I plagiarized a poem once when I was 12 and won second place in a poem contest :tinfoil: that was never my intention to actually get into the competition, I only plagiarized the poem for a huge project in my English class-- and my fucking teacher just nominated it without even asking me.
And no one ever knew. :v:
Whenever I drink a white russian I fart for hours afterwards.
Usually window rattling farts, too.
I also feel like I need to get off of my ass and go back to school, but only because I met my last now ex-girlfriend there, and that's the only place I go that has people my age.
I don't know what "Meppers" means
[QUOTE=Flapjacks;46913778]I thought Frozen was a good movie.[/QUOTE]
I love Frozen :v:
I have some really dumb mind set that if I look at people or make eye contact for more than 5 seconds, they'll think that I'm attracted to them.
I have no friends, and I don't talk to people much.
maybe this isn't the right thread for this but w/e
I honestly find it difficult to get motivation or the drive to do... anything, really. Whenever I think about doing something my first thought is always "why?" and I end up reasoning that there's not really a goal or achievement for doing anything at all. At this point I don't even give a shit if I died tomorrow, it's not like anything would have happened anyway.
I'm not depressed or suicidal, just apathetic, and I wish I wasn't because everyone who isn't seems to be a lot happier.
I'm not afraid that people are following me.
I'm afraid that people are afraid that they think I'm following them.
[QUOTE=gk99;46913333]The "gk" in my name stands for something and it's really, really, really fucking dumb because I made it up when I was a cringey 9-year old, which is what the "99" is.[/QUOTE]
I'm going to guess, does the "k" stand for "kid"?
I talk to myself when I think I'm alone.
Keyword: Think
I have a complete sweaty palms, nervous breakdown phobia of...
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really
[QUOTE=QUILTBAG;46916107]maybe this isn't the right thread for this but w/e
I honestly find it difficult to get motivation or the drive to do... anything, really. Whenever I think about doing something my first thought is always "why?" and I end up reasoning that there's not really a goal or achievement for doing anything at all. At this point I don't even give a shit if I died tomorrow, it's not like anything would have happened anyway.
[b]I'm not depressed[/b] or suicidal, just apathetic, and I wish I wasn't because everyone who isn't seems to be a lot happier.[/QUOTE]
You sure about that? Might be worth looking into some therapy, even if it ain't depression.
[QUOTE=Fapplejack;46916174]I'm not afraid that people are following me.
I'm afraid that people are afraid that they think I'm following them.[/QUOTE]
If I walk the same path as someone, I get that feeling too. :v:
[editline]13th January 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=QUILTBAG;46916107]maybe this isn't the right thread for this but w/e
I honestly find it difficult to get motivation or the drive to do... anything, really. Whenever I think about doing something my first thought is always "why?" and I end up reasoning that there's not really a goal or achievement for doing anything at all. At this point I don't even give a shit if I died tomorrow, it's not like anything would have happened anyway.
I'm not depressed or suicidal, just apathetic, and I wish I wasn't because everyone who isn't seems to be a lot happier.[/QUOTE]
This has been true for me as well the last year or two.
I feel that in the big picture, my actions don't really matter.
I also can't really call myself depressed because I don't feel an inherent sadness, just a lack of motivation.
I hope you, like me, have some friends that motivate you and hang out with you, because the only way to fight it in my experience is to be distracted by something else.
I had a party at my house and everyone sleeps in my room, I went to bed in my bed and I woke up spooning my close friend's girlfriend. I went back to sleep.
When I have a mechanical pencil that I just click new lead out, I flip to a scratch page to wear it down to a slanted point.
[QUOTE=Raxas;46916254]You sure about that? Might be worth looking into some therapy, even if it ain't depression.[/QUOTE]
Maybe. Like Paul Simon said below me, I don't really feel sad, just kind of incomplete or without a real purpose. I guess finding a therapist or something wouldn't hurt, though.
[QUOTE=paul simon;46916271]This has been true for me as well the last year or two.
I feel that in the big picture, my actions don't really matter.
I also can't really call myself depressed because I don't feel an inherent sadness, just a lack of motivation.
I hope you, like me, have some friends that motivate you and hang out with you, because the only way to fight it in my experience is to be distracted by something else.[/QUOTE]
I'm not particularly close with anyone in real life, most of my social interaction is online and I feel like I have a couple of "real" friends online. Dunno if I'm setting myself up for disappointment though. But I have people I can spend time with, and that's all that matters for me right now.
[QUOTE=QUILTBAG;46916321]I'm not particularly close with anyone in real life, most of my social interaction is online and I feel like I have a couple of "real" friends online. Dunno if I'm setting myself up for disappointment though. But I have people I can spend time with, and that's all that matters for me right now.[/QUOTE]
I also have friends online that I've never seen but consider some of my best friends.
But it turns out that IRL friends are pretty important for our mental health.
Best of luck to you.
Many of my interests - comic books, movies, art - I know more or are more skilled than nearly all my friends, but am quite mediocre by any wider standards.
[QUOTE=Corndog Ninja;46916342]Many of my interests - comic books, movies, art - I know more or are more skilled than nearly all my friends, but am quite mediocre by any wider standards.[/QUOTE]
That's normal. Some people are better at different things, that doesn't make you mediocre by all other standards :<
Sometimes I pretend that I'm being interviewed about my recently released album/film and Grammy/Oscar ward won
when I listen to music I imagine it's me doing the singing / leading an entire orchestra.
I memorise the layouts of places I'm familiar with (irl stuff and maps in games, etc.)and when I'm bored I imagine a ball bouncing on the walls of it infinitely, moving between areas.
Sex is the last thing I care about in my relationship, I like the fact there's someone who returns as much affection as I give to them, someone who makes everyday a bit better.
Just being around her makes me feel happy and that's more then what I could ask for.
I like the d.
I'm mostly a calm person, but I enjoy being off the wall. Sometimes when I'm alone, I quietly yell at myself and act like I'm nuts, and I'll get carried away with it to the point I worry myself; e.g. The other day, I was in a store, and after muttering to myself about the clothes I was looking over, I said, "I'm not crazy, I'm just a little FUCKING INSANE," and carried on doing that even though I'm pretty sure other people could hear me.
When I am alone(most of the time) I constantly chatter and babble like a lunatic.
Like I do every filthy frank "how to do x in x different languages/cultures" parody at once.
Sometimes I think entirely in Nostradamus.
It becomes even more active when I am browsing silly shit.
It goes kinda like this:
[quote]
"A hurr hurr burr wurrr weep beep pooo poo [B]HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE[/B] a shipere a shipare *loads of random sounds ended with -ski, like a really disgruntled russian* [B]HOHOHOHOHOHO[/B] sweep deleleleleleleelele weeeeep pooo pooooo poooo poooo [highlight]WELELELELELDELLELELELEELBLELELELELELELELE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP DELELELELELELELELELELELELELE[/highlight] snooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [B]HAHAHAHAHAHAHA HARR HARRR HARRR HARRRRRRRR HARRRRRR[/B] *fart noises with my mouth* [B]HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE[/B] sniiiiirp snirp snirp *sigh*"[/quote]
I sound absolutely fucking retarded when I do it.
Sometimes I combine that with reading whatever is on my screen in all possible accents I can replicate.
[QUOTE=QUILTBAG;46916107]
I'm not depressed or suicidal, just apathetic, and I wish I wasn't because everyone who isn't seems to be a lot happier.[/QUOTE]
For some people, apathy IS depression.
From the creator of "Clean all the things" I present: [URL="http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com.au/2013/05/depression-part-two.html"]"there's a huge difference between not giving a fuck and not being [i]able[/i] to give a fuck"[/URL]
I'm pretty sure that due to certain events in my life I'm not quite emotionally balanced. Or rather, I find that I just don't express extreme emotion. I've not properly got 'mad' at something or someone in years and l rarely cry at all. When both my Grandads died I didn't cry then or at any of their funerals even though I loved them both equally. The only thing that seems to bring me close to tears is when I'm watching a part of a film with some emotional music to the scene.
Also I really hate the '1990' bit of my username.
When I am walking home or bumbling about alone I think out epic battles and participating in them and this usually ends up with me making the sound effects with my mouth.
as someone with gid i lie a lot about how far in transition i have come. i haven't done anything in that regard, i'm afraid of being murdered in my country if i did that here
[editline]13th January 2015[/editline]
i lie to people about myself to temporarily boost my self esteem a lot but really i think i'm human garbage
-snip my heart can't take it-
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