Ask someone who used to have a multiple personality disorder anything. - General

[QUOTE=John Egbert;34629967]Does Waltz have different preferences in women/pornography than you? Does Waltz have distinct fetishes?[/QUOTE] Yep. It only accept submissive while I prefer equal levels. Fetishes...I have no idea.

So everywhere you go you just hear waltz saying about how to torture and kill the people you see?

[QUOTE=asshair;34631714]So everywhere you go you just hear waltz saying about how to torture and kill the people you see?[/QUOTE] Yep, pretty much.

Can I talk with inspector Butters?

What the fuck, I wonder how you don't go crazy and do what waltz says. What was it like the very first time you heard waltz in your head? What were you thinking? How did you tell your parents about waltz?

[QUOTE=asshair;34634329]What the fuck, I wonder how you don't go crazy and do what waltz says. What was it like the[I] very first time[/I] you heard waltz in your head? What were you thinking? How did you tell your parents about waltz?[/QUOTE] I freaked out. I thought I had gone completely dark side and nuts six times 'till Sunday. I overreacted like any legit 13-year old would've done. My parents obviously know that there's something in my head due to my therapy meetings, but I haven't given them any details. My dad just knows that I go to therapy, nothing more.

How did you tell your parents about therapy? Did you just ask them to go and refused to tell them why? Also, did you get prescribed meds? what were they like? The reason I ask is because I have bad intrusive thoughts about hurting everyone I see, I guess it's not that different minus the actually personality, but you still get thoughts from waltz about killing. I'm considering going to therapy but don't know how to tell my parents and I don't want to get put on meds.

[QUOTE=asshair;34634755]How did you tell your parents about therapy? Did you just ask them to go and refused to tell them why? Also, did you get prescribed meds? what were they like? The reason I ask is because I have bad intrusive thoughts about hurting everyone I see, I guess it's not that different minus the actually personality, but you still get thoughts from waltz about killing. I'm considering going to therapy but don't know how to tell my parents and I don't want to get put on meds.[/QUOTE] I didn't get any meds since it's not really a psychosis and the pill-treatable symptoms usually associated with MPD weren't present in my case. Therefore I only got melatonin for my sleeping difficulties which didn't do jack shit. My mother had to force me into therapy. I was in there before this even started, they just changed my case name when it emerged. If you have intrusive thoughts about hurting everyone you see, it's nothing too bad unless it's an actual voice inside your head and you are seriously considering obeying the thoughts. If your work place or school has any kind of medical staff, talk to them if it might be something. They don't put you in an asylum for having homicidal thoughts. They put you in an asylum for having homicidal plans.

[QUOTE='[Green];34632983']Yep, pretty much.[/QUOTE] That could get awkward...

[QUOTE=Shadowwalker;34634954]That could get awkward...[/QUOTE] What do you mean?

[QUOTE='[Green];34634937']I didn't get any meds since it's not really a psychosis and the pill-treatable symptoms usually associated with MPD weren't present in my case. Therefore I only got melatonin for my sleeping difficulties which didn't do jack shit. My mother had to force me into therapy. I was in there before this even started, they just changed my case name when it emerged. If you have intrusive thoughts about hurting everyone you see, it's nothing too bad unless it's an actual voice inside your head and you are seriously considering obeying the thoughts. If your work place or school has any kind of medical staff, talk to them if it might be something. They don't put you in an asylum for having homicidal thoughts. They put you in an asylum for having homicidal plans.[/QUOTE] Damn, you're right. I feel bad for your situation. my thoughts are just that: thoughts, but in your case it's actually a voice inside your head. Has waltz ever made you almost obey him? or have to contemplated doing one of his orders just to make him stop?

[QUOTE=asshair;34634992]Damn, you're right. I feel bad for your situation. my thoughts are just that: thoughts, but in your case it's actually a voice inside your head. Has waltz ever made you almost obey him? or have to contemplated doing one of his ordered just to make him stop?[/QUOTE] You could always read the thread. It holds a lot of answers.

[QUOTE='[Green];34635003']You could always read the thread. It holds a lot of answers.[/QUOTE] I've read every post on this thread, It's one of the most interesting I've ever seen on any fourm to be honest. It sounds like a lot of those people that claim to be possessed by a so called 'demon' just have split personality disorders.

[QUOTE=asshair;34635022]I've read every post on this thread, It's one of the most interesting I've ever seen on any fourm to be honest. It sounds like a lot of those people that claim to be possessed by a so called 'demon' just have split personality disorders.[/QUOTE] Also I find it hilarious how all kinds of emo kids think that having a darker, "inner" self that would be so evil and ~dark~ would be cool. If they knew the truth, they'd act differently. Then again, said emo kids are mentally unstable already so they'd probably just obey whatever it'd tell them to do. Of course, Waltz isn't all evil and darkness, far from it. It's a psychotic asshole with a hatred to anyone new, but it also has a seemingly genuine will to protect me (or my body, i pretend it wants to protect me)

[QUOTE='[Green];34635048']Also I find it hilarious how all kinds of emo kids think that having a darker, "inner" self that would be so evil and ~dark~ would be cool. If they knew the truth, they'd act differently. Then again, said emo kids are mentally unstable already so they'd probably just obey whatever it'd tell them to do.[/QUOTE] I can only imagine how fucking hard it would of been getting used to waltz without hurting anybody. I read a lot about how Normal people became murderes because the voices in their heads told them to do it. Do you think you'll ever get rid of waltz?

[QUOTE=asshair;34635078]Do you think you'll ever get rid of waltz?[/QUOTE] Hopefully.

I don't get it, you said you got rid of the worst one which was the depressive personality, but wouldn't it be better to have a depressive one than one that wants to murder everybody? To be honest, I wouldn't mind having a different personality that was a complete bro, with no intents to harm or do anything bad. Just one that is nice and could cheer me up.

You should log any significant experiences (outside of your normal personality, if that's the right terminology), keep track of trends and such. My sister is a nurse, but as part of her uni she's done quite of lot of prac at some interesting places (plenty of interesting stories, mind you). I recall one of the patients at wherever it was having sever multiple personality issues - she would literally be different people, only aware of the individual personalities because of the nurses and staff on hand telling her/them about... them. She's in her mid 40's, and a lot of the time she'd be trying to get out of the premises - I remember my sister mentioning that one of the most notable features of her was that she'd for all intents and purposes revert to a 10 year old boy. The mind is really an interesting beast when it comes to this kind of shit. [editline]11th February 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=asshair;34635171]I don't get it, you said you got rid of the worst one which was the depressive personality, but wouldn't it be better to have a depressive one than one that wants to murder everybody? To be honest, I wouldn't mind having a different personality that was a complete bro, with no intents to harm or do anything bad. Just one that is nice and could cheer me up.[/QUOTE] Here's hoping my auto-merge doesn't get messed up of ninja'd. I assume the adverse effects of a depressive personality would have a much more constant negative effect, as opposed to violent insights based off of instinct.

[QUOTE=Em See;34635371]Here's hoping my auto-merge doesn't get messed up of ninja'd. I assume the adverse effects of a depressive personality would have a much more constant negative effect, as opposed to violent insights based off of instinct.[/QUOTE] Not really so much of instinct, if I'm not mistaken, green has said waltz likes torture and shit like that.

[QUOTE='[Green];34634962']What do you mean?[/QUOTE] I mean porn and stuff like that, I mean it's not like you can just turn him off.

[QUOTE=asshair;34635171]I don't get it, you said you got rid of the worst one which was the depressive personality, but wouldn't it be better to have a depressive one than one that wants to murder everybody? To be honest, I wouldn't mind having a different personality that was a complete bro, with no intents to harm or do anything bad. Just one that is nice and could cheer me up.[/QUOTE] Well, I'm surprised you don't get it. It's hard to explain directly, so I'll try to give you a metaphor. Waltz is like someone constantly talking shit in your ear. It's annoying and you don't want to hear it so you can try to ignore it. Sure, it's still there but you can try to concentrate. The depressed personality made getting out of bed feel like running waist-deep in maple syrup. It's depression leaked directly onto me and once it caught me it pretty much never let go. The few times it wasn't wailing and QQ'ing inside my head I was grateful to higher forces for granting me respite. [QUOTE=Shadowwalker;34635497]I mean porn and stuff like that, I mean it's not like you can just turn him off.[/QUOTE] I can ignore it. To an extent. I don't really watch porn, though since I am in a relationship.

[QUOTE='[Green];34635709']Well, I'm surprised you don't get it. It's hard to explain directly, so I'll try to give you a metaphor. Waltz is like someone constantly talking shit in your ear. It's annoying and you don't want to hear it so you can try to ignore it. Sure, it's still there but you can try to concentrate. The depressed personality made getting out of bed feel like running waist-deep in maple syrup. It's depression leaked directly onto me and once it caught me it pretty much never let go. The few times it wasn't wailing and QQ'ing inside my head I was grateful to higher forces for granting me respite. I can ignore it. To an extent. I don't really watch porn, though since I am in a relationship.[/QUOTE] I always thoughts ignoring this kind of things was the worst thing to do, instead you should accept them and let them play out or something like that.

[QUOTE=asshair;34635927]I always thoughts ignoring this kind of things was the worst thing to do, instead you should accept them and let them play out or something like that.[/QUOTE] Well, seeing that the only thing it can normally do is annoy me with murderous chatter it's obvious that ignoring it will render Waltz more or less powerless. Since my mental barriers are nowadays in pretty fucking awesome condition, it's not going to force it's way out anytime soon. So ignoring what it tells me makes it more or less disappear and lets me focus on math and physics easier for example.

How long did it take you to get used to waltz and his murderous thoughts he put in your head?

[QUOTE=asshair;34636140]How long did it take you to get used to waltz and his murderous thoughts he put in your head?[/QUOTE] Well, it started four years ago. It wasn't an off/on switch, but gradually over time I managed to deal with it.

[QUOTE='[Green];34636157']Well, it started four years ago. It wasn't an off/on switch, but gradually over time I managed to deal with it.[/QUOTE] Does any particular thing get your mind off it?

[QUOTE=asshair;34636764]Does any particular thing get your mind off it?[/QUOTE] Calming music. Stuff like this: [video=youtube;_tu6_u8XgDM]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tu6_u8XgDM&feature=related[/video]

How did you tell people?

[QUOTE=Liamhailhail2.0;34638739]How did you tell people?[/QUOTE] I don't really tell anyone. Those few I do explain this to take it easily.

Did therapy help a shit load? Do you think you would of obeyed waltz if you didn't go? Did your therapist know that waltz tells you to kill?