What Are You Thinking? v. In Lewd Pizza We Trust

[Haskell]

[QUOTE=SuperHoboMan;47924490]Getting that expensive item in cs go made me even more depressed than I was before. I didn't think that was possible. Awesome.[/QUOTE]

Hey, I've spent $900 in TF2 and never unboxed an unusual, think about that for a second.

[HookerVomit]

[QUOTE=Haskell;47924134]really want pizza right now.[/QUOTE]

[img]http://41.media.tumblr.com/87bdf738f60c113dc852c2c676ffe0e5/tumblr_nkeo1zqihE1t1prrio1_500.jpg[/img]
[sp2]im sorry[/sp2]

[Stonecycle]

[QUOTE=HookerVomit;47924518]<3
[sp2]im sorry[/sp2][/QUOTE]

Sandwich, fries, and a mojito(?): quickest way to a man's heart.

[editline]e[/editline]

In other words, I'm hungry.

[Chex]

[QUOTE=Haskell;47924501]Hey, I've spent $900 in TF2 and never unboxed an unusual, think about that for a second.[/QUOTE]

That's really shitty.

I'm in no way trying to one-up you when I say this, because it's nothing to be proud of at all and I wish it wasn't true, but I've spent more than that on CS GO. I sold things of mine that I didn't want to sell just so I could buy cases and keys in CS GO because it gave me a tiny rush. I've been so depressed that any little thing that makes me happy even for just a moment is something I latch on to. Because I've uncased nice things before, I kept going back, spending more and more like a FUCKING idiot for that small rush because very few things make me feel much of anything anymore.

Worst of all, I got some amazing shit. Shit worth $300+. Rare shit that's not in circulation anymore that you can only get by trading. And I let myself lose all those items by getting myself scammed, or being too eager and making a shitty trade I thought was good at the time. I don't even really have much of an addictive personality, I was just unfortunate enough to be so depressed that gambling in a video game was one of the only things that gave me some satisfaction.

That turned into a venting post. Sorry.

[Nookyava]

[QUOTE=SuperHoboMan;47924562]That's really shitty.

I'm in no way trying to one-up you when I say this, because it's nothing to be proud of at all and I wish it wasn't true, but I've spent more than that on CS GO. I sold things of mine that I didn't want to sell just so I could buy cases and keys in CS GO because it gave me a tiny rush. I've been so depressed that any little thing that makes me happy even for just a moment is something I latch on to. Because I've uncased nice things before, I kept going back, spending more and more like a FUCKING idiot for that small rush because very few things make me feel much of anything anymore.

Worst of all, I got some amazing shit. Shit worth $300+. Rare shit that's not in circulation anymore that you can only get by trading. And I let myself lose all those items by getting myself scammed, or being too eager and making a shitty trade I thought was good at the time. I don't even really have much of an addictive personality, I was just unfortunate enough to be so depressed that gambling in a video game was one of the only things that gave me some satisfaction.

That turned into a venting post. Sorry.[/QUOTE]

You're not alone. I'm a lot the same way, so if you ever want to chat add me on steam.

[Dr._Medic]

[QUOTE=HookerVomit;47924518][img]http://41.media.tumblr.com/87bdf738f60c113dc852c2c676ffe0e5/tumblr_nkeo1zqihE1t1prrio1_500.jpg[/img]
[sp2]im sorry[/sp2][/QUOTE]

STOOOP POSTING FOOD POOOORN YOU'RE MAKING ME HUNGRY

[Haskell]

[QUOTE=SuperHoboMan;47924562]That's really shitty.

I'm in no way trying to one-up you when I say this, because it's nothing to be proud of at all and I wish it wasn't true, but I've spent more than that on CS GO. I sold things of mine that I didn't want to sell just so I could buy cases and keys in CS GO because it gave me a tiny rush. I've been so depressed that any little thing that makes me happy even for just a moment is something I latch on to. Because I've uncased nice things before, I kept going back, spending more and more like a FUCKING idiot for that small rush because very few things make me feel much of anything anymore.

Worst of all, I got some amazing shit. Shit worth $300+. Rare shit that's not in circulation anymore that you can only get by trading. And I let myself lose all those items by getting myself scammed, or being too eager and making a shitty trade I thought was good at the time. I don't even really have much of an addictive personality, I was just unfortunate enough to be so depressed that gambling in a video game was one of the only things that gave me some satisfaction.

That turned into a venting post. Sorry.[/QUOTE]

Take it easy man, sure things will get better for you.

[Chex]

Why the fuck did a fucking item upset me this much?

I'm seeing my therapist tomorrow. I'm probably going to talk about medication. I was on a lot of medication for a long time, and recently came off it about a year ago because it wasn't helping at all and in some cases it was making me worse. A LOT worse. Also it cost a shit ton of money.

I'm against going back on medication because it changes me. I mean really changes me. I'm not the same person at all on some medication. At this point though, with the constant panic attacks that end up fucking me up for days at a time, the depression that keeps me from wanting to even wake up in the morning and apparently makes me waste hundreds on micro transactions in search of a material happiness, and the fact that I basically live every single day in fear that something is going to happen or someone is going to throw me into a hospital to live the rest of my life in slippers and a white coat, I think medication is my only option.

I was against medication because it makes me a zombie. It changes my personality and it'll probably make me gain the 100lbs I lost all over again. But at this point, being a zombie is probably better than living my life in constant fear, pain, and mental anguish.

I'M FILLING UP THE THREAD WITH SAD AGAIN, SORRY ABOUT THAT :v:

[Digimutant]

[QUOTE=Dr._Medic;47924615]STOOOP POSTING FOOD POOOORN YOU'RE MAKING ME HUNGRY[/QUOTE]

I actually feel legitimately sick but it's not because of the food.

[Haskell]

[QUOTE=SuperHoboMan;47924647]Why the fuck did a fucking item upset me this much?

I'm seeing my therapist tomorrow. I'm probably going to talk about medication. I was on a lot of medication for a long time, and recently came off it about a year ago because it wasn't helping at all and in some cases it was making me worse. A LOT worse. Also it cost a shit ton of money.

I'm against going back on medication because it changes me. I mean really changes me. I'm not the same person at all on some medication. At this point though, with the constant panic attacks that end up fucking me up for days at a time, the depression that keeps me from wanting to even wake up in the morning and apparently makes me waste hundreds on micro transactions in search of a material happiness, and the fact that I basically live every single day in fear that something is going to happen or someone is going to throw me into a hospital to live the rest of my life in slippers and a white coat, I think medication is my only option.

I was against medication because it makes me a zombie. It changes my personality and it'll probably make me gain the 100lbs I lost all over again. But at this point, being a zombie is probably better than living my life in constant fear, pain, and mental anguish.

I'M FILLING UP THE THREAD WITH SAD AGAIN, SORRY ABOUT THAT :v:[/QUOTE]

If you ever want to chat hit me up on steam.

[myon]

[QUOTE=Haskell;47924501]Hey, I've spent $900 in TF2 and never unboxed an unusual, think about that for a second.[/QUOTE]

me neither

[HookerVomit]

[QUOTE=Dr._Medic;47924615]STOOOP POSTING FOOD POOOORN YOU'RE MAKING ME HUNGRY[/QUOTE]

hey friend, I do it cause I care. To remind you all to eat-dont skip meals/forget to eat ~<3

[img]http://36.media.tumblr.com/6e892dd3f816aeb0c4b768e14c9b624b/tumblr_njnthr7LHq1r3hbd2o1_1280.jpg[/img]
[img]http://40.media.tumblr.com/c4af560b97356ea2516746bdd9a20d34/tumblr_nmo0hbblav1rt05ero1_1280.jpg[/img]
[img]http://41.media.tumblr.com/a76bdbbea60e9270011bf25b7fa567db/tumblr_nmlysff4fJ1r0v5o2o1_1280.jpg[/img]

[Azure]

I want to eat my monitor.

[HookerVomit]

[QUOTE=Digimutant;47924649]I actually feel legitimately sick but it's not because of the food.[/QUOTE]

if I'm making you sick, ill stop

[Digimutant]

[QUOTE=HookerVomit;47924675]hey friend, I do it cause I care. To remind you all to eat-dont skip meals/forget to eat ~<3

[img]http://36.media.tumblr.com/6e892dd3f816aeb0c4b768e14c9b624b/tumblr_njnthr7LHq1r3hbd2o1_1280.jpg[/img]
[img]http://40.media.tumblr.com/c4af560b97356ea2516746bdd9a20d34/tumblr_nmo0hbblav1rt05ero1_1280.jpg[/img]
[img]http://41.media.tumblr.com/a76bdbbea60e9270011bf25b7fa567db/tumblr_nmlysff4fJ1r0v5o2o1_1280.jpg[/img][/QUOTE]

Now i'm hungry.

[Dr._Medic]

[QUOTE=HookerVomit;47924675]hey friend, I do it cause I care. To remind you all to eat-dont skip meals/forget to eat ~<3

[img]http://36.media.tumblr.com/6e892dd3f816aeb0c4b768e14c9b624b/tumblr_njnthr7LHq1r3hbd2o1_1280.jpg[/img]
[img]http://40.media.tumblr.com/c4af560b97356ea2516746bdd9a20d34/tumblr_nmo0hbblav1rt05ero1_1280.jpg[/img]
[img]http://41.media.tumblr.com/a76bdbbea60e9270011bf25b7fa567db/tumblr_nmlysff4fJ1r0v5o2o1_1280.jpg[/img][/QUOTE]

Okay that's it I'm walking down to the sushi place and I'm getting some rolls and miso soup.

I hope you're happy.

[HookerVomit]

treat yourself!

[Chex]

Everyone in this thread is so great. Sorry for having a textual mental breakdown in your thread :v:

[MachiniOs]

[QUOTE=Stonecycle;47924554]Sandwich, fries, and a mojito(?): quickest way to a man's heart.

[editline]e[/editline]

In other words, I'm hungry.[/QUOTE]

Mojitos are too light for burgers IMO. Give me a good (non-American) pale ale any day.

[gaminji]

[QUOTE=SuperHoboMan;47924733]Everyone in this thread is so great. Sorry for having a textual mental breakdown in your thread :v:[/QUOTE]
's cool dude, we're all only human.

[Digimutant]

I'm not human.

[Genericenemy]

When even one of your better friends doesn't even bother to get back to you on Facebook about something despite saying they would you know your friendship circle has just completely collapsed. This is the final support just totally wiped out now.

[CapitalismHo!]

[QUOTE=Digimutant;47924835]I'm not human.[/QUOTE]

prove it
[t]http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-rzfYa2BKN_s/VH5MKNJ3qVI/AAAAAAAAACY/Ud_ibU9zrjk/s1600/reCAPTCHA_OldAPI.png[/t]
are you a robot

[Pascall]

So I qualified for unemployment benefits.

Nice~

[Linkuya]

I hit level 10 on Steam. I don't know what drove me to grinding to it. But I did it nonetheless.

[Digimutant]

[QUOTE=MoopsiePook;47924856]prove it
[t]http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-rzfYa2BKN_s/VH5MKNJ3qVI/AAAAAAAAACY/Ud_ibU9zrjk/s1600/reCAPTCHA_OldAPI.png[/t]
are you a robot[/QUOTE]

You know, reading from that is like reading Icelandic all over again.

[Infab]

[QUOTE=Genericenemy;47924847]When even one of your better friends doesn't even bother to get back to you on Facebook about something despite saying they would you know your friendship circle has just completely collapsed. This is the final support just totally wiped out now.[/QUOTE]

My friendship circle collapsed years ago. Only have my ex and best friend, and I barely talk to my ex anymore. Best friend moved to another state.

So yay for online friends!

[vlad]

the read page, its shrinking

[Ramona Flowers]

wOW, I just went back into GTA online and I forgot how fucking grindy it is.

1 million dollars for a new car. That's ~3-4 heists, or dozens of hours of missions, I'm not sure why I paid another $60 to get it on PC now that I think about it.

[Lord of Boxes]

[QUOTE=SuperHoboMan;47924647]-Venting-
I'M FILLING UP THE THREAD WITH SAD AGAIN, SORRY ABOUT THAT :v:[/QUOTE]

The thread is called What Are You Thinking, not Happiness circlejerk.

You are fine, and sorry that happened to you