• Shit That Gets You Mad v.INFINITY - The Endless Cycle of Hatred
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[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33436573]The fucker is trying to act sad in front the family, but my grandmother, even in her dying hours knows he's bullshitting. While we're all sitting there holding her hand trying to make her comfortable, he pops in and says "hey mom, remember me?" Her smile fades. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF--[/QUOTE] roundhouse kick [B]THAT [I]MOTHERFUCKER[/I][/B] [U][I][H2]IN THE FACE!!![/H2][/I][/U]
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;33435023]Apparently, even changing your name to a female one as a MTF takes between one and two years here. And that's after months of therapy. Jesus christ, reading up only makes me sadder.[/QUOTE] Really? That sucks dick. Well, if it's similar here, they can't tell me I can't say my name's Caroline, at least.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33436029]Does anyone have anything to cheer me up with? I honestly don't even know what to think right now.[/QUOTE] Could try music. When I'm upset about anything, I put up loud dubstep, one that is a little slow but it could be whatever you like. You could try out different kinds of music to keep your mind busy. Just set all your opinions about certain genres aside, then look for all kinds of music. You could go from jazz to reggaeton. Don't skip genres.
My sister decided to plug the laptop into the tv to play her music on the tv's speakers [H2]LMFAO BLASTING THROUGH THE FUCKING HOUSE[/H2] she doesn't understand politeness so there's no point in fucking asking her to turn it down but I've got my headphones on, blasting They Might Be Giants as loud as they can
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33435309]My grandmother has hours to live. Just got back from the hospital. I can't take this shit. I saw her just laying there with her eyes wide open, never blinking. She was breathing, but just in heavy bursts. To think that I was talking to her normally less than 24 hours ago is mind boggling. I'm beside myself and nothing is cheering me up. She's probably the person closest to me right now and she's dying. Eden and Ryan aren't taking it well and I'm trying to be the "big and strong" oldest brother, but I just don't even know if I can fake it any longer. Grandmother's puppy is walking around the house looking for her right now...[/QUOTE] Jesus, that's terrible. My grandfathers died before I was born, so I never got to meet them. My grandma (Maternal grandmother) is doing fine, she's in her mid 70s, but my Nana (Paternal grandmother) is in her late 80s and she's in a nursing home. When I was a little kid, she still seemed pretty lively, but now, she can barely hear or see, and it's really hard for her to get around, even with her walker. She probably has a few years left, and while I might not have been as close to my grandparents as you were, I might be sharing your pain when that time comes. Just make sure to live when she goes. Carry on her memories by living, my friend.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33435309]My grandmother has hours to live. Just got back from the hospital. I can't take this shit. I saw her just laying there with her eyes wide open, never blinking. She was breathing, but just in heavy bursts. To think that I was talking to her normally less than 24 hours ago is mind boggling. I'm beside myself and nothing is cheering me up. She's probably the person closest to me right now and she's dying. Eden and Ryan aren't taking it well and I'm trying to be the "big and strong" oldest brother, but I just don't even know if I can fake it any longer. Grandmother's puppy is walking around the house looking for her right now...[/QUOTE] FilmSlacker, if it makes you feel any better, I went through the same thing, so I know your pain.
My grandma also died before I was born. When ever my dad speaks about her, he tries to keep a straight face but always ends up crying. Now that I think about it, I've never even seen a photo of my grandma. My grandfather moved away and my mum sends him a cheque every month and visits every so often. I've only met him about once and our conversations are really limited. You should try to spend a lot more time with her.
Apparently I'm a horrible person for refusing to let my 4 year old sister watch South Park.
This thread is the most concentrated source of depression I have seen in a while.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33437211]Cheerin' my little sister up by letting her try out "Battlefield: Bad Company". She's chasing her teammates around the electric drill, laughing all the way. It's good to see her smile after what happened today. proof: [media]http://soundcloud.com/thefilmslacker/demented-little-sister[/media][/QUOTE] Made me smile, you're an awesome big brother.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33435309]My grandmother has hours to live. Just got back from the hospital. I can't take this shit. I saw her just laying there with her eyes wide open, never blinking. She was breathing, but just in heavy bursts. To think that I was talking to her normally less than 24 hours ago is mind boggling. I'm beside myself and nothing is cheering me up. She's probably the person closest to me right now and she's dying. Eden and Ryan aren't taking it well and I'm trying to be the "big and strong" oldest brother, but I just don't even know if I can fake it any longer. Grandmother's puppy is walking around the house looking for her right now...[/QUOTE] oh um I'm just going to leave the thread for a while since this is a bit too sad for me
wow it makes me feel bad that i have basically no problems right now
>watching movie >turn to Father Sock at the end of it to ask what he thought of it >Father Sock was sleeping the entire time. >OR Father Sock is using his phone to read Twitter/facebook/reddit PUT DOWN YOUR PHONE SHUT UP TURN YOUR FUCKING HEAD TOWARDS THE SCREEN AND WATCH THE GODDAMN MOVIE
When a video game character has a different voice actor in a sequel. The best example I can think of is Captain Narville frpm Killzone. In Killzone 2, he sounded like a soldier who never takes shit from anyone. But in Killzone 3, however, he sounds like some overdramatic CEO FFS.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33436029]Does anyone have anything to cheer me up with? I honestly don't even know what to think right now.[/QUOTE] I'm being banned. That cheer you up?
[QUOTE=Rethill34;33437570]I'm being banned. That cheer you up?[/QUOTE] For how long?
[QUOTE=Bytecry;33437594]For how long?[/QUOTE] Perma. [editline]I know who it was.[/editline] Oh well though, I brought it on myself. I shouldn't have done what I did.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;33437641]Wait, how would you know that you're going to get perma'd?[/QUOTE] Oh he snipped it. And my own understanding of how the mods would handle such a situation. Anyway, from what I remember. NateBuddy PMed a mod and gave me a helpful nudge towards a permaban. Doesn't matter anyway, I deserve it. [editline]Ever so helpful. Most helpful person ever, boy I'd love to give you a cake.[/editline] So helpful.
My friends get me mad. They're always so negative and it pisses me off sometimes. Example: Whenever we played dodgeball they would sit in the back until everyone was on the bench. Then they would collect all the balls and put them in the corner and refused to throw them because they said that people would catch them anyway so why bother. We sat there for twenty minutes while they just sat in the corner and pissed and moaned. To add to that, when we started getting pissed at them, they would go "Umad bro?" over and over. It wasn't just in gym, it was in everything else too. I don't play any video games with them because they do the same exact thing: complain about how they're going to lose and proceed to make themselves lose. It doesn't sound like a big deal but they did this almost every single P.E. class for two years.
Today has been an exceptionally bad day. It started as any normal day would, I went to school and everything was fine there and I had some fun with my classmates. Most people were off to Dreamhack so it was quiet and nice in our classroom, then lets skip forward a few hours til' after dinner and I goto check my FB, I see FilmSlackers post about his grandma. I instantly feel terrible. Then my brother comes in to start dicking around and we got into the subject of me and my "furryness" (He's the only person I actually trust with such secrets, but not any longer) And he got onto the subject of what would happen if someone would find out. I explained in detail about how I would beat the motherfuckers up and such. Of course he gets all upset about it, he then informs my fucking mom and dad about the whole thing, but he refuses to explain why I would do this. So they ask me what it's all about. I refuse to answer and then my fucking little cunt of a brother opens his fugly mouth and says. "Oh well, if you're not gonna tell them I will" At this point I know there was no turning back, my fate was sealed. I just stood up walked to the door and left the house. I walked around for countless minutes, just shaking, feeling anxiety and guilt, deep fear. Self loathing and pure hate was the only thing I could feel. As my shaking and anxiety died down i had not much to choose from but heading back home. (It was about 11:15 PM. As I enter the house I say not a word, I just walked down into my room dead quiet. My parents asked me what's wrong as I was lying still on the bed, breathing heavily and in deep hate. I could almost smell their dissapointment. I wouldn't reply to anything, for they did not need to know more. I learned one thing today Nobody can be trusted, not even your own goddamn brother.
[QUOTE=Rethill34;33437669]Oh he snipped it. And my own understanding of how the mods would handle such a situation. Anyway, from what I remember. NateBuddy PMed a mod and gave me a helpful nudge towards a permaban. Doesn't matter anyway, I deserve it. [editline]Ever so helpful. Most helpful person ever, boy I'd love to give you a cake.[/editline] So helpful.[/QUOTE] Wait--wha-wa--what-wait-[B][I][U]WHAT?![/U][/I][/B] [B]NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO[/B]
[QUOTE=ProffesorAssHat;33437777]Wait--wha-wa--what-wait-[B][I][U]WHAT?![/U][/I][/B] [B]NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO[/B][/QUOTE] I [b]deserve[/b] it.
[QUOTE=Rethill34;33437799]I [b]deserve[/b] it.[/QUOTE] [I][U][H2]BUT STILL![/H2][/U][/I] Dude, you can't go!
[QUOTE=ProffesorAssHat;33437815][I][U][H2]BUT STILL![/H2][/U][/I] Dude, you can't go![/QUOTE] *Speech about how what I did was wrong.* Who knows? Maybe it won't be a perma, but I [b]know[/b] there is a ban coming for me.
About a half a month ago everybody was cheering up. What happened to that?
[QUOTE=Rethill34;33437826]*Speech about how what I did was wrong.* Who knows? Maybe it won't be a perma, but I [b]know[/b] there is a ban coming for me.[/QUOTE] What the fuck did you do? And just read the last two pages of this thread, made me fucking depressed. FUCK.
Also, the fact that you feel remorse is a sign that regardless of what happened last night, you're still a good guy Rethill. [editline]25th November 2011[/editline] Aaand there went my automerge.
One thing I'm wondering is how the hell any of you [i]don't[/i] want to see me perma'd. Seriously, it makes [b]NO[/b] sense at all, considering this from a page or two back. [QUOTE=Detective .H;33427471]Yes. And I am okay now, I guess. I will not point out names but this person is a deceiver, and he is a Facepuncher. I really don't know how to react. I feel penetrated, vulnerable, and violated of all things. This person seemed to assure that he knew he what he was doing, and he knew I had the disorder. I remember what is was like. I hadn't been there in a long time, but I was dragged back. I don't know how long it took me to stop shaking. The worst part is that this person was my "friend" and I was trying to help him through his problems before he revealed it was all an act...he even said he was considering suicide at one point, and even if he is one sick twisted fuck, I could never live with myself if he took his own life. Therefore no names shall be mentioned, I really don't want to think about it or go back.... And I remember everything he said and what my other self said too, I just..couldn't control it. I watched it all through my own eyes. God dammit, I'm scared and angry.... and to him it's just a game.[/QUOTE] I snapped and have to pay for it, I should have watched what the fuck I was doing. [editline]Although[/editline] Although I was lying about how it was an act. I was just fucking pissed.
Wow, What a shit day
[QUOTE=Rethill34;33437947]One thing I'm wondering is how the hell any of you [i]don't[/i] want to see me perma'd. Seriously, it makes [b]NO[/b] sense at all, considering this from a page or two back. I snapped and have to pay for it, I should have watched what the fuck I was doing.[/QUOTE] Because everyone deserves a second chance.
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