Get shit off your chest thread - [Anger intensifies] - General

I'm terrified right now. I felt good for like, a good 6 months when I got a plan for my near future and even far future; making a career in the army and being an honest service to my country. Turns out my vision and allergies might make my entry papers B instead of A. Since I'm not applying for regular conscription but rapid deployment forces, that might deny me my entire plan right from the start. Before I got this idea I was depressed because I didn't know what the hell to do with my life. After getting this idea I felt like I had a purpose. Something to work towards. I felt more composed and less in the pit. Now it's feeling like old times again. I'm getting anxious as shit and even though I've been working out purely for the sake of impressing whoever's supervising the entry exam at the RDF, I'm starting to lose confidence. What if they really just throw me B and say no dice? All this will be for nothing, I might've just as well been flinging shit at walls. It's been a very long time since I've felt so passionate about something, anything. The fear of losing this focus and drive to do something is increasing day by day, as my next inspection will be next month. Now all I'm trying to do is find every fucking thing that can improve my chances. I took a course involving the defense forces, tightened my workout schedule and plan to put even more effort into math in high school. I figure if I want to really become a professional soldier I need to enter third degree studies in the military and there math, physics and languages might be really useful. But if they tell me I can't go...I just won't know what I'm going to do. I just won't know.

[QUOTE='[Green];42431385']I'm terrified right now.[/QUOTE] I can't really relate to the honest service part, because frankly, I'm too hateful of authority to even consider the military. But when it comes to anxiety about a goal or some career path, I know what the fuck you're talking about. Law and politics are my shit, but with how bad I've done academically, it's sort of hard to see myself actual getting into a good law school. But at this point, I can't let that shit get to me. My back is against a wall at every goddamn second, and I'm thankful for it. It keeps me on my toes. If I do fuck up, I have no idea what I would do with my life other than law. Which honestly gets me pretty fucking heated that some motherfucker has the capability of denying me that, including myself. Not sure what to tell you, other than actualize what you want to become and put your mind into the position of having already won what you want. Seeing yourself in a negative light isn't going to get you anywhere, but knowing what you're up against while you also know you can handle whatever the fuck comes your way can help a good amount too. Hope this bullshit of mine helped in some way. They're different situations, so I'm not really sure.

All my friends are talking about making out with girls and how they refuse because they have girlfriends meanwhile i try to change topic to dota painfully fuck i hate the life i'm living i mean my self esteem is probably at negatives now, i always talk about being ugly, being fat, and only having to hang onto two features, being sympathic and being a wingman to fights(even though i never fought with someone, i just try to look tough PS: i respect other people and never bullied anyone).

This is my final year in highschool, Im scared because I dont know what I want to do after this

[QUOTE=Kirbyfactor;42431804]This is my final year in highschool, Im scared because I dont know what I want to do after this[/QUOTE] I know how you feel. The way I solved it was thinking about what I value the most. I like psychology, I like my country and I like people. Army seemed like something that would let me put psychology into use, help me serve my country and help people. Medical staff wasn't as appealing and neither was police for...reasons.

[QUOTE=Kirbyfactor;42431804]This is my final year in highschool, Im scared because I dont know what I want to do after this[/QUOTE] The large majority of people have no certain idea what they want to do, you're not alone. And a lot of the people who think they know what they want to do are likely to change their mind too. The world is your oyster, focus on present experiences rather than the future ((don't disregard the future though))

[QUOTE=Doneeh;42431703]I can't really relate to the honest service part, because frankly, I'm too hateful of authority to even consider the military. But when it comes to anxiety about a goal or some career path, I know what the fuck you're talking about. Law and politics are my shit, but with how bad I've done academically, it's sort of hard to see myself actual getting into a good law school. But at this point, I can't let that shit get to me. My back is against a wall at every goddamn second, and I'm thankful for it. It keeps me on my toes. If I do fuck up, I have no idea what I would do with my life other than law. Which honestly gets me pretty fucking heated that some motherfucker has the capability of denying me that, including myself. Not sure what to tell you, other than actualize what you want to become and put your mind into the position of having already won what you want. Seeing yourself in a negative light isn't going to get you anywhere, but knowing what you're up against while you also know you can handle whatever the fuck comes your way can help a good amount too. Hope this bullshit of mine helped in some way. They're different situations, so I'm not really sure.[/QUOTE] I don't know how lawmaking business is in the States, but Finland's military has gotten their budget cut time and time again by the ignorant masses thinking it eats a hogton of money (it doesn't due to simple hardware) and thus has less jobs available than before. They have higher and higher criteria to who gets through because of this and getting a lower grade in physical evaluation than others might as well be "fuck your genes you're not coming here".

My entire family thinks I wont make it in life and I'm afraid there right.

[QUOTE=TheSpaceBiker;42432161]My entire family thinks I wont make it in life and I'm afraid there right.[/QUOTE] What the fuck do they know, you're saving Chicago every Saturday! :v: No but seriously the naysayers are always there, saying "I'm saving you the effort of trying". Don't mind them, as hard as it might seem.

I want to fly heli's commercially, only thing is, no one supports me on it. A commercial license is 60 grand at least, where the fuck am I supposed to come up with that? I don't qualify for any scholarships for that stuff, and the ones that I might be able to get are like 500 bucks (which is maybe 2 lessons). Not to mention, everyone I know wants me to go to a 4 year university, and I DO NOT WANT TO GO. WHY THE FUCK DO THEY FORCE THIS ON EVERYONE RIGHT AFTER HIGH SCHOOL??? Sure I'm good at science, do I want a career from it? Not really. Worst part is, the university is probably more than the pilot training and then there's no guarantee that I will even get a miserable job I will hate. At least I have two backup jobs in mind as a cop or trucker (it's like flying on the ground.... yeh....:pwn:) or something... god....

Okay I'm going to probably poorly phrase this. I've known these pretty chill guys over the internet for about two to three years now. They are pretty much my closest friends since I'm a shut in who never does anything. I do have friends but they never really call on me if they want to do anything. One day one of my internet buddies said to me. "I was at a party and people were asking why you weren't there." That was when it dawned on me that nobody here really knows or cares about me. It really is sad when people on the other side of the country know you more than people you've spent most of your life around.

Last year I was under a lot of anxiety and depression from the classes I was taking. I had thought no one had any bit of care for me. I was intensely jealous of some overzealous girls who used to be friends with me somewhat though I would learn they had a lot of issues. I had gotten to the point in which I had lost respect for myself and started disguising myself on facebook as this artist on tumblr to people I knew. Near the last month of school the artist posted a picture of them self and I apoligized for doing what I had done. However one of the girls I mentioned before could not see the anxiety and depression I had gone through. She scolded me in front of a bunch of people after school causing me to cry uncontrollably and I ran to the nurse so I could calm down in her office. The next day, which I probably should have not been there that day as I was feeling intensely anxious, I screamed at her and a teacher brought me down to the nurse in which my mom brought me home. A couple days later my mom had to have a meeting with my vice principal and the girl's father. Thankfully during the summer I had been put on new meds and went to a fabulous camp. It allowed me to somewhat regain myself. Since this year she had been in the period after me, I typed an apology letter anonymously, put it in an envelope with her name on it, and put it on the teacher's desk when he wasn't there since it was first period. I haven't heard about it since and honestly I want to leave it behind me.

Im sick of socialists wanting shit for free at a producers expense.

[QUOTE=Revanold;42432031]The large majority of people have no certain idea what they want to do, you're not alone. And a lot of the people who think they know what they want to do are likely to change their mind too. The world is your oyster, focus on present experiences rather than the future ((don't disregard the future though))[/QUOTE] It's true. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life past high school until I helped my ghetto UNO group during lunch avoid getting into some shit when one of them yelled "Fuck you" to one of the disciplinarians under her breath. From that point on, I realize I loved using reasoning to help the guilty get away scot-free. And goddamn, did we get away with it. Good memories. [QUOTE='[Green];42432151']I don't know how lawmaking business is in the States, but Finland's military has gotten their budget cut time and time again by the ignorant masses thinking it eats a hogton of money (it doesn't due to simple hardware) and thus has less jobs available than before. They have higher and higher criteria to who gets through because of this and getting a lower grade in physical evaluation than others might as well be "fuck your genes you're not coming here".[/QUOTE] Law in the US revolves around what sorta law you wanna do. In corporate/business law, you're amongst thousands of other lawyers, constantly competing through cases. The better you do, the more you get paid. Lose enough and you might not be able to bounce back. BUT!, the same beginning concept applies to you and the military. Initially, you're going to be evaluated in the context of a certain criteria and the evaluations of others applying for the same thing. So what you always have to keep in mind is that you definitely need to make yourself stick out with a strong start. I'd dedicate the month to reaching beyond what criteria they're looking for, because that's usually the minimum they're willing to take. [QUOTE=TheSpaceBiker;42432161]My entire family thinks I wont make it in life and I'm afraid there right.[/QUOTE] Mine's the opposite. They all think I can do some serious shit if I just apply myself, and I know they're absolutely right, but sometimes I just get incredibly lazy.

I really fear I might be single for prom.

[QUOTE=Minimole;42434425]I really fear I might be single for prom.[/QUOTE] You know, I had that same fear. Then I got asked. Shit is [I]really[/I] ominous when it comes to school and dancing events.

One side of me wants to stay on the safe side and just sit at home, get an education, play video games, and hopefully get a good enough job.. The other side tells me I should just say fuck it, I'm young, I'm living the most livable moment of my life, I should go out with my buddies, hang around outside, and get drunk, do stuff and whatever, because if I just sit at home, I'll just waste my youth and be a boring old fart til I die. I'll just keep doing what I'm doing, but just try to have more fun. Even if I had a great education and a clean police record, I doubt those are two things totally needed to get a job. My uncle's cousin had a classmate, who broke into apartments and sold his findings on the market back in the day, and now he's supposedly a banker. If someone like him could get a job, then why can't I get one with a couple of street/school fights on my record? Just fuck the "morals" of society, no matter who you are, how much I hate/like you in particular, nobody has the right to put their own label on anyone, and everyone has their right to atleast be given a shot at a job.

[QUOTE=Minimole;42434425]I really fear I might be single for prom.[/QUOTE] Is it bad that I give absolutely 0 fucks about going to prom/homecoming/senior ball/any of that shit?

[QUOTE=slashsnemesis;42434809]Is it bad that I give absolutely 0 fucks about going to prom/homecoming/senior ball/any of that shit?[/QUOTE] It's just a popular event. I see concerts coming and going with like super famous internationally acclaimed bands coming to this lonely corner of the world and I don't care a single bit. Doesn't make me any less of a person. I think of it as the same thing.

Probably sound like a broken record here, but I hate the US and it's government. I cannot wait to leave.

[QUOTE=AmericanInfantry;42434949]Probably sound like a broken record here, but I hate the US and it's government. I cannot wait to leave.[/QUOTE] Probably sound like a broken record here, but I hate the UK and it's government. I cannot wait to leave.

Alright, get ready, this is confusing: In my county, the two public high schools share a "career academy" that allows pathways for students on their way to an actual career. I'm in a graphic design pathway that includes students from both schools. One of my friends in that class is dating another friend of mine back at my main school. There's this guy from the other school that creeps on her whenever he can get remotely close to her despite the fact that he knows she has a boyfriend. My friend at the main school has no idea what is going on and the guy creeping has quite a record. I have no idea what to do and it really bothers me seeing this guy trying to get in-between my friends.

Just found out my ex, who I still had feelings for, possibly cheated on me and is now dating my best friend. I feel like shit.

This thread seems a lot like all the other venting threads, but none the less. Going to Moscow and then Siberia, due to family. I was kinda excited for it, but I realize now, that I'd prefer to stay at home.

I find it infuriating how most of the governments are run and that it seems that the perfect one does not even exist. I was really pro democratic (not the american one) but after realizing that most people just talk out of their asses so that [b]they[/b] get to live another day instead of admitting their ignorance and offering to learn about stuff. Right now I am heavily leaning towards technocracy since to me it is the best way to govern a particular piece of land and people right now.

[QUOTE=SilverDragon619;42434693]One side of me wants to stay on the safe side and just sit at home, get an education, play video games, and hopefully get a good enough job.. The other side tells me I should just say fuck it, I'm young, I'm living the most livable moment of my life, I should go out with my buddies, hang around outside, and get drunk, do stuff and whatever, because if I just sit at home, I'll just waste my youth and be a boring old fart til I die. I'll just keep doing what I'm doing, but just try to have more fun. Even if I had a great education and a clean police record, I doubt those are two things totally needed to get a job. My uncle's cousin had a classmate, who broke into apartments and sold his findings on the market back in the day, and now he's supposedly a banker. If someone like him could get a job, then why can't I get one with a couple of street/school fights on my record? Just fuck the "morals" of society, no matter who you are, how much I hate/like you in particular, nobody has the right to put their own label on anyone, and everyone has their right to atleast be given a shot at a job.[/QUOTE] The difference is, your uncle's cousin never got caught.

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[QUOTE=hunterNormandy;42437585]dear insurance company, Thanks for ruining my family and screwing us out of our money the last year and a half since our house fire... ripping good opportunities away from me because now we can afford shit. OH and especially for destroying my mental state, i love being depressed all the time. Fuck you very much, you fucking assbitch. ps: you've double charged us now that we just moved back in and the house still has problems. [sp]its a long story, and its just so unbelievable that i can see why my friends are surprised im not suicidal. everything about my life has just gone down the tubes and im entirely unhappy.[/sp][/QUOTE] I feel you. I also seem to be in a state of eternal depression and anxiety. Insurance is always a cockwash.

[QUOTE=hunterNormandy;42437645]ill give you the rundown. 280k policy, house fire last june. (we moved in to our house finally like 2 weeks ago) no inventory on contents (Which caused so many fucking problems) they said theyd give us 30k, yep... were good guys thats all we need when the estimated cost of repair was 250 (HOLY SHIT THATS LESS THAN 280?!!?) but no, they've spent more money stalling, making more problems, that they later fix/pay for. that they look like complete jackass's, at this point for them it would have cost less to just give us what we needed.[/QUOTE] Shit, man.

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