What's the deepest, darkest secret of yours that you would be willing to post on a public forum? - General

I organized and made a portfolio entitled "CLASSIFIED" Directory, it has every pornstar that I was ever aroused to. I wrote their name and add a photo and linked to their most likely site to track em.

When I was 6 my toddler brother used to lick and suck my penis in the tub when our mother bathed us. [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] I never understood (until now obviously) what was going on and why my mother laughed profoundly while she tried to get him to stop.

[QUOTE=Period;40134842]When I was 6 my toddler brother used to lick and suck my penis in the tub when our mother bathed us. [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] I never understood (until now obviously) what was going on and why my mother laughed profoundly while she tried to get him to stop.[/QUOTE] this thread escalated quickly anyway im fucking terrified of being judged in the slightest, so much so i spend an hour making sure i don't look awful even if im just walking to tescos to get some milk

[QUOTE=Leg of Doom;40107098]I was abrupt with a stranger[/QUOTE] It was a kid about 10 years old he ask me for the time and without stopping i said i didn't know but i did know i was wearing a watch it was 3.06pm I feel a great shame ever since

[QUOTE=Kirbyfactor;40131355]I sleep with a teddybear.[/QUOTE] I sleep with a stuffed moo cow, I feel like I'll have nightmares without it.

I sometimes feel that I hold myself hostage as a means of getting attention. I've not flat-out threatened to kill myself, though.

I just wrote a fuck-long post and accidentally closed the tab. Fuck me. I'm just going to retype the last line: What makes me saddest of all is that there are so many things I can't express and I have this nagging feeling in my stomach that I'm not content with my life and it's like a boulder weighing me down.

I have never seen the Lion King.

Fuck that. In short I want to find my soulmate but I think it's impossible to find a physically attractive woman that shares a sizable part of my interests. I hate that. I often feel that what I consider my best friends don't feel back the same. What makes it worse is that are only a few of them. Honestly, if I lose my last couple of friends, I would contemplate suicide. I usually feel like I'm smarter than everyone else around me and I honestly don't know if it's a massive ego complex or if it's really like that. I want to be everyone's mentor (not role model) This is partly why I love Facepunch - everyone is equal under the mask of anonymity. I don't know what I'd do without you. I often think about the Universe and how beautiful, amazing and massive it is. I love talking about it too. I love smooth jazz and I regularly listen to classical music. A lot of people think I do it for attention which is confusing for me. I firmly believe that reputation is everything and I fight to keep mine. Although I have never actually gotten into a real, bloody fight. Just a few scruffs. Also, I don't really have any female friends. Like... None. Along with barely having any friends... *following is my previous post because fuck key shortcuts seriously. [editline]3rd April 2013[/editline] I also really, really, really want to be very rich not because of the luxury, but because of the freedom to do anything. Like for instance buy my best friend a brand new bike just to see him happy. Or donate someone a wad of cash or even something as fucking simple as a goddamn sandwich. I feel like I'm losing my grip while thinking about all these things so I'll just go to bed. It still feels nice to know that someone out there read this. Maybe there's even someone out there who feels the same way as I do...

[QUOTE=Stopper;40137746]Fuck that. In short I want to find my soulmate but I think it's impossible to find a physically attractive woman that shares a sizable part of my interests. I hate that. I often feel that what I consider my best friends don't feel back the same. What makes it worse is that are only a few of them. Honestly, if I lose my last couple of friends, I would contemplate suicide. I usually feel like I'm smarter than everyone else around me and I honestly don't know if it's a massive ego complex or if it's really like that. I want to be everyone's mentor (not role model) This is partly why I love Facepunch - everyone is equal under the mask of anonymity. I don't know what I'd do without you. I often think about the Universe and how beautiful, amazing and massive it is. I love talking about it too. I love smooth jazz and I regularly listen to classical music. A lot of people think I do it for attention which is confusing for me. I firmly believe that reputation is everything and I fight to keep mine. Although I have never actually gotten into a real, bloody fight. Just a few scruffs. Also, I don't really have any female friends. Like... None. Along with barely having any friends... *following is my previous post because fuck key shortcuts seriously. [editline]3rd April 2013[/editline] I also really, really, really want to be very rich not because of the luxury, but because of the freedom to do anything. Like for instance buy my best friend a brand new bike just to see him happy. Or donate someone a wad of cash or even something as fucking simple as a goddamn sandwich. I feel like I'm losing my grip while thinking about all these things so I'll just go to bed. It still feels nice to know that someone out there read this. Maybe there's even someone out there who feels the same way as I do...[/QUOTE] I want to be rich because I love power. I could easily ruin someones life just so I could become a millionaire, or even half that; and afterwards I would feel no remorse or regret.

I have 4 characters I roleplay as on the net. One of them has a certain like with the yellow snow... [sub][sub][Trust me on this, I don't plan to involve it in my real life.][/sub][/sub]

I have no idea of what I'm going to do with my life.

[QUOTE=Liem;40089545]I'm horrified that one day I'm going to die, and then no one will remember me. I'll be just another name on a tombstone in some backwater town. [editline]29th March 2013[/editline] Also this[/QUOTE] me too buddy I feel like ill die alone

[QUOTE=Ezhik;40130120]I [I]never[/I] poop outside of my home (or current place of residence, if I'm elsewhere).[/QUOTE] I've done it a few times when I had to. One time I was going out in the evening so I left class early to go and shit in my ex-girlfriend's. [editline]3rd April 2013[/editline] I should probably mention that we were together at the time.

[QUOTE=Period;40134842]When I was 6 my toddler brother used to lick and suck my penis in the tub when our mother bathed us. [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] I never understood (until now obviously) what was going on and why my mother laughed profoundly while she tried to get him to stop.[/QUOTE] Does your brother know/remember or is it yours and your moms little secret?

I´m so afraid that I can´t talk to new people, that is why I cant get any new friends, yet when I´m on the internet I can talk fine with people When I´m with new people, my brain goes blank and I dont know what topic to talk about

[QUOTE=James xX;40095161]I couldn't have put that any better for myself. I think you described me perfectly.[/QUOTE] new friends? [editline]2nd April 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=James xX;40095161]I couldn't have put that any better for myself. I think you described me perfectly.[/QUOTE] new friends?

[QUOTE=supersoldier58;40138097]Does your brother know/remember or is it yours and your moms little secret?[/QUOTE] Our secret, he was too young to possibly remember.

[QUOTE=TheWarnman;40130162]I'm scared of elevators and will cry if I go in one.[/QUOTE] Oh god elevators freak me out too. Whenever a group of people decide to use the elevator, I'm always that one person who opts for the stairs. Whenever Im in one I always grip onto the handlebars for dear life.

I once fingered myself in an airplane toilet on a college trip back from Prague.

I started panicking when an elevator started making sounds not unlike the one in Black Mesa right after the Resonance Cascade.

I can't be both sexually attracted, and emotionally attached to someone at the same time.

[QUOTE=Stopper;40137746]Fuck that. In short I want to find my soulmate but I think it's impossible to find a physically attractive woman that shares a sizable part of my interests. I hate that. I often feel that what I consider my best friends don't feel back the same. What makes it worse is that are only a few of them. Honestly, if I lose my last couple of friends, I would contemplate suicide. I usually feel like I'm smarter than everyone else around me and I honestly don't know if it's a massive ego complex or if it's really like that. I want to be everyone's mentor (not role model) This is partly why I love Facepunch - everyone is equal under the mask of anonymity. I don't know what I'd do without you. I often think about the Universe and how beautiful, amazing and massive it is. I love talking about it too. I love smooth jazz and I regularly listen to classical music. A lot of people think I do it for attention which is confusing for me. I firmly believe that reputation is everything and I fight to keep mine. Although I have never actually gotten into a real, bloody fight. Just a few scruffs. Also, I don't really have any female friends. Like... None. Along with barely having any friends... *following is my previous post because fuck key shortcuts seriously. [editline]3rd April 2013[/editline] I also really, really, really want to be very rich not because of the luxury, but because of the freedom to do anything. Like for instance buy my best friend a brand new bike just to see him happy. Or donate someone a wad of cash or even something as fucking simple as a goddamn sandwich. I feel like I'm losing my grip while thinking about all these things so I'll just go to bed. It still feels nice to know that someone out there read this. Maybe there's even someone out there who feels the same way as I do...[/QUOTE] I feel like that

I'm not equally comfortable around all races in person.

[QUOTE=Ausare;40138767]I'm not equally comfortable around all races in person.[/QUOTE] That happens when you grow up in a town with 99% white population.

I'm actually gay. I might be sadistic sometimes and attempt to break up any relationships I find. (Trick someone into thinking his lover cheated on him with me and etc.) The reason is that I had like 20 relationships. Most of them went for some stupid girls. Bisexuality is bullshit. When I was little kid, I was deaf without cochlear implant for 5 years, therefore I cannot/barely understand any human voices but my grandmother's and few ones. I'm trying to learn how to speak and understand human voices just fine.

I have periods of extreme apathy and lack of emotion to the point I wonder if I'm a sociopath. I don't care for people around me in my day to day life and feel like the girls at my school treat me like a dog. I work out compulsively and have a thing for gore and have fantasized about dating a dick girl before. knives and choking excite me. I hate small children, like toddlers any sound from them just irritates me. I've had periods of extreme depression and often wondered if my family would be happier if I was gone... this is tempered with the total opposite of those feelings. I'm here if anyone needs to talk just inbox me.

[QUOTE=Minimole;40137246]I sleep with a stuffed moo cow, I feel like I'll have nightmares without it.[/QUOTE] I [i]do[/i] have nightmares without my stuffed octopus.

I don't feel like I belong anywhere. [QUOTE=Desuh;40097324]I wish I was a (cute) girl.[/QUOTE]

I might be evil and not know it.