There's this fucking kid on reddit that cannot be bothered to reply to me PM's about a subreddit he "moderates", yet has tons of times to post about his teenage pore problems. I don't care that much about the subreddit itself but the fact that he blatantly ignores me pisses me off
Called off work today because I had a terrible headache and just didn't feel well. Starting to feel better now and now I feel bad for calling off
[QUOTE=hippowombat;50973688]Swapped shifts this week with my co-worker so I could be at my daughter's first birthday party, now he suddenly remembers he has plans on Saturday after all and can't work, leaving me potentially working almost 50 hours this week and missing my daughter's birthday party.[/QUOTE]
If you have it in writing, go to the birthday party. Especially if you have already paid for everything. Or maybe reschedule the party, don't miss out on an important life event because your coworker is a douche.
Also I just spent 2 hours doing dishes because after unpacking, my bf forgot to clean all his dorm dishes. Ugh. Now I have to clean the floors.
I really don't like having to choose between bipolar disorder and then just immense paranoia.
The former, I go right back to the problems that I had and I flip the fuck out on bad days.
The latter, I think people are out to hurt me/my gf, that my gf is cheating, that my friends are going against me, but I can also be happy more often.
"Gameplay trailers" on steam that are just a bunch of short clips of random youtubers screaming
I'm seriously at my breaking point right now. I can't take my college class anymore.
Mark my words. Next year I'm gonna do a switch. I'm seriously fucking sick and tired of getting assigned to classes with people that couldn't care less about each other. And much rather be divided into little groups excluding the rest. This isn't highschool anymore you fucking twats. grow the fuck up and learn to live with each other. I swear to god is the same every fucking time. I always get the same big group of people that know nothing but to criticize each other. I'm probably gonna set myself to "IDGF mode" for the remainder of the year. They couldn't care less about what I have to say and what I think then why should I? One of my friends even switched courses to get rid of them. That's not me whining. That's how bad it is.
this is probably the shittiest day I've had in a long time.
woke up, got showered and dressed for school this morning. Was running a few minutes late, I mean I want to be at school a few minutes early and I was running a bit behind that schedule. Not too big a deal though.
So as I'm backing up from where I parked, my dad had moved my mom's SUV to my side, pretty close so I'm super careful to not hit it. I get far back enough to start turning finally, and then I bump into something. I scratch my head thinking "huh? what did I just bump into? Mom's garden?, but that's to my left". So I get out and notice I had bumped the lawn tractor. Looked at it, no biggie - not even scuffed. Just got some dirt and rocks on the top of the mower. Brush it off and start going back to the drivers side of my car to leave. Then I hear my dad yell something from the garage but I couldn't really hear because my car was running, so I yell back "What did you say?", not in a confrontational yell or anything, just a yell over the sound of my car's engine yell.
He walks out of the garage screaming at me that I should have seen it, I reply calmly that I couldn't see it - the thing about Honda CRV's is that it's pretty tough to see out the rear window, and when you're talking about a lawn tractor like 3/4ths the height of my car at the distance I was from it I couldn't see the damn thing. He goes into the house yelling something at me, I wasn't feeling confrontational at all so I got back in my car and drove to school. Was a bit mad he blew up at me like that, over what really is nothing, but I got over it once I vented to my friend and hoped he would calm down.
but then he didn't. For a good portion of the afternoon my mother was pleading for me to apologize to my dad. For what? I did literally 0 things wrong, and I'm sick of having to give him empty apologizes for his own mistakes. For his own outbursts. For his own tendency to yell first and not ask any questions later and just have people not question his version of what happened. I really didn't want to, because I have to every time this happens and 0 has changed. All it does is enable his behavior.
But finally, I said fuck it and sent him an apology text (this was by the way, after my mother tried guilting me into it by saying its for her and my brother's sake because he had been taking it out on them all day, after he supposedly threatened to kick me out over this) thinking that would be the end of it, and I could go home after classes and just retire to my room and get this early homework done.
hahaha I couldn't have been more wrong.
Get home, my mom tells me I need to apologize to him in person now. At that point I knew exactly what would happen. He tried to accuse me of snapping at him, so I calmly tried to correct the story, and he just starts yelling. So I walk away. I wasn't going to stand there and get yelled at over literally nothing. I tried to have a conversation, but because it went against his narrative I was supposedly "disrespecting" him.
I went outside for 2-3 hours until everyone went to bed.
[editline]30th August 2016[/editline]
I don't think this tops the time where he tried letting the air out of my tires before I had to go to work because I asked my mom if I could park somewhere else when I got back. we were having a family gathering so parking was going to be tight, and I was told I should park in the woods. Problem being that I wouldn't be able to get out of my car when I got back.
so he blew up at me for that and tried letting the air out of my tires, and tried sitting in the back seat of my car like a child, thinking that would prevent me from going to work.
i feel completely directionless atm, there's no crafts or hobbies that I really enjoy and I have no clue on what I'm going to do for college/later life
any hobbies I did have seen to have just died off or something, I'm
like I said, I just feel completely directionless in terms of where I want to go or what I want to do
It's really stressing me out how my parents don't show mercy, even when I'm going through something really hard like I am atm, and they know it. Like, cut me some slack please??? ? I feel like every time I'm going through something, they just find more shit to add on my plate. This is not the time.
spent two hours doing fucking math homework, pretty much since i didn't learn horseshit in highschool, basically have to reteach myself in college.
Whoopie...:angry:
I decided I'm going to grow a beard, but my hair is growing thicker on the right side of my face.
[QUOTE=FlakTheMighty;50976551]I decided I'm going to grow a beard, but my hair is growing thicker on the right side of my face.[/QUOTE]
Then shave your right side until your left side can catch up.
Today I hit a Sand barrel that was on the sidewalk while biking, I ended up flying and scrapping up my knees. What a wonderful time to wear shorts. :cry:
[QUOTE=justinl132;50976599]Then shave your right side until your left side can catch up.
Today I hit a Sand barrel that was on the sidewalk while biking, I ended up flying and scrapping up my knees. What a wonderful time to wear shorts. :cry:[/QUOTE]
It's still annoying.
Two of my most favorite Russian songs have disappeared off of Spotify
I guess I don't feel very motivated for college at all anymore, otherwise it'd be easier for me to get out of bed earlier, and to actually do the tasks I said I'd do yesterday.
I don't know if I should quit and go look for a job. What if the same lack of motivation happens again? I don't know where to go work. I don't know what would suit me.
Man... People said becoming a responsible adult was fun. It's all but that.
[editline]31st August 2016[/editline]
I already paid 2k for college this year alone, too... I'd need to pay back the government for the loan as well. If I don't quit now that loan is only going to cost me more. On the other hand I could earn a lot more money with this degree, but I already HAVE one. On a lower level, however. I don't know if it'll be worth it since I can apparently earn more money than my dad at entry level already.
This is one hell of a fucking choice I'm facing.
[editline]31st August 2016[/editline]
I've been thinking of quitting so many times already, too.
This week is like a slow introductory week so I'm counting down to what feels like another year of terribly slow dragging crap, taking off chunks of my sanity with every week that passes.
And these goddamn group projects. Fuck, I fucking HATE them.
[editline]31st August 2016[/editline]
god this is driving me fucking mad at the moment
Was fixing a friend's PC and he made me laugh while I was eating a small Twix bar. Almost choked but no problem, my nose kept feeling weird.
[sp'd cause kinda gross]
[sp]A few minutes later a nasty ass chocolate piece shot out my nose and untill I rinsed my nose like 10 times with water, everytime I breathed in I got a nasty-ass nauseating snot-and-chocolate taste through my nose.
Friend in question thought this was all very entertaining [/sp]
Had an 80% on something, the instructor apparently fucked up and the logical thing to do is punish the students right? She went back and regraded everything so my 80 became a 25 because she taught false information.
What happened to admitting you were wrong and just moving on with the correct information?
Lmao, couldn't she just rerun the tests?
Oh wait, doing that would be too much work.
The outright incompetence of school administrations confuses and frustrates me.
I'm pissing myself off because i keep skipping the gym and creating excuses for myself.
Oh man if only buildings had water fountains or something so I don't dehydrate to fucking hell. Why does [i]every [/i] building have to remove them?
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;50978006]Slept maybe two hours last night and woke up to an anxiety attack.
Can't call CPS for my siblings because they need a place to live. Can't convince my mom that my siblings are in danger, and last I checked, if I strapped that fat cunt to a table, removed his nuts and gouged out his eyes, I'm pretty sure I'd be going to jail for life.
Sometimes I wonder if it'd be worth it. Thinking like this scares me, but nobody brings the beast out in me like he does. Some people are simply put on this earth to steal oxygen.[/QUOTE]
I feel like i'm missing some key information.
Whats wrong with your siblings? and who is "he" ? Your dad? Step dad?
got a stomach bug from my girlfriends son from germs he got at daycare, and her whole family and me and my girlfriend got it. My stomach is fucked
okay im fucking done with this college fuck it all im not doing the shit i was supposed to be doing im not going there tomorrow and im not going to that meeting at friday
[editline]31st August 2016[/editline]
i fucking give up
just looking at the things i'm supposed to be doing should not be causing this fucking headache and nausea, not to this extent
They're probably gonna say I'm deliberately putting myself in this victim role shit and things like that but I just can't fucking deal with this school. The previous one was pretty ridiculous as well at times but the education matter itself made up for that so much that it was still enjoyable despite the shortcomings, whereas here, it's just 100% shit all around. I can't deal with it. It's probably best to quit now instead of spend more time and money into something that isn't right for me anyway.
And I don't know whether or not this nonsense is caused by my Asperger's Syndrome and it's driving me up the fucking wall.
[editline]31st August 2016[/editline]
I AM NOT A HAPPY PERSON AT THE MOMENT
[QUOTE=Waffle Lord;50973323]I slept for [B]16 hours[/B] what the fuck is wrong with me[/QUOTE]
Apparently i slept through an entire day once as a kid from what my mother told me. I kinda refuse to believe it.
The last patch for Soldier of Fortune's main feature is:
-Removed WON
-Added Gamespy
and y'know, Gamespy went defunct. The longer we go without Gamespy the more games I see affected by it. Shit sucks.
Every song I hear from Evanescence makes me want to swing a golf club at a baby.
Jesus christ, every time I fight against a McCree in Overwatch I get absolutely wiped and I can't do anything about it.
[QUOTE=FlakTheMighty;50977859]Had an 80% on something, the instructor apparently fucked up and the logical thing to do is punish the students right? She went back and regraded everything so my 80 became a 25 because she taught false information.
What happened to admitting you were wrong and just moving on with the correct information?[/QUOTE]
I would send in a student grievance form for a grade change with the office. I had to do that once when the instructor refused to change everyone's grades when she accidentally set mathlab to end at 5pm instead of midnight. Tell your classmates to do the same.
Anyway I have like 5000 cleanings to do again. Uaghhh. Gunna take all day most likely.
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