling me, knowing fully that I already passively disliked the subculture, eventually came out about it then would NEVER shut up about it for months, and I eventually got sick and tired of it and told him the relationship had to end. After that he got one of our mutual friends to tell me I should "burn in a pit of fire". Outside of that, seeing the amount of hateful, rude or otherwise ignorant comments posted by bronies on forums (not here) and youtube (I know, it's youtube comments) just reinforces that instant judgement for me, which I know is dumb.

[SUP][/SUP][QUOTE=WhiteHusky;40296363] Result of this was using e621.net as a source for a table.[/QUOTE] There's the problem. Stick to DeviantART and/or FurAffinity. You will walk out the same person. I may or may not browse the later. [Sp]I do.[/sp]

I have to say this: I have a habit of reacting violently to bad events. People who do horrible things to innocents, though it makes me look like some hero reject, are personal targets of mine to beat up if I ever come across them. If they do something really horrible and come across me, its murder. I just cant stand up to absolute assholes and dickheads and other bad people without really hitting something hard with my fists or atleast sending a insult.

[QUOTE=Durrsly;40296524]There's the problem. Stick to DeviantART and/or FurAffinity. I may or may not browse the later.[/QUOTE] I was on e621 for something (don't ask) and I needed something else too which was a table and the first thing to come to mind is "Search 'Table' on e621" and tables I get along with-you know the rest[URL="http://www.furaffinity.net/user/whiterhusky/"].[/URL]

Which is why if you don't want porn you use rating:safe tags when searching e621.

[QUOTE=billi999;40296502]I'm a horrible hippocrate when it comes to bronies, they are the single and only subculture that I loathe the people it contains [B](until proven otherwise)[/B]. I hate myself for it too and normally I'm open-minded, but if I see you are a brony I see you as a moron, again only until you prove yourself otherwise I think it's because it has a lot to do with how I lost my (internet) ex, he got interested in it without telling me, knowing fully that I already passively disliked the subculture, eventually came out about it then would NEVER shut up about it for months, and I eventually got sick and tired of it and told him the relationship had to end. After that he got one of our mutual friends to tell me I should "burn in a pit of fire". Outside of that, seeing the amount of hateful, rude or otherwise ignorant comments posted by bronies on forums (not here) and youtube (I know, it's youtube comments) just reinforces that instant judgement for me, which I know is dumb.[/QUOTE] I can see why you'd hate bronies, there's a lot of sick ones out there, but its just a few bad apples that ruin the bunch.

[QUOTE=WhiteHusky;40296571]I was on e621 for something (don't ask) and I needed something else too which was a table and the first thing to come to mind is "Search 'Table' on e621" and tables I get along with-you know the rest[URL="http://www.furaffinity.net/user/whiterhusky/"].[/URL][/QUOTE] Complains about porn, links to a porn site. Wonderful job there, top notch post.

I Would do anything to end this current life and restart life as a black teen in ghetto rugged new york and make my come up hustlin in the streets and becoming a rapper & making millions.

i am always lonely, even when surrounded by people i love im too scared to tell anyone, and i hate myself because of that (among other reasons)

I've never had a relationship because I've always been too scared of myself. I know I've always been something of a control freak, I hate not being in control of things, and that I have an extremely short temper. I get major mood swings of a sort, for example, I've gone from joking around and laughing with people to nearly caving their skull in in a matter of seconds. I'm scared of what I might do to somebody who gets too close to me. I feel like everybody deserves better than me. I'll be honest, I ain't got shit as far as looks go, so any appeal lies in my personality. Unless I one day find a girl who likes massively insecure and partially insane guys, I don't think I'll ever get a relationship. When it comes down to it, I'm still not sure if I even want one. In my experience I've always been better off on my own. But then again, for most of my life, I was a cold, distant person, I hated people, and I wouldn't let anybody get too close. Then, when I hit Year 10 of secondary school, something changed. I started opening up to people, becoming extroverted and outgoing, and those last two years of school were the greatest two years of my life so far. I'm just majorly confused. I much prefer somebody to tell me what to do, what to say, and how to say it. I'm terrible at independent thought. I could write like this forever, and I would never explain how I feel, because I don't know myself. I'm like a stranger to my own body, my own mind. It's almost like I'm in the passenger seat as my unconcious mind drives me onward. I hate my inability to describe my thoughts. I keep a journal, and looking back, I can write for hours and hours, and I can never explain how I feel about things. Come to think of it, every entry to my journal would be fitting content for this thread.

I masturbated on the bus once next to a young family of 4. I don't think anyone noticed.