+Gained confidence, got rid of my problems
+Gained friends as a result
+Got some experience with weed as a result
+Had a pretty nice party with lots of friends as a result
+Actually went out and chilled with them ever so often, and it was awesome
+Went to a festival with those new friends
-The festival actually totally didn't go as I had hoped, even though seeing all those bands and everything, and experiencing something entirely new was very nice. One of those friends I went to see Deadmau5 with collapsed after smoking a giant joint, leaving me to help him in the best of my abilities while I was high as a kite myself.
-Lost those friends
-All of those problems I had before came back twice as bad
-Got depressed at the end of the year
I sat around by myself in a city where I don't know anymore and drank, went to work as a guard in a building all alone through the nights, and played videogames. Another year of this and maybe I can move on with my life and get closer to some people that I can spend time with. Hard to think of that though when all of the people you used to see almost daily seem to find you irrelevant now and never check up on you or reply to your messages. Maybe I'll just stay here. I don't know.
It was pretty bad. Lost both of my grandmothers this year, lost my mom's best friend/a really close friend to the family, lost one of my dogs, and got into a car accident.
On the plus side I've had one of the best Christmases I've had in a while.
edit: also went to my first "proper" party this year (by that i mean there was drugs and loud music etc., wasn't like a family get-together or something)
pros:
-party was kinda fun. playing your guitar around a bonfire high with a bunch of other dudes is pretty fun
-got to smoke weed
-got to see a couple of guys i haven't see since elementary which was cool
cons:
-despite smoking weed i barely got high at all. was lame
-a bit of a sausage fest. there was a 7/1 guy-to-girl ratio with only 3 chicks
-speaking of sausages, the food was bad. the cake had been left out for a good 30 minutes with nothing to cover it so no one ate it and the hot dogs were some of the worst hot dogs i've ever eaten. the chili was more like soup chili you eat out of a bowl than hot dog chili too which made it worse. also no booze.
Pros, in no particular order
-Made a bunch of new friends
-Did a lot of hiking in the summer
-Went to a convention in May, had fun there
-Started seeing more movies
-Brought up grades from rocky start
-Got a new video card sometime mid year, started playing more PC games
-My siblings and I got a PS4, It's pretty neat
-Smash Bros was fun until my 3DS broke
-Met up with old friends via Facebook
Cons
-Dog died in Feburary, lived with me for 12 or so years.
-Caught the flu the week of Christmas
-My 3DS broke
-Video Games were meh this year.
-Took too long to get off my ass to fix my grades.
Overall I feel alright about it.
In 2014 I:
Got mugged within the first few weeks of the year
almost fucked up my life by not turning up for school, however that soon changed when exams came around, to which I passed 80% of them which is great
Started college studying something I find interesting
broke up with my ex within the first few weeks of the year (3 year relationship)
picked up my hobby of photography in the summer
found someone else who is now my better half, and im delighted that we both share the exact same shitty situation involing ex's at the start of they year, however we are both just happy that this start to the year isnt as bad as last years.
stop religiously playing video games, got far too boring this year. nowadays I would much rather do something else then sit down and play games
posted around here a lot more often
got a wicked selfie with a bunch of german girls
Overall
It was shite aside from the later part of the year, may/june~ were great months, and that was when everything seemed to just get better. The first few weeks of the year were crappy though, inolving me being slightly depressed, lost my then girlfriend after a 3 year relationship, lost a bunch of friends due to me being a slob, as well as getting mugged at gun point all within the same 2 weeks.
Just glad its over and there is a lot to look forward to in 2015.
CONS:
lots and lots of depression
S/H
a couple suicide attempts
failing a college class
making another set of people hate me
realizing I'm not very good at things I once was good at
having no goals
PROS:
stopped S/H
starting to figure myself out a little
gotten better at singing
feeling alright overall
having new experiences I'm glad to be having
lol one of those years that seems worse than it actually was. Better than 2013. Here's to an awesome 2015! :D
Pros:
Decent grades
Passed 2 actuary exams
Got girlfriend
Lost virginity
Turned 21, haven't had legal drink yet tho.
Got 3 job interviews
Had amazing vacation in Colorado
Played some volleyball
Cons:
Slow social life
Tons of studying
Tons of wasted time
21st birthday during finals week
Took the worst class of my life (but ended up with A-)
Overall very bland (especially fall semester)
Rating: 7/10
+++++ Fell in love with someone
++++ Made new friends, some very close
++++ Finished up school finally (took 4.5 years instead of the goal of 3 years)
++++ Moved to a new place
+++ Started caring about my looks and health and life (before I wouldn't have cared if I had died)
++ Latter half of the year I was less depressed than usual
+/- Turned 20. On one hand it feels nice to be 20, but on one hand I feel like I haven't grown up enough to have the right to call myself an adult. Also, being 16-19 was kinda nice (9.99$, 10.00$, just a slight difference but it still feels different)
-- Earlier half of the year I was more depressed than usual
--- Did nothing productive all year
--- Got more picky with the games I play (lately only Dota 2 really, which is a shame)
-- Watched a bunch of movies, tv, anime, etc. and now I have less stuff to watch this year, so I might be more bored overall
Overall a pretty good year. 2013 was the worst year for me so having such a good time in 2014 (in comparison to 2013, at least) really feels good.
My years keep getting worse and worse. My mental and physical health feels like it's deteriorating quickly and I am only 20.
Seems every time I drink alcohol I throw up bile/blood
Started smoking a lot more weed due to this
Met a girl who pretended to be someone she wasn't
Fell out with parents because of GF
Got kicked out, lost my job
Moved into a house after 4 months living in homeless accommodation and getting food boxes from charity because I couldn't afford to eat sometimes
Couldn't pay my bills, started getting stressed and punching holes in the walls of my home
Decided to start selling weed for money
Few months of successful dealings I eventually get robbed
Find the person who robbed me, knocked his tooth out, his friend then decides to jump me and I knocked my head off a wall and was unconscious for about 5 mins.. End up in hospital because throwing up and concussion
Start to realise that my girlfriend isn't the person she said she was, she doesn't like doing things we used to and starts to leave me in the house by myself for the most part
Arguments ensue, relationship breaks down, end up breaking up
I get lonely and sleep with some other girl I knew
Ex-Gf walks in on us the next morning in bed together and goes [b]APE[/b] shit, slapping me, scratching me, knocked my TV over and put a brick through my living room window
Get a phonecall from her father, I am being accused of beating my ex and 100 other things, he says he's gonna break my legs etc
I move out, to move in with the girl I was caught sleeping with due to the fact everyone in my old town believed what she was saying
Lots of friendships lost, people I was close with looked at me like I was a monster
Depression, which I have had since puberty gets really bad right about this time and I develop feelings of anxiety for the first time
Start getting very worried about everything, simple things like going to the shop because I might meet someone who thinks I am a monster or I might run into [i]her[/i] again (the ex)
End up on medication for depression, relationship with new girl breaks down as I struggle to maintain my cool or even sleep, constantly tense and worried due to threats I have been receiving
At this point I thought all was lost, I had nowhere to stay, nobody cared about me and I had no options available. I still had my motorbike though, so I was planning on suicide by asphyxiating from exhaust fumes
My mum begins to speak to me on Facebook after learning I was no longer with that girl, offers to help me move in with my aunty and I agree, after trying to arrange some things with my aunt, my mum decided to ask if I wanted to move back home seeing that I would probably be a burden on my already schizophrenic aunty
Now I don't even remember who I am anymore, who I was. I am not the same person, I am a shell of the man I used to be. No confidence, never a real smile, every day is a struggle to get through. I can't go outside without feeling incredibly anxious, ill or angry. To remedy this I would drink a couple beers before going anywhere or I would look for benzo's to alleviate symptoms
I am actually still like this today, simply going back through everything that happened fills me with adrenaline and puts butterflies in my stomach
Psychologist thinks I might be suffering from PTSD, so now I am taking Mirtazapine for the mental health and Zoloft for my stomach issues, vomiting blood and unable to eat until a long time after waking up ~4 hours
Bit of a rant/wall of text but I need to get it out sometimes and that's how my year was anyway
In chronological order, not order of importance
-tore significant muscles in legs
-got new appreciation for the ADA.
-healed over the course of 6 months
-ran 10K
-got to take a trip home for the holidays.
-spent a wonderful day with my grandma,
we went to the zoo, saw christmas lights, and enjoyed spending time together.
-she passed away the next day,
and on that day not a single regret was given.
2014 was shit I hope 2015 will be better.
I've made major improvement in my social life and my drawing skills but overall it's been pretty dull and empty without video games.
To be honest I feel soulless whenever I think about how little I spent playing video games this year...
it's been a huge blur, I thought it was 2012 ever since it was 2013
Year 2 of getting my shit together went swell once again.
Pros
-I have a better PC (upgraded everything).
-I finally started to get serious with school instead of dodging it like I was for the past 7 years.
-I went from 1 friend (since I was born) to tons more friends by going to my brothers friends (who is my friend now as well) LAN party.
-Finally stopped acting like 2012 was a movie (Some bad stuff happened that year, emotionally and mentally)
-Donated money to charity.
-Moved my Guinea Pigs back into my room instead of having them in the lounge room like normal.
-Saw my Grandma more.
-Got tons of school awards.
-Managed to fix my money problem.
-Beat all Metal Gear Solid Games.
-Got a gaming laptop (So when I am not with my PC, or at a LAN, I can play games without dragging it with me)
-Cleaned up my room and sold some stuff I didn't want.
-Got tons of cash ( ^ )
-Started to exercise midway through the year.
-Proven to myself I can beat hard stuff with enough practice and help from people. (FN@F1 4/20 being notable).
-Met more of my family (Half sisters, half brothers, nieces and the such)
-Went to one of their weddings.
-Got a new Guinea Pig.
-Managed to fix my ingrown toe nail (It wasn't as serious so it was easy to fix)
-PC got fixed in May.
-Shit ton of games I've wanted for ages came out/announced. (Bayonetta 2, Majora's Mask 3D for example)
Cons
-Stopped exercising due to my birthday and other events screwing me over.
-Guinea Pig had to be put down.
-My second Guinea Pig didn't get along with the new Guinea Pig.
-Sold my Guinea Pigs cause I couldn't get over the stress over the Guinea Pigs not getting along, and the loss of my other Guinea Pig just tired me out pet wise.
-Repeated a year.
-Ingrown toe Nail.
-Felt sick as hell after my birthday.
-Couldn't sleep for an entire night, and the next day was a trip to a school award ceremony. Couldn't even sleep in the car. I was also feeling sick at the same time.
-PC overheated and broke at the start of Jan.
-Got depressed due to it for some reason.
[editline]2nd January 2015[/editline]
Overall, great year. 2 great years in a row.
-Bought PS3
-Bought GTA 5
-Wasted half a year playing the following
-Finally added funds to steam
-Spent my summer sitting on pc
-Became a school's photographer
-Bought some good games
-Upgraded my rig (PSU and GPU)
-Released 1 map, and got comment raped by bronies
-Started to play CSGO competitive more
-Got more popular at school with the photography side job
- Gained a lot of self-confidence
- Started going to the gym
- Passed everything this semester and hopefully graduating on time this year
2014's been great for me. I can summarize my entire year with "party, get wasted, thesis, study, more party" :v:
I started taking antidepressants :(
+Finished school
+-Got a job, which was really shitty so I quit it later
+Made some music
+Got laid, kinda
+Tons of good parties
-Lost some friends
-Depression here and there
-Failed at getting a girlfriend
-Wasted a lot of time
-Insomnia got worse
Meh all in all.
2014 was the nadir in my coping with depression. Due to my crippling anxiety at every aspect of my life and inability to keep the friends I made, I graduated from university with no contacts, prospects or satisfaction at my accomplishments. It was easily the worst year of my life. I don't know what to do with myself now that the new year has started and I am scared at the notion that I am just a leech on my parents, as happy as they seem to be having me living at home again. My brother ended up dropping out of university halfway through to become a paramedic, and my parents' anger at him is indirect pressure on me to get a good job (disappointing them tears me up inside).
On the other hand, looking for something to do with my life has led me to start writing in my spare time, which is helping me carry on. My dad softened up and I bonded with him a lot. As stubborn as he can be, he is still my role model for determination and work ethic.
Overall 2014 was a 1/10.
Pros:
I spent the whole year in a blackout and I can't seem to remember any of it
Cons:
?
Not much. I moved, quit my 4 year job and left my life long friends behind. Now I'm here, I have a job and not much else. Pretty eh to be honest, but it could be a whole lot worse so I guess can't complain much.
I moved from Georgia to Indiana by the way. I'm just really on my own now and don't have much else to go by, I even left the university I was attending behind and now I'm not even going to school. I just have to get into the swing of things again all by myself this time. I'll just have to wait and see what 2015 has to offer.
-started out the year by losing a private forum with months and months of work on it for a project with friends
-almost had my address leaked to 4chan
-i got depressed during the summer
-during this depression i found out i was trans
-i went to a new school, in which i was very depressed because all of the teachers were useless
-i started to crush on this girl i knew a few years before and still can't get over
-my dog died
-two days later my dad died
-after developing a reputation for being a sad, quiet person i exploded on someone on this bus who was being a huge asshole.
-i left the school because it came out that there were students fucking their own mothers (i wanted to get the FUCK out of there)
-i tried telling what was left of my family i was an atheist, they got fucking PISSED
-i got depressed and felt like i was in a void
-i got anxious
-those things dialed back
-i had a busy christmas
-i came really damn close to getting diabetes
-i got even more underweight
-spent my new years at some lame ass church party where there were only 10 12 year olds
-although i didn't feel much at the time, i've begun to mourn over my dad a lot more, because i have my whole life ahead of me, and no matter what i do i'll never be able to he'll never be able to see it.
i think it was a year where i grew as a person a lot, but it sucked. even looking back now, i think i have a weird nostalgia for multiple times in my life that felt like a fucking meat grinder.
6/10
Well, let's see... For some reason I've always had trouble remembering what happened when in my life, and this year has been especially hazy. This is all in no particular order.
-Got my first job
-Graduated High School
-Ditched the old crowd I was hanging out with at school, because I really didn't like them.
-Started hanging out with people I really like.
-Lost my best friend on steam
-patched things up with said best friend after a few months
-Got to live with my girlfriend for a few months
-Girlfriend moved to another city for college
-Mom moved to New Mexico, took dog with her
-Got insanely fed up with living with my sister, bro-in-law, and terrible stoner roommate, they are all pretty much the worst people to live with (for me anyway)
-Got to the point of almost literally straight up hating my sister, talking to her is a challenge because almost everything she says immediately brings me to frustration simply because it builds up constantly with her and I usually snap at her. So, relationship with sister was damaged pretty bad
-Hated my first job, stuck with my first job
-Tried to move out, failed miserably
-Struggled with depression to the point of suicidal thoughts for at least 70% of the year, still pretty depressed
-Realized there was a college I actually wanted to go to, got excited about college for the first time in my life, and realized it was impossible for me to go there for another good long while, if ever
-Girlfriend almost broke up with me twice
Overall does not feel like it's been a good year. I actually wish I could go back to High School, back to having a schedule and an organized life and an actual direction in life. My life hit a wall, and doesn't feel like it's ever going to go anywhere, and my personal issues certainly aren't helping. In 2013 I had a worse year that made up for itself at the very end, and I grew a lot as a person; this year, I just got stuck and have had no choices or control over anything. I've eaten terribly this year, both in substance and quantity, and most of the time it was on purpose. I've felt like shit pretty much the whole time. 2014 pretty much fucked my life, and it seems things aren't gonna get better any time soon. Compared to some of these other posts, though, I feel like it could've been worse. Though, I've always said you cant really compare your own issues to those of others.
Regardless, here's to another shitty year, Facepunch.
Pros
Finished school
OP4
Played a lot of different genres of games
Found some good bands
Went to soundwave and saw Alter Bridge for the second time
Cons
Dropped a couple of grades in almost every class due to terrible luck
Terrible luck in general
Still no job lel
It wasn't that the year was bad, it was just that 2013 was far better.
pretty fucking shit
0/10
It was good.
Not good. But also not the worst year ever.
Pros:
-Actually went out with my friend rather than sitting in talking shit about games.
-Reconnected with an old friend and am going to see him soon.
-Got a Windows Server 08 course so I'll actually be doing something this year.
-My brother bought an American Akita who has been a non-stop source of hilarity for me.
Cons:
-Didn't read a god damned thing this year.
-Lost track of everything I meant to watch.
-Despite going out with friends more I feel like I've become even more of a shut-in.
-My mother and sister have been almost perpetually sick for the last half of the year.
-I've barely talked to my dad or his family all year.
-I'm still sleeping on a sofa (third year running)
-And because I've had to help my brother pay off his debts almost every week, and pay for a lot of his shit he now owes me over €3,000
-Thanks to the above I haven't been able to buy a new PC I need and am using a 6 year old PC that can't run multiple virtual machines. Or most games.
Eh. Fucking stank.
- Being unable to rehabilitate to normal society after months in psych ward
- Moving to some shitty place with scumbags
- Drug abuse
- Parents getting divorced turning my mom into a psychotic violent freak that abuses my sister emotionally and physically
- Very few real friends left, barely engaged in any online fun like skype group chats or anything
- Depression breaking out, it was hell
- Got locked up on a closed psych ward for contemplating suicide, thrice.
- Failed second time at high school due to anxiety issues, now I am way out of the age group
- Being broke all the fucking time
- Economical trouble and almost going to court because of a shitty company with incompetent workers that can't figure out something as simple as searching and editing a database
- Was a horrible person
- I [B]STILL[/B] don't know who I am or what I am
~ Still breathing, not sure if good or bad really, in one end we have basic instinct telling me surviving is good and that my family is not mourning my death yet, at another I have my conscience that tells me its bad because I will never contribute with anything useful to society and I have shitty genes not worth reproducing.
+ My dad(who was previously a giant asshole being under influence of my mom) and I are now best buddies and talk about everything.
+ Started regaining some mental strength and morale.
I'd say my year was pretty batshit crazy with the twists and turns.
- My dad got admitted to the hospital roughly three or four times.
- Various family members undertook a multitude of health problems:
> My dad.
> My brother was sent to rehab for drug addiction after fucking with my sick parents with me around for months.
> My grandma got sent to the hospital. She pulled through fine, though.
> My grandpa got sent to the hospital as well, but same for him.
- Lost quite a few friends, learned that a collection of the ones I had still were changing schools next year or etcetera.
- My friend group split into two; I had to shut down a community I was running because of the split and how it completely undercut anything and everything that I had going for it.
> As a result, I had to shut down the TeamSpeak server I was running due to lack of support. People stopped coming on. It was a financial waste.
- I severely impacted my sleep schedule multiple times.
- I met very many people that really opened my eyes to a lot. I tried new things, ventured onto greater plateaus of new ideas and so on and so forth.
- My parents absence gave me a bit more freedom.
- I severely flip-flopped in school after a lot of internal issues.
- I got my first official girlfriend in High School; she was my first for a lot. We broke up as a result of what was going on with her and some other ex (problems getting over it. Couldn't commit.)
> As a result I was emotionally devastated for quite a few months.
> I lost a good friend from the subsequent conflict.
> I got a rather hearty first taste of what it's like to be depressed.
- A good friend of mine got into a traumatic car accident.
There's so, so much more. Even a lot of good things that I can't really be arsed to pull out from the inner chambers of my mind would expand this list by a lot.
2014 was a bittersweet year in terms of my personal growth. I disconnected from many friends as I grew to realize they were not friends for conditions besides materialistic status. Yet I learnt of friends who I grew closer to as they saw in expanded views as well. I learned both when to and when not to trust in the end.
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