What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

I think some of my thoughts are pretty corrupt. All of the ones I think that are corrupt are based on personal experiences. I once was thinking about homosexuality being a mental disorder.

It sounds stupid but I would actually consider myself addicted to exercise. I used to be borderline obese and then I got healthy and skinny. Now I'm kinda ocd about making sure I dont gain weight. If I eat too many calories in a day I'll go out of my way just to work off whatever little I gained. It sounds like it'd be all good, but spending 2-3+ hours exercising takes up a good deal of time. I'm constantly looking in the mirror just to make sure im staying skinny.

I have trouble speaking with actual words outside of a keyboard. I mess up so often looking for the right word to say to the right person, it would be oft that I would literally just walk away from people and rather sit and stare at a wall all day(I used to do this, except instead of a wall, I just watched TV all day. I was a real fun person to be around when I was a kid, let me tell you.) Sometimes I wonder what my life could of been if I would of been less thoughtful and acted more on impulse. I consider the internet to be a place like this, sometimes, finding the right words to say so no one will get pissed off at you. I find life to be a karmic coin of heads and tails. Truthfully, there's no way to get a coin stuck on it's side without cheating.

I love mountain dew and doritos I eat a huge amount of junk food, and sit infront of a computer all day. Yet, I am skinny as fuck

I make jello pudding at 4 in the morning because I've lost control of my life

[QUOTE=Crash15;40127947]I love [B]mountain dew and doritos[/B] I eat a huge amount of junk food, and sit infront of a computer all day. Yet, I am skinny as fuck[/QUOTE] so is this you? [IMG]http://media.giantbomb.com/uploads/3/34626/1184132-0geoff.jpg[/IMG]

Sometimes I want to punch screaming babies

[QUOTE=DinoJesus;40127756]It sounds stupid but I would actually consider myself addicted to exercise. I used to be borderline obese and then I got healthy and skinny. Now I'm kinda ocd about making sure I dont gain weight. If I eat too many calories in a day I'll go out of my way just to work off whatever little I gained. It sounds like it'd be all good, but spending 2-3+ hours exercising takes up a good deal of time. I'm constantly looking in the mirror just to make sure im staying skinny.[/QUOTE] That's not good at all, I used to be like hat but that eventually leads to anorexia, so I'd slow down.

Last Thanksgiving, I came in the chicken. And then eat. :(

I laugh when I land a killing shot with the Dismemberment Mod. I'm not crazy, but I can't take anything that over the top seriously.

I have latent homosexuality by all signs. To be right, I seem to be bisexual. Not like I like any guys (a thought about even kissing a living man makes me vomit), but I sometimes get erotica fantasies about sucking a dick. At the same time I have a girlfriend. I am shitlessly scared and always fighting myself over that because I don't want it. Let the rainbows rain

[QUOTE=MuffinZerg;40129845]I have latent homosexuality by all signs. To be right, I seem to be bisexual. Not like I like any guys (a thought about even kissing a living man makes me vomit), but I sometimes get erotica fantasies about sucking a dick. At the same time I have a girlfriend. I am shitlessly scared and always fighting myself over that because I don't want it. Let the rainbows rain[/QUOTE] If a bit offensive, I feel for you. If you need someone to chat to, I'm here. Who knows, maybe it's just a phase?

[QUOTE=James xX;40130000]If a bit offensive, I feel for you. If you need someone to chat to, I'm here. Who knows, maybe it's just a phase?[/QUOTE] Thanks for your offer, but I don't quite need help. Funny or not, the only man on Earth I told about that was my girlfriend and she actually understood that. So I always have someone to chat to. [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] Only thing that's bothering me is that I can't get any info on what homosexuality is. All the atricles on the internet are subjective.

[QUOTE=MuffinZerg;40129845]I have latent homosexuality by all signs. To be right, I seem to be bisexual. Not like I like any guys (a thought about even kissing a living man makes me vomit), but I sometimes get erotica fantasies about sucking a dick. At the same time I have a girlfriend. I am shitlessly scared and always fighting myself over that because I don't want it. Let the rainbows rain[/QUOTE] I wouldn't be worried about it, you can be straight and have homoerotic fantasies. Human sexuality is a lot more complicated than being simply gay/straight/bi. I hope that helps some, anyway.

[QUOTE=MuffinZerg;40130034] [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] Only thing that's bothering me is that I can't get any info on what homosexuality is. All the atricles on the internet are subjective.[/QUOTE] Well, being attracted to men. You might be unconventional and only maybe be physically attracted, who knows. Either that, or you have an interesting fetish.

[QUOTE=James xX;40130045]Well, being attracted to men. You might be unconventional and only maybe be physically attracted, who knows. Either that, or you have an interesting fetish.[/QUOTE] In fact I wanted to know what causes it. Not only because I am worried about myself but also because every time there is an agruement about that nobody has any facts or arguments [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=MegaJohnny;40130041]I wouldn't be worried about it, you can be straight and have homoerotic fantasies. Human sexuality is a lot more complicated than being simply gay/straight/bi. I hope that helps some, anyway.[/QUOTE] that actually helps as a new point of view.

[QUOTE=MuffinZerg;40130090]In fact I wanted to know what causes it. Not only because I am worried about myself but also because every time there is an agruement about that nobody has any facts or arguments [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] that actually helps as a new point of view.[/QUOTE] Nothing causes it. (Unless you're subscribed to christianity, in which case it's masturbation that causes it :v: ). You shouldn't be worried though, you can always ignore these feelings. Maybe you should try and accept what is, first though, before trying to find a reason for it.

[QUOTE=James xX;40130105]Nothing causes it. (Unless you're subscribed to christianity, in which case it's masturbation that causes it :v: ). You shouldn't be worried though, you can always ignore these feelings. Maybe you should try and accept what is, first though, before trying to find a reason for it.[/QUOTE] The toughest shit was admitting all that. Thanks for the help, but let's not derail the thread.

I [I]never[/I] poop outside of my home (or current place of residence, if I'm elsewhere).

[QUOTE=Ezhik;40130120]I [I]never[/I] poop outside of my home (or current place of residence, if I'm elsewhere).[/QUOTE] i'm the opposite. i shit whenever i have to, usually always, i can't stand having to shit. i always cover the toilet seats with 2 layers of toilet paper though (at the very least), 90% of public bathrooms have the thinnest paper of all time. i've probably wasted a fuckton of paper.

I'm scared of elevators and will cry if I go in one.

[QUOTE=Ezhik;40130120]I [I]never[/I] poop outside of my home (or current place of residence, if I'm elsewhere).[/QUOTE] Oh hey I do that to but I get so bad about it. I can make myself feel really sick without the feeling of constipation. It's also really hard for me to take a piss in public too.

I sleep with a teddybear.

I am christian but i just can't stand religion.

I once punched myself in the eye while sleeping. I lost all feeling on the left side of my face for 2 months. Do you know how hard it is to drink when you can't feel your lips?

As bad as I feel about it, I partially blame my difficulty arguing things for myself on my mother. She made a joke about me when I was like 11 that really missed and was offensive on a personal level and I expressed my distaste and it ended in her yelling and grabbing me by the neck and twisting it around and shit. I can't remember exactly what it was, but I feel like that had some part.

Back in junior year of high school I faked having mono to get out of taking exams. I'm scum.

I like turtles.

[QUOTE=James xX;40131631]I once punched myself in the eye while sleeping. I lost all feeling on the left side of my face for 2 months. Do you know how hard it is to drink when you can't feel your lips?[/QUOTE] How do you even punch yourself that hard

[QUOTE=RearAdmiral;40132779]How do you even punch yourself that hard[/QUOTE] I have very bad nightmares.