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Snippy, I was super ninja'd. How long have you had the alternate personalities for? Did the depressed one come before the angry one, or did they come together?

[QUOTE=SystemSodomy;34480733]Snippy, I was super ninja'd. How long have you had the alternate personalities for? Did the depressed one come before the angry one, or did they come together?[/QUOTE] [QUOTE='[Green];34480685'] possibility of [B][U]Waltz[/U][/B] being the actual me [/QUOTE] They came pretty much together, slowly rising in intensity. The depressed guy sticked around for about 4.3 years before starting to weaken and disappear. It left my cranium about three months ago. Waltz however is still here, just kind of helplessly imprisoned in the darkest corner of my mind. Just because I don't like it and I know it doesn't like me in a way that I could approve it.

did you blow up a ton of banks and shit

[QUOTE=geogzm;34480823]did you blow up a ton of banks and shit[/QUOTE] No.

How would the switch between 2 personalities feel like? Eg. Is it like first you are 'normal', then *snap*, your personality just changes and you see the world differently? How aware were you of these changes, how did it feel to have differing motives in a short time? I can't really imagine. Interesting thread.

Did you ever start a fight club?

[QUOTE=Hell0;34480889]How would the switch between 2 personalities feel like? Eg. Is it like first you are 'normal', then *snap*, your personality just changes and you see the world differently? How aware were you of these changes, how did it feel to have differing motives in a short time? I can't really imagine. Interesting thread.[/QUOTE] It's an experience that's kind of hard to describe and every time there are slight differences. Luckily I can be at least partially conscious during submission, while some people are completely shut out and only experience amnesia. I'll try my best to describe the exchange. Basically, it starts out with exhaling. My body kind of relaxes for a split second and I feel incredibly tired. My vision kind of shoots tens of meters forward as if they were monitors in front of my eyes just pulled away into darkness. I can still see what's going on in them but it's distant and not nearly as detailed. Around me is just dark. I don't have a body anymore, but through my "monitor eyes" I can see Waltz looking through my eyes, moving around and squeezing my hands together as a test of sorts. If he/she touches something, I only feel a very faint experience of it. Even pain is very dull and distant. Everything that I hear is like it's put through meters of fabric, very muffled and quiet but most of the times understandable. It's incredibly relaxing, giving a similar feeling as to taking a very hot shower after pulling an all-nighter and just falling on top of the bed, pulling yourself between the sheets and getting that incredibly warm and snugly feeling. I've never wanted to give in to the feeling, however. I don't know exactly what would happen but I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be anything good. When I want to take control again, I just think about squeezing my fists into themselves so hard my knuckles go white. That feeling of muscle tension brings me back to the surface and kind of pulls me back into my body. I feel a small shake and then raise my head again, usually in a different place since Waltz likes to move around. [editline]31st January 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=Speedstream;34481045]Did you ever start a fight club?[/QUOTE] also no

ITT: OP's alternate personality takes over and claims to be the main one. Yeah right, nice try.

[QUOTE=AceOfDivine;34481202]ITT: OP's alternate personality takes over and claims to be the main one. Yeah right, nice try.[/QUOTE] I'm pretty sure the therapist would've noticed if I was taken over by a separate personality since he's trained to see that kind of thing. Besides, knowing the alternate personality's behaviour, I'd be in prison by now.

[QUOTE='[Green];34481069']It's an experience that's kind of hard to describe and every time there are slight differences. Luckily I can be at least partially conscious during submission, while some people are completely shut out and only experience amnesia. I'll try my best to describe the exchange. Basically, it starts out with exhaling. My body kind of relaxes for a split second and I feel incredibly tired. My vision kind of shoots tens of meters forward as if they were monitors in front of my eyes just pulled away into darkness. I can still see what's going on in them but it's distant and not nearly as detailed. Around me is just dark. I don't have a body anymore, but through my "monitor eyes" I can see Waltz looking through my eyes, moving around and squeezing my hands together as a test of sorts. If he/she touches something, I only feel a very faint experience of it. Even pain is very dull and distant. Everything that I hear is like it's put through meters of fabric, very muffled and quiet but most of the times understandable. It's incredibly relaxing, giving a similar feeling as to taking a very hot shower after pulling an all-nighter and just falling on top of the bed, pulling yourself between the sheets and getting that incredibly warm and snugly feeling. I've never wanted to give in to the feeling, however. I don't know exactly what would happen but I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be anything good. When I want to take control again, I just think about squeezing my fists into themselves so hard my knuckles go white. That feeling of muscle tension brings me back to the surface and kind of pulls me back into my body. I feel a small shake and then raise my head again, usually in a different place since Waltz likes to move around. [editline]31st January 2012[/editline] [/QUOTE] So wait, you go on some sort of an autopilot (an evil autopilot in this case) when you are not 'yourself'? I thought you had control all the time, just that your thinking would suddenly change. Fascinating.

[QUOTE=Hell0;34481437]So wait, you go on some sort of an autopilot (an evil autopilot in this case) when you are not 'yourself'? I thought you had control all the time, just that your thinking would suddenly change. Fascinating.[/QUOTE] Yeah, if you think about it that way. Autopilot does what you want, however. Waltz doesn't really listen to what I tell it to do. At all.

[QUOTE='[Green];34481738']Yeah, if you think about it that way. Autopilot does what you want, however. Waltz doesn't really listen to what I tell it to do. At all.[/QUOTE] That's pretty damn scary. Makes me think what if there can be multiple conscious entities in the same brain. I don't think that's the case, but just... It's so hard to imagine.

[QUOTE=Hell0;34481835]That's pretty damn scary. Makes me think what if there can be multiple conscious entities in the same brain. I don't think that's the case, but just... It's so hard to imagine.[/QUOTE] If you're talking about what I think you are, it's what I have to an extent. I can communicate with Waltz any time I want as long as he/she co-operates with me. However, when he/she is the dominant one, communication seems to break off completely and I can't really make any interaction. Or it could be just that I'm being massively ignored. Not all MPD cases are unconscious ones. Some are co-conscious and I guess you could refer to it as a snake's tongue. It starts as one from the bottom but splits in the end. In a way Waltz and I are the same person but our values, morals and even hobbies are completely different. I think Waltz is a huge dick and she things I'm a total pussy-ass beta male that should get real and kill everyone except the women, which I should make as many kids with. [I]How animal-like.[/I] Sorry if that sounds confusing, it's really hard to put into words.

[QUOTE='[Green];34481867']If you're talking about what I think you are, it's what I have to an extent. I can communicate with Waltz any time I want as long as he/she co-operates with me. However, when he/she is the dominant one, communication seems to break off completely and I can't really make any interaction. Or it could be just that I'm being massively ignored. Not all MPD cases are unconscious ones. Some are co-conscious and I guess you could refer to it as a snake's tongue. It starts as one from the bottom but splits in the end. In a way Waltz and I are the same person but our values, morals and even hobbies are completely different. I think Waltz is a huge dick and she things I'm a total pussy-ass beta male that should get real and kill everyone except the women, which I should make as many kids with. [I]How animal-like.[/I] Sorry if that sounds confusing, it's really hard to put into words.[/QUOTE] That's pretty amazing and scary at the same time. Now I kind of get what you mean — Like the same consciousness shared by two personalities? Did you have some sort of a traumatic experience as a kid, or did the syndrome just develop by itself?

[QUOTE='[Green];34476834']Because murder is wrong.[/QUOTE] I love that this post has 3 disagrees

[QUOTE=Hell0;34481948]That's pretty amazing and scary at the same time. Now I kind of get what you mean — Like the same consciousness shared by two personalities? Did you have some sort of a traumatic experience as a kid, or did the syndrome just develop by itself?[/QUOTE] I had more than one traumatic experience as well as a lot of stress. At one point I even suffered from tic-symptoms which were actually a real pain in the ass. The same consciousness is p. much shared by two personalities, that's a really good way to put it. If you think of consciousness as a bubble, the personality is the air inside it. Usually MPD has two bubbles, each with a little piece of air in each one. In my case, there's one bubble with two...pieces of air? Fuck the metaphor kind of lost it's sense, but I hope you get where I'm coming from. Anyways, that's a pretty neat way of putting it.

[QUOTE='[Green];34482099']I had more than one traumatic experience as well as a lot of stress. At one point I even suffered from tic-symptoms which were actually a real pain in the ass. The same consciousness is p. much shared by two personalities, that's a really good way to put it. If you think of consciousness as a bubble, the personality is the air inside it. Usually MPD has two bubbles, each with a little piece of air in each one. In my case, there's one bubble with two...pieces of air? Fuck the metaphor kind of lost it's sense, but I hope you get where I'm coming from. Anyways, that's a pretty neat way of putting it.[/QUOTE] Alright, thanks for sharing your experiences with MPD. It's quite something to think about... I hope you can fully recover from it.

[QUOTE=Hell0;34482209]Alright, thanks for sharing your experiences with MPD. It's quite something to think about... I hope you can fully recover from it.[/QUOTE] I will, thanks for the support. Appreciate it, man.

Who thought up the name Waltz? You or your alt?

I have a similar poblem Sometimes there is some kind of a douchbag inside me. ficking pisses me off. Wait, damn that is just me.. Have you gotten into a fight and then let the Waltz control you? You can see what happens n shit but having a reason if you get in trouble, saying that you have.multiple personalities. Or well, what is the worst thing you have let the other personalities do? Have you let them to play games in your PC maybe? Try some war game maybe

[QUOTE=Mr. Gency;34482306]Who thought up the name Waltz? You or your alt?[/QUOTE] I got tired of calling it/him/her "it" so I asked what it's name was. It refused for a while but then one day answered casually "Just call me Valtsu or something." Now, Valtsu is kind of finnish so it twisted into Waltz later on. [QUOTE=tratzzz;34482418]I have a similar poblem Sometimes there is some kind of a douchbag inside me. ficking pisses me off. Wait, damn that is just me.. Have you gotten into a fight and then let the Waltz control you? You can see what happens n shit but having a reason if you get in trouble, saying that you have.multiple personalities. Or well, what is the worst thing you have let the other personalities do? Have you let them to play games in your PC maybe? Try some war game maybe[/QUOTE] I don't want to let them do anything, really. I want them to stay in my mind and stop interfering with my life. And about the fights, well . . . Ever since I knew of this, I've tried my best to avoid fights. Excluding a few dangerously close calls, I've managed to avoid fighting since high school is easy and last grades of grade school were also pretty chill. People teased me, yeah, but over 13 people got less and less physical so I wasn't in a danger to get into a fight. Frankly I think I'd lose control regardless of my half-decent control over my mind normally. I just don't really bode well with real life violence, I rather take an exit door than something solid to bash the attacker with. Sadly, Waltz herself has told me that he wouldn't stop attacking just because it's illegal and would kill anyone who attacked me should it get down to her power to decide. That's a good enough reason for me to keep him locked up. MPD is never a valid excuse. If something happens and my hands were at fault, it's just as well my fault for not taking control of my actions. Think of it as having a 2-year old kid in a store. The kid opens up a candy bar and starts eating it without even buying it. Obviously as a parent you should stop the kid from doing that since it's your responsibility. You could easily live without the kid but the kid needs you for guidance and making limitations.

[QUOTE='[Green];34481069']It's an experience that's kind of hard to describe and every time there are slight differences. Luckily I can be at least partially conscious during submission, while some people are completely shut out and only experience amnesia. I'll try my best to describe the exchange. Basically, it starts out with exhaling. My body kind of relaxes for a split second and I feel incredibly tired. My vision kind of shoots tens of meters forward as if they were monitors in front of my eyes just pulled away into darkness. I can still see what's going on in them but it's distant and not nearly as detailed. Around me is just dark. I don't have a body anymore, but through my "monitor eyes" I can see Waltz looking through my eyes, moving around and squeezing my hands together as a test of sorts. If he/she touches something, I only feel a very faint experience of it. Even pain is very dull and distant. Everything that I hear is like it's put through meters of fabric, very muffled and quiet but most of the times understandable. It's incredibly relaxing, giving a similar feeling as to taking a very hot shower after pulling an all-nighter and just falling on top of the bed, pulling yourself between the sheets and getting that incredibly warm and snugly feeling. I've never wanted to give in to the feeling, however. I don't know exactly what would happen but I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be anything good. When I want to take control again, I just think about squeezing my fists into themselves so hard my knuckles go white. That feeling of muscle tension brings me back to the surface and kind of pulls me back into my body. I feel a small shake and then raise my head again, usually in a different place since Waltz likes to move around. [editline]31st January 2012[/editline] also no[/QUOTE] Are there any times when you willingly let this other personality take over?

[QUOTE=st_nick5;34482684]Are there any times when you willingly let this other personality take over?[/QUOTE] Very rarely.

[QUOTE='[Green];34482734']Very rarely.[/QUOTE] Care to share the circumstances that led you to switch to the other personality willingly?

[QUOTE=st_nick5;34482813]Care to share the circumstances that led you to switch to the other personality willingly?[/QUOTE] If I really need to get somewhere quickly. Waltz seems to be a pro at muscle control and does these weird turns that gets me to trains that I'd usually miss. Thankfully I don't really lean back, instead I figuratively keep my hand on his shoulder, ready to pull her back into the pit if he does anything suspicious like start heading for some random pedestrian with greedy eyes and licking my lips.

Is your other personality finnish as well and in your head does your personality speak finnish or english

Is it the same as bipolar?

[QUOTE=Irak;34482994]Is your other personality finnish as well and in your head does your personality speak finnish or english[/QUOTE] It switches between the two. Usually it tends to use finnish in more casual conversations and in "jokes" like: *Hey, think about how much fat would come out of that guy walking past us if I'd just slash his guts open! I bet there'd be more fat than blood, that's how frigging fat he is, hah!* In more serious conversations she seems to switch to english, though. Most of the time, anyway, it doesn't always go like that. I think it's because I'm practically bilingual, always have been. [QUOTE=UberMunchkin;34483199]Have you actually felt happy that you have another personality? [sub]Sometimes I wouldn't mind to have another personality at times...[/sub][/QUOTE] No. It's a horrible thing and you do seriously not know what you're asking for. [QUOTE=Daniel Smith;34483291]Is it the same as bipolar?[/QUOTE] No. I'm still winning, though.

[QUOTE=UberMunchkin;34483199]Have you actually felt happy that you have another personality? [sub]Sometimes I wouldn't mind to have another personality at times...[/sub][/QUOTE] I was just thinking this. Having another personality in your head that you're actually able to converse with does sound interesting, as long as it wasn't constantly telling you to kill people.

[QUOTE=st_nick5;34483300]I was just thinking this. Having another personality in your head that you're actually able to converse with does sound interesting, as long as it wasn't constantly telling you to kill people.[/QUOTE] Well, that's what it does to me and do you know what you can do about it in case you actually get bored of it and tell it to shut up? Do you know how much that affects anything? [h2]Nothing.[/h2] It will keep going and going and going until you feel like going fucking crazy. At least Waltz never, [B]ever[/B] shuts the fuck up.