Shit You'd Like to Confess V3 I'm not into incest but my sister is hot - General

[QUOTE=matt000024;50106763]I have developed this strange half-phobia that when I die my life will restart, but play out exactly the same with a feeling of having been here before and knowing that all I experience will be experienced exactly the same way again. This scares the shit out of me honestly.[/QUOTE] My mother has this feeling about her life too. My confession is I has come upon some misfortune where I not myself any more. I used to really not want to hurt people. Over compassion one might say. Now I am beginning to get joy whenever I see or hear about people suffering. Its scaring me.

[QUOTE=Daysofwinter;50108439]My mother has this feeling about her life too. My confession is I has come upon some misfortune where I not myself any more. I used to really not want to hurt people. Over compassion one might say. Now I am beginning to get joy whenever I see or hear about people suffering. Its scaring me.[/QUOTE] only so many fucks you can give, with all the shitty news what is more suffering than just another drop in the sea.

My ex-girlfriend just blew me in a parking lot

[QUOTE=elevate;50108367]They were all the rage when I was growing up but damn those cameras they used.[/QUOTE] bubsy 3d 👌

"Literally a platformer"

[QUOTE=gazzy_GUI;50109348]only so many fucks you can give, with all the shitty news what is more suffering than just another drop in the sea.[/QUOTE] Ehh I think you missed the point of the post. Its not about the bad going on in the world, but my reaction to it due to changes I'm dealing with. In short, I'm turning into a monster and that not what I want.

I might be a lot colder than I think I am. My grandma's probably on her deathbed right now. She suffered a stroke and there's nothing they could do about it. Her conditions went to critical this morning and everyone was called to the hospital. When I got the phone call I took my sweet ass time, cleaned my room, emptied the trash, washed the dishes, everyone's going there to say their final words and shit and I came just because I thought it was a moral obligation. Don't get me wrong, I fuckin love my grandma shes the best and shit but damn, I feel nothing at the thought of her death, I'm completely fine with it, its like if she dies then she dies. The whole time we were at the hospital everyone was crying and stuff and I was just standing there with this flat face. If anyone could read faces very well it probably even said "I rather not be here right now".

You are not the only one. Detachment was my feeling when my grandmother died. A friend of mine years ago had some one else die too. He felt nothing either. It just is. At least the reaction more respectful then how my 4 year old self acted when one of my great aunties died. Everyone was crying and there I was going around saying "Wheres the body wheres the body! I wanna see the body. This going be awesome."

[QUOTE=adam1172;50110501]I might be a lot colder than I think I am. My grandma's probably on her deathbed right now. She suffered a stroke and there's nothing they could do about it. Her conditions went to critical this morning and everyone was called to the hospital. When I got the phone call I took my sweet ass time, cleaned my room, emptied the trash, washed the dishes, everyone's going there to say their final words and shit and I came just because I thought it was a moral obligation. Don't get me wrong, I fuckin love my grandma shes the best and shit but damn, I feel nothing at the thought of her death, I'm completely fine with it, its like if she dies then she dies. The whole time we were at the hospital everyone was crying and stuff and I was just standing there with this flat face. If anyone could read faces very well it probably even said "I rather not be here right now".[/QUOTE] For some, its a delayed reaction. Somewhere, down the line, it'll hit you like a sack of bricks. For others, you may not have a reaction at all. It doesn't mean you're cold exactly, but possibly emotionally strong enough to deal with it and cope accordingly. Then there's those that have been through it before, and have basically become numb to it. I've went through three funerals of people I was really close to. Grandmother, uncle, and cousin. Grew up knowing all three of them. Grandmother's death, I cried my fucking eyes out. Uncle's death, cried a bit but not much. Cousin, not a single tear. I was stone faced through his entire wake. I know I was supposed to cry or show SOME kind of emotion, but I just didn't. [editline]11th April 2016[/editline] That's just my views and experiences on it, really.

[QUOTE=Skunky;50104500]It's [I]okay[/I].[/QUOTE] at best maybe. i'm just highly critical about basically every aspect of the fandom despite having the interest.

[QUOTE=adam1172;50110501]I might be a lot colder than I think I am. My grandma's probably on her deathbed right now. She suffered a stroke and there's nothing they could do about it. Her conditions went to critical this morning and everyone was called to the hospital. When I got the phone call I took my sweet ass time, cleaned my room, emptied the trash, washed the dishes, everyone's going there to say their final words and shit and I came just because I thought it was a moral obligation. Don't get me wrong, I fuckin love my grandma shes the best and shit but damn, I feel nothing at the thought of her death, I'm completely fine with it, its like if she dies then she dies. The whole time we were at the hospital everyone was crying and stuff and I was just standing there with this flat face. If anyone could read faces very well it probably even said "I rather not be here right now".[/QUOTE] Not everyone reacts to death with tears and breaking down. When my grandfather passed away last Summer, when my brother told me, I didn't cry. I barely sobbed. I shed a few tears, but that was about it. Even at the funeral I didn't really cry. After a while though, when it really hit me I'd never see him again, I cried. It was at night and everyone else had gone to sleep. So I ended up crying myself to sleep because of it. Like Infab said, some just have a delayed reaction. I'm one of those.

[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;50110648]Think I'm the worst when it comes to dealing with deaths. My mothers death knocked me so far down it's been years and I'm not even close to letting go. I still need to go back and see her grave. Celebrity deaths hit me too hard as well. Cried when Leonard Nimoy died. Cried when Phillip Seymour Hoffman died. Especially when Robin Williams died. Really don't know if I'm overly sensitive but I don't want to be insensitive. [editline]11th April 2016[/editline] I didn't show up to school when my mother died because when I cry I can't handle anything else. I've missed high school days as well because of this. I'm fucked up because of that. Guess I'm still human and I know it's okay to cry but when you grieve for years you really gotta move on. I just can't. I don't know why.[/QUOTE] Well it was your mother. Literally your closest family for most people. It's not always easy to just move on. Sometimes we're struck by something so hard it takes what feels like an eternity to recover. My mother currently has something in her throat. She says it bothers her, but it doesn't hurt. Her doctor says it's probably nothing, but she is currently at the hospital to have it checked anyway, just in case. I have a gnawing fear it might be throat cancer, or something else that's just as malign. And I don't even want to imagine what it'd be like if I lost my own mom.

When I was 14 my family was going to move to a gated neighborhood, those places are fine as long as you live in there, otherwise you'll hate them, but then daddy thought it was cool to cheat on mom 3 times then quit his job and go full retard. I've always been a little bit butthurt when I pass through those places. When your family has cash and then loses nearly all of it, feels like shit, but I dunno. Going through that changed me a lot.

i have very cryptic steam names that I'm fairly sure very few people understand they're actually just song lyrics appended to my current online alias

That girl didn't show up for coffee like agreed. Feel better now that I've slept, but I'm still bummed. I just feel useless I guess, and continously confounded as to where guys find chicks dtf and give blowjobs in parking lots and to do kinky shit with, without being in a realtionship.

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It's not even like I nessecarily want an fwb sort of situation, but like where does everyone find people so open to talking about sex n shit. Like, maybe it's just because ofnhow I was raised its such a foreign idea to me.

[QUOTE=kilerabv;50106554]Normal people usually pause a movie/show/video when they have to go and take a shit. Not me. I increase the volume and move my laptop so I can continue to watch what I'm watching by looking at it's reflection in the mirror while I'm taking a shit.[/QUOTE] Hey man I do sort of the same thing. I'll have my torrents folder shared with the homegroup. So then when I have to take a shit, I pause it on my laptop. Move to the toilet, leave the door open (my parents' PC faces the door opening), open the file through the homegroup thingie and continue watching. I also grab the wireless mouse so I can pauze and minimize it and close the door in case they come up. Actually I don't know what I'd do if they come up, how do I explain having the mouse on the toilet with a closed door? :v:

"Weird porn. Just close the door!"

I've come to realise that I'm extremely emotionally dependant on music. Listening to a positive song will immediately make me happy, without fail.

Only times I check what's happening on facebook is when I am taking a shit.

I'm trying to get into this girl's pants despite the fact that she already has a boyfriend. I've even met him a couple times. Feels a bit dirty but I think she might be into me.

[QUOTE=bdd458;50111676]It's not even like I nessecarily want an fwb sort of situation, but like where does everyone find people so open to talking about sex n shit. Like, maybe it's just because ofnhow I was raised its such a foreign idea to me.[/QUOTE] It's the internet I doubt people would say half the things they say online

[QUOTE=Qwerty Bastard;50113000]I'm trying to get into this girl's pants despite the fact that she already has a boyfriend. I've even met him a couple times. Feels a bit dirty but I think she might be into me.[/QUOTE] Don't do it, man. [editline]11th April 2016[/editline] Really, don't be that asshole that fucks someone else's girlfriend.

[QUOTE=Qwerty Bastard;50113000]I'm trying to get into this girl's pants despite the fact that she already has a boyfriend. I've even met him a couple times. Feels a bit dirty but I think she might be into me.[/QUOTE] Legitimately the biggest prick move I can think of, outside of fucking someone who's married. Don't be a cunt, dude. [editline]hiding stuff in here is fun :3[/editline] While I'm here, I might as well confess that even though gaming's probably my biggest hobby, I spend more time reading about them than I do playing them.

So I work the local college IT help desk here at my college, and due to the medicine I take/diseases I have, I've been having to call in a little more frequently than is considered 'normal' due to it. I got a piece of mail highlighting this and my supervisor seems like they're gonna give me a strike over it. My work ethic is out there, and disappointing people like this makes me want to just keel over and die. I try my best to not rely on an 'excuse' like what I have, just so I can be on the same level as other people, but sometimes it takes a hold of me and I simply can't come in at all. It's not like school work where I can make it up later and say everything's A-OK.

[QUOTE=Lurker;50112903]Only times I check what's happening on facebook is when I am taking a shit.[/QUOTE] You ever give people replies I just made something that reminds me of you?

i was walking home and thinking about life while music was playing in my ears, i stop thinking and listen to the music and the verse literally describes exactly the situation im thinking about currently in my life. it was so fucking weird but pleasant

i feel like im forgetting something...

[QUOTE=da space core;50115220]i feel like im forgetting something...[/QUOTE] Pay your debts you cheapskate, you owe me $200