Most people think i'm sociopathic when it comes to my peers, there's just a little logic in there denying me to convert saying as soon as I get out of here i'm moving as far away from these numbskulls as possible.
[sp]and for the most part I am[/sp]
[QUOTE=Tea Guy;33145822]When I was 11 walking home from a community college I picked up a rock and smashed a frog with it.
I felt terrible for weeks.[/QUOTE]
you went to community college when you were 11?
also I have OCD and try to hide it alot but its hard when I'm walking on a tiled floor and am trying to not touch the cracks while making sure my left and right steps are equal -.-
Deepest and darkest secret?
It's probably that I currently don't feel any real emotions to anything. And I hate it. I have been thinking about death in general (not killing myself, just about the end of life for anyone) and the more I think about it the more I feel less emotionally connected to people. It's almost scary, I remember when I was younger even thinking of the idea that my grandma would die, would make me and and almost cry. But now when I think about nowadays, I don't even get a reaction from myself.
As it wouldn't even bother me, I really like my grandma though. So I'm currently so confused right now, I can't say that I won't be affected if she really died (she was an example) but what I feel is that I won't even remotely feel anything. This has have been the same about other people as well. It makes me feel uncomfortable.
I was extremely depressed throughout middle school, and it got so bad that I had to be removed from school for a month because I potentially posed a danger to myself and others.
I frequently write erotic stories that involve some form of mind control and/or harems. And by 'frequently' I mean I have a word document open in the background that's already 14 and a half pages long, and I began this story on Saturday.
My father is the only member of his side of the family that does not have some kind of (diagnosed) mental issue. This includes his extended family as well. I am continually afraid that I may have inherited something like that from him, and do not like being in contact with his side of the family despite living within 100 miles of more than 2/3 of them.
Also, I really like Call of Duty MW2 and Black Ops, because they run their multiplayer setup and protections through Steam and VAC. I have never gotten punk buster working right on any system that I have tried using it on, so I've been pretty much locked out of the MP of all Battlefield games and much else. This is why I will not get BF3, despite putting more than 35 hours into the beta and enjoying it thoroughly.
I've currently got a problem with emotions.
was reading at my grandfather's funeral. No tears. No sadness. No happiness.
I'm actually beginning to get worried by it.
That and I generally appear gay to anyone I meet.
But im not gay. Im bi :v:
I've had so many chances to get with girls, but I fuck up each time because I'm not confident enough to push the relationship further. It remains as "just friends". It pisses me off when I consider all the amazing things that could happen if I respond to a situation a little bit differently. I'm not saying this because I think I can get girls, but because people say they reckon I can, apparently I'm not that bad looking.
I wish I didn't come across as so selfish. Most people seem to think that I'm self-centred and want to be popular or whatever, I just want to act normal but I can't seem to be able to do so. I blame going to a private school for a few years for fucking me up, seriously everyone that goes to one is a fucking selfish cunt and it made me one too. I've been working on it though, and I'm spending my final school years back at a public school again.
And finally,
I don't know how the fuck I'm not a fat cunt already, I barely eat anything healthy or drink anything healthy. Seriously, my average day involves drinking a 250ml can of energy drink at breakfast, a 375ml soft drink and 500ml energy drink at around lunch, another 375ml can of soft drink at around 4PM and finally another can after dinner. Nothing else. I barely drink water by itself, same goes for milk and also things like juice.
A few years ago I quit tying my shoes, just all out quit.
The little fuckers just untie themselves within about an hour every time you tie them ENOUGH
I just grabbed them and put them inside my shoe, after doing that for so long I forgot how to tie my shoes so... I'm 15 and I don't know how to do my shoelaces, but honestly if they untie themselves so often I don't think anybody does
I am a [b]massive[/b] attention seeker. I purposefully make myself look 'forever alone', 'super nerdy' or depressed just so people will notice.
Hell even on Facepunch I get upset when people don't recognize me.
I used Comic Sans and didn't feel guilty.
I only fap at porn that looks like the girls in my school V:v:v
I have no idea where my avatar is from.
Highschool and this life is really depressing for me, I have a good social life, but I'm still really depressed. I was really fat a few years ago, I just lost 14 kilos (30 pounds) I'm still losing weight since I don't eat that much now, I thought that this would make me happier but it didn't. I was scared of sleeping alone so I was sleeping with my mom 'till I was 12 and I couldn't wash my own ass 'till I was 13 so other people did it for me. I have a big bond with my mom she helps me with everything in my life, my dad is abit more disciplined and he doesn't know that much about me since he always worked and stayed in other countries than staying with us, but I still love him. I sometimes smoke when I feel really stressed, but I'm not addicted. I'm not worried about what people think about me I'm just worried about if I'll be able to get a job. The only thing I'm scared of is lonelyness. I have a girlfriend she moved to somewhere else, now we are having a long distance relationship, but I'm still with her, she sometimes visits me or I visit her but that's never enough for me. I never want to harm her so whenever we fight I just tell her that she's right and I'm not. I always kept these secrets in me, nobody I personally know knows these informations about me, I just wanted to share these with the lovely people of facepunch.
lovely people?
[QUOTE=Knuffelbeer;33182996]lovely people?[/QUOTE]
Sarcasm there..
[sp]I love you all.[/sp]
I might be a closet pedo
:C
I once stuck a toothbrush up my arse. I was eleven. Hurt like fuck.
I enjoy pain, though I never self-inflict. I think it's the adrenaline, but something about pain is... good. Like I accidentally cut myself shaving, so I got an alcohol wipe to clean it. That shit fucking BURNS but I liked it. And sometimes when I think about the feeling of that razor moving along the blade against my cheek, I get a chill, and it's almost like I'm aroused, but not sexually.
[QUOTE=IAmAnooB;33179728]Deepest and darkest secret?
It's probably that I currently don't feel any real emotions to anything. And I hate it. I have been thinking about death in general (not killing myself, just about the end of life for anyone) and the more I think about it the more I feel less emotionally connected to people. It's almost scary, I remember when I was younger even thinking of the idea that my grandma would die, would make me and and almost cry. But now when I think about nowadays, I don't even get a reaction from myself.
As it wouldn't even bother me, I really like my grandma though. So I'm currently so confused right now, I can't say that I won't be affected if she really died (she was an example) but what I feel is that I won't even remotely feel anything. This has have been the same about other people as well. It makes me feel uncomfortable.[/QUOTE]
Oh hay there, have the same experience. Exams and shit, Phffft don't give a fuck, my future plans.. HA! My friends can go fuck them selfs, and death just doesn't help at all.
[QUOTE=WastedJamacan;33189923]I enjoy pain, though I never self-inflict. I think it's the adrenaline, but something about pain is... good. Like I accidentally cut myself shaving, so I got an alcohol wipe to clean it. That shit fucking BURNS but I liked it. And sometimes when I think about the feeling of that razor moving along the blade against my cheek, I get a chill, and it's almost like I'm aroused, but not sexually.[/QUOTE]
Also, it really helps in sports, I go all out always, because if I get hurt, it feels good, so I want to try harder.
I cracked a rib a week ago because of this.
Not exactly THAT deep, dark secrets, but secrets nonetheless. Here we go:
I once got caught stealing a .50 cal shell on a military base. Narrowly got out of a felony, and the parents don't know.
I have a Chell fetish
I got a boner in formation when i was at military school, thankfully it wasn't for the guys, it was like 6 AM and i still had morning wood.
I think i'm a serial liar, i just can't stop. I lie about stupid stuff, like brushing my teeth or something.
I pulled my pants down in the cafeteria in 1st grade for 10 dosh. Got the 10 dosh, was worth the referral.
I didn't learn how to tie my shoes until around 6th grade.
I got held back in kindergarten due to my autistic behavior.
I almost constantly think of bad thoughts of all the respectable people in the world, even though I didn't want to.
I frequently think about murdering someone and elaborate ways to get rid of the body.
I sucked my thumb until I was the age of 13.
I had a problem with "wetting myself" when I was eight.
I am constantly paranoid and I always think that people are starring at me and/or talking behind my back when they probably aren't.
I was on the brink of killing myself about eight months ago.
I have fantasies of killing people, and think about how I would torture/kill them whenever I'm bored.
I hate socializing with people, and I rather lock myself in my room and spend time browsing the internet/playing video games the talk to anyone.
I dumped my first girlfriend by giving her gay best friend a blowjob in the room next door.
That's not the secret though... the secret is that[sp]I feel more proud than ashamed of doing it.[/sp]
[QUOTE=MightyLOLZOR;33137572]I sell my body on chatroulette and omegle[/QUOTE] I thought i was the only one...
The best dream I ever had was when I killed my father
I piss on the side of the toilet to make less noise
[QUOTE=Simski;33190464]I dumped my first girlfriend [B]by[/B] giving her gay best friend a blowjob in the room next door.
That's not the secret though... the secret is that[sp]I feel more proud than ashamed of doing it.[/sp][/QUOTE]
By or because?
Like "Hmmm, I need a way to dump my girlfriend. Oh, I'll just give her friend a blowjob."
or "Oh, you caught me giving your friend a blowjob, I guess we're not together anymore"
-nip snip-
[QUOTE=Tea Guy;33145822]When I was 11 walking home from a community college I picked up a rock and smashed a frog with it.
I felt terrible for weeks.[/QUOTE]
My dearest apologies, but I thought of pokemon but with animals instead and went in to hysterics at that
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